For the love of my father

I back away from Andy and he reaches for me tears in his eyes .His hand grabs my arm with the cuts on it and I wince . He pulls me to him and I try pulling away from him . Fighting he falls back on my bed pulling me with him making me land in his lap .

He holds me and tears fall down his face onto mine as I look up at him .Seeing him crying breaks my heart all over again . Tears fall down my face as well as I cry for hurting him like this and not even being able to tell him why . Its to protect him! The blood from my cuts bleeds through my sweater and gets on Andy. he looks down and notices it. I look at him guiltily and run into my bathroom . He follows me pushing the door that I try to shut open and grams my hand pulling up my sleeve. Looking at him I see his heart break clearly as if it was written on his face. He kisses the bloody gauze and pulls me close to him . " Why Kait?" he whispers in my ear holding me.

" I ... I cant tell you ... I ... Im sorry ..." I tell him having the feelings Ive been holding in explode back to life filling me with hatred for myself .


"Please " Andy begs as he holds me tighter .


I stay quiet and hate myself for the pain im causing him.

Andy picks me up suddenly and carries me to the front door pulling it open I realize what he is doing . I struggle to get him to let got of me .

"No Andy! stop ! Im fine I was just a little depressed please dont Take me away ! please ! " I beg him as he puts me in the car and locks me in with the child safety lock. I bang my fists against the window as he comes around to the other side of the car and gets in .

I hit him as he pulls out of the drive way .

" I hate you ! " I yell at him loosing the fight I have in me because of the sleeping pills as they drag me back under their spell of dreamless sleep.

The last thing I see is Andy crying as he grabs my hand and drives me away from my home.

Notes

Hi guys ! I am back and ready to continue for the love of my father!I know it has been a while since I updated and the last message was a little (A Lot) depressing but at that time my depression was at its worse . Im happy to say with the help of you guys my lovely fans I am better. I read every one of your comments and every one of your private messages and cried reading most of them . Thank you all so much for your love and support ! you guys mean the world to me !


QOTD: what is new with you guys?! Ive missed you so much and want to know whats new in your guys lives!

Here's whats new with me :Its my birthday tomorrow I will be 19 . I got another tattoo my whole foot with a humming bird and flower,I have 2 jobs one at a pizza place and the other as a free lance writer for my local paper, And lastly I fell in love with an amazing guy and It has been almost 3 months together with him and I couldnt be happier :) I also am getting a baby chick for my bday lol