From Shapeless To Breakable **COMPLETED**
Chapter 54: We Could At Least Give It A Try?
Time skip to Wednesday morning, Rebekah's P.O.V
I walked in the school, I was tired since I couldn't sleep last night. I have been thinking too much about Andy, plus some bad memories didn't want to leave my head since Andy tried to... You know. It was almost 8, but I felt like it was 11PM, I walked to the principals office not bothering to listen to people around me. Arrived I knocked then walked in.
“Rebekah! I'm so glad you came! Do you feel better?” he said, a grin growing wide.
“Hi.. I'm tired. They told me you wanted to talk with me right?” he nodded and I sat on the chair in front of him.
“First I wanted to ask you why you didn't say the reason of the.. Massacre? We could have understood.” he gave me a concerned look.
“I.. I wasn't able too talk. I felt too.. uh.. Angry?” he.. Chuckled?!
“Oh that I can tell! You've been described as 'a demon', if you see what I meant.” I smiled, yes I totally get it!
“Yes I see.. But I regret I got that mad. It's.. Well, I shouldn't..
-Yes I know. Why did you say you were a monster?” I sighed, how could I explain it?
“Let's say that life hasn't always be nice to me and sadly I learned more violence than usual children.” he nodded, understanding what I said between the lines.
“Let's change the subject. What about working a bit more at school?” I laughed!
“Me? School? But school is useless! Why would I bother working here?
-School isn't useless Rebie, first as you're 'stuck' here as you said, then why not passing this time working?” I thought about it, but shook my head.
“Why study when I already know what I want to do later? And it doesn't need studies, just talent.” he looked at me with a smirk,
“I know, but I also know that you like music. If you passed seriously your exam you could maybe found a good music school.” I thought about it for a short while.
“Yeah, but they would never take me. First, even if I started to work my ass out now, it's already too late. Then, I'm not talented enough in music to get into a 'good music school'. Fourth, these kind of school are extremely expensive. And even if my family could afford it, life is way too unfair for it to work!”
He gave me a warm smile before replying:
“We could at least give it a try. Sometimes life is fair. Then we both know you are very talented in both music and art, so shut up!” I laughed at is tone, yes maybe...
“I suck at school.. Even if I wanted to, even if I didn't hate it I wouldn't be able to pass these exams. I'm only good at sport, art and music. The rest... Well, I was good when I was 11-12 years old. Now I don't understand shit in this!” Mr. Campbell stroked his chin, thinking. What could he do? I totally sucked at school, it was normal, during the whole time I spent with Johnny I never went to school! Meaning five years without school! Arrived in the orphanage they tried to help me get back into the school cycle, but it never worked. I never really liked school, and my mother has been the only person able to convince me into work, but since she wasn't there anymore...
“What if I get you some English, history and math exercise to get you back into school? Maybe it won't work, but at least we could give it a try.” really? He would take on his time to help me? I looked at him with a shocked expression, why would he be so nice to me? Well, he was nice, but that nice?
“But.. Why? Why would you take your own time to help me?
-I want to save you... Remember?” I nodded, that was his way to cope with his daughter's death? In that case I would give it a try, no matters how much I hate math.
“It's okay, I accept. Let's give it a try.
-I'm glad you agreed. There's only one condition..” I frowned, what did he want?
“Don't worry Rebie. The condition is that you'll do your best to achieve it okay?” I grinned stupidly, nodding my head like a mad man.
Suddenly the bell rang, an hour passed already? I quickly said goodbye to my principal and he asked me to come later take the first exercises. I walked to the gym and got ready before any girl could came in. Today we would met our new sport teacher, who -coincidentally- was a woman.I walked in to met Marvin... Long time no see!
“Hey princess!” he said, I gave him a confused look, the only person allowed to call me princess was my father, who was dead! Okay Andy may have called me that a few time... But it was Andy! And it was always special for Andy!
“Ah.. Uh.. How are you Rebekah?” I lifted an eyebrow, what the fuck?
“I'm fine, what about you Marvin?” he nodded, wearing a stupid smile on his face...
The two hours lasted pretty fast and cool. The new teacher was a really short blond, with an angelic smile which made all guys turn stupid. She was nice and cared for each student, trying her best to make everyone achieve. I felt good with her and as I didn't have the rage like with Mr. Morgan it was cool and funny.
After that I fell asleep in... Wait! What was this class again? In anyway, I already was tired this morning, plus sport I felt exhausted. So I fell asleep with the voice of Adam Gonthier from Three Days Grace.
When the bell rang I woke up and headed to Mr. Campbell to take the papers.. If he believed in me that much, I must gave it a try!
Then I waited for Jinxx, he was the one to pick me as he said he needed to talk to me.
He arrived a little while later and I walked in, afraid of what he wanted to talk about. We first talked about nothing in particular, how was our days...
“Well, Rebie, I wanted to talk about you.” I lifted an eyebrow, what? My past? No!
“First I wanted to know if you wanted to stay with us, well if you liked us as parent?” I looked at him with wide eyes while he looked at the road, they didn't want me anymore? They wanted to send me back to the orphanage?
“I know we aren't perfect as parents, specially me. Sammi doesn't know we're having this conversation now. I know I get angry easily, and it's mostly because I can't understand you and it make me angry to not be able to be the father you lost. I want your happiness, no matters if it's with or without us. We kinda forced you to come with us at first, now it has been three weeks since we're together and I want to know if you want to stay? I give you the choice, that's the best way to be happy.”
I looked at him, totally shocked. He really wanted me to choose if I wanted to stay? He really cared about my happiness? I couldn't believe it! That was way too wonderful!
“Of course, you can take your time to give me your answer. Know that I personally want you there and that no matter how much I get angry and yell like a mad man I love you a lot little Rebel.” he gave me a quick peck on my forehead before heading to the house, leaving me quite dumbfounded. Jinxx loved the little demon I was? He wanted me to stay with them? How was it even possible?
I followed him in the house and walked to Andy's room. This time I made sure to knock before walking in.
“Hey! Sorry this time I'm wearing more than a boxer!” I chuckled, before realizing he was packing... Where was he going? Why?
“Where are you going?” I asked, he gave me an apologetic smile, walking to me he said:
“I have to move for three days for music and...
-When did you plan on telling me?” I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.
“I wanted to tell you but.. I didn't want to see you sad and.. I wanted to wait for the best moment..” I felt tears forming in my eyes, he was going away..?
“Will Jinxx and the rest go too?” why the fuck didn't they tell me?!
“No, it's for my solo project. Jinxx, CC and the others are staying. I'll be back soon Rebie don't...” I lifted my hand to make him shut up. Okay, at least I would have my 'dad' and buddy with me... 'Who do you think you're fooling? They aren't Andy! They will never be able to replace him! Even for an hour. So for three days...' I swallowed my tears back, it wasn't as if I could change a thing...
“Well, okay.. I.. I'll let you pack.. Have a nice flight.” with that I walked off. But he grabbed my arm and turned me back to him, holding me against his chest.
“Don't take it that way Rebie... That's exactly why I didn't want to tell you. I hate to see you upset, it's even worse when it's because of me. Hey look at me. I'll miss you too. I hope I could stay, but I can't, I'll be back as soon as possible I swear.” I nodded, what could I do? He gave me a last peck before I walked to my room.
I sat on my bed, feeling numb. First I fell happy Mr Campbell believed in me and Jinxx wanted me to stay. But now I just wanted to die, I felt a deep pain in my heart. Even if it was for three days, I felt like the next time I would see him would be in three years.. How to fuck up a nice day!
I walked in the school, I was tired since I couldn't sleep last night. I have been thinking too much about Andy, plus some bad memories didn't want to leave my head since Andy tried to... You know. It was almost 8, but I felt like it was 11PM, I walked to the principals office not bothering to listen to people around me. Arrived I knocked then walked in.
“Rebekah! I'm so glad you came! Do you feel better?” he said, a grin growing wide.
“Hi.. I'm tired. They told me you wanted to talk with me right?” he nodded and I sat on the chair in front of him.
“First I wanted to ask you why you didn't say the reason of the.. Massacre? We could have understood.” he gave me a concerned look.
“I.. I wasn't able too talk. I felt too.. uh.. Angry?” he.. Chuckled?!
“Oh that I can tell! You've been described as 'a demon', if you see what I meant.” I smiled, yes I totally get it!
“Yes I see.. But I regret I got that mad. It's.. Well, I shouldn't..
-Yes I know. Why did you say you were a monster?” I sighed, how could I explain it?
“Let's say that life hasn't always be nice to me and sadly I learned more violence than usual children.” he nodded, understanding what I said between the lines.
“Let's change the subject. What about working a bit more at school?” I laughed!
“Me? School? But school is useless! Why would I bother working here?
-School isn't useless Rebie, first as you're 'stuck' here as you said, then why not passing this time working?” I thought about it, but shook my head.
“Why study when I already know what I want to do later? And it doesn't need studies, just talent.” he looked at me with a smirk,
“I know, but I also know that you like music. If you passed seriously your exam you could maybe found a good music school.” I thought about it for a short while.
“Yeah, but they would never take me. First, even if I started to work my ass out now, it's already too late. Then, I'm not talented enough in music to get into a 'good music school'. Fourth, these kind of school are extremely expensive. And even if my family could afford it, life is way too unfair for it to work!”
He gave me a warm smile before replying:
“We could at least give it a try. Sometimes life is fair. Then we both know you are very talented in both music and art, so shut up!” I laughed at is tone, yes maybe...
“I suck at school.. Even if I wanted to, even if I didn't hate it I wouldn't be able to pass these exams. I'm only good at sport, art and music. The rest... Well, I was good when I was 11-12 years old. Now I don't understand shit in this!” Mr. Campbell stroked his chin, thinking. What could he do? I totally sucked at school, it was normal, during the whole time I spent with Johnny I never went to school! Meaning five years without school! Arrived in the orphanage they tried to help me get back into the school cycle, but it never worked. I never really liked school, and my mother has been the only person able to convince me into work, but since she wasn't there anymore...
“What if I get you some English, history and math exercise to get you back into school? Maybe it won't work, but at least we could give it a try.” really? He would take on his time to help me? I looked at him with a shocked expression, why would he be so nice to me? Well, he was nice, but that nice?
“But.. Why? Why would you take your own time to help me?
-I want to save you... Remember?” I nodded, that was his way to cope with his daughter's death? In that case I would give it a try, no matters how much I hate math.
“It's okay, I accept. Let's give it a try.
-I'm glad you agreed. There's only one condition..” I frowned, what did he want?
“Don't worry Rebie. The condition is that you'll do your best to achieve it okay?” I grinned stupidly, nodding my head like a mad man.
Suddenly the bell rang, an hour passed already? I quickly said goodbye to my principal and he asked me to come later take the first exercises. I walked to the gym and got ready before any girl could came in. Today we would met our new sport teacher, who -coincidentally- was a woman.I walked in to met Marvin... Long time no see!
“Hey princess!” he said, I gave him a confused look, the only person allowed to call me princess was my father, who was dead! Okay Andy may have called me that a few time... But it was Andy! And it was always special for Andy!
“Ah.. Uh.. How are you Rebekah?” I lifted an eyebrow, what the fuck?
“I'm fine, what about you Marvin?” he nodded, wearing a stupid smile on his face...
The two hours lasted pretty fast and cool. The new teacher was a really short blond, with an angelic smile which made all guys turn stupid. She was nice and cared for each student, trying her best to make everyone achieve. I felt good with her and as I didn't have the rage like with Mr. Morgan it was cool and funny.
After that I fell asleep in... Wait! What was this class again? In anyway, I already was tired this morning, plus sport I felt exhausted. So I fell asleep with the voice of Adam Gonthier from Three Days Grace.
When the bell rang I woke up and headed to Mr. Campbell to take the papers.. If he believed in me that much, I must gave it a try!
Then I waited for Jinxx, he was the one to pick me as he said he needed to talk to me.
He arrived a little while later and I walked in, afraid of what he wanted to talk about. We first talked about nothing in particular, how was our days...
“Well, Rebie, I wanted to talk about you.” I lifted an eyebrow, what? My past? No!
“First I wanted to know if you wanted to stay with us, well if you liked us as parent?” I looked at him with wide eyes while he looked at the road, they didn't want me anymore? They wanted to send me back to the orphanage?
“I know we aren't perfect as parents, specially me. Sammi doesn't know we're having this conversation now. I know I get angry easily, and it's mostly because I can't understand you and it make me angry to not be able to be the father you lost. I want your happiness, no matters if it's with or without us. We kinda forced you to come with us at first, now it has been three weeks since we're together and I want to know if you want to stay? I give you the choice, that's the best way to be happy.”
I looked at him, totally shocked. He really wanted me to choose if I wanted to stay? He really cared about my happiness? I couldn't believe it! That was way too wonderful!
“Of course, you can take your time to give me your answer. Know that I personally want you there and that no matter how much I get angry and yell like a mad man I love you a lot little Rebel.” he gave me a quick peck on my forehead before heading to the house, leaving me quite dumbfounded. Jinxx loved the little demon I was? He wanted me to stay with them? How was it even possible?
I followed him in the house and walked to Andy's room. This time I made sure to knock before walking in.
“Hey! Sorry this time I'm wearing more than a boxer!” I chuckled, before realizing he was packing... Where was he going? Why?
“Where are you going?” I asked, he gave me an apologetic smile, walking to me he said:
“I have to move for three days for music and...
-When did you plan on telling me?” I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.
“I wanted to tell you but.. I didn't want to see you sad and.. I wanted to wait for the best moment..” I felt tears forming in my eyes, he was going away..?
“Will Jinxx and the rest go too?” why the fuck didn't they tell me?!
“No, it's for my solo project. Jinxx, CC and the others are staying. I'll be back soon Rebie don't...” I lifted my hand to make him shut up. Okay, at least I would have my 'dad' and buddy with me... 'Who do you think you're fooling? They aren't Andy! They will never be able to replace him! Even for an hour. So for three days...' I swallowed my tears back, it wasn't as if I could change a thing...
“Well, okay.. I.. I'll let you pack.. Have a nice flight.” with that I walked off. But he grabbed my arm and turned me back to him, holding me against his chest.
“Don't take it that way Rebie... That's exactly why I didn't want to tell you. I hate to see you upset, it's even worse when it's because of me. Hey look at me. I'll miss you too. I hope I could stay, but I can't, I'll be back as soon as possible I swear.” I nodded, what could I do? He gave me a last peck before I walked to my room.
I sat on my bed, feeling numb. First I fell happy Mr Campbell believed in me and Jinxx wanted me to stay. But now I just wanted to die, I felt a deep pain in my heart. Even if it was for three days, I felt like the next time I would see him would be in three years.. How to fuck up a nice day!
Notes
Hate me? You'll be hating me even more soon...
I can't wait for this story to be over (sorry not sorry) it seems like there are thousands new adoption story... Each day! Anyway I hope you'll like it until the end!
@I am your Shadow..
when the cutting happened
12/3/14