After the boys were done teasing me about Kiara, we finished up getting ready to go out on stage. One of the best feelings in the world was hearing all the fans shout "Black Veil Brides" right before we go out on stage. It got us all pumped up; and tonight was an extra special feeling for me because Kiara was there. I hung my head and breathed deep before I went out.

CC, Jake, Jinxx and Ashley all go out before me and start playing before I start singing. That's the way it's always been. As I stepped out onto the stage the first thing I noticed were all the screaming fans; the next was Kiara. She was standing on the right side of the stage and all I could do was smile before I started singing.

"All the graves of the ones remembered..." I started singing. And I was feeling really good, looking over seeing Kiara there really put my mind to rest.

A couple of songs in, I looked over and Kiara was gone. My mind went frantic trying to look for her. I kept singing though. I had to; I didn’t want the fans to be disappointed in me or us for that matter; and as the lyrics kept flowing out of my mouth; worry kept flooding into my mind. Where was she? Was she moved into the crowd? Did she run off?

All of these questions running through my mind made me stop focusing on the music so much. I started fucking up the lyrics that I had sung so many times. This was bad. I finished up the last song, thanked the crowd for coming out and ran off stage. The first person I bumped into was my tour manager, John.

“Where is she? Where is Kiara” I questioned hurriedly.

John looked frantic, maybe because I was practically yelling at him.

“She said she had to go, something about how something came up and she left” he said.

I sunk to the floor with grief. I had just found her again. I thought I barely survived last time, now what was I supposed to do? I sat in silence for what seemed like a lifetime; thinking about what I was going to do. How I was going to take this. After some thought, I got up and started running out of the venue.