Scarlett's POV
"HEY GURL HEYY!!!" Yelled CC in his best girly voice.
He then picked me up and swung me around.
"Damn girl!, You're as light as a feather!!" He said
For a moment i got nervous. No one knew i had an ED.
instead I stayed quiet and looked at the ground.
He shrugged and walked off to greet Alex, but i felt Andy burning a hole in me with his eyes.
I coughed uncomfortably.
"So where are the other guys?" I asked trying to change the subject.
"JAKE! JINXX! GET OUT HERE AND GREET OUR GUESTS!"Andy yelled before turning to me and giving me a kind smile.
God his smile made me melt.
I just stared into his eyes until Jake and Jinxx made their way from the back room, causing me to break my stare.
Jinxx was smiling down at his phone, probably texting his wife, Sammi and Jake had almost 20 pieces of pizza stacked up on a plate and he was stuffing face.
Sometimes i wish i could do that, but then i would get so fat.
"Hi." Jake simply said, his mouth full.
I smiled at him slightly.
"Oh!" Jinxx exclaimed making me jump slightly.
"You must be the girls Andy and Ashley can't shut the FUCK up about" he said putting an emphasis on the word fuck.
"what..?" I said quietly, my eyes wide.
Andy:? Talking about me?
Why?
What?
I quickly glanced over at Andy and noticed he was blushing. i quickly smirked to myself.
"Anyway.... " Jinxx said awkwardly,
"It's nice to meet you guys" He said smiling at both Alex and I.
CC then suddenly grabbed me by my wrist, unknowingly squeezing my new wounds.
I winced slightly at the pain, but not enough for anyone to notice.
"SCARLETT!!!!! COME GET PIZZA WITH ME!!!!" CC basically yelled at me.
I took back my arm
"No thank you.. I'm not hungry." I said quietly.
That was a lie.
I was absolutely starving, but i definitely did not need that pizza.
"oh. okay...." Said a slightly disappointed CC as he walked towards the back room with his head hung low.
I looked up and again noticed Andy looking at me.
Confusion and worry dancing in his eyes.
He stared like he was trying to Analyze me.
I'm not a fucking science experiment!
The way he was looking at me was making me angry.
I could tell that he wanted to know all about me, just by that look, but i hate letting people in to get to know me. I mean no one even knows the real me! the real Scarlett!
Not that no one has tried, i just had never bothered to lower my walls enough to let someone in.
I quickly looked over, noticing that Alex had broke away to the corner of the room with Ashley, starting their own private conversation.
Jinxx and Jake were now sitting on the leather couch against the wall, preoccupied with their own lives, and CC was in the back room, which left me alone with Andy.
I quickly looked down at my shoes.
Andy started to say something, but i wasn't listening.
I had noticed that when CC grabbed me he must have irritated my cuts, because now some blood was started to seep out from underneath my many band bracelets
I quickly shoved my arm behind my back, hoping no one had seen, and looked up wide eyed.
Andy saw my expression, and of course, being the good guy he is just had to say, "Are you okay?"
"Fine." I replied back.
"Alex! I have to go to the bathroom." I quickly glanced at Andy and noticed him staring at me utterly confused. I directed my attention back to Alex.
"I'll be right back!" I said.
"Uhm, didn't you just go to the bathroom?" She questioned.
"Yeah. But I have to go again." I said slowly back to her.
"Okay.... Do you want me to go with you?"
"NO!!" I called out too quickly, causing all eyes to be directed to me.
I coughed slightly trying to calm myself.
"I mean no, I'm okay, you stay here and hang with the guys." I said and reassured her with the best fake smile i could manage.
"Okay...." She said slowly giving me a worried and confuse look.
I quickly backed out the door and as soon as i was in the hallway, i ran to the bathroom.
It was once again empty and i silently thanked God.
I slowly and carefully took of each bracelet, revealing the angry red cuts coated in sticky red blood.
I silently rinsed my arm under the sink and winced as the cold water hit my wounds.
I then carefully dabbed at each cut with a paper towel, trying to dry them.
I looked over each cut, remembering what each one had meant to me.
"Bitch, Fat, Ugly, Worthless," The list could basically go on and on.
I had scars on top of scars.
I looked up into the mirror and hated who i saw looking back at me.
I hated myself. I shut everyone out when all i really needed was some help.
I quickly looked back down at my wrist, not wanting to stare at the girl any longer.
However, just that little look at myself had started to awaken the voices in my head.
I looked at my phone sitting on the sink.
Without hesitation i popped open my case and took out my razor, almost like second nature.
I was about to press the blade to my wrist when i heard the door start to open.
I looked up, my eyes wide, expecting to see a shocked Alex, instead i saw an even more shocked Andy.....

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