Save Me From Myself

" attention , Flight 456 to Los Angeles will be boarding in 15 minutes at gate 12 Thank you and have a great day!"

I let out a breath as the attendant who just made the announcement placed the phone down back on its base and continued the conversation she was having with the other attendant just moments before the announcement.

It was 7:45 now and after about twenty minutes of going threw security and finally finding my gate I was sitting in one of the many black seats from the row directly next to the door the passengers including me would be boarding the plane.

There wasn't many people in the area besides a mother and her three children and a few random solo travelers like me but much older but I was almost positive more late travelers would show up moments before we took off.

I pulled my phone out trying to distract my shaking body due to a mixture of excitement, my tired state and nerves. I decided to scroll threw twitter glancing threw the many tweets that lined my newsfeed some from random people I just happened to follow, some from people I knew.

After minutes of basically stalking people i locked my phone again placing it back into my pocket, right as more passengers filed into the waiting area.

Most of the people consisted of older men dressed in suits and ties meaning this trip to LA for them was business but one guy caught my attention as he started to make his way to my row staring intently at his iPhone screen in one hand and a black laptop bag in the other.

He was a semi-tall guy that looked to be around in his twenties but his age didn't make him stand out to me, it was his appearance.

He wore black skinny jeans and black vans along with a warm looking black jacket half zipped up that hid the barely visible band T-shirt he was wearing causing me not to be able to read the band name. His short dark brown hair spiked to the front of his head and I could also notice small black plugs in his ears.

When I meant that he stood out I meant it in a good way, it made me feel not alone, it felt like the way I dressed was more normal when I saw someone else like me if it was weird.

As he slowly took a seat 6 or 7 seats away from me I took another glance at him studying his facial features. He looked familiar to me , I was certain but I mean how? Unless he knew Jake? Or was in a band Jake knew? But I wasn't going to just walk over and ask, He most likely saw that I already looked him over a billion times like a creep so I decided to just sit back in my seat as the man pulled his eyes away from the iPhone screen and put it into his pocket.

I quickly looked away from him as he started to glance around so he didn't catch he basically stalking him. The longer I sat there my nerves crept into my body as long as anxiety as more people came towards the gate.

I out of habit started to tap my foot softly on the gray patterned carpets my whole knee shaking. I wasn't scared of traveling but no matter what I got nervous partly because I was all by myself .

I was a mess in social situations and when I was all alone it made more anxiety to course through my body at the thought of sitting on a plane with a complete stranger.

The stuff I do for family

Within ten minutes the flight attendant finally went on the loud speaker and announced that we were allowed to board the plane causing everyone around the room to get up and head to the tall metal doors .

. I decided to just sit and wait for everyone else to get through so I wouldn't be caught in the rush of people causing a commotion and panic to the two ladies standing by the exist and collecting each persons ticket and letting them by .

I took the time to shoot Jake a quick text just saying that I was boarding the plane and I'd see him soon. I took a deep breath in rubbing my head , I was bouncing my knee up and down causing some people to send glances at me

" First time on a plane?"

I suddenly snapped my head to beside me where the voice that disturbed my thoughts came from I then noticed the guy who I had recently stalked was now sitting in the seat next to me sending me a warm smile

I let put a small chuckle rubbing my sweaty palms on my thighs

" No um , I've been on one plenty times, this my first time traveling alone" I basically stuttered out causing the man to chuckle a little nodding

. " That was my second guess , you looked like you were gonna pass out or something and i thought I'd have to try and bring you back to life" he said sending a small laugh to escape his lips after

" No I promise you there will be no need i'm just bad in social situations"

He nodded most likely understanding while unzipping his laptop bag tossing his headphones in there zipping it back up

" Good , I've dealt with people passing out on me before so it wouldn't be my first but still"

I smiled slightly as he then stood up grabbing his back pack and computer bag slinging it around his right shoulder after placing both his arms through the backpack straps.

I stood up noticing only a few more people going through the gate and slung my black fox riders co. backpack on my back grabbing my suitcase following him as he started for the gate

" Well I guess your services won't be needed today." I said handing my ticket over to the lady after him soon walking past them and walking through the door down the long corridor.

" Guess not, I should probably introduce myself so I don't look like a creep" he said before briefly stopping and holding his hand out to shake mine

I chuckled before reaching out to shake his as the flight attendants started to shut the doors and headed towards the plane causing the shake to end and push us forward onto the plane
" I guess later" I said in back of him and he nodded slowly making his way down the tiny isle to his seat

I took a look at my ticket and once I found my seat number and I found it.. That was the guys row too .

It wasn't a crowded plane so it was only us in the row which I guess was a good thing.

He opened up the latch up top to place his backpack up in the small space provided and when he saw me next to him he chuckled while shoving the bag all the way in the back

" This is your row too?, creepy"

I laughed a little as he suddenly reached for my suitcase and lifted it in the compartment where his bag was causing me to smile, that thing was a little heavy and if i tried to lift it up there it would've been a adventure.

" It's like i'm stalking you" I said quietly so only he could hear me due to the fact that half the plane already had their eyes on us and I was starting to feel anxiety in my chest

" I guess so, you can have the window i have a feeling you might need it" he said noticing my already shaking form

"Thanks" i mumbled quickly sliding in the right side row all the way to the window seat

He slid in right after me leaving the middle seat free placing his computer bag there next to where I had put my backpack

" No problem I travel a lot due to my job and one of the guys I travel with has anxiety and I know that every time we get on a plane he starts to shake and kinda freak out just like you"

i laughed a little rubbing my sweaty palms against my black skinny jeans as he buckled his seatbelt

" and he told me that if he sits by the window he feels less closed in and it releases some of his anxiety

" I nodded buckling my seatbelt trying to think of what job could constantly have him on a plane, he doesn't look like a office worker type of guy, he's too cool for that

" So I guess I should truly introduce myself where theres no interruptions" he said running a hand through his brown hair shooting me a smile

" Quick before we take off" I joked causing him to laugh shaking my hand for the second time today

" I'm Matt , but many people call me Flyzik "

Once those words left his mouth i instantly recognized the name but I couldn't think of where he was from, a band maybe? I mean he dressed like it.

I shook the thoughts away before stuttering out my words

" Julia and I don't have a cool last name so it's just Julia "

He chuckled lightly releasing my hand as the attendant started to go over the plane safety rules

" I never said mine was cool, I just said thats what they call me" he almost whispered as the lady finally stopped talking

I shook my head smiling as I reached into my pocket to grab my phone and headphones but I had a feeling I wouldn't be needing them because Matt was now facing me as the plane started to lift off the ground.

As I looked out the window quickly i silently smiled as we lifted off toward my home and away from my hell.

" So what brings you to LA all by yourself?" Matt asked sitting back into his seat looking at me closely

" Well me and my family are moving back down there , i grew up in California but in 2008 we moved down to Boston for my dads job but since he travels a lot we convinced him to move back so after four years we're heading back , I'm here alone because my parents wanted to drive our car down there so we have a car"

He nodded a little before cracking a chuckle

" Still doesn't explain why you're here alone" he said with a smirk on his lips

I leaned forward a little smiling at him slightly

" I guess not, I'm heading down there now to see my cousin who's picking me up, i haven't seen him in around a year because he's always on the road so I guess i just couldn't wait to see him"

He raised a eyebrow at me before I noticed his band shirt now , Pierce The Veil, yup no matter what, he had great taste in music.

"why is he always on the road? Sorry to go deep but"

I chuckled shaking my head rubbing my hands together . I wasn't that kind of person who flaunted out that Jake was who he was, fame didn't matter to me, in my eyes we wasn't a rockstar, he was just my older cousin.

" no it's fine, he tours a lot is what I meant, but until about February he's gonna be home "

he again raised a eyebrow nodding his head slightly as i lightly tapped my fingers on my iphone screen .

" So he's in a band?"

I nodded my head staring at my phone .

I wasn't avoiding telling him I just was worried if he knew Jake and if they got along because I was almost certain Matt was in the band scene, i just didn't know how.

" What band I might know them" he asked and I ran a hand threw my hair to fix my side bangs

" Uh you might, Black Veil Brides?" I asked and he raised a eyebrow giving a smile as he nodded

" I do know them very talented dudes, which ones your cousin?"

I felt some sort of relief wash over me as i smiled, some people i met loved the guys, some absolutely despised them so i was glad Matt was the first person.

" Jake Pitts the lead guitarist"

He again nodded smiling

" he is a amazing guitarist if I say so myself" he said causing me to relax a tiny bit smiling

Before I could speak he cut me off with a slight smile

" You know the band I manage for on tour has played with them a few times at warped and other festivals "

I sat up straight looking at him , i knew he was something related to music. He was now on his phone typing at a slow rate for something I couldn't see.

" Really? What band?" I asked causing him to place his phone on his lap shrugging a laugh

" oh you may not know them their total jackasses, All Time Low?"

I suddenly froze staring at him trying to process the name of the band he just said. All Time Low was one of my favorite bands from ever since I was like 11 and I probably knew almost every song by them and the story on how they got together always amazed me

. i always wanted to ether meet them or see them play, now here I was, sitting on a plane with their tour manager.

I suddenly felt my cheeks warm by the fact that Matt had a big grin on his face as he glanced down at my many rubber bracelets of bands that lined my wrist and of course All Time Low was one of them.

" I'll take that as a yes" he said chuckling causing me to laugh slightly why hiding my heated face

" yeah I may have heard a song or two of them before" I joked causing him to smile

" you my friend have good taste in music , that's mostly why I walked over to you, once I saw your shirt , Game Over" he said motioning to the black and Yellow Of Mice & Men shirt I was wearing under my unzipped black sweatshirt

I smiled motioning to his now visible black and red pierce the veil shirt causing him to look down

" Right back at you"

He nodded at his stomach causing me to smirk as he lifted his head back up looking over to me but before he could speak i spoke

" so, what brings you to LA?" I asked changing the subject causing him to shrug sitting back in his seat

" Well we're currently on tour and as you may know played Boston yesterday "

I nodded even though I didn't get to see them due to the move knew it was yesterday

" Still doesn't explain why your here alone"

He threw his head back in silent laughter before turning to me

" Guess not smart one, we have a few days off so I'm just heading down to visit some family and friends I haven't seen in a while and I bet you know exactly how it feels to be away from your loved ones for months on end "

I nodded in agreement, it was the worst part I hated from Jake being in the band, I was so proud of him and all but I sometimes wished he was always around, i know he was out there helping his fans through his music , But I need him too

" 100% but hey with that sacrifice brings so much more positive stuff, I hate the distance but I'm proud " i muttered causing him to smile at me before glancing at his iPhone

" you my friend are my new best friend " he said while holding out his hand for me to shake I looked up at Matt who just like two hours ago was some total stranger to me but now was not only a tour manager to a awesome band, but my savior for this plane ride and I had a feeling because of him, would go by fast

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" Wait , he did what?" I asked through my laughter trying to not disturb the sleeping passengers around me as Matt chuckled lightly nodding his head

" He cussed out all the security guards at the park for throwing kids back into the crowd and other horrible thongs after they got kicked off stage just for Alex letting a few fans on. " matt said proudly as I was trying my hardest not to cause any attention to us

"oh my god"

He chuckled lightly nodding

" Yeah, we got kicked off the six flags tour that day, i guess defending innocent kids at a rock show is frowned upon. "

He was shrugging now as I finally could breath correctly right as the flight attendant told us to remain buckled in our seats and that were landing.

The plane ride had gone by surprisingly quick to me all thanks to Matt who had kept me occupied and not even needing my music.

The whole plane ride was spent on me and him talking about our lives, Matt sharing interesting tour stories and of course since i only knew ones Jake told me, Matt did most of the tour talking while I filled him on the little details of my life .he mostly did the talking but I wasn't complaining

The stories he told of the stupid shit him , Alex, Jack , Rian and Zack have done together were entertaining and funny to a high point where some times i thought I would die from lack of air.

" I guess so but that's still so funny" He shrugged leaning forward to place all his electronics into his bag so when the plane landed he could get up quicker.

"It's always a interesting day with those dickheads thats why I love my job"

I nodded towards him wrapping my headphones up and placing them back into my backpack before zipping it up.

As I looked out the window I saw the black tar of the runway shining from the warm California sun making me smile, i was home.

Matt leaned forward a little right as we landed on the runway glancing outside before sighing in relief a small smile on his lips as the other passengers started to get up but he made no intention to get up just yet .

" it's good to be home" he mumbled still smiling as the plane started to become more vacant , i smiled nodding

" Amen to that, been 4 years,can't wait to be here for good"

He chuckled standing up reaching above us grabbing both our bags before placing them on the isle floor and pushing over so I could move out of the small space I had been confined to the last six hours.

As i grabbed the handle to my suitcase he started walking off but slowly enough so I was right behind him and could easily hear him talk

" unless you become like big cousin and travel the world, then you'd be saying that statement a lot like me " he said with another chuckle as i stepped onto the platform and into the dimly lit hallway leading to the building

I laughed slightly as he paused halfway down the hall pulling his phone out to turn it back on. I decided to do the same considering I had no idea where Jake was meeting me

" Yeah in my dreams" I joked causing him to look at me

Since I was a little kid my dream was to be in a band like Jake but in all realness, becoming a successful band these days are closer to impossible than possible

" What do you mean?"

I looked at my phone which had just turned on and immediately revealed a text from Jake saying he was near baggage claim matt was now staring at me not moving, i sighed laughing

" I mean that nowadays it's hard enough just to find a band let alone to successfully make it in the rock scene" I said before lifting my bag up once more ready to walk off

" Not without help"

I glanced back at him as He shifted on his feet before smiling at me taking his phone out unlocking it then tapping it fast before handing it over to me making me raise a eyebrow at him.

He laughed shoving it into my hand as I glanced at it, the screen was on contacts and it showed a blank contact

" Put your number in, i'll text you later so you have mine and I'm gonna make a deal with you ok?" He asked as my thumb hovered over the touch keypad on his iphone , i felt a smile tug on my lips

" Depends on the deal"

He chuckled shaking his head as I quickly typed my phone number in and my name before handing the white phone back to its owner.

" You find a band by whenever, and when you do give me a call, come tour with us , open up for the guys , get your name out"

I stared at him like he had four heads, how in hell could I , a anti-social seventeen year old who knows only her about 10 people here find a group of people to create a band that could be good enough to open up for All Time Low ! I was gonna be lucky enough to make a friend here let alone a band.

" Matt, thats- i'm just a kid "

He smirked lightly before grabbing his bag and taking a few steps away from me still facing my direction.

"exactly , you're seventeen years old Julia , this is your last year as a kid before you're officially an adult, make this year the best fucking year of your life, live it with no regrets, If the guys can do it, if your cousin can do it so can you, you just have to take that last step off the ledge and go " he said with a grin walking further away from me .

My mind was frozen as he got closer to the door

" And what if I do believe in myself but people around me don't?!" I shouted so he could hear me

He stopped right at the doorway turning away towards me once more

"whoever tells you you can't do something, look them in the eyes and say watch me . The future is in your hands Pitts, make your dream something worth chasing, I'll see you in lights someday"

I couldn't help the smile that crept on my face despite the confusion. This once total stranger who I only met this morning , was giving me courage and a pathway to a career everyone in the world wants, Everyone including me.

" I sure hope so, I'll see you someday I hope?!" I asked again and he nodded smiling

" you sure will, and You better have some crazy ass stories to tell like i had my new friend, make no regrets this year, it's your life so live."

" I'll try my best Flyzik, no regrets this year"

And with that he gave me one more smile before turning towards the door but before he left me with 7 words of a phrase I'd heard a million times

" Long Live The Reckless and The Brave Kid!"

And with that he stepped threw the metal door and slowly walked off the door shutting behind him.

I was then left alone in the white walled hallway in a newly silence leaving only my thoughts to be heard from my head.

What the fuck just happened?

I just met Matt Flyzik, I just became friends with Matt Flyzik. Matt Flysik just told me I could one day open up for All Time fucking Low.

Could I really pull off getting a band? No clue but I did know something,

From just the plane ride here, this year was gonna be a hell of a ride.

My thoughts were cut off by my phone vibrating rapidly in my black skinny jeans pocket meaning I had a phone call.

I quickly made my way out of the metal door Matt just disappeared from stepping on the dark tan carpet of the air port which was semi-crowded and had the similar commotion of people rushing around trying to find their gate number to make their flight just like Boston.

I fished my phone out quickly pressing answer not bothering to look at the contact as I pressed it to my ear in my free hand as I made my way passed the waiting area of the gate i just got out of and towards baggage claim where Jake said he was.

"Hello?" I asked pressing the phone to my ear hard so i could hear over the loud chatter of people walking passed me

" Hey did you get off at the wrong state or something because your plane landed like ten minutes ago" jake asked with a amused tone but I could tell he was half serious

"Haha i'm not that dumb Jake, I just got off last, I'm at baggage claim now"

" So am I"

He chuckled lightly as I placed my suitcase down looking around to spot him in the crowd. How hard could it be to find a tall guy dressed in all black I was guessing, very hard.

" I don't see you" I said and he laughed a little harder as I suddenly bumped into someone who I didn't bother to look at I was focused on finding Jake

" Oh sorry" The person said touching my shoulder slightly before I turned the other way

" Julia look with your eyes kid, I swear to god you're blind it's not a big area" he said still laughing

I shook my head still weaving through the other people around me, I scanned the area and still couldn't find him

"Jake I don't see you"

I then again bumped into someone who didn't say words to me just brushed off his black jacket from what I saw out of the corner of my eye and walk off

He laughed more causing me to groan. If he saw me I wished he would just come to me but no, he has to be a jerk.

" Look harder" he sang slightly

I groaned again when I again collided shoulders with another person I didn't look at again, the person took a step back before speaking to me but I wasn't looking

" Oh sorry kid" the deep voice said before I could see the body walk off behind me

Once he left, I realized the voice sounded familiar, it wasn't Jakes but I knew that voice.

"Jake I really don't see you and-"

I suddenly looked down for my suitcase on the floor where I left it but it wasn't there.

"And what? You missing something?" He asked laughing more now and from what I could hear more laughter behind him.

Thats when I heard his voice on both sides of the call. It was coming behind me , fucking bitch.

" You're behind me aren't you?" I asked right before I heard his laugh closer to me now .

" yup"

I suddenly froze because when he spoke, i didn't hear him over the phone, i heard him for real.

When I turned around my lips curved into a smile, I was only feet away from person I've been dying to see in person after a year, my cousin.

He didn't look that much differen't from when i last saw him minus the war paint , his black skinny jeans clinging to his legs before his black boots cut them off along with a black V-neck shirt under his BVB vest , his hair like it always is.

His smile was wide as he held his arms out to me

" Well am I gonna get a hug?" he asked causing me to laugh even though I stood still for a minute before quickly shoving my phone in my pocket walking towards him

Before I could reach him he lunged forward wrapping his arms tightly around me as I hugged his torso tight burying my face in his chest . I felt so calm nothing mattered anymore, after four years, I finally had my cousin back.

" Ah I missed you so much!" He exclaimed lifting me up a little thrn placing me back down as I giggled into his chest

" Missed you more"

I felt him kiss the top of my head before he released from the hug still smiling at me as he looked me over chuckling

" Dam you grew ! You used to be like a midget now you're actually tall!" He joked causing me to slap his shoulder laughing.

" Yeah puberty hit me hard"

I heard a few more laughs behind us making me look and notice three of Jakes band mates behind us that I knew were Andy, CC and Jinxx.

Andy was smirking at me with my suitcase leaning against his long legs as each of the guys sent me warm smiles

" Julia you remember the guys right?"

I nodded silently sending a warm smile back as Jake wrapped a arm around me

"Well since we all just ran into her I was hoping she would" Andy said with a grin.

I gave Jake a confused look causing the four guys to chuckle as I suddenly realized that they were the three jerks who ran into me

"I hate you, you could've just told me you were in back of me but no! You had to be a jerk" I said towards jake who was laughing down at me shaking his head

" That would have been no fun and it was cc's idea not mine!"

I shook my head at the three who were still chuckling to themselves cc smiling at me proudly

" Great first impression" I said jokingly

"Well better get to used to this cuz this is your new life. The only one missing Ashley which I'm pretty sure is with a girl like always but tomorrow he's gonna be around" Jake said causing CC to let out a small chuckle

" If he's not hungover, haven't seen you in like forever how you been?!" CC called before stepping forward wrapping his arms around me in a bone crushing hug pulling me away from jake surprising me

I heard Jake laugh from behind as I smirked, I knew the guys to a point holding a conversation with them from time to time so I was guessing that was all cc needed to welcome me into his world.

" I'm good" I said shyly as he let me go before shaking his head laughing stepping back

" If you're gonna be around us theres one rule, you can't be shy!" He exclaimed as I shrunk back by Jake's side who along with the others let out a small laugh

" She'll warm up she's just anti-social , don't worry"

I slapped his chest causing Andy to laugh harder smiling towards me again

" I love her already welcome home And feel free to do that to him any time" Jinxx said holding his hand out for me to shake, in a very formal and calm way.

I guess Jake wasn't kidding when he said how Jinxx was basically the calmest of the rest , cc also fit his part on being the craziest and Andy, he was just normal, for now.

" Glad to ,just give me a call, I'll gladly slap him" I said releasing my hand from Jinxx's as Jake shook his head

" No you won't"

I nodded laughing

" If the moments right"

Andy laughed as jinxx and cc smirked at Jake who grabbed me again his arms wrapped around my neck before staring down at me

"Is it too late to send you back to Boston?" He asked playfully as Andy picked up my suitcase shaking his head still laughing

"No I like the way she sasses you, she stays!" He commented causing cc to nod as Jake sighed out smiling at me

" Fine, let's head out, go get food then head back to my house, i'm starving"

The guys nodded as I let out a small yawn shaking my head. I was still exhausted due to Matt keeping me up the whole flight but I didn't care, I was finally home

" Pig" I muttered causing him to send me a glare before looking at Andy

" You got her bag?"

Andy nodded causing Jake to smile

" Good,then I can grab this"

I was then suddenly lifted over Jakes shoulder causing me to yelp in surprise but the others started to laugh as Jake led the way out of the airport

" Jake put me down" I said through my laughter as he chuckled shaking his head

" Payback for being mean to me little one!" He called walking towards the exit of the building.

I saw Jinxx still chuckling behind me as Andy , him and CC trailed close near Jake. I sighed out with a smile leaning my cheek against the back of my cousins vest deciding not to fight it.

As we made our way out side I felt the cool LA breeze blow against my bare arms that weren't covered from ether my rolled up sleeves and bracelets making me smile,

i missed this weather, i missed this place, and this moment as crazy as it sounds just being held by my cousin, made me realize how much I missed my family.

When we finally reached Jakes black Suburban he finally placed me back on the cement in front of the passenger side door giving me one last smile then making his way to the drivers side.

I opened the black door climbing into my seat as cc , Andy and Jinxx slid in the back row .

Jake turned on the car and the engine roared to life , he quickly turned the volume knob down before the music could erupt from the speakers turning towards the guys .

" Where are we going for food?" He asked causing all three to shrug

" Whatever's not crowded i'm starving " Andy said blankly while staring at his phone screen

" Not crowded and good" Jinxx added and cc nodded causing Jake to sigh

" You guys are no help, what are you thinking J? What do you want your first meal in LA to be?" He turned to me and I shrugged

" you know I'm bad at decisions don't look at me! "

He chuckled again before gripping the gear and shifting it into drive pulling out of the parking space exiting the parking lot.

" That's right I forgot you can't decide you need others to for you"

Jinxx laughed as I shrugged smiling

" Hurtful but true just like for Jake his hurtful truth is that he talks to himself"

CC bursted into laughter following the rest as Jake sent a quick glare my way

" I do not! " he yelled causing me to smile

" Ella and me beg to differ"

He shook his head smiling before reaching his right arm out ruffling my head

" You are a piece of work little one" he muttered before stopping for the red light

" I know, but too late to back out now"

He raised a eyebrow then looked out my window

" Is it though?" he joked before Jinxx shook his head

" No she makes fun of you, i love her already she stays!"

cc nodded in agreement along with Andy who was still typing on his phone

" Yeah , She's one of us now no turning back I need a cool neighbor like her !" Andy yelled glancing up at me and shooting me a smile

I smiled back almost forgetting he was my neighbor, as I sat forward again I began to wonder how this year would go, having him next door, would he and I actually talk or will he act as if I was just a random kid who moved next door when Jake wasn't around? No clue

Jake reached down giving me a kiss on my cheek before the light turned green causing him to accelerate.

" Agreed, she can stay"

I chuckled slapping his shoulder before leaning back in my seat feeling more tired than before

" Like you had a choice " I muttered right as he turned the volume back up making the quiet car to fill up with Avenged Sevenfold's song Burn It down from their City Of Evil Album.

I smiled silently tapping my foot to the beat of the drums out of habit, no matter what song it was I always did it just for no reason.

Besides the music the car was silent besides the small chatter Jake and the guys were having. I had a feeling the ride to wherever we were eating at would be awhile so I rested my head against the center consul lifting my feet up and slowly closing my eyes not realizing how tired I was.

My thoughts swirled in my brain as the music slowly dimmed out of my hearing. Today I met a stranger, found out he was a famous tour manager and was offered to open up for All Time Low.. Not exactly a normal day for me but maybe this was a sign, maybe that was the first start of a new life for me. I was hoping.

I was just about to fall asleep when I heard laughter and felt a hand shake my head a little bit.

I opened my eyes a tiny bit looking over to see Jake glancing down at me before focusing back on the road

" Hmm?" I groggily asked causing him to chuckle again

" I asked you how the flight was"

I thought of telling Jake about Matt but I knew if I told him, he'd ether be mad at me for talking to a stranger or get my hopes up about the band, and i want nether of that

. " Good" i mumbled causing cc to laugh a little " Guessing you didn't sleep?"

I shook my head once more before Jake smiled looking straight ahead

" Weirdo what'd you do talk to yourself the whole six hours?"

I laughed sleepily before closing my eyes again with a small smile

" Something like that"

No one spoke again leaving the music to keep the car from silence as I yawned once more .

Today was certainly not a normal one, but all that mattered was I finally had Jake back. I missed him so much just being able to fool around with him about the stupid stuff but that was only one side of him.

I knew once we were alone he'd go into his protective side and want to 'catch up' something that to most people meant small talk about light subject topics but to me it was what I was dreading.

I knew he'd wait till it was just me and him possibly Ella and I knew exactly what topic it would be on, and I also knew that due to that topic This 'catch up 'session won't be easy.

I sighed lightly feeling myself slip into darkness with the calm hum of the music, the guys faint laughter and my drossy state

. The last thing I remembered before falling asleep was feeling Jakes hand start to rub small circles in my back making me become more calm than I was before despite my worries. I smiled lightly before falling into sleep.

The fears and worries of what this year will bring me still rang through my head but Whatever happens happens, I wasn't alone now, i had jake and now i had the guys

And i knew that as long as Jake was there, it'd be okay.

I hope

Notes

Sorry it took so long to update! Was busy with Midterms and work, I will try and update more frequently now! sorry if this chapter sucks!