For the love of my father

I wake up attached to a much of monitors with the soft beeps of the heart machine going off next to me . I look around the room . I am definitely in a hospital room. There are flowers on the bedside table with get well soon balloons and to my right there is Andy . He is asleep on half of the bed holding my hand.

I smile at him wondering how and why I was here . Suddenly flashes of the last week come crashing back down on me . Mr.callons, Him touching me , Sleeping pills, Cutting , Telling Andy I hate him .

Tears run down my cheeks as I raise Andy's hand to my lips and kiss it . How could I have said such horrible things to him when he was just trying to help me . My hand then goes to my stomach . Are the babies okay? Did I hurt them ? A nurse walks into the room and smiles at me .


" Glad to see you are finally up , Ill tell Dr.Felton right away . You have such a good father there hasnt left your side once since you got here. " she says and exits the room.


Andy stirs at the sound of her voice and pops his eyes open and looks at me .

"Your are awake ..Finally" He says and kisses my forehead .


My throat burns as I try to talk. Andy jumps up and pours me some water , he helps me sip it slowly.

" The doctor flushed your system of all the sleeping pills you took but you were so weak you went into a sort of short term coma . you've been asleep for almost a week. " He explains .

" Andy ... Im so sorry ....I ..I- couldnt tell you what was wrong but I never meant it when I said i hated you ... I could never hate you ." He kisses my forehead again and shushes me as a doctor walks into my room.

"Hello sleeping beauty " She says as she checks my vitals " You gave us quite the scare, but thats in the past now .Im Dr.Felton, I have a few things to go over with you that I already talked to your father about ." She pulls up a chair to the side of my bed and looks me in the eyes.

"Bipolar disorder is a condition in which a person has periods of depression and periods of being extremely happy or being cross or irritable. You my dear have this disorder . How you've gone so long with out being diagnosed with it is beyond me but most kids in foster arent treated right . Since you are pregnant there are some risks with giving you all the medicine you need to not have any episodes anymore so the medicine you will take you will be closely monitored and so will the babies, once a week you will come in for a check up and you will also have therapy once a week as well . Temporarily you will be out of school probably for a month or so till we know everything is going to be alright . Other then that try to keep stress levels down . Your father has a journal to write how happy or sad you are and on a scale he has the rest of the information." She tells me all this and relief runs through me . Im not crazy I just have Bipolar disorder .


" what about the babies are they okay ?" I ask and Andy's grip on my hand tightens.


"Yes thankfully you did eat and kept them well nourished ."


I let out a sigh of relief.



" This is a team effort you have to be willing to get better to actually get better " Dr.Felton tells me . I look at her then Andy .


"Im going to do whatever it takes to get better."

Notes

Here is and extra chapter today! Im going to try to post one new chapter every sunday so look out for them ! What do you think of Kait having Bipolar disorder ? I think it explains a lot . How did you like the chapter ?



QOTD: What day is your birthday and how old are you ?

Mine is tomorrow and ill be 19! Wooo!