Sink Your Teeth Into Forever

Ashley's POV
Eventually I fell asleep at some point after lying in the sand crying for a long time. I had nightmares. Nightmares about killing. I'd never killed anyone before. I dreamed about the hot blood that had splashed onto my face when I ripped out Braikens' throat, it made me nauseous. Yes, I suppose that he had just tried to kill my best friend, but he was someones best friend. He was someone's son, maybe someone's brother, maybe someones husband, maybe someones father. That's what I dreamed about. People sobbing over a grave while I stood somewhere nearby feeling like an animal, feeling like a monster. That was the first time I ever understood what Andy meant about feeling like a monster. Since I figured out what I was I'd always just thought of it as an extension of my human life, just a part of me. I never felt like it was a bad thing or something that was disgusting. Andy had more foresight than me. Andy realized that he was dangerous and a savage killer before I did. I also dreamed about that. I had nightmares that I was hugging a fan and saw something that made me mad and accidentally broke the girl's back from squeezing too hard. When I woke from those dreams I could still feel their bones shattering. I could still hear their whimpers of pain as my hug got to tight, and I could feel them push their hands on my shoulders to try and get me off before they realized it was too late. I dreamed about holding their broken bodies in my arms and apologizing over and over like it would bring them back. I was in and out of that dreamlike state for I don't know how long, sometimes I was aware of where I was and what was going on around me, other times I was having those nightmares.
Eventually I snapped out of that limbo. I became fully aware again that I was still laying in the sand, in a gentle rain. I was curled up in the fetal position. It was night time. No one else was around, I was soaked and shivering in the late night rain. I forced myself to sit up, my muscles were stiff and sore. On the outside I hurt, but on the inside I felt better. I'd cried, and dreamed out all of the bad feelings that I had. I looked around. The misty fog of rain extended all the way out over the ocean wear the waves lapped with rhythmic serenity on the shore. I stood up, my stomach growled and I was thirsty. I looked down at myself, I was muddy and bloody, I couldn't go back to the house looking like that. I walked slowly down towards the edge of the water listening to the sounds of the foam bubbles popping on the shore. I took off my already soaked boots and socks and waded into the surf until I was up to my chest. The salt water stung at the little cuts and scrapes on my body from the fight, as well as in the big cut that was still healing on my leg. I ignored the pain though and started to wash myself off. I could see the dark blood going out into the water as the waves hit me. I ran the salt water through my hair and rubbed it over my chest. I was not only washing off the physical dirt, I was washing off the bad feelings too. The water was still warm from the day and it felt nice. After a while I just took a deep breath and let myself fall backwards into the water. I floated in it for a while, just letting the current do what it did with me until I ran out of air, then I came back up into the air and let the fresh cool air cleanse my lungs. It had stopped raining as I walked back up onto shore and grabbed my boots and socks and made my way back to the beach house where the lights in the front room where still on.
I came up the front porch and left my boots outside as I opened the door. Ivy, Juliet, and Sammi sat in the kitchen, they looked up when I came in.
"I was about to come and get you," Ivy said as she got up from the table to give me a hug, "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm okay. I just needed some time," I said, my voice came out rougher than it usually did. Ivy pulled away and as soon as she did Juliet took her place.
"I was going to be in the infirmary with Andy, but I wanted to thank you when you came in," Juliet said as she let go of me.
"Uhm, Ash have you been wading in the ocean," Sammi said, looking at me dripping with seawater.
"Yeah," I said. Sammi shook her head and wandered off down the hallway she came back with a towel.
"Where's everyone else at?" I asked as I dried myself off, taking off what clothes I could without things getting obscene.
"Jake, Jinxx, Ella, CC are in the infirmary with Andy, Ivy's dad is there too, and Lauren and Sandra are asleep in the living room, and I suggest you join them," Juliet reported.
"How's Andy?" I asked.
"The doctor said that he's lost a whole lot of blood, but because of you he'll recover," Juliet said. I felt a weight lift off of my shoulders, with that weight gone I was suddenly struck by exhaustion. Even after sleeping for that whole time out on the beach I was still exhausted, emotionally drained.
"I'm gonna hit the hay," I said, "I'll go check on Andy in the morning," I did just that. I wandered into the living room after changing into dry clothes and laid down on some pillows. I wrapped myself up in blankets just as Ivy laid down next to me. I unwrapped myself from the blankets and pulled her under them with me and wrapped us both up. As soon as I was content that she'd be warm all night I dropped off the face of the earth.
Andy's POV
I was floating, in a cool, dark world. I didn't know where I was but I didn't mind it all too much. I wasn't in any pain, I had nothing to worry about, no one to attend to, none of my own bodily needs. I was just adrift, naked and alone and there was simply nothing. I opened my eyes and saw blackness I looked down where my body should have been and there was nothing there. Perhaps that should have frightened me but it didn't, the fact occurred to me that I probably didn't even have eyes to look fro my body with. At that moment I did not exist physically, but I was. I was floating around in my own subconsciousness, or so I thought. Maybe I was dead, I decided, maybe this was my heaven or my hell. Maybe this was my purgatory and God was going to show me my good deeds and my sins and decide where to put me. I looked around but there was nothing. I drifted for what felt like a long time, I could have been floating in outer space for all I knew, or cared for that matter. I began to lose concept of who I was, my name, my age, the people I loved, the things I loved; they began to phase out as I drifted, leaving me just to be for a while. In the cool, silent emptiness. I wasn't sure what my purpose was here.
Then I saw something in the distance, a glowing square of light, like a T.V. screen. I willed myself closer, and it happened. I saw who I instantly recognized as my mother, much younger than I had ever remembered, smiling at me. I felt warm and safe. Then the image went away, to somewhere behind me and another drifted up, the first time I heard Kiss. That one passed too, then I watched as others came and went. Red roller skates, make up, bullies, pink hair dye, my first kiss, losing my virginity, moving to California, acting in commercials, Juliet, the fans. It continued for hours upon hours, I got to rewatch the good, the bad and the ugly as each image drifted by me and then a bit farther behind. I saw my wolf side too, the first time I changed, coming to terms with myself and who I was, eventually the images were all gone. I turned myself in the direction that they had all gone, wondering if they were going to come back through. Then I saw they all had been compiling behind me in one big mass, a biography of my whole life in front of me. That's when I knew I wasn't dead. My brain was just showing me things, putting me back together mentally, making sure I remembered and appreciated it all.

Notes

Hey y'all thanks for reading this chapter, I hope you enjoy and I'm going to try to update for you another time this week. Let me know what you think of this chapter, we're almost done here. I'll see you all soon and remember how much Iove you.