We Don't Belong
'Facebook Official'
"So Andy tells me that you go to college." His mom said as she started handing out the food Matt had brought. I was sitting back in my chair and Andy was just looking at us amused. A nurse had come in and given him some more pain medication but not as strong as the first time.
"Yeah, I go to UCLA. I'm a double major in psychology and anthropology." I answered opening my Amp. I wasn't really hungry at the moment.
"Yeah she's smart." Andy chimed in. "I went to class with her once or twice...whatever." He paused for a second like he was trying to organize his thoughts. "She told me it was supposed to be about sex so I'm like why not. Did you know some people just fuck outside? Pfft...I didn't. That must be awk-award. Anyways, when I got there the professor had a slide with me on it and said that I looked feminine."
I laughed at Andy's butchered story.
"Can you translate that for me? Because none of that really makes sense." Andy's mom asked trying not to laugh.
"What are you talking about? It all makes perfect sense." He said exasperatedly.
"Babe eat your food and let me tell the story." I said pouring out Andy's fries in front of him.
"I told him that I was learning about sex, sexuality and gender in cultural anthro and schizophrenia in abnormal behavior, so he decided to come to class with me. Well we were learning about androgyny and transgender. As an example of androgyny she used David Bowie and for a more modern example Tokio Hotel and Black Veil Brides. And yes she did call Andy feminine but she didn't know he was in the class." I said summerizing the whole story.
His mom nodded, "Now that makes more sense. What are you planning to do after college?" She asked sitting down in a chair next to me.
I shrugged my shoulders, "I haven't really thought about it. Go on to more schooling either for psychiatry or like forensic anthropology. But I'm not sure. My decisions are always changing."
"She's going to be my slave this summer on tour. Like she'll get me stuff I want and do what I want her to do. Like sex." He said stuffing his face with the fries. I couldn't believe he was discussing sex in front of his mom. Granted he was probably high as hell but still.
"Not like that's going to happen any time soon." I answered him.
"What?" He asked looking totally heartbroken. "You don't want to have sex with me?"
I slapped my forehead and shook my head. "Andy you're injured. We can't have sex."
"I don't believe you. I'm going to ask the doctor." He said grumpily.
Andy's mom laughed. She seemed to be enjoying mine and her sons interaction.
"It's like talking to a kid." I said exasperatedly.
"So you two aren't actually going out yet?"
I shook my head, "Not officially. We practically live together and spend a lot of time together but we don't really have the title boyfriend and girlfriend yet. Our friends keep bugging us about it." I answered.
"Well it sounds like you two are together; you guys are just too stubborn to acknowledge it." She answered. "Matt told me that you freaked out when Andy got hurt." She stated.
"I got a bad feeling when the song started. I didn't like the fact that he was so high up. My friend told me to relax and I started to when he sat down but then he jumped and the next thing I knew he was on the ground not moving. My heart stopped. The only thing going on in my head was that I had to get to him to make sure he was alright but then Matt held me back. I was so panicked; I didn't know what was going on. And then he stood up and walked back stage and I could breathe again." I finished, noticing I was starting to cry, I wiped the tears away and cleared my throat. "I watched the video after and think about how frickin lucky he is to only have the broken ribs." I looked back at him and saw that he was back to sleep and smiled. He looked so adorable...not a word I would have thought to use with Andy Biersack.
"I think you love my son you just don't know it yet or don't want to admit it. But I think you're perfect for each other." She said with a warm smile.
"The whole perfect for each other thing is good to hear after hearing that we're too different for each other to last long. And as for the love thing..." I shrugged my shoulders and looked back at Andy. "I don't know. But I can't imagine life without him." I looked back at his mother. "He makes my life so much more interesting and can make me laugh even though the only person that was able to do that before was my best friend Katelyn. And being with him just feels so right and I can be myself with him and not just some person everybody else wants me to be. So maybe I am in love with him. But it’s not like I’m going to admit it to him first. I’m too stubborn for that." I answered with a smirk.
***
“What the fuck are you eating?” Andy asked me as I sat down on his bed with a can of chocolate frosting, a jar of Jiff peanut butter and a spoon in my mouth. I had asked Matt to pick some up from my apartment on his way to the hospital. I was stressed and needed a little indulging.
“Watch your mouth, your mother is in the room.” I said around my spoon, as I opened up the frosting and then the Jiff.
Andy rolled his eyes, “She doesn’t really care, and only you’re parents are that uptight.” He answered watching what I was doing.
“It’s peanut butter and chocolate frosting.” I answered sticking my spoon in the peanut butter and then the chocolate frosting.
“What are you pregnant or something? You know with the weird cravings and what not.” Andy asked.
I looked at him surprised as I licked it off of my spoon. He was being mean. “You’re my fuck buddy, should I be worried?”
He looked like he was thinking about it for a second, and then shook his head. “Nope, I don’t think so.”
“Yeah that’s what I thought grump.” I answered my mouth full.
His mom laughed at us, “Be nice you two.”
“He started it.” I answered after I swallowed what was in my mouth. I put some more on my spoon and stuffed it in Andy’s mouth before he could reply.
“I don’t want your germs.” He answered with a mouth full of peanut butter and frosting as he handed me back the spoon.
“It’s not like you already don’t have them.” I answered leaning against him gently.
He kissed my shoulder and then wrapped his arm around my waist. “How much longer do I have to be in here?” He asked.
“If everything is healing right, one more night and two days.” I answered and stuffed another spoonful into my mouth.
“You know everything.” He kissed my cheek.
I rolled my eyes, “No I don’t. I just know the answers to the questions you ask me.” I answered.
“What don’t you know?” He asked.
I thought about it for a second, “Anything about calculus. I suck at math and just passed that class with a C.” I answered with a smirk. “And I have no clue what I’m going to do with my life after school.”
“We’ll figure something out.” Andy answered. “You still have like two more years.”
I chuckled, “Who’s to say that we will still be together in two more years? So how will ‘we’ figure something out?”
“I say that we will be together in two more years.” He answered.
I laughed, “We’re not even technically together now.”
“Says who? Your Facebook? Because I obviously don’t have a Facebook that denies that.”
I turned so that I was looking at his face. “Are you asking me to be your girlfriend Andy Biersack? To make it Facebook official?”
“Damn right I am.” He answered.
I laughed, “Fine then, I’ll make it Facebook official.” I joked.
“Finally!” Matt yelled. “We’ve only been bugging the hell out of you two for like what a month now. I have to tell everyone.” He said picking up his phone.
Geez…you’d think we said we were going to marry each other or something.
"Yeah, I go to UCLA. I'm a double major in psychology and anthropology." I answered opening my Amp. I wasn't really hungry at the moment.
"Yeah she's smart." Andy chimed in. "I went to class with her once or twice...whatever." He paused for a second like he was trying to organize his thoughts. "She told me it was supposed to be about sex so I'm like why not. Did you know some people just fuck outside? Pfft...I didn't. That must be awk-award. Anyways, when I got there the professor had a slide with me on it and said that I looked feminine."
I laughed at Andy's butchered story.
"Can you translate that for me? Because none of that really makes sense." Andy's mom asked trying not to laugh.
"What are you talking about? It all makes perfect sense." He said exasperatedly.
"Babe eat your food and let me tell the story." I said pouring out Andy's fries in front of him.
"I told him that I was learning about sex, sexuality and gender in cultural anthro and schizophrenia in abnormal behavior, so he decided to come to class with me. Well we were learning about androgyny and transgender. As an example of androgyny she used David Bowie and for a more modern example Tokio Hotel and Black Veil Brides. And yes she did call Andy feminine but she didn't know he was in the class." I said summerizing the whole story.
His mom nodded, "Now that makes more sense. What are you planning to do after college?" She asked sitting down in a chair next to me.
I shrugged my shoulders, "I haven't really thought about it. Go on to more schooling either for psychiatry or like forensic anthropology. But I'm not sure. My decisions are always changing."
"She's going to be my slave this summer on tour. Like she'll get me stuff I want and do what I want her to do. Like sex." He said stuffing his face with the fries. I couldn't believe he was discussing sex in front of his mom. Granted he was probably high as hell but still.
"Not like that's going to happen any time soon." I answered him.
"What?" He asked looking totally heartbroken. "You don't want to have sex with me?"
I slapped my forehead and shook my head. "Andy you're injured. We can't have sex."
"I don't believe you. I'm going to ask the doctor." He said grumpily.
Andy's mom laughed. She seemed to be enjoying mine and her sons interaction.
"It's like talking to a kid." I said exasperatedly.
"So you two aren't actually going out yet?"
I shook my head, "Not officially. We practically live together and spend a lot of time together but we don't really have the title boyfriend and girlfriend yet. Our friends keep bugging us about it." I answered.
"Well it sounds like you two are together; you guys are just too stubborn to acknowledge it." She answered. "Matt told me that you freaked out when Andy got hurt." She stated.
"I got a bad feeling when the song started. I didn't like the fact that he was so high up. My friend told me to relax and I started to when he sat down but then he jumped and the next thing I knew he was on the ground not moving. My heart stopped. The only thing going on in my head was that I had to get to him to make sure he was alright but then Matt held me back. I was so panicked; I didn't know what was going on. And then he stood up and walked back stage and I could breathe again." I finished, noticing I was starting to cry, I wiped the tears away and cleared my throat. "I watched the video after and think about how frickin lucky he is to only have the broken ribs." I looked back at him and saw that he was back to sleep and smiled. He looked so adorable...not a word I would have thought to use with Andy Biersack.
"I think you love my son you just don't know it yet or don't want to admit it. But I think you're perfect for each other." She said with a warm smile.
"The whole perfect for each other thing is good to hear after hearing that we're too different for each other to last long. And as for the love thing..." I shrugged my shoulders and looked back at Andy. "I don't know. But I can't imagine life without him." I looked back at his mother. "He makes my life so much more interesting and can make me laugh even though the only person that was able to do that before was my best friend Katelyn. And being with him just feels so right and I can be myself with him and not just some person everybody else wants me to be. So maybe I am in love with him. But it’s not like I’m going to admit it to him first. I’m too stubborn for that." I answered with a smirk.
***
“What the fuck are you eating?” Andy asked me as I sat down on his bed with a can of chocolate frosting, a jar of Jiff peanut butter and a spoon in my mouth. I had asked Matt to pick some up from my apartment on his way to the hospital. I was stressed and needed a little indulging.
“Watch your mouth, your mother is in the room.” I said around my spoon, as I opened up the frosting and then the Jiff.
Andy rolled his eyes, “She doesn’t really care, and only you’re parents are that uptight.” He answered watching what I was doing.
“It’s peanut butter and chocolate frosting.” I answered sticking my spoon in the peanut butter and then the chocolate frosting.
“What are you pregnant or something? You know with the weird cravings and what not.” Andy asked.
I looked at him surprised as I licked it off of my spoon. He was being mean. “You’re my fuck buddy, should I be worried?”
He looked like he was thinking about it for a second, and then shook his head. “Nope, I don’t think so.”
“Yeah that’s what I thought grump.” I answered my mouth full.
His mom laughed at us, “Be nice you two.”
“He started it.” I answered after I swallowed what was in my mouth. I put some more on my spoon and stuffed it in Andy’s mouth before he could reply.
“I don’t want your germs.” He answered with a mouth full of peanut butter and frosting as he handed me back the spoon.
“It’s not like you already don’t have them.” I answered leaning against him gently.
He kissed my shoulder and then wrapped his arm around my waist. “How much longer do I have to be in here?” He asked.
“If everything is healing right, one more night and two days.” I answered and stuffed another spoonful into my mouth.
“You know everything.” He kissed my cheek.
I rolled my eyes, “No I don’t. I just know the answers to the questions you ask me.” I answered.
“What don’t you know?” He asked.
I thought about it for a second, “Anything about calculus. I suck at math and just passed that class with a C.” I answered with a smirk. “And I have no clue what I’m going to do with my life after school.”
“We’ll figure something out.” Andy answered. “You still have like two more years.”
I chuckled, “Who’s to say that we will still be together in two more years? So how will ‘we’ figure something out?”
“I say that we will be together in two more years.” He answered.
I laughed, “We’re not even technically together now.”
“Says who? Your Facebook? Because I obviously don’t have a Facebook that denies that.”
I turned so that I was looking at his face. “Are you asking me to be your girlfriend Andy Biersack? To make it Facebook official?”
“Damn right I am.” He answered.
I laughed, “Fine then, I’ll make it Facebook official.” I joked.
“Finally!” Matt yelled. “We’ve only been bugging the hell out of you two for like what a month now. I have to tell everyone.” He said picking up his phone.
Geez…you’d think we said we were going to marry each other or something.
Update! Please!
3/30/14