Zaria's/Alexandria's P.O.V
Date: December 24

I've been awake for about an hour now not being able to keep that damn dream out of my head. Why does the past always come in when I'm trying to be happy? I guess it's time to never be happy.

I guess I really should get up but what's the point, nobody is up yet considering the fact that I woke up at an ungodly time. Since I had another nightmare I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. It took me a few hours the first time and by the time I finally fell asleep I would have to wake up because Chris and Amy would probably want to do something.

I throw the blankets off of me and carefully swing my legs over the edge. I look around for my wheelchair but then I remember that Amy left it in the car because I fell asleep on the way here.

"Fucking hell," I mumble to myself as I stand myself up.

It hurt like a bitch, but then again it hurt every other time I did it so whats the difference? I walked to the bathroom down the hall. I looked in the mirror and it looked like I got hit by a car(no pun intended). I brush out my hair and wiped of the make-up I failed to take off last night.

I very carefully made it down the stairs. It took me x5 longer then what it normally would but what am I going to do. I made my way to the kitchen and looked at the clock on the wall and it read 5:45. Damn it's fucking early.

"Your telling me." I jumped at the voice that was from behind me.

I turned to find Chris standing in the doorway. "Did I say that out loud?"

He laughed and shook his head yes. He walked to the fridge and got out some bacon, sausage, and eggs. "Breakfast?"

"I don't eat eggs but other than that sure." I walked over to the island that they had in the center of the kitchen. As I sat at one of the stools I noticed that walking that much was a bad idea because I felt pain shoot through my legs and my ribs were severly swore. "Do you know where my pain meds are?"

He reached over the sink and grabbed a bottle of my most wonderful pain meds. "Here you go sweety." He handed them to me and then got a glass of tea. "You need to drink something with them also."

I shook my hand and took two pills and half the glass of tea, thank God it was sweet tea. I looked up to see the food already cooking and Chris making a cup of coffee.

"What are you doing up so early," he asked. "I'm normally the only one to get up this early and that's only for work." He gave a slight chuckle.

"I woke up and couldn't fall back to sleep." I half lied.

I shook his head in understanding and went to flip the bacon.

"You'd think they would let you take the day off since it's Christmas Eve." I looked at him.
"Yea but it's you either work the day before or the day after at my job." He put the finished bacon on a plate with paper towels on it then added more. He also put two pans on the stove and started the eggs and sausage. "And I would rather have the day before than the day after since it's Andy's birthday."

I understood that because no matter what it took my dad always made sure to be off on my birthday.

I got out my phone and sent a text to Kyle, I missed my gay best friend. Today was the first day I actually thought about texting anybody from home. I thought about sending it to everyone else but I already knew the only people who would respond to it would be Kyle, Jack, and Kay. I sent them all the text and set aside my phone knowing they wouldn't text since it's so early.

"Who you texting," Chris asked as he looked over the newspaper I just noticed he had.

"A few friends back in Florida," I replied as my stomach growled from the smell of the food.

Chris laughed. "Someones hungry." He walked over to the plates were he placed the cooked food at and grabbed some sausage and bacon then threw it on another plate. "Here you go." He handed me the plate as my face flashed red from embarrassment.

"I smell food," said a husky male voice.

I turned to see Andy in the doorway in nothing but his boxers. I felt my heart beat sky rocket as my face turned even redder. I quickly turned back to my plate of food as Andy and Chris laughed at me.

"Shut up," I mumbled as I felt a pair of tattooed arms wrap around my shoulders making me go even redder than before, which I didn't even think was possible!

"What was that," Andy joked. "I couldn't hear you."

"I said, shut up and go put some pants on," I said as his arms left my shoulders. "The only person I've seen in boxers is Kyle and that wasn't even on purpose. I learned that it is best to knock when going into that boy's room."

"I don't really feel like it so deal with it." He stuck his tongue out at me as he got some bacon and scrambled eggs. "What time do you have to be at work dad?"

"Seven," he answered as he turned off the stove and got himself a plate. "So after I eat this I'll be heading out."

Andy shook his head and went back to eating.
When I finished eating I grabbed my phone and got up. I started to head to the sink to rinse off my plate but Chris stopped me and told me that he would get it. I nodded and went to the living room and lay on the couch. After five minutes of silence I pulled out my phone to play a game when I saw a text from Kyle. What's he doing up?

Kyle: I thought you'd forget about me with you being the sister of a rock star lol. How are you doing?

Zaria/Alexandria: I could never forget about you :-) and not bad, Amy forgot my wheelchair in the car last night and I've been walking around the house for the past hour or so and my ribs and leg hurt but all well, the pain meds will kick in soon lol hbu?

I closed out of my texts and got on my Pou. It's been a while since I last gone on it and lets just say I'm glad this thing doesn't die. I played on it till it was nice and healthy again, then I clicked out of it and got on YouTube. I got on ChilledChaos' channel and started to watch him play Mario Kart on the WiiU. Like always it was funny as fuck being able to hear Glam get salty, Smarty get bumbled by all kinds of weapons, Tom and Ze duke it out in the front, and Chilled going along for the ride. By the time the video is halfway over I'm crying from laughing so hard.

The video soon ends though and I switch it over to a couple of Minx's G-Mod episodes with Krism in it and laugh as Minx kills Krism and Krism calling her a bitch and a whore for doing so. You got to love lesbian gamers!

I got through an episode and a half before I felt my phone start going off. I checked to see what it was and sure enough I had a new text from Kyle.

Kyle: I'm sorry that you're in pain maybe I can kiss it all better ;-) lol jkjk... and I'm doing alright accept for the fact that I haven't been able to sleep and I've been up for the last like 40 hours and that I miss my best buddy and the only girl I could actually joke with and her not get hurt by anything. Oh and just watch your youtubers to make you forget about the pain because I know you forget about everything else when your watching them.

I sat there laughing on the fact that he knows me so well. Nobody else would even think about telling me to watch youtube they would probably just tell me to take Advil or something.
Zaria/Alexandria: How did you know I was watching YouTube... are you stalking me? and get some sleep you idiot I can't talk to you if your sleepy cause you start to get all bitchy and complainy. You can kiss it all better if you were CC dammit, or Ryan Seaman.

I sat down my phone on the coffee table and grabbed one of the remotes hoping it was to the T.V. I clicked the on button and was so happy when the thing turned on. Hopefully something good is on even though it's like eight in the morning. When I reached the cartoon channels only kids shows were on, so I went to the movie channels and was happy when I found Alice in Wonderland, and it just started to. It was at the part right when Kingsely was going to ask Alice's hand in marriage and he had a caterpillar on his shoulder.

"Still liking the cartoons? Even though you we're a week old you loved cartoons, it was one of the only things that would shut you up."

I turned to see Andy standing behind the couch. I hope he has fucking pants on now. "It's not a cartoon actually. See a cartoon doesn't have actually people playing the characters it only uses their voices. In that terms, this is a movie not a cartoon."

He stuck his tongue out and me and I returned it.

"Looking here at little miss know it all," he joked. "And for your information, I am wearing pants now, thank you very much."

My face flushed and turned red. Did I really ask that out loud?

"Yes you did," Andy answered the question I must have said out loud again. "And if your wondering, you said that other question out loud also."

I bit the inside of my lip to prevent me from talking when I was thinking. Now he's a fucking mind reader.

Andy chuckled at me as two arms wrapped themselves around Andy's waist. Andy quickly turned around and stood in front of the woman who I assumed was Juliet.

I heard them whispering about stuff and I tried my best to make it out and you would thing with how close I was to them I would be able to but no. All I think I heard was I haven't told her yet and I'm not even sure if that was right because what would he need to tell me about Juliet that was so secret?

Andy turned his head towards me and Juliet poked her head over his shoulder. "Zaria there's something I need to warn you about before you and Juliet meet properly." I looked at him confused but motioned for him to continue. "Well um...Juliet's...um...well Juliet's pregnant."
I just starred at him not believing it because if Juliet was pregnant and it was his and they wanted to keep the baby then they would have told the fans. If that's the case then that means it's either not Andy's or they don't want to keep it.

"JULIET'S WHAT?" I yelled at him as Juliet stepped out from behind him and I saw a huge bully. "What the fuck. Why wouldn't you tell the fans about something like this? I mean this is the first Brides baby and believe it or not, that's a big deal for BVB Army and if you didn't tell the fans that means that it's either not Andy's or you don't want he or she." I felt like pacing.

I sat there waiting for an answer but both Juliet and Andy had their heads down in shame. I kept waiting and waiting knowing that they could feel me starring at them. And for the second time Andy made the mistake of making eyes contact with me. I started to starred down into his soul(as I liked to call it) and tried forcing it out.

He sighed. "Juliet and I aren't ready for a baby so were doing what your parents did to you." He looked guilty and as he fucking should. "Yes it is totally 100% mine but we are not ready to take on a responsibility like that. Somewhere along the line maybe but not right now."

I felt truly and honestly hurt. They saw what could happen with the closed adoption thing and they're doing it anyway. "Okay, first thing," I said getting in my rant mood. "You saw first hand what happens with adoption. Why would you want to put any child through that, especially your own. Second, I am, by law still a child and I have been told by court that you are now my legal person I am suppose to live with. That means you'll have to take care of me just like a baby, maybe not the changing diapers and crying, but you still have to feed me, provide a place for me to live, a place for me to take showers, and a place to go to the bathroom." They both looked down as if they were children and they got caught with their hand in the cookie jar. "What's the difference in responsibility there? Or are you going to get rid of me too," I didn't care if it hurt to stand or walk I couldn't sit down anymore. "you know when the responsibility gets to much. I mean, yea, I'm glad you picked this option than abortion but you played the game knowing the possible reaction of it and you need to deal with those with the most beneficial actions to the child. Yea you might not be good parents at first, but who is? I think it's better for a child to live with it's original family than being sent off to live in a lie till he or she finds out the truth. In my case it was a whole lot better because the only person actually able to take care of me besides you guys, was my father, I mean uncle, and he was gone all the time trying to make ends meet. Even if my mother never did kidnap me," My voice starting to get a little softer. "I would rather of known the truth from the moment I could think for my own self and understand it, that I was adopted then being told further along the lines when I finally thought I found my place in this hell we call life."

I think I saw tears in Juliet's eyes and Andy shaking but I didn't care they needed to hear it and I was willing to call them out on it. I grabbed my phone and stormed, or at least tried to, to my room.

I was still steaming but had nothing to take my anger out on. I just decided that I should check my phone and have Kyle try and calm me down if he didn't fall asleep. Just my luck, Kyle did actually reply.

Kyle: I stalk you everyday of the week and you know it. Maybe I don't wanna get sleep maybe I like being bitchy and complainy and plus you don't have to deal with it first hand you only deal with it through text. And how does it feel knowing you can talk/hang out with one of you celebrity crushes? I'm just dieing to know. And if you ever have the chance to meet either Ben Bruce, Jack Barakat, or Derek Jones tell them both about me ;-)

I shook my head at him and smiled. "That fucking idiot."

Zaria/Alexandria: No I actually did not know that and I am glad that you informed me of it lol. Fine don't get sleep, get sleep, what ever rocks your boat. And it honestly sucks because you know that they're there and they notice you but you don't know if they like you back and the fact that your under the age limit you know that they can't legally like you back and do something about it :-/ and sorry to tell you hon but neither one of them is gay, you can't have one, plus Ben has a wife now and Jalex all the way, even if they're not gay lol and I actually don't have a reason for Derek so if I meet him I will do my best.

Even just the small interaction made me feel a whole lot better. I sprawled out on the bed and sighed. I guess I can't really be mad at them it's just with that now being a touchy subject with me it kinda set me off. I really hope they don't take it personally I probably would have done it to anyone. All well, what am I gonna do? Brother's and sister's are suppose to fight right? I sighed again. I just need a nap to clear out my head.

Andy's P.O.V

After Alex did her best to storm off I sat down on the couch and put my elbows on my knees and put my head in my hands. Dammit, why did she have to be right? I did have a problem with giving them up but I am no where close to a father figure. There is no way that I could take care of them, not at all. I mean, I'll be touring probably there whole childhood and they would never see me and what if they end up hating me for it. What if they never what to be around daddy because of the fact that I'm never there. I let out a deep sigh and I feel Juliet rubbing my back.
I look over to her but it doesn't take long for my eyes to reach her stomach. I place my hands on her bully and start to rub it. What if we do end up giving them away and then they do try and find us? Wanting to know why we gave them up? Why we wouldn't love them? I mean, I love these kids to death and they're not even born yet, but what if they think we don't love them and that's why we gave them up?

I stand up and walk to the kitchen. I really hope there's a beer in here. Yes, I promised Juliet I wouldn't drink around her while she was like this but I don't care right now. To my luck there were a few beers. I grabbed two and found my pack of cancer sticks and went outside to the front porch.

I popped open one of the beers and chugged half of it. I then lit the cigarette and let the small mixture of nicotine and beer try and calm me. Of course it didn't work. My mind still worked a mile a minute. Why did Alex have to be so fucking right? I was perfectly fine with pushing this part of my mind back till we got rid of them. Dammit. I finished the first beer and went to the second.

I then heard the front door open to see Juliet walking out. I quickly put out the rest of my cigarette and wave the smoke away.

"Andy," Juliet said as she sat next to me on the bench. "Don't stress over this. We still have a month to figure out what we want to do. If we do decide to keep them then we can." Juliet put her hand on my knee.

I looked at her and then her stomach again. "I just can't stop thinking about the possibilities. What if we do give them up and they end up finding there way back to us and start asking us question on why we would give them up? Or, what if we keep them and they start to hate me because I have to tour all the time? Maybe, they wouldn't even want me around them. I just feel like I'll be a bad father." I felt tears in my eyes but quickly blinked them away.

She put her head on my shoulder. "There is no telling what could happen if we give them up but I do know that they could never hate you. How could they? You're there father and what had a part in putting them here on Earth. Plus, I've seen the way you act around kids, you're not gonna be a bad father. If anything you'll probably spoil them." She did have a point. "I've actually been thinking about this for a while now. It was easy to give them up when I found out about them, but now, having them with me for eight months has made my love grow for them and my motherly parts to want to keep them. Like you though, I've had fears. What if they hate the fact that there mom wanted to give them up? I know it's not as big, but it's still big enough. I also hate how I think I'll be to over protective about them. Yes, being protective is good but I feel like I'd be the person to wrap the in bubble wrap just to protect them." We both laughed at that. "Either way around it, I will still love you and these kids."

I turn back towards her and kiss her. She is 100% right. "I will still love you too, and you guys." I spoke the last bit to her stomach which caused her to giggle. "Maybe we should talk to my parents about it."

She agreed with that so now all we have to do is wait for dad to get home and for a time when Alex isn't around. I don't want Alex around mainly because I don't want her to blow up again.

Zaria's/Alexandria's P.O.V

I woke to a knocking on my door and Chris sticking his head through. I quickly scramble to see what time it is and see that my phone says 6:30 at night.

"Morning, or should I say night," Chris joked. "Dinners here if your hungry and we're having a movie night also." I moaned at the fact of me getting up. "That means get you butt down stairs." He laughed as he walked away.

How did I sleep for so long? I check my phone again to see if I read it wrong but it still said the same thing and the fact that I had five new messages. Three from Kyle, one from Jack, and the last from Kay.

Kyle #1: You never know I could make them turn gay and who cares about a silly wife he could always dump her. I bet it sucks but he won't be able to resist your beautiful charm...who could?

#2: You gonna reply...I'm so lonely...

#3: I'm so lonely. I have nobody. I'm all on my own...

Kyle being stupid Kyle again. I replied to him and said I was sorry and that I fell asleep like he should have.

Jack: Hey girly, I'm glad you haven't forgotten about us yet lol... what you been up to?

Zaria/Alexandria: Well I slept all day without meaning to and I've been actually walking around but it hurts like a bitch lol hbu... and how could I ever forget you? *I dug through my phone to find one of our goofy photos together and I put it with the text* I mean look at that face.

Kay: OMG YOU'RE FUCKING ALIVE... lol... but it is true... how's it been living with <3 Andy <3?

Zaria/Alexandria: Yes I'm alive lol...and it has it's ups and downs...I actually yelled at both him and Juliet for like ten minutes lol I chewed them out.

I let my phone timeout and I headed downstairs. Again it took a long ass time to descend the stairs but when I got down them I saw pizza.

"She finally joins us," Chris joked. "We got meat lovers, Mexican, and extra cheesy pizza. We got the cheese because we didn't know if you liked meat or Mexican. Oh, and we also got Pepsi, Mr. Pipp, and Mountain Dew in the fridge."

I shook my head and even though I wanted to rip this pizza apart I had to remember that I couldn't afford the weight. I grabbed a slice of the meat lovers and sat down in the recliner. Fuck I forgot the soda.

"Andy," I asked sweetly. Andy turned towards me and I think I saw a little hint of fear, good. "Can you go get me a pipp?"

Andy sighed deeply but got off the couch and went to the kitchen. He came back with two pipps and a Pepsi. He handed me one of the pipps, gave Juliet the Pepsi and kept the other pipp for himself.

I took a sip out of my pipp and asked, "What movie's are we watching?"

"The all amazing BatMan movie's of course," Andy answered.

"No, I think Alex should choose the movie's," Amy popped in. "What would you like to watch."
I forgot every movie I have ever seen in my life and drew a blank. I tried going through my list but every movie that popped in had a sex scene in it and that's not happening here.

"I'm fine with BatMan," I said but as soon as it left my lips Amy give me a look saying your not choosing BatMan just to make Andy happy. "Fine, then the Green Lantern."

Amy smiled widely and got up to put the movie in. I looked over to Andy and Juliet to see Juliet starring at me. I guess I should say sorry. The first time we meet each other and I yell at her.

"I'm sorry," I say and every eye in the room is on me.

"Why you sorry," Chris asked.

I took a big gulp and continued, "I'm sorry for what I said earlier Andy and Juliet. It's not my business to tell you what to do with your child."

I felt every eye burning into my sink and it made me on edge.

"I heard what you said to them actually and I agree 100%," Amy spoke up breaking the silence. "I don't like the fact that they're giving my first grandchildren away. It's not the time to discuss it though."

I didn't feel as bad as before. I'm just glad Amy is on my side with this. Hopefully with time we can convince Andy and Juliet to keep it.

"Oh Alex." Juliet pulled me out of my thoughts. "It's not a child, they're children."

Great they wanted to get rid of not just one but two. All well like Amy said now is not the time discuss it or even think about it.

We went trough the movie with me texting everyone and slowly picking away at the slice of pizza I got. Chris on the couch and Amy right next to him with her head on his shoulder. Andy and Juliet on the love seat, Andy leaning his back on the arm rest and Juliet leaning her back against Andy. Andy had one of his hands on Juliet's bully rubbing it and the other resting on his lap. Soon the movie ended and Andy finally got to put in BatMan.

Notes

Sorry for not being able to update but here you go!!!!!!!!!!!