The Past was a Lie and the Future's a Bitch
Shopping
Zaria's/Alexandria's P.O.V Date: December 23
"So how was your first airplane ride," Andy asked me when we got into a car.
"Not that bad actually," I replied as I buckled in my seat belt. "Better than cars. Speaking of cars, why are we using this one, is it your guys?"
They all chuckled and Chris answered, "Yes, we left it here when we flew out to Orlando." He backed out of the parking lot. "And sense its nice and only around noon you and Amy get to go shopping while Andy and I watch hockey."
"Yay, shopping," I said sarcastically. "And I hate you both, I freaking love hockey."
"Shopping with me won't be that bad," Amy said a little hurt by my comment.
"It's not the fact that its you that I'm going with, its the fact that I just hate shopping," I defended my actions.
She turned toward me and gave me a smile. "I was just kidding and we're going to the mall so I know you won't hate it for long."
She did have a point. I have always loved the mall, only because they have HotTopic, Journey's, and Spencers, but we won't get into that.
It didn't take us long to get to there house but what did take long was getting everything out of the car and moving me to the front seat. Chris and Andy came and gave Amy and I a hug and kiss goodbye. And I can tell you that it was very awkward for me.
“By the way,” Andy said as he came running back to the car. “Juliet should be here by the time you get back.” His smile went from ear to ear and my heart leaped for joy.
“Juliet, as in, Juliet Simms,” I say a little shocked. “I get to actually meet her. This is mmhm amazing.” I sang the last part a little.
“Of course you get to meet her,” Andy says like I'm crazy. “She is my girlfriend after all.”
My smile beams even more. “Will I also get to meet Lauren and Ella?”
Andy's face turns a little grim and sad. “Lauren broke up with CC a few days before we came to Florida.”
My eyes go a little wide. “What? I-I didn't know, I-I'm sorry.” He gave me a strange and opened his mouth to say something but I cut him off by saying, “I say sorry for stuff I don't really need to but if I feel guilty for something, anything, I will say sorry for it. I'm just weird that way.”
He just shook his head and walked back to the house.
"You ready to go shopping for your Christmas and birthday," Amy asked with so much excitement that it broke my heart that I was actually dreading it.
I just put on my famous fake smile and told her yes.
It took us only a few minutes to get to the nearest mall but I'm so glad Amy didn't try to start a conversion with me because the whole time I felt sicker than a dog. I think the car/motion sickness is getting worse but all well.
We walk in the front doors and I automatically notice that this mall is x10 smaller than the one in Orlando but I'll have to deal.
"Where would you like to go first," Amy asked as she rolled me to the large hallway that you could access all the stores with.
I looked up at her and replied, "I really honestly don't care, sorry." I look down to my hands. "How about you? Where do you want to go?"
I looked back up at her to see her finger tapping her chin acting like she was thinking. Unless she actually did that, then that's honestly fucking weird. She looks down at me and smiles and laughs.
"Personally I'm quite hungry," she answers. "And I don't want to choose the places we go to because this is your day. This is the day I get to actually have you as a daughter." She smiled a very weak smile and my heart broke. She started to move us in the direction that I guessed had the food court.
I put my good hand on her hand and gave her a small smile. "I'll try to be a good daughter. I know you deserve one after what happened."
She shook her head. "I don't want you to be anything that isn't yourself. If you have to act differently around Chris and I then you do everyone else then there would be no point in being a mother. I want my kids to be them selves around me and open with me. Not a robot that just wants to make me happy."
"I'm sorry to say but that's what I do best." She gave me a confused look. "Putting other people's happiness in front of my own. I never think, or care, about my happiness as long as everyone around my is happy. And since you want me to be honest with you, I like females."
"The thing is with a parent, and I don't know if it was like this for you and your other parents, but the parents always make sure the kid always get what he or she needs before there own. It's always 99% them and 1% you. If your child isn't happy then there is no way the parent should be."
I starred at the ground thinking about how my father was always like that and how my mother couldn't give two shits about my nor anybody but her own happiness. My mind quickly went to the dark side and I started to thing about all the bad things my mom did and how she would laugh about it later like it was a small harmless joke. My breathe quickened and I just hoped that Amy didn't notice.
We soon arrived at the food court and Amy rolled us up to Subway. My favorite place to eat! She looked down at me with the question in her eyes and I quickly shook my head yes.
I got done getting my sandwich and Amy rolled us over to a table. We ate and my mind cleared of my mother but it quickly jumped to the fact that I shouldn't be eating and it reminded me of how fat I was. My mind started to get at me and I started to nit pick at my sandwich say that I was started to hurt and it made me not want to eat.
Amy got done eating and threw her's away while I wrapped mine back up any hung it on the handle's of my wheel chair. Even if I didn't want to eat I refuse to get rid of perfectly fine foods.
I picked HotTopic as the first store because why not get it out of the way. We entered and I felt comfortable almost immediately. The girl behind the counter said hi to us as we passed by. I looked at the wall of shirts trying to find some that I wanted. I found some that were FIR, BLESSTHEFALL, BMTH, and a Mitch Lucker shirt. I didn't want to get to much because I didn't want to spend all of Amy's money but I got a few pairs of pants, some bracelets, plugs, rings, and pins. When we got done the total came close to $100 and I started to say I was sorry but Amy cut me off saying it was a gift for both my birthday and Christmas for the past almost 17 years so I shut up.
We went to Spencer's and I only got some necklaces and some beanies. I got Journey's I got a few pairs of shoes. I was done but Amy had to make more of the day and randomly stopped at stores that I didn't want to even look at.
We went to Victorious Secrets and that's a trip I totally didn't want to make but for the hell of it I bought a few matching laced bra and panties.
Soon we made it to an electronics and gaming store and my nerd instantly came out as I gawked at all the games I wanted to play. I was looking at the game Infamous Second Son as the worker walked up to me.
"You a gamer," he asked.
I just shook my head as I picked up one of the Final Fantasy's.
"What system's do you have," he asked his second question.
That's when I remembered. All the games I have ever played were at Kyle's house since my family couldn't afford a system. I put the game back down I little sad, looked at him and said, "I don't have any systems, I always played games at my friends house since I was over there like 24/7. He had a Ps3 and 4, an Xbox360 and an Xbox 1, a WiiU, and a PC gaming set up."
He shook his head in understanding. Like he knew what my Kyle had. Stop trying and acting like you know him.
"Andy has a Xbox360 and Ps3 at his house," Amy spoke up. "You'll be able to play it anytime you want."
I looked at her and shook my head thinking about the options. In the end I decided I didn't want any games so we left the store.
We started to head towards the exit when I noticed a music store and told Amy I wanted to go to it.
The inside was amazing. One wall was lined with guitars and basses. The other had music in the front and drums in the back. There were other instruments like pianos but I really didn't care about pianos since I had no interest in it.
I wheeled myself to the guitars and started looking at one that had a black base and had red and white splattered on it. In my opinion it looked fucking epic but I knew it would cost to much and there was no point in coming in here. I sighed and started to wheel myself back to Amy.
"Sir," she call to the man at the counter. He looked at and acknowledged her. "How much does this guitar cost?" She pointed to the one I was just looking at.
"You don't have to get it for me Amy," I looked at her dead serious.
The guy walked up and took it off the wall. he flipped it around trying to find the tag. when he found it he told us the price and I about chocked. I could never have Amy buy that guitar for me, I already asked to much with the clothes and jewelry.
She pulled out her debit card and walked with the dude to the counter. I sighed really loud to make sure Amy knew I really felt bad for it. All she did was fucking laugh at me. The worker put it in a case and handed it and a couple of free picks to Amy. She sat it on my lap and I grabbed it to make sure it wouldn't fall off my lap.
We headed out for the car and I looked at her and said, "You really shouldn't have bought that it was to expensive."
"I didn't buy it," she laughed while I looked at her confused. "Andy did. That was his debit he gave it to me saying that I could buy anything for you and that's what I choose for him to buy."
"I feel so bad," I groaned.
She shook her head and got serious when she said, "We want to buy this stuff for you because your are family and you deserve to be happy for a chance."
I looked at her, and even though she basically told me to not feel bad, I felt bad. I turned my head towards the window, lay my head against the glass and sighed.
I felt my eyes getting heavy during the very short ride to their house but I couldn't help but fall asleep.
Andy's P.O.V
Mom came through the door carrying a hole lot of bags. I quickly rushed towards her to help but she just shook her and and pointed towards the car.
"Alex feel asleep in the car," she mumbled. "Can you go get her?"
I shook my head yes and walked out to the car. Her head was resting on the window so I knew it was going to be difficult getting her out without waking her.
I opened the door enough to get my arm through and replace the door with my hand. I opened the door the rest of the way and unbuckled her seat belt. I got her out of the car as gently as I could and started to walk back to the house. About halfway to the door she started to mumble things in her sleep and snuggled closer to my chest. All I could do was smile. I was so happy the she was back, I could protect her now. I can make sure nothing try's and hurts her ever again.
I got in the house and she shifted again but this time instead of mumbles she started to scream. I quickly put her on the couch and tried waking her. Soon dad was right next to me doing the same thing. All she would do was scream and ask for the person in her dreams not to hurt her. I soon saw tears escaping her eyes so instead of trying to wake her I lifted her up, sat down, and pulled her up to my chest while putting her hair telling her it's all right and that everything is ok. She stopped screaming but she still whimpered as if the thing that was happening to her finally came to an end and it left her wounded. Dad tired waking her up again and her eyes snapped up and she started to freak out.
I let go a bit and looked her in the eyes saying, "It's alright you're safe." She curled back in my just still whimpering and crying. "We won't let anything hurt you."
She wiped her eyes and whispered, "You can't make that promise and keep it, you know that."
"But we'll try very best no matter the cost," dad answered for me.
She sat there whimpering like a puppy not wanting to say anything else.
"What was the dream about," dad asked.
She tensed up and quickly shook her head. More tears started to flow from her eyes as she thought about it. I felt her start to shake and I instantly grabbed her tighter and tired to sooth her.
"It's okay you don't have to tell us," dad quickly assured her. "I just was thinking out load, it's okay sweety."
She gulped and started to calm a little. My walked in with a guitar case and a few more bags but instantly put them down and hurried over to us, dad moved out of the way so she could be next to her.
"Oh baby, what happened," she soothed.
She shook her head so dad answered for her. "She had a very bad nightmare."
"Oh baby, are you ok," she asked while petting her cheek.
She gulped and shook her head yes but we all knew she was terrified over the things that just played out in for subconscious state. We just dropped it though.
"Where's Juliet by the way," mom asked as Alex lay on my lap and mom and dad went to sit down.
"Oh she's upstairs taking a nap she wasn't feeling to well after the flight," I answered thinking it was about time to check on her. "Hey Alex." She looked up at my face. "You wanna go upstairs to go to lay down?"
She shook her head yes and started to get up but I quickly got up and picked her up. She struggled for a few minutes then gave up and just accepted it. I carried her upstairs to the quest bedroom and lay her in the bed. I kissed her forehead, covered her up and left the room.
I walked to my old bedroom and checked on Juliet who was still fast asleep. I wonder how Alex is going to react to Juliet. I mean we haven't told any of the fans about her condition yet so it'll come as some what of a shock to her. Tomorrow is gonna be a great day. I walked down stairs with a smile on my face. I'll also have to remember to show Alex the pictures of the house we're getting.
"So how was your first airplane ride," Andy asked me when we got into a car.
"Not that bad actually," I replied as I buckled in my seat belt. "Better than cars. Speaking of cars, why are we using this one, is it your guys?"
They all chuckled and Chris answered, "Yes, we left it here when we flew out to Orlando." He backed out of the parking lot. "And sense its nice and only around noon you and Amy get to go shopping while Andy and I watch hockey."
"Yay, shopping," I said sarcastically. "And I hate you both, I freaking love hockey."
"Shopping with me won't be that bad," Amy said a little hurt by my comment.
"It's not the fact that its you that I'm going with, its the fact that I just hate shopping," I defended my actions.
She turned toward me and gave me a smile. "I was just kidding and we're going to the mall so I know you won't hate it for long."
She did have a point. I have always loved the mall, only because they have HotTopic, Journey's, and Spencers, but we won't get into that.
It didn't take us long to get to there house but what did take long was getting everything out of the car and moving me to the front seat. Chris and Andy came and gave Amy and I a hug and kiss goodbye. And I can tell you that it was very awkward for me.
“By the way,” Andy said as he came running back to the car. “Juliet should be here by the time you get back.” His smile went from ear to ear and my heart leaped for joy.
“Juliet, as in, Juliet Simms,” I say a little shocked. “I get to actually meet her. This is mmhm amazing.” I sang the last part a little.
“Of course you get to meet her,” Andy says like I'm crazy. “She is my girlfriend after all.”
My smile beams even more. “Will I also get to meet Lauren and Ella?”
Andy's face turns a little grim and sad. “Lauren broke up with CC a few days before we came to Florida.”
My eyes go a little wide. “What? I-I didn't know, I-I'm sorry.” He gave me a strange and opened his mouth to say something but I cut him off by saying, “I say sorry for stuff I don't really need to but if I feel guilty for something, anything, I will say sorry for it. I'm just weird that way.”
He just shook his head and walked back to the house.
"You ready to go shopping for your Christmas and birthday," Amy asked with so much excitement that it broke my heart that I was actually dreading it.
I just put on my famous fake smile and told her yes.
It took us only a few minutes to get to the nearest mall but I'm so glad Amy didn't try to start a conversion with me because the whole time I felt sicker than a dog. I think the car/motion sickness is getting worse but all well.
We walk in the front doors and I automatically notice that this mall is x10 smaller than the one in Orlando but I'll have to deal.
"Where would you like to go first," Amy asked as she rolled me to the large hallway that you could access all the stores with.
I looked up at her and replied, "I really honestly don't care, sorry." I look down to my hands. "How about you? Where do you want to go?"
I looked back up at her to see her finger tapping her chin acting like she was thinking. Unless she actually did that, then that's honestly fucking weird. She looks down at me and smiles and laughs.
"Personally I'm quite hungry," she answers. "And I don't want to choose the places we go to because this is your day. This is the day I get to actually have you as a daughter." She smiled a very weak smile and my heart broke. She started to move us in the direction that I guessed had the food court.
I put my good hand on her hand and gave her a small smile. "I'll try to be a good daughter. I know you deserve one after what happened."
She shook her head. "I don't want you to be anything that isn't yourself. If you have to act differently around Chris and I then you do everyone else then there would be no point in being a mother. I want my kids to be them selves around me and open with me. Not a robot that just wants to make me happy."
"I'm sorry to say but that's what I do best." She gave me a confused look. "Putting other people's happiness in front of my own. I never think, or care, about my happiness as long as everyone around my is happy. And since you want me to be honest with you, I like females."
"The thing is with a parent, and I don't know if it was like this for you and your other parents, but the parents always make sure the kid always get what he or she needs before there own. It's always 99% them and 1% you. If your child isn't happy then there is no way the parent should be."
I starred at the ground thinking about how my father was always like that and how my mother couldn't give two shits about my nor anybody but her own happiness. My mind quickly went to the dark side and I started to thing about all the bad things my mom did and how she would laugh about it later like it was a small harmless joke. My breathe quickened and I just hoped that Amy didn't notice.
We soon arrived at the food court and Amy rolled us up to Subway. My favorite place to eat! She looked down at me with the question in her eyes and I quickly shook my head yes.
I got done getting my sandwich and Amy rolled us over to a table. We ate and my mind cleared of my mother but it quickly jumped to the fact that I shouldn't be eating and it reminded me of how fat I was. My mind started to get at me and I started to nit pick at my sandwich say that I was started to hurt and it made me not want to eat.
Amy got done eating and threw her's away while I wrapped mine back up any hung it on the handle's of my wheel chair. Even if I didn't want to eat I refuse to get rid of perfectly fine foods.
I picked HotTopic as the first store because why not get it out of the way. We entered and I felt comfortable almost immediately. The girl behind the counter said hi to us as we passed by. I looked at the wall of shirts trying to find some that I wanted. I found some that were FIR, BLESSTHEFALL, BMTH, and a Mitch Lucker shirt. I didn't want to get to much because I didn't want to spend all of Amy's money but I got a few pairs of pants, some bracelets, plugs, rings, and pins. When we got done the total came close to $100 and I started to say I was sorry but Amy cut me off saying it was a gift for both my birthday and Christmas for the past almost 17 years so I shut up.
We went to Spencer's and I only got some necklaces and some beanies. I got Journey's I got a few pairs of shoes. I was done but Amy had to make more of the day and randomly stopped at stores that I didn't want to even look at.
We went to Victorious Secrets and that's a trip I totally didn't want to make but for the hell of it I bought a few matching laced bra and panties.
Soon we made it to an electronics and gaming store and my nerd instantly came out as I gawked at all the games I wanted to play. I was looking at the game Infamous Second Son as the worker walked up to me.
"You a gamer," he asked.
I just shook my head as I picked up one of the Final Fantasy's.
"What system's do you have," he asked his second question.
That's when I remembered. All the games I have ever played were at Kyle's house since my family couldn't afford a system. I put the game back down I little sad, looked at him and said, "I don't have any systems, I always played games at my friends house since I was over there like 24/7. He had a Ps3 and 4, an Xbox360 and an Xbox 1, a WiiU, and a PC gaming set up."
He shook his head in understanding. Like he knew what my Kyle had. Stop trying and acting like you know him.
"Andy has a Xbox360 and Ps3 at his house," Amy spoke up. "You'll be able to play it anytime you want."
I looked at her and shook my head thinking about the options. In the end I decided I didn't want any games so we left the store.
We started to head towards the exit when I noticed a music store and told Amy I wanted to go to it.
The inside was amazing. One wall was lined with guitars and basses. The other had music in the front and drums in the back. There were other instruments like pianos but I really didn't care about pianos since I had no interest in it.
I wheeled myself to the guitars and started looking at one that had a black base and had red and white splattered on it. In my opinion it looked fucking epic but I knew it would cost to much and there was no point in coming in here. I sighed and started to wheel myself back to Amy.
"Sir," she call to the man at the counter. He looked at and acknowledged her. "How much does this guitar cost?" She pointed to the one I was just looking at.
"You don't have to get it for me Amy," I looked at her dead serious.
The guy walked up and took it off the wall. he flipped it around trying to find the tag. when he found it he told us the price and I about chocked. I could never have Amy buy that guitar for me, I already asked to much with the clothes and jewelry.
She pulled out her debit card and walked with the dude to the counter. I sighed really loud to make sure Amy knew I really felt bad for it. All she did was fucking laugh at me. The worker put it in a case and handed it and a couple of free picks to Amy. She sat it on my lap and I grabbed it to make sure it wouldn't fall off my lap.
We headed out for the car and I looked at her and said, "You really shouldn't have bought that it was to expensive."
"I didn't buy it," she laughed while I looked at her confused. "Andy did. That was his debit he gave it to me saying that I could buy anything for you and that's what I choose for him to buy."
"I feel so bad," I groaned.
She shook her head and got serious when she said, "We want to buy this stuff for you because your are family and you deserve to be happy for a chance."
I looked at her, and even though she basically told me to not feel bad, I felt bad. I turned my head towards the window, lay my head against the glass and sighed.
I felt my eyes getting heavy during the very short ride to their house but I couldn't help but fall asleep.
Andy's P.O.V
Mom came through the door carrying a hole lot of bags. I quickly rushed towards her to help but she just shook her and and pointed towards the car.
"Alex feel asleep in the car," she mumbled. "Can you go get her?"
I shook my head yes and walked out to the car. Her head was resting on the window so I knew it was going to be difficult getting her out without waking her.
I opened the door enough to get my arm through and replace the door with my hand. I opened the door the rest of the way and unbuckled her seat belt. I got her out of the car as gently as I could and started to walk back to the house. About halfway to the door she started to mumble things in her sleep and snuggled closer to my chest. All I could do was smile. I was so happy the she was back, I could protect her now. I can make sure nothing try's and hurts her ever again.
I got in the house and she shifted again but this time instead of mumbles she started to scream. I quickly put her on the couch and tried waking her. Soon dad was right next to me doing the same thing. All she would do was scream and ask for the person in her dreams not to hurt her. I soon saw tears escaping her eyes so instead of trying to wake her I lifted her up, sat down, and pulled her up to my chest while putting her hair telling her it's all right and that everything is ok. She stopped screaming but she still whimpered as if the thing that was happening to her finally came to an end and it left her wounded. Dad tired waking her up again and her eyes snapped up and she started to freak out.
I let go a bit and looked her in the eyes saying, "It's alright you're safe." She curled back in my just still whimpering and crying. "We won't let anything hurt you."
She wiped her eyes and whispered, "You can't make that promise and keep it, you know that."
"But we'll try very best no matter the cost," dad answered for me.
She sat there whimpering like a puppy not wanting to say anything else.
"What was the dream about," dad asked.
She tensed up and quickly shook her head. More tears started to flow from her eyes as she thought about it. I felt her start to shake and I instantly grabbed her tighter and tired to sooth her.
"It's okay you don't have to tell us," dad quickly assured her. "I just was thinking out load, it's okay sweety."
She gulped and started to calm a little. My walked in with a guitar case and a few more bags but instantly put them down and hurried over to us, dad moved out of the way so she could be next to her.
"Oh baby, what happened," she soothed.
She shook her head so dad answered for her. "She had a very bad nightmare."
"Oh baby, are you ok," she asked while petting her cheek.
She gulped and shook her head yes but we all knew she was terrified over the things that just played out in for subconscious state. We just dropped it though.
"Where's Juliet by the way," mom asked as Alex lay on my lap and mom and dad went to sit down.
"Oh she's upstairs taking a nap she wasn't feeling to well after the flight," I answered thinking it was about time to check on her. "Hey Alex." She looked up at my face. "You wanna go upstairs to go to lay down?"
She shook her head yes and started to get up but I quickly got up and picked her up. She struggled for a few minutes then gave up and just accepted it. I carried her upstairs to the quest bedroom and lay her in the bed. I kissed her forehead, covered her up and left the room.
I walked to my old bedroom and checked on Juliet who was still fast asleep. I wonder how Alex is going to react to Juliet. I mean we haven't told any of the fans about her condition yet so it'll come as some what of a shock to her. Tomorrow is gonna be a great day. I walked down stairs with a smile on my face. I'll also have to remember to show Alex the pictures of the house we're getting.
Notes
I have good news and bad new.... Bad news is that I'm moving and the place I'm moving to doesn't have internet so I won't be able to update a lot. Good news is that I'll have time to write and not fall behind lol. I'm sorry bad the place I'm living at is just not good for me and I have to leave before I lose my mind.
Plus I'm still waiting on answers from the questions I asked in the last update thingy I did.
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