Sink Your Teeth Into Forever

Ivy's POV
Juliette and I looked at each other, we both were thinking the same thing, something was wrong with Andy and we needed to find out what. After we made eye contact we shifted our focus back to the boy curled up on the ground between us. His eyes were open and he was staring off into the distance, not really looking at anything, his blue eyes glazed over. So pale and still that he could have been dead. Except for the fact that his body was racked with trembling breath, causing his entire body to shiver even in the California heat. His hands and knees were pulled into his chest, a complete fetal position. He looked so childlike, like a kid who was afraid of the dark. I had no idea why the rest of the group was taking absolutely no notice of their leaders obvious distress. Juliette and I made eye contact again. She got up off of her chair and knelt down next to him.
"Andy, what's wrong?" She said, putting a hand on his shoulder. He simply shook his head and wrapped his arms around himself, not even looking in her direction.
"Andy come on, we need to know so that we can help you," She said. He snorted.
"Help me? You think that you can help me?" He spat his voice dripping with venom. Juliette looked hurt, Andy started to sit up.
"Just tell us what's wrong, we could surprise you," She said quietly, but Andy had already attracted the attention of the rest of the pack. They had fallen silent.
"Do you guys really want to know what's wrong with me?" His voice started to raise as he rose with it standing. Everyone stared at him in shock.
"Uh sure, tell us what's wrong," CC said, clearly not yet understanding the mental state of the werewolf he was talking to.
"I'm sick and tired of this life, of being a monster. Of having to hide what I am from people, I hate myself. I wish that I could go to our fans and be completely honest with them, but no. If they saw what I really am, what all of us are, they would scream, and cry, and run. They love us for the mask that we put on, that we're just like them, human outcasts, when in reality by nature they a re a million times more normal than us. Why can't I be as normal as they are? Why did God forsake me and make me a disgusting, violent, creature? Why don't I have a choice in leading you guys? Why can't I leave this behind if I want to? I don't want to be this. As far as I can tell I'm doing a pretty terrible job of leading this pack," Andy screamed, his hands trembling.
"Dude you're a great leader," Jake said.
"Oh yeah? Then why is one of our members gone, and by this point probably dead? Such a good leader to beat on someone that I'm leading and then leave them when they need my help. Had I not been such a jerk to him, he wouldn't have gone for that walk and none of us would be in any danger. We'd all be at his place, getting ready for the hunt. We wouldn't have her to deal with either," He said pointing at me. My heart broke, he dealt with me. Only cared enough to make sure that I wasn't going to die in their care and get him in even more trouble. It was one of those moments when you don't want to cry but your body give you absolutely no choice about it. His words hurt.
"Andy how could you say that about her?" Lauren yelled standing up, she had gotten braver. She got in his face, something I would not have done. CC stood up too, warily reaching out towards Lauren.
"Last time I checked it was not her fault that she's here. You kidnapped her, you yelled at her, you gave her bruises, you made her cry. You may not feel this way but to the rest of us she's our friend, she's part of the pack now whether if you want to deal with her or not," Lauren yelled at him. Andy's face contorted into anger, and I saw his back muscles tense up. Lauren did not back down, they were inches away from each other both glaring daggers, he was breathing heavily, she was clearly much calmer than he was. She was one of those people who fought with logic, not with rage like he did. She had a point that he couldn't argue with, it was making him even angrier. Something happened that none of us expected from Andy. He shoved her. It could have been worse he could have hit her, but shoving was still bad enough. She stumbled back and nearly fell into the campfire. CC was about to come at Andy when Lauren sprang back up and slapped Andy hard across the face. The sound rang out like a shot and he stumbled back his face a mixture of rage and shock. CC pulled Lauren away from him and put her behind him. Everyone was standing now, tense and wait for what Andy would do. For a moment he steadied and it looked like he was going to keep yelling and then he crumpled to his knees sobs echoing from his chest.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. This is what I mean, why am I this way? I'm sorry" He sobbed. Everyone stood in shock looking at the leader who had seemed so strong. For a moment there nothing but silence, except for Andy's crying. Finally Jake took a knelt down next to Andy putting a hand on his shoulder and rubbing he spoke soothingly. Jake was doing something to Andy, maybe numbing him like that day so long ago when I was hurt. The only difference was that Andy's pain was emotional. Soon Andy's cries stopped and he leaned into sat up leaning into Jake's chest, Jake hugged him tightly. I realized then that the huge thing that was wrong with Andy was stress, it was far too much for someone like him to handle. I shivered in the cool breeze, realizing that the sun had gone down and the only thing keeping them human was the tree blocking the moonlight. Jinxx realized it too.
"Guys we have to hunt. Andy why don't you stay here with the girls, because you are obviously a bit weak right now, we'll bring you something back so you can eat too," Jinxx suggested.
"Are you sure that you guys will be fine hunting as just three?" Andy said, pulling out of Jake's arms, clearly he was trying to regain control of himself. The three of them nodded.
"Will you be okay here alone with the girls?" CC said.
"Yeah, I feel a lot better now," Andy said. With that he stood, still a bit shaky but he stood, and Jake rose with him.
"Let's still do this all at once okay?" Jake said. The girls backed away from them as the boys stood in a line just feet away from the moonlight.
"Ready, one, two,THREE!" Jake shouted the three of the four of them leaped into the moonlight. I wish I could describe it to you better, all I could say was that it was like the human bodies got sucked to the inside and wolves sprung out. It happened to fast that
I almost wished that I could see it again so that I could understand what happened. The big white wolf, Andy, turned around and came back to us while the rest ran off in the direction of deep woods, howling and yipping at each other. When they were out of sight the rest of the girls sighed and started to relax. Lauren came up to Andy and scratched behind his ears, he was at eye level with her.
"I'm sorry I slapped you Andy," She said, he rumbled and his big tail wagged. Then he wandered over to me, he was taller than me, he bumped his nose into my shoulder. I took it as an apology, I told him that it was okay, I wasn't mad at him for anything.

Notes

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