Andy's POV
I went out of Angel's house and walked to mine. I just wish I could know if she's fine, or if she hates me. If that was so, I guess I will never have the luck to kiss her again... Then there was another problem: Juliet. Should I break up with her? Or tell her I kissed someone else? It's like cheating you know. I did'nt want to hurt her neither.
I thought I should just move on about this story with Angel, it was a mistake. A beautiful mistake but still. I hoped she'll forgive me, specially if the man was right. But I can't give up on my almost 3 years long relationship! I loved Juliet, more than myself. I did'nt want to lose her for some stupid fresh feelings. About Angel, she was young, if she was really in love with me it would pass.

I arrived home and found Juliet asleep on the couch. She must had stayed here waiting for me. She was so cute, looking like a baby asleep.
'But she's not as cute as Angel' said an evil voice in my head. I got quickly rid of it and take my girl bridal style to our room. She murmured some vague words still sleeping. I put her on our bed softly then lay next to her. No, I won't loose this for a random young girl! Even if she was damn hot.

The next morning, I new I had to make things clear between Angel and I. I was already sorry if it would hurt her, but I had to make a choice. So I texted Ronnie asking him if he would see her today, he replied yes. Then I proposed Juliet to come with me, as she liked to hear Angel singing she accepted. So we got ready and went out, walking hand in hand to their studio. Arrived at the park I saw her, she was walking headphones in. She did'nt notice us until Juliet call her. I felt my heart beating faster as my eyes met hers.

Angel slowly looked down at our hands entwined, at this moment I kissed Juliet passionately, she laughed a bit telling me that she loved me and I said it too. Angel's eyes turned emotionless. I knew she understood the silent message. After that she said with a normal happy voice: “Okay lovebirds! It's time for me to go or I'll be late -again” laughing softly, and we all walked. Here, I was wondering if she was'nt hurt at all or if she was perfectly hiding her feelings, looking exactly like usual... If it was so, did it means that she was usually sad?

Amber's POV
After a sleepless night I got ready then started walking to the studio. I was at the park, listening to 'Escape The Fate – You are so beautiful'. Of course I was thinking about Andy, wondering if I would see him again today. Then I heard someone calling me, it was a couple, a bit too far for me to see who they were, I stood there waiting for them. Then I looked up, to see Andy with Juliet, they were walking hand in hand. But after he sended me a hurtful silent message by kissing her in front of me.

Okay. I understood. I put on a happy normal mask on my face, like I used to. But inside I felt like a thousands knives were putted in my heart. Because this kiss meant way more than it seemed. It was like if he was telling me: 'The last night's kiss was nothing, a mistake. It will never happen again. I love her, she loves me: you're not in this shit. Get your stupid ass out of there. I don't want you, I don't love you. I will never let this woman for... a stupid emo freak.' Maybe he did'nt think it that rude, but that's how I felt it. I happily told them I needed to go, hoping I could cry a bit before get in the studio. But no, they were following me... Why?
My pain was just the price for their happiness. But if Andy is happy, it's okay for me. Even if it means that I'm just a kind of counterweight.

You cannot save me
I am the counterweight.
No need to save me
For I'm the counterweight.
And I will grieve no more,
I will die no more.
Heaven Shall Burn.
I. Need. To. Listen. To. Heaven Shall Burn. Death Metal. It'll help taking out a bit of my pain. I put on 'Heaven Shall Burn – Numbing The Pain'. Exactly what I needed.

'Dreams torn to pieces, broken like glass
Hope faded away, withered like leaves
Not knowing is blessing, ignorance the only protection

Nothing is numbing my pain
The fragments of my faith
Became the blade in my hand
Just darkness my eyes see
Pushed me to the end of all dead-end-streets'

I put it to play in loop, again and again. I don't feel better, but at least it help me contain my tears. We arrived in the studio, I did'nt feel like singing, but what excuse could I say? I must sing, and I did. I knew it was'nt as good as usual, I knew I did'nt sing with my heart this time. But It was'nt my fault, it was broken.

When it was over I just wanted to run out, but once again I could'nt. I stayed, faking smiles and laugh with everyone as if everyhing was alright. Then I felt Ronnie grabbing my arm to make me follow him, I did. He looked concerned when he said:

“Hey Amby what's wrong?” I liked when he called me 'Amby', it make me feel like his little daughter.
“Nothing I'm fine, why?
-Not this with me! I know you way to much to swallow these lies! What's going on? Tell me.” I sighed, I did'nt like when he was worried but I could'nt tell about Andy.
“I'm fine, don't worry.
-'I'm fine, don't worry'” he said imitating my voice “For me, that means: I'm wrong, force me to talk, you know?
-I... I can't talk about it. I'm sorry”

I felt tears forming in my eyes and looked down at my feet. He just pulled me into a hug, and I discretly sobbed against his chest.
“Here. Here. It's okay. No need of telling me, cry a bit then let's do your make up perfect again. Then you'll continue acting like everything is perfect am I right?” I nodded. How could he see? How could he knew? Why was he so nice to me?

He pulled away, looking at me worriedly. I forced myself to smile, he smiled too. Then I get to the bathroom to redo my smockey eye make up. I finally could get the fuck out and go home! But instead of going home, I walked to the beach, I wanted to be alone. I took off my shoes and ran on the sand, I ran until my leg, my feet, my head hurted so much I could'nt move anymore. Then I fell in a little corner of the beach. The physical pain helped me to stop thinking about the emotional ones. I felt so bad that for the first time since Gracie's death, I wanted to die.

Notes

So much drama... I gave her my bad habbit of listenning to metal when she's sad ^^
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