Save Me From Myself

I placed the last box of my belongings onto my wooden floor with the 10 or so other boxes. As I looked around at my now empty room i slowly sighed not out of sadness but relief, We're finally moving again for the second time in my life, we're finally finally moving back home,

I'm finally going home

My name is Julia Pitts. I'm 17 and after summer i'll be starting my senior year of high school . I currently live in Boston with my mom , dad and younger brother Jax who is 5 and is like my personal shadow.

I used to live in California until I was about 13 my father got a promotion on his job and got a offer on a house down here in Boston and took it. The confusing part of that was he didn't have to, all he does is travel for meetings here and there so why Leave ? No fucking clue

The worst part of the move was being separated from my Uncle Mark and Cousin Jake. Jake in my book was not like a cousin to me but more of a older brother , something about the bond we shared for music brought us together. He was always there for me no matter what , he taught me everything i know on guitar and more I knew he'd make it big, and he did

All my life I grew up with having Jake and my uncle a few blocks away and if times got tough at my house which they did a lot, that was my safe house. But now that we're miles away and that Jakes in a well known rock band touring the world, i have to settle for a text , tweet or call at least once a week and off tour a video chat but it wasn't enough. Now I was finally gonna move back home and i couldn't wait to see both jake, his fiancé ella and my uncle Mark .

I have a older brother as well his name is Colin and I can't forget him. Me and him were very close as well , he always protected me as well as Jake. All three of us were probably the closest between the other family members in our family considering Jake is 26 and Colin 23 and went to school together for a few years .

They were so close in age that they bonded like brothers and best friends. Every friday I remember going over Jakes house and listening to music with him and Colin or kicking the soccer ball around the yard, watching movies you name it . Jake and Colin are the ones who introduced me to rock music as well .

All day long my uncles house and mine was always filled with the music styles of The Misfits, Pantera, Metallica ect.. I grew up with rock and roll in my bones and i was very lucky to not be obsessed with pop bands at a young age.

They would always walk to my elementary school after their school got out and pick me up so I wouldn't be alone and no matter what, they protected me and comforted me in rough times. Jake was the oldest so of course he was the father figure between the two always there to let me know everything was gonna be okay but so was Colin.

They were my savior's as a kid together were invincible as kids. They were the only people in my life who acted like my best friends and never turned their back on me, but now their both far away.

For four years now Colin has been serving the U.S army and is currently stationed in Afghanistan. He was 18 almost 19 when he joined and even though I was very upset at first that the only person i had left was leaving me , with what was happening at home, i understood .

The winter of his senior year the year we moved down to Boston in early fall and my 8th grade year Jax only 2 my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer.

It wasn't that much of a shock to me since of how much she smoked but it still hurt . The thought of losing my mom at such a young age broke my heart.

The following spring my mother instantly started to get sick and not being able to do as much but kept pressing on. She never showed her weak side and still doesn't but I can tell how badly she's hanging on but no matter what she's a hero in my eyes.

After that Colin would get into fights with my father on what he would do after school and since nothing Colin said was good to my dad, he enlisted in the army.

It was a tough year but i understood that it was a path he chose to take and was gonna help protect the country.

To me he's my hero and I'm beyond proud of him, i just wish I could see him more it's been over a year , this coming Spring will be two years. The last time I saw him was on my 16th birthday which he was able to go on leave for two weeks before he had to head back to the unit base he was at for 6 months before he got deployed to Afghanistan .

We still write each other and if im lucky he skypes me or sends a Email at least once in a two month span but its not the same.

Besides Jax I was all alone fighting my way through the hell I called school from the grades to the people there. I had a few friends at my school from being in Band but mostly, I was known as the ' goth freak' because of the music i listened to and the way I dressed but I could care less because once I stepped foot outside of school I was only surrounded with the people who loved me , the snobby 'popular' kids can go fuck themselves.

But now things were looking brighter, my mom is still hanging in there but I know that she might not make it pass this year. The doctor told us We were lucky she was the 10% of people to make it this long but I just didn't wanna let her go. She's like my best friend , If i lost her I'd lose everything. She was too young to suffer.

Because of this news my mom convinced my dad in agreeing to move back to California to spend her last year with my uncle and jake along with other family. My dad agreed mostly because he was always away and he can't take care of my mother so this way if we were surrounded by family, he knew she would be ok.

What I was most exited about was that jake would be home for almost a year since him and his band were gonna be heading into the studio in the fall to record their third album and with only seeing him for a day or two here and there and sometimes a vacation up to LA for a few weeks for the past years I was happy.

The house we were moving to was the same street as my uncle with his house 6 away from ours and like a 10 minute drive to Jakes so it was easy to see both of them .

I also found out who my neighbor was gonna be, one of his band mates the lead singer Andy. I of course knew the guys from going to every Boston but not that very , i had a feeling that was gonna change.

Jake had explained how exited him, Ella and the guys were to have me back in LA and so was I. I of course knew Ella because every time Jake would visit us on his days off, he would bring her along if she wasn't in the UK. She was probably the sweetest person i've ever met and I was happy for her and Jake.

I was hoping this move would help me leave all my bad habits in Boston as well. It was almost like I was getting a second chance at life I just wanted to leave the past behind and try to make myself a better person . The past few years have been the toughest of my life and the only strength I have to keep moving forward is music and my family.

I obviously listen to Black Veil Brides simply because its my fucking cousin shredding the guitar, why wouldn't i?

Something about listening to their music makes me feel so safe. Every one of the guys were talented especially Jake. Every time I would here the guitar part it was as if Jakes right there with me even if its a recording, it meant that I had him.

I was cut from my thoughts when my music that had been blaring from my laptop was replaced with the ringer for Skype started to ring from my now bare bed .

I turned my attention over to it quickly walking over to see that the call was of course from Jake . A small smile tugged on my lips as I pressed answer sitting on my empty bed crossing my legs and picking up the laptop placing it on the white mattress in front of me as it connected.

Once it did the screen that was just recently black was replaced with the smiling figure of my cousin looking into the computer

. I took in the background around him and noticed that he was most likely sitting in his home studio by the looks of the red walls , guitars scattered everywhere and some of the past awards he had gotten placed on a shelve hanging on the wall. Once he saw me his smile grew wider.

" Hey!! It's about time! This is my third time today and both times you never answered! " he said happily into the screen

I chuckled a little leaning my back on the cold wall behind me before shaking my head.

" I was packing i'm sorry ! I already got yelled at for holding off till the last minute don't yell at me too!" I said holding my hands up in defense smiling

He chuckled leaning back in his chair shrugging

" Whats with you and procrastinating? I swear everything you do is held till the last minute"

I laughed moving my side bangs out of my face

" Im a lazy person ok!"

He threw his head back in laughter nodding

" very true, but your all done right? "

I nodded my head lifting the computer up and turning it around to reveal my bare blue walls and all of my things stacked up on each other and pushed into the corner near my window.

"Wow It looks so bare" he said as I placed the laptop back on my bed

" That's because it is smart one"

He raised his middle finger into the video camera laughing

" Whatever miss obvious" he said chuckling as I smirked at him

" Just a little less than twenty four hours until your officially back in California for good how does it feel?" He added smiling into the camera

I smiled nodding sitting up more tugging at my hoodie sleeves .

" It feels like i'm finally getting out of this stupid ass state where even in the summer it pours all day on the days when its not 10000 degrees outside and the winters feels like I'm gonna die of hyperthermia if i don't wear at least 5 layers of clothing. So it feels pretty good"

Jake bursted into laughter shaking his head before running a hand threw his hair fixing it

" Yup, i definitely can't wait to have you back" he said trying to calm his laughter down

" Same here I miss seeing your ugly face everyday" i said smirking into the camera

" Right back at ya shit head. What time does your flight leave Boston tomorrow?" He asked finally calm from his laughter fit

" 8 am my time 5am your time so I should be in LA around 11 am your time, your picking me up right?"

He nodded into the camera before chuckling

" Well I mean my dads out of town till Tuesday and it's Saturday so who else would pick you up smarty? You think im gonna make you walk here? "

I flipped him off again causing him to chuckle and shove his middle finger in the screen as well

" I'm sorry I forgot he was away give me a break! " i said putting my hand down as he did the same

" Im just teasing you calm down" I shook my head smiling as he cleared his throat

" Oh so Me and Ella went to the house today with my dad before he left to help him with some of the stuff that came which was all the living room and and some kitchen shit so i'm guessing all that's left is mostly the upstairs stuff " he said and I nodded

" Yeah that stuff will be leaving I think either tonight or tomorrow, how is the house?" I asked hoping it was in decent shape

i've only seen pictures of it but that obviously never gives it justice. I had a feeling it was gonna be fine considering that neighbor hood was always beautiful when I was a little kid but that was 4 years ago , a lot can change.

" I think i'm gonna secretly move in there it's that nice does that answer your question ?" He said causing me to laugh

" It sure does"

" Your gonna love it I promise you, I even picked your room out for you"

I laughed again shaking my head

" why?"

He shrugged tapping his fingers on the shinny black desk his computer sat on top of

" I don't know I was just looking upstairs and saw the room and thought you would like it so I did something to it so that now it has to be yours" he said a big smile on his face .

I raised a eyebrow at him im confusion but he shook his head smiling

" you'll see tomorrow"

I groaned slamming my head against the wall a little to hard than I planned and groaned again in pain causing him to chuckle

" Fuck I hate you" i muttered rubbing the back of my head

He smiled again as I heard a door from his end of the call shut from the other side of the studio walls. He turned around slightly looking at the closed door even though I doubt he could see who it was but even I knew it was Ella

" Unless you can see through closed doors Jake its no use in looking back" i teased causing him to laugh turning back around flipping me off

" Oh fuck off "

I laughed right as the door opened and Ella peeked her head in causing him to turn around again

" are you talking to yourself again babe?" She asked causing me to laugh louder as he threw his hands up in frustration

" no i'm talking to Julia why do you think I talk to myself?!" He asked causing Ella to open the door wider and walk in over to him kissing his cheek lightly

" Because you do" she said and i laughed nodding my head

" you do " I added and he glared at me as Ella laughed waving to me as i returned the favor

" He needs to break that habit" she said into the camera and i smiled nodding

" Yeah we need to give him a intervention" i added and she laughed pointing to me

"I say when you get here we'll do it"

" Ok I'm right here!" He yelled and Ella smirked kissing his cheek again before walking toward the door

" We know! I'll go get ready to leave we're meeting the guys at Andy's house in a half hour , bye Julia !" She yelled before walking out Jake groaning to me as I smiled

" The one thing i'm dreading is having you two together where you can tag team me" Jake mumbled and I laughed leaning back on my wall

The sun was now setting and the golden rays were shinning into my bare room making it look pretty in my view

" fine then I guess I'll stay here in Boston" He groaned again shaking his head

" Nope your coming home"

I smiled for the millionth time today as my door was opened

i looked up to the door revealing my mom who smiled at me

" You all packed honey?" She asked and i nodded pointing to the boxes in the corner

" Good come downstairs we ordered pizza and then you may have to help your brother pack" I nodded sitting up

" ok i'll be right down"

She nodded chuckling

" Yup just finish talking to yourself and come down" she said causing Jake who i forgot was there to burst into laughter

" No im-" " I don't need to know i know your lonely but we can keep you company , bye Jake"

Now i knew she was joking with me.

" Bye !" He said through laughter

I shook my head as she closed my door as Jake stopped laughing

" so we both talk to ourselves" he said and I smirked nodding

" must run in the family"

He smiled before rubbing his head pulling his phone out then sighing

" I better go i got 20 minutes to get ready " he said sighing putting his phone on the table

" Andy's right?" I asked and he nodded

" yeah we're all meeting there then going to check out the studio we're gonna be recording the new album at then most likely out to eat and one thing about Andy you will learn is he hates waiting for people"

I chuckled nodding

" I gotta go anyways if you just missed that moment " i said and he chuckled

" how could I. i guess I'll see you tomorrow" he said smiling at me causing me to as well

" See you tomorrow "

He smiled wider holding his hand on the computer mouse

" Love you shit head" he said causing me to chuckle

" Love you too dick head"

He shook his head one last time before moving the mouse a little

" see ya"

I nodded and then the screen went back to my itunes library and soon my quiet room was filled with the voice of Gerard Way as Dead! By My Chemical Romance started playing .

I sighed leaning on my soft mattress staring at my ceiling for what seemed like ages thinking about the move. I was finally gonna be closer to my family , finally back in the warm California weather and hopefully back to the way I was before I moved into this shit hole people call Boston.

This move was my only hope at a fresh new start and I was hoping it was what I needed.

No matter what, I was going home.

Notes

Please let me know what you think! Got this idea for a story awhile back and finally decided to write it!

Also the writer of my other story published on here ' You're not alone'