The Preacher's Daughter

Bible study; topic of Tuesday's reading? Purity. We are gathered at sister Anna beth Rogers house. I and my 'real sister' was not keen to go but my mother insisted like always.

"I rather want to have phone sex with Ashley than be here." Mary grumbles as we stood by the 'food table' she pushes a pop tart in a her mouth and made a face towards the 'cheerleader's'

"Is it okay if we go Friday, you know the BVB show?" I ask with a weak beam tugging on my white skirt.

"Hells yeah sis," she grins giving me a wink.

"Please take your seat." Sister Anna beth announced. We all nod and sat in a circle.

"Tonight we are talking about purity, we all should save our self for the holy spirit."

I turn to my sister who has a 'Really?' expression on her facade. I hold my hand to my mouth trying not to burst from laughter.


"Sister, what does that mean you have to have sex with a ghost?" Greg asks batting his eye lashes. In our town the word 'Gay' is a sin, Greg is in the closet, he know that his parents will never accept him, we all know how he feels, well me and my sister does never the less, the other's are just holy for their parents.

I and my sister burst from laughter, we could not contain it. "What is so funny?" Sister Anna beth asks arching her brow.

"No nothing sister, we are just wondering the same thing, we should spare out self's when we are married correct?"I ask.

"Indeed Gracen." She nods.


"And what about if you are already done the 'deed," Mary spoke up using a quote on quote fingers at the beginning and end of the word 'deed' "with the holy spirit? Can you be saved or will you be going to hell?"

"Mary, we all here," she waves around "are still pure we should not think of such evil and vulgar..." Sister Anna beth drifts off shaking her head side to side.

"So sex is evil?" Oh Mary is not going to drop this.

"Yes!" She spats out making her eyes wide like she was about to kill my sister.


"And what if you love the person, and you want to feel that person not with you but in you," Mary spats back, "sex is not evil, you as well have done it and enjoyed it, hell all of you elders enjoyed it, and you know what's the outcome of enjoying it?" Mary stood up and point to each one of us. "We were made, but you know what's the difference between your generation and ours? Is that we found condoms, and well masturbation."

I burst from laughter and so did Greg, the other's are quiet to quiet. "You need to seek God for forgiveness dear child." Sister Anna beth looked shock on what my older sister just said. Hell I am shocked! But she is right.

"indeed sister," Mary whispers sitting back down. "I think I made my point." She muter's waving the sister to go on.
Everything opened up to me suddenly. Andy.
I want him, I never felt so much lust for a man.
I never have felt such strange feelings.
What am I supposed to do? We are friends, but are we?

I lied to my parents twice, one was for going to a club and second was for seeing Andrew. And friday is going to be the third, going to a concert in Chicago.


I have never lied in my life I mean never even cursed, well until my sister taught me to. I love her dearly but I am afraid she will drag me down in hell with her, am I going to disappoint my parents for a guy, a guy who is a celebrity, a rock star in a band called 'Black Veil Brides' even the name itself sound so...so I don't evil, but in real life he is just a man with a gold heart looking for his one true love, but I am not sure I am his true love.


Reasons to believe I will never be with him. The score board says?

1: he is in rock band.

2: he is an atheist, he does not believe in God or in fact Satan. But I am also not sure what I believe in.

3: I am the daughter of the man who invented the purity pledge, meaning I am a virgin.

4: my father would rather send me away to a nunnery than be with Andy.

5: I think I am in love with him.

Am I prepared to leave my family for him if he says 'come with me?'

Yes.

Am I ready to break my vow and let him take me?

Yes.

And am I ready to forsake my dad's wishes and go to hell with a big fat smile on my face?

Yes.

I hope when I arrive in hell my father should not be there, because than I am screwed all over again.

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