Sink Your Teeth Into Forever

Ivy's POV
Andy and I walked in silence for a while after leaving the house. To be completely honest, even though I was trying to I couldn't yet find it in myself to trust him all the way. To say the least I was a bit nervous to be with him alone, even in broad daylight. As we walked I wondered what he wanted to talk to me about, there was always the possibility that he was going to let me go home, that would be nice, but I had no idea how it would work without getting them in trouble, or putting them in danger. After a while we came to an area of the neighborhood that had a small bridge over a decently sized lake. He stopped in the middle of the bridge and I stood with him, leaning on the railing. We stood in silence for what seemed like a really long time but it was probably no more than a minute or two.
“So I had few reasons that I wanted to bring you out here, and I know that you're not completely comfortable with me yet so I'd like to talk,” He said.
“Well I'm listening,” I said. I looked up at him and he was staring out over the water, biting his lip ring. I could tell just by looking at him that he had way too much stress on him for a guy his age. He turned to me suddenly and grabbed my wrist. My first instinct was to try and run away, but his grip was gentle. He pulled up the sleeve on my t-shirt just a bit so he could see all of the bruising on my arm. He moved his hand so that it was over top of the bruises but he didn't touch me, his hand fit the outline of the purple area nearly perfectly.
“I'm really sorry about that. I didn't mean to hurt you, I know it's not an excuse but I was just angry and really scared, I didn't know that I was grabbing you as hard as I was,” He said softly, his eyes on the ground.
“It's okay, I know you didn't mean it,” I said, was this all that he brought me all the way out here to do?
“I mean I'm sorry for the whole thing. For hurting you, kidnapping you, throwing you around when I found you at Ashley's, yelling at you and making you cry. All of it was really wrong, and I wish that I could take it back. You got a really bad first impression of me and I wish that we could meet again, only under different circumstances. I really don't want you to be scared of me, and I know you are,” He said. I just nodded because I didn't want to be scared of him either, but I couldn't help but be. I thought about what he'd said about kidnapping me, suddenly a wave of homesickness washed over me. I thought about my dad, he was probably so worried about me, I'd never even told him where I was going when I left that day. Guilt came over me too, how could I leave him all alone, he probably thought that I ran away from him just like Mom did. The crushing heartbreak of hurting the only person out there who actually cared about me washed over me like nothing I'd felt before. Andy must have seen my face.
“Woah, what's wrong?” He said holding onto my hands. I tried to tell him that I was fine, but my body didn't cooperate and against my will I was thrown into sobs.
“No, no, no, no, please don't cry. Please, just tell me what's wrong, I can try to help. Just don't cry anymore because of me,” He said, he sounded scared that he'd somehow hurt me again. I wrapped my arms around his middle and hugged him, putting my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my back, soothingly while hushing me gently.
“Tell me what's wrong hun,” He said, I could feel his voice vibrating up through his chest. I tried to answer him correctly and tell him exactly what was wrong so that he knew it wasn't his fault. Unfortunately my brain wasn't allowing me to put together the words I needed so all that managed to come out was a sentence that probably raised his guilt levels far higher than they were already at.
“I want to go home,” I choked out.
“I know you do, and I'm so sorry that your not, I've been trying to think of a way that can I can let you go home without putting any of us in danger. I'm so sorry this is all my fault,” He sounded like he was on the verge of tears as well, although I doubted it. Maybe he was just one of those guys who's voices get really high when they're upset. I hugged him for a bit longer until I felt like I'd calmed down enough to talk to him.
“Andy I don't blame you for any of this I know that you're trying to do what's best for your pack, and I know that you're doing your best to make me comfortable,” I said pulling away and looking at him. He nodded still looking at the ground. I'd never noticed how young he looked, if I had to guess by looking at his face I would have guessed that he wasn't much older than eighteen, but I knew that couldn't be true. He was way too mature to be only a teenager. We had lapsed into silence and I could only think of one thing to say, so I blurted it out.
“Andy how old are you?” I said randomly.
“I'm twenty-three, why?” He said looking confused.
“Because you look a lot younger,” I replied.
“Well how old are you?” He asked.
“Seventeen,” I replied, he appeared deep in thought.
“You know apologizing wasn't the only reason that I brought you out here. I wanted to prepare you for some of the things that you're going to see tonight. Now that I know that you're seventeen, I was figuring that if I found all of this stuff out at the mentally unstable age of eighteen you should be able to handle this now. Given the fact you appear to be more mentally stable than I was as a teenager. Now I know that you already saw Ashley in both his human and animal form. You did not see him in the context of when the moon changes one of us. When we change at will it is not as scary for onlookers because they can tell that we have control over the situation. Now when the moon changes us, it's very different. We don't have a choice, and the wolf personality comes into play, not just the wolf look. I saw it happen to people before I knew what I was and it was extremely terrifying. I saw the people that I knew to be good people turn into massive bloodthirsty creatures before my eyes. It was traumatizing... I guess what I'm trying to say is be ready for it. It's going to be a scary thing to see,” Andy said.
“How did you learn about what you are,” I wondered out loud. He sighed and looked up at the sky.
“Ya know what, that's a story for another time, we should get back to the house,”
Andy's POV
We walked back to the house falling back into silence. This time it was a more comfortable silence, it didn't feel like we needed to have a conversation. We both were alone with out thoughts. I didn't want to tell her about when I figured out that I was a werewolf. It was a time that I didn't want to relive. Even though I didn't understand why they had done what they did at the time and I did now, it was still traumatizing. I still had trouble trusting my band mates. The memory of it made me feel cold, weak, and afraid like I had been that night. I shivered as we walked even in the warm day. It was like my body was trying to shake off the bad memories that still haunted my dreams. Leaving me sat up straight in bed trembling and covered in sweat, with tears running down my face, sometimes screaming. Made me still flinch when Ashley patted me on the back, or Jake ran in for a hug. Strange how someone hurting you so much only one time can make you not trust them for years. I hoped that I never had to tell anyone that story and one day I would come to terms with my horror.

Notes

So guys I'm sorry that this is a day late, so I tried to make it as detailed as I could and I really spent a lot of time with this chapter, making sure I used the right words and such. Leave me a comment and let me know what you think of this story, and tell me what you think traumatized Andy and messed him up so much. I promise you will learn what happened in future chapters. As always if you think that no one loves you, just remember that I do. Also shout out to bvb4ever14, she (I'm assuming this is a girl), has asked me to work on another story with her, and I plan on doing so in about two months. I'll let you guys know when this happens. See you all next week. :)