Andy's POV
“I love you Amby
-I love you too”
I was there, looking at them.
It was like they could'nt see me.
Or maybe they just did'nt give a fuck about my presence?
Why was she with him?
Why did'nt she love me anymore?
It should'nt be affecting me.
Because I already have someone.
Because I love her, and she loves me.
So why seeing Amber in Jacky's arm hurt so much?
He slowly approach his face to hers.
She did not seem to plan to pull away.
I scream: NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Don't touch her! don't kiss her!
She's mine! Only mine!
I could'nt close my eyes, or look away.
It was a curse! I must look at them.
I felt tears flowing on my face as the gap between their lips was getting smaller and smaller.
I felt knives in my heart,the worse pain ever.
As he kissed her passionately.Jacky. Not me. Why?
Then I felt someone shaking me vigorously.
What? There was'nt enough pain yet?
Then I heard someone calling me.

I woke up sweating like a pig... nightmare. It was just a damn nightmare? Thanks goodness! I looked around to see Jinxx and Ashley -their room are next to mine at the left/the right- looking at me both worried and angry.
“What the fuck man? Someone was cutting your balls in your nightmare or what?” asked Ashley. I looked at him confused.
“You were screaming like a madman 'Nooooo' 'don't touch her' 'don't' 'please' 'she's mine'” added Jinxx, imitating a baby's voice.
“Oh I guess I was'nt screaming only in my dream...” I replied. They both glared at me:
“Do you really think we would be there trying desperatly to wake your stupid ass up if you were silent?? We could'nt sleep anymore!!!” they yelled at me.
“I'm sorry guys, it was an horrible nightmare!
-You want to talk about it?” Asked 'mama-jinxx' softly.
“If you wanna listen good for you, me I'm going to sleep if Andy agreed...” Ash said as he walked away.
Suddenly I remember who my dream was about... How could I tell Jinxx about it without telling the whole story?

“I... I don't really remember all. You should go to sleep, you're gonna be tired!
-It's not important, tomorrow we are off.
-Yeah, but I need to sleep anyway and you too. I'll talk about it after if I remember okay?
-Okay.” he answered,sceptical, as he slowly walked away. I wish I could tell him, but in the end I'm not sure to understand all myself! I looked at my phone: 3AM. Let's try to fall back asleep.

I woke up at 10, feeling tired as a horse after a race. I took a shower and wear some random clothes then went out to look for the other guys. But just when I passed my room's door I saw her with him... Laughing together, and talking about God knows what. I felt my 'usual' hint of jealousy... Yeah usual, each time I saw them together I felt it! Just like it pressed a invisible button that gave me a little heartache... She was smiling at him, without this worry in her eyes. Why was he so lusky? I walked straight, as if I did'nt see them. I felt her looking at me, but I kept going. She stopped laughing for a while, the aisle was silent. Then 'Mister Lover' told her something that make her laugh again. This laugh... Damn it, was this girl flawless? Every single thing about her was perfect...

I spend the day with the guys, everything was normal: CC was making us laugh, Ash was flirting with girls, Jake was texting his girl all day long and Jinxx was quiet... quiet? No, that was'nt normal! We ate some fries and candies for lunch. We were like children on vacation's day. It would be perfect, if Juliet was'nt busy all day and Angel with Jacky... I could'nt stop thinking about it. 'You love her.' smirked the evil voice in my mind. No way! I could'nt be loving both girls... Even if, one of them was'nt in love with me -anymore?- so there was no chance.

Around 8PM, I felt tired and told my friends I was going back to the hotel. They followed me as the next day we had another concert. Exept Ash who found his 'one night wife'. CC and Jake went to the little hotel's casino just to spend some more time playing. I walked to the elevator, I had only one though in my mind: Did they spend the whole day together? Would they spend the... night too? I got rid of these bad though as I went out of the elevator. Then I saw Jacky walking to a room. Calm your fucking paranoia Andrew! It could be his own room!
But people don't knock on their 'own room''s door... Then I just saw some blue hair as he walked in...

As she closed her door, I ran to my room then jumped on my bed. The worst I could imagine was about to happen!!!
“You have feelings for her?” I turned around to see Jinxx in my room. Damn it! Why did'nt I lock the door?
“I saw you looking at them this morning, then again tonight. And it seems like you did'nt like it. Is it why you were quiet all day? Is it why you had a nightmare last night? Is it why you are crying right now?” He paused between each question as if he wanted them to get to my brain one by one. I realized I was crying. What could I answer?

“Why are you thinking about the worse ever? Look, I am in your room, it does'nt mean that we are gay. Maybe they are just talking like you and I.” I shook my head, no. Not with all these smiles.
“Andrew. Do. You. Have. Feeling. For. Her?” he ask slowly as if I was retarded. I roll back on my bed. I don't know. I like her a lot, she is attractive. But I love Juliet. Why am I jealous? I'm lost.

“I don't know. I really can't understand myself.
-Why don't you just ask her?” I looked at him confusedly.
“Yes, just ask her if they are together or not.
-I can't... It'll sound damn stupid!
-No, it's not stupid to ask someone if they are in a relationship!
-You can't understand Jinxx! It's... It's a long story.
-Do you want to talk about it now?” I nodded. At least it will make me feel better. After all Jinxx is older and married, I hope he'll be able to help.

I told him the whole story, starting with the worried look in her eyes, then the kiss, the Juliet's kiss in front of Angel. The conversation of yesterday and finally my nightmare -yes I did'nt forget it at all! He was listenning silently. Nodding some times.

“If I understand well, you have a 'crush' on Angel but you don't want to loose Juliet, you are deeply obsessed with Angel so you even dream of her. You are also pretty jealous of her, when they had'nt even kissed each other in front of you. You achieve to 'fix' things with Angel and she does'nt seem to hate you anymore -if she ever did because she is really nice... Well! Maybe you're not in love, just attracted by her because -I can't lie- she is pretty cute! But you should just focus on you love for Juliet and stop focusing on the likely relationship of Angel. Then, you are sure of Juliet's feeling contrary to Angel's. She gave you some evidence about her love but you know girls...” he finnished giggling.

I did'nt talk about what I did and saw at the pool... I was still too embarrassed about it! But I guess Jinxx was right. He used to be! But, why did I like every single thing about her: her laugh, smile, kindness...? If I was supposed to be physically attacted? What if I was really in love?
I felt asleep and luckily had'nt got any nightmares! I woke up almost late for the concert, not in the mood of singing at all but I had to... For the fans! I got ready and went out of my room, I saw Angel waiting for the elevator. ALONE. I walked faster to her as she did'nt notice me:

“Hi Angel, how are you?
-Hi, I'm fine and you?” she gave me a little sad smile, nothing like what she gave Jacky... Stop comparing silly! Maybe something happened to her!
“I'm fine... Were is Jacky?
-I don't know, you need him?
-No, it's just that it seems like you're getting closer to each other.
-Ohw, maybe. But I don't know where he is.” she said shrugging.

I tried to look in her eyes for something she could be hiding. But there was only the usual 'sadness and worry'. As we were close in the elevator I asked her:
“Angel, are you sure you're okay?
-Please Andy don't start with that again”
I saw tears forming in her eyes as she sighed. I just pulled her into a hug. Even if my heart was beating like crazy, I felt it was the good thing to do.

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