We Don't Belong
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I stood to the side of the stage nervous as hell as Juliet sang the last song before I was going to be going on. I was doing this of my own free will. And no one was forcing me to so it made me even more nervous. "How are you feeling?" Andy asked looking concerned.
"Scared as hell." I answered taking a deep breath and then let it out.
"Just relax and don't pass out...or throw up. I'm sure the fans won't appreciate that." Andy joked.
I smiled slightly. "Thanks for the reassuring words."
"If it makes you feel any better CC, Ashley, Danny and Ben are out in the crowd."
"I don't know whether to be relieved or even more nervous." I answered.
"I would like to call a friend out for the next song. You know her as Andy Biersack’s girlfriend. Please give a warm welcome to Riley Rose." Juliet called out.
"Please kiss me good luck?" I begged Andy.
"No problem." He smiled and gave me a quick kiss and handed me my mic.
I went out on stage and people clapped. "Hi everybody." I said into my mic. "Hopefully me dropping in on other people's shows won't become a habit." I joked.
"She just couldn't resist my power of persuasion." Juliet said with a smile as the band got set up. We were doing this with electric instruments rather than acoustic like the rest of her set. "Which was lots of begging on my part."
I laughed, “Sure it was.” I said sarcastically.
She looked back at the band and they gave her the thumbs up. “The song we’re going to be doing is Heart Song. Enjoy.”
The music started playing and I started relaxing. Instead of just standing there like when I sang with Andy, I played up the crowd. It was the best feeling in the world, like a little high. No wonder the guys liked performing so much. When we finished the song Juliet held up my hand and we bowed together. “Thank you guys for coming out! You were great!” Juliet said into the mic and then we exited off the stage.
***
After the shows we had to leave so that we could make it to the next venue by the next day. Andy and I were sitting on the couch as the guys were sitting at the table playing some drinking game.
“Want to go to bed?” Andy asked kissing my cheek.
“Come on you guys can’t go to bed.” Ashley chimed in. “You guys haven’t even played yet.”
“What are you guys playing?” I asked getting up from my seat.
“Poker with alcohol instead of poker chips. The person who wins doesn’t have to take a shot; the people who fold or lose have to split the shots.” CC answered.
“Ooo, I want in, I’m awesome at poker. Move over.” I said to CC and he scooted over squeezing Jake against the wall.
“Thanks a lot CC.” He mumbled turning a little so he wasn’t so squished.
“No problem.” CC said with a smile. He set his cards down; he had four Aces. “Now drink up bitches.”
Andy pulled up a chair to the table and watched as we played. I won two and then lost three and then won another round. “I’m going to bed.” Andy said standing up and threw his cup he had been drinking out of into the garbage. “You coming babe.”
I took a sip of my drink that CC had made me and shook my head. “I’m beating their asses.” I answered and looked at the cards that I was dealt.
“Well don’t drink too much. You don’t want to have a hangover two days in a row.” He said, kissed my head and went back to the bunks.
*A few weeks later*
Andy and Matt were doing an interview with Bryan Starzzz (as Andy called him). I was standing on the side watching it. I had watched the previous ones that he had done with Andy and I loved them. They were funny and unlike any interview I had seen before.
“So I hear you’re touring with your girlfriend. How’s that turning out?” Bryan asked.
“She seems to be enjoying herself.” Andy answered. “She’s right there.” He pointed to me. “She’s a little grumpy because she’s hung over and it’s earlier than noon. She’s not a morning person.”
The camera turned to me and I smiled pleasantly at it. And then it turned back to Bryan and Andy. Andy smirked at me.
“She seems to be wearing the wrong band.” Bryan pointed out because I was wearing an Asking Alexandria shirt that had Ben on it.
Andy shrugged, “Not really. Her and Ben have become good friends. Besides she wears other Black Veil Bride merch all the time.”
“What’s it like to have her around all these guys all the time?” Bryan asked.
Andy played with his hair; he was obviously nervous about something. “It’s no problem. I mean at the end of the night I’m the one with her in my bed or rather bunk.” He replied and they continued on with the interview.
“You lied.” I called him out as we were walking to the stage.
“What?” Andy asked obviously confused.
“During the interview.” I said. “When Bryan asked what’s it like having me around all the guys.”
“I didn’t lie.” He answered sounding annoyed.
“Bull shit. You started messing with your hair when he asked that.” I called him out.
“I mess with my hair all the time.”
“When it’s fuckin windy or you’re nervous about something.” I retorted.
“Why are you bringing this up now…when I have to go on stage?” He stopped and turned so that he was facing me.
“Because it’s about me. What do you think that I’m going to cheat on you or something?” People were starting to look at us.
Andy looked around and then back at me, “I’m not going to discuss this with you right now.” He said in a low voice so nobody else but me could hear.
“Whatever.” I said annoyed and started walking towards the stage.
Andy sighed and started walking beside me. “You’re changing.” He blurted out. “Into someone that I’m sure you’re going to hate.”
“I am not fuckin changing.” I answered turning around so that I was facing him.
“I’m going to call Bullshit on that.” Andy answered.
I glared at him, “Fine then smart guy. How am I changing?” I asked mocking him.
He glared back at me, “When I met you, you hated drunken people and alcohol. You didn’t even touch a drop of it. And now you’re drinking every night and not even a little but a lot.”
“Hey, I’m just trying to have fun. I’m sorry if that doesn’t sit well with you.” I answered defensively.
“Then you pick stupid little fights with me. We barely fought before and now it’s like every day! I love you but you need a fuckin reality check.” He started walking away from me. “Just go back to the fuckin bus or whatever. I don’t want you side stage today.”
***
As I walked back to the bus I called Katelyn. “Hey chica, long time no hear?” She answered.
“Yeah sorry about that.” I said with a sigh and ran my hands through my hair. “My days have just been running together.”
“Yeah I heard from CC, seems like you’re having a lot of fun.” She answered. “So how’s Mr Andy Biersack?”
“Him and I just had a fight.” I answered.
“I heard there’s been a lot of that lately too.”
“Do you and CC have nothing better to do than talk about me and mine and Andy’s relationship?” I snapped.
“You don’t snap at me.” She said sounding pissed. “You and Andy might have had a fight but that’s no excuse to take it out on me.”
“Why do you feel the need to talk about me with your boy toy then?”
She laughed cynically, “Are you fuckin serious? One…I ask him about you because you feel the need to drink instead of calling me. I haven’t heard from you since you left Hollywood and you promised me that we would talk every day.”
“What are you…” I started but she didn’t let me finish.
“No I am not finished. And two let’s get on the fact that you’ve been drinking and from what I understand a lot and every night.”
“Like you can talk. You drink too.” I defended myself.
“Every once in a while Riley. I thought we learned our lesson in high school?” She answered.
“How dare you bring that up?” I said through gritted teeth. “It wasn’t my fault and you’ve spent years trying to make me see that.”
“And I don’t blame you. I was stupid and drunk too. But I hoped that you would have at least learned your lesson.”
“It’s not like I’m going to random parties and drinking. I’m with the guys.” I responded back annoyed. What did she think that I was stupid?
“Yeah but what about that one time when you leave because you’re angry or something?”
“Like I would be so stupid.” I answered.
She sighed, “You know what, I have to go. I have a large case load and I don’t want to talk to you when you’re pissed.” She hung up without even saying good bye.
I pressed the end button and stuffed my phone in my pocket. People were assholes.
"Scared as hell." I answered taking a deep breath and then let it out.
"Just relax and don't pass out...or throw up. I'm sure the fans won't appreciate that." Andy joked.
I smiled slightly. "Thanks for the reassuring words."
"If it makes you feel any better CC, Ashley, Danny and Ben are out in the crowd."
"I don't know whether to be relieved or even more nervous." I answered.
"I would like to call a friend out for the next song. You know her as Andy Biersack’s girlfriend. Please give a warm welcome to Riley Rose." Juliet called out.
"Please kiss me good luck?" I begged Andy.
"No problem." He smiled and gave me a quick kiss and handed me my mic.
I went out on stage and people clapped. "Hi everybody." I said into my mic. "Hopefully me dropping in on other people's shows won't become a habit." I joked.
"She just couldn't resist my power of persuasion." Juliet said with a smile as the band got set up. We were doing this with electric instruments rather than acoustic like the rest of her set. "Which was lots of begging on my part."
I laughed, “Sure it was.” I said sarcastically.
She looked back at the band and they gave her the thumbs up. “The song we’re going to be doing is Heart Song. Enjoy.”
The music started playing and I started relaxing. Instead of just standing there like when I sang with Andy, I played up the crowd. It was the best feeling in the world, like a little high. No wonder the guys liked performing so much. When we finished the song Juliet held up my hand and we bowed together. “Thank you guys for coming out! You were great!” Juliet said into the mic and then we exited off the stage.
***
After the shows we had to leave so that we could make it to the next venue by the next day. Andy and I were sitting on the couch as the guys were sitting at the table playing some drinking game.
“Want to go to bed?” Andy asked kissing my cheek.
“Come on you guys can’t go to bed.” Ashley chimed in. “You guys haven’t even played yet.”
“What are you guys playing?” I asked getting up from my seat.
“Poker with alcohol instead of poker chips. The person who wins doesn’t have to take a shot; the people who fold or lose have to split the shots.” CC answered.
“Ooo, I want in, I’m awesome at poker. Move over.” I said to CC and he scooted over squeezing Jake against the wall.
“Thanks a lot CC.” He mumbled turning a little so he wasn’t so squished.
“No problem.” CC said with a smile. He set his cards down; he had four Aces. “Now drink up bitches.”
Andy pulled up a chair to the table and watched as we played. I won two and then lost three and then won another round. “I’m going to bed.” Andy said standing up and threw his cup he had been drinking out of into the garbage. “You coming babe.”
I took a sip of my drink that CC had made me and shook my head. “I’m beating their asses.” I answered and looked at the cards that I was dealt.
“Well don’t drink too much. You don’t want to have a hangover two days in a row.” He said, kissed my head and went back to the bunks.
*A few weeks later*
Andy and Matt were doing an interview with Bryan Starzzz (as Andy called him). I was standing on the side watching it. I had watched the previous ones that he had done with Andy and I loved them. They were funny and unlike any interview I had seen before.
“So I hear you’re touring with your girlfriend. How’s that turning out?” Bryan asked.
“She seems to be enjoying herself.” Andy answered. “She’s right there.” He pointed to me. “She’s a little grumpy because she’s hung over and it’s earlier than noon. She’s not a morning person.”
The camera turned to me and I smiled pleasantly at it. And then it turned back to Bryan and Andy. Andy smirked at me.
“She seems to be wearing the wrong band.” Bryan pointed out because I was wearing an Asking Alexandria shirt that had Ben on it.
Andy shrugged, “Not really. Her and Ben have become good friends. Besides she wears other Black Veil Bride merch all the time.”
“What’s it like to have her around all these guys all the time?” Bryan asked.
Andy played with his hair; he was obviously nervous about something. “It’s no problem. I mean at the end of the night I’m the one with her in my bed or rather bunk.” He replied and they continued on with the interview.
“You lied.” I called him out as we were walking to the stage.
“What?” Andy asked obviously confused.
“During the interview.” I said. “When Bryan asked what’s it like having me around all the guys.”
“I didn’t lie.” He answered sounding annoyed.
“Bull shit. You started messing with your hair when he asked that.” I called him out.
“I mess with my hair all the time.”
“When it’s fuckin windy or you’re nervous about something.” I retorted.
“Why are you bringing this up now…when I have to go on stage?” He stopped and turned so that he was facing me.
“Because it’s about me. What do you think that I’m going to cheat on you or something?” People were starting to look at us.
Andy looked around and then back at me, “I’m not going to discuss this with you right now.” He said in a low voice so nobody else but me could hear.
“Whatever.” I said annoyed and started walking towards the stage.
Andy sighed and started walking beside me. “You’re changing.” He blurted out. “Into someone that I’m sure you’re going to hate.”
“I am not fuckin changing.” I answered turning around so that I was facing him.
“I’m going to call Bullshit on that.” Andy answered.
I glared at him, “Fine then smart guy. How am I changing?” I asked mocking him.
He glared back at me, “When I met you, you hated drunken people and alcohol. You didn’t even touch a drop of it. And now you’re drinking every night and not even a little but a lot.”
“Hey, I’m just trying to have fun. I’m sorry if that doesn’t sit well with you.” I answered defensively.
“Then you pick stupid little fights with me. We barely fought before and now it’s like every day! I love you but you need a fuckin reality check.” He started walking away from me. “Just go back to the fuckin bus or whatever. I don’t want you side stage today.”
***
As I walked back to the bus I called Katelyn. “Hey chica, long time no hear?” She answered.
“Yeah sorry about that.” I said with a sigh and ran my hands through my hair. “My days have just been running together.”
“Yeah I heard from CC, seems like you’re having a lot of fun.” She answered. “So how’s Mr Andy Biersack?”
“Him and I just had a fight.” I answered.
“I heard there’s been a lot of that lately too.”
“Do you and CC have nothing better to do than talk about me and mine and Andy’s relationship?” I snapped.
“You don’t snap at me.” She said sounding pissed. “You and Andy might have had a fight but that’s no excuse to take it out on me.”
“Why do you feel the need to talk about me with your boy toy then?”
She laughed cynically, “Are you fuckin serious? One…I ask him about you because you feel the need to drink instead of calling me. I haven’t heard from you since you left Hollywood and you promised me that we would talk every day.”
“What are you…” I started but she didn’t let me finish.
“No I am not finished. And two let’s get on the fact that you’ve been drinking and from what I understand a lot and every night.”
“Like you can talk. You drink too.” I defended myself.
“Every once in a while Riley. I thought we learned our lesson in high school?” She answered.
“How dare you bring that up?” I said through gritted teeth. “It wasn’t my fault and you’ve spent years trying to make me see that.”
“And I don’t blame you. I was stupid and drunk too. But I hoped that you would have at least learned your lesson.”
“It’s not like I’m going to random parties and drinking. I’m with the guys.” I responded back annoyed. What did she think that I was stupid?
“Yeah but what about that one time when you leave because you’re angry or something?”
“Like I would be so stupid.” I answered.
She sighed, “You know what, I have to go. I have a large case load and I don’t want to talk to you when you’re pissed.” She hung up without even saying good bye.
I pressed the end button and stuffed my phone in my pocket. People were assholes.
Notes
Riley's Outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/bryanstarzzz_interview/set?id=77702180I hope you like the chapter...and please don't hate any of the characters lol I have a plan and it unfortunately has to go like this :( I planned the ending out with my best friend so yeah....can't wait to post that but that's a few chapters away
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3/30/14