Andy’s POV

I knew of some of what was going on at school with CC and Ashley. I knew that they weren’t very well liked and that CC got pushed around a little bit; I also knew that people weren’t very nice to Ash either. When I picked Ash up and told him a dirty joke, he didn’t laugh or anything. It was very un-Ash like and when I questioned him on it he said that things change. I knew that Jinxx texted me earlier asking if Ash could spend the night tonight and maybe for a few nights. He didn’t say too much but he did say that him and Sammi had been fighting for a while and their fights were getting worse and Ash didn’t deserve to be around it. I felt bad that Jinxx’s marriage was crumbling. He loved Sammi doll so very much and to watch them argue all the time was horrible and poor Ash was right in the middle of it. His phone went off and he checked it. He typed something back and got another response. After a while, he put it on silent and shoved it in his pocket. The car ride was complete silence after he said things change.

As soon as we pulled up to the apartment, he got out and ran up to CC’s room before I could say anything. Sighing, I got out and kissed Juliet as I walked in. she smiled and said, “what’s with him.” “I don’t know but I think I want to know soon.” we sat down on the couch and talked for a while and heard quiet crying from CC’s room. I got up and went to check on them. Opening the door, I saw Ash laying next to CC with his head on CC’s chest and CC crying softly. He saw me and gave me a small smile through his tears. I scooped Ash up and held Ash as CC tried into my side. He got up and handed me Ash’s phone and said, “turn it on and read the messages. They won’t stop. Ash doesn’t want to tell anyone but it’s getting to the point where we need to. I don’t want this to go on any longer.” As I shifted, Ash’s sleeve rolled up a little bit. I felt all the air leave my lungs. My heart shattered into a million different pieces. Tears began to form in my eyes as I then held the sleeping Ash closer to me. Why would he hurt himself? How come he hasn’t came to talk to anyone yet? A million and one different questions went through my mind and all I could do was cry.

When the tears finally went away, and CC calmed down, I put Ash in bed and went to go talk to Juliet, taking Ash’s phone with me. Turning it on and unlocking it, I read all the messages that had been sent. It pissed me off. No one should talk to a lady that way. I also told Juliet about what I saw on Ash’s arms. “Babe, as much as you want to confront him, I don’t think its wise. He’s fragile and that might just make things worse. Maybe just making sure he has someone to talk to and trying to help him calm down a little bit can help him.” she had a point. All we could really do was make him know that he wasn’t alone and support him. Giving her a kiss, we snuggled before going to bed.


Ash’s POV


I woke up just before the alarm clocks went off for us to get ready for school because I had a nightmare. My head was pounding, my heart was racing and my vision was blurred a little bit. Whatever was in my nightmare triggered an Anxiety attack. I tried to calm down but it was really difficult. My breathing became strained and I couldn’t form any words. I began to thrash around in hopes of wakening CC up. He woke up and freaked out when he saw me panicking but understood what was happening. Quickly pulling me into a hug, he held me and rocked me back and forth while playing with my hair. When I began to finally calm down I began to get really sleepy. I soon passed out and forgot about school.


I woke up some time later to CC still next to me. it was well through the school day. “Well there went any chances of actually going to school today.” I said with a small smile. He laughed and said, “ You scared me this morning. I was afraid you were having a seizure or something and then I realized it was a massive anxiety attack. When Andy came in and saw you asleep and when I told him what happened, he was cool with us staying home today. He also um… saw the messages on your phone so he is going to go talk to the school or something later today.”

My eyes went wide and CC pulled me into a hug and said, “its gonna be alright. Maybe the text messages will stop and things wont be so bad. You never know until you try.” I nodded slowly clung to him. Inside my head was a war zone. Part of me was hating that Andy knew and I told CC not to tell and so that part was mad at him but the other part was scared. If nothing happened, the bullies would just get worse. I began to listen to each side give their argument and in the end, I closed my eyes and clung tighter to CC hoping the voices would shut up.

“Your fading away Ash and that scares me. You never make dirty jokes anymore, you don’t laugh at them anymore, I’m afraid I’m losing you to yourself.”

“I’m afraid that’s already happened. CC I’m not okay. I’m no where near it and I’m done. Done with school. Done with the people. Done with being a girl. Done with it all.” I began to cry. Letting down all my barriers, I cried and broke down in CC’s arms. I eventually cried my self back to sleep.


^^^

I spent the rest of yesterday crying in CC’s room. Not once did I get up and eat anything and frankly, no one noticed. This morning, I got up before CC and took a quick shower before getting dressed. I felt a lot cleaner and less gross as I put my makeup on. When I finished, I saw Juliet in the kitchen. Damn. She was already up so I can’t say I already ate. Fuck. I went back to CC’s room and woke him up and waited for him to get ready. Once we were both ready, we then went into the kitchen. I got CC his plate of food and made it look like I took a lot more than I really took. Thankfully no one questioned me. Andy came out of the bathroom and said it was time to go. Grabbing our bags, CC and me got in the car and made small talk on the way to school. Andy wished us a good day as we got out of the car and walked towards hell, oh wait school.

Hand in hand, we walked to our lockers and got what we needed before going to math. It took so very long to understand the concept of geometry and I was now not failing it. I had a D-. At first Jinxx cared about my grades and then at one point he kinda just stopped. He doesn’t even ask if I need help anymore because he’s so stressed out. The poor guy is going to give himself a heart attack if he’s not careful. Math went by and we were now on the way to our next class. English was the best out of my classes as well as CC. We both had As and were doing well because we studied as much as we needed to and tried. Science came afterwards. I had a b+ and CC had a B-. We were half way through break and for the most of the day, we hadn’t had any troubles that is until several people walked up to us.

The girl who I later learned her name was Tanya, kept calling me a slut for offering to sleep with all these guys and then called me a whore for cheating on my hot boy friend and then a whole bunch of other names. Tessa called me a whore and other things and the insults kept rolling out of their mouths by the dozens. They insulted me about my weight, my height, how I looked Asian, and anything else they could say. CC got pissed and told one of the girls to just go away; which, pissed off her boyfriend. Her boyfriend then punched CC in the mouth, which led to a full on fist fight. CC took several really hard blows but so did the other guy. If there’s one thing I’ve learned from CC over the years, don’t judge him by his size or his almost always happy attitude because dude can pack a punch.

Several teachers finally ripped the guy of CC and took them to the office. As the crowd began to disperse, someone grabbed me from behind and then dragged me away. I fought back as much as I could but I was too weak from not eating enough for several days. The arm around my waist held me close as well as the hand on my mouth as I tried to shout for help. “Say anything and I’ll make it hurt 10 times more bitch.” Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I realized what was about to happen.

Notes

omg. its been like a month. I am so very sorry about the unintentional hiatus. life happens and it gets crazy. OMG I MET ASHLEY COSTELLO FROM NEW YEARS DAY!!! I SAW THEM LIVE AND OMG IT WAS AMAZING! I CAUGHT A SHIRT AND CROWD SURFED AND HIGH FIVED ASH AND THEN AFTERWARDS I MET HER AT THE MERCH AREA. SHE IS LITERALLY SO NICE IT WAS INCREDIBLE. SHE GAVE ME A HUG!!!! I ALMOST DIED RIGHT THEN AND THERE AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SHE TOLD MY COUSIN SHE LIKED HER SHIRT! MY COUSIN TOLD ASH SHE LIKE HER SHIRT.HAHAHAHA IT WAS SO AMAZING. ahhhhhh sorry. I had the time of my life which made up for like the last 4 months being crappish and this past week crappy. :/ now to wait for warped tour. well andywho, review please let me know how i'm doing (:

see you next chapter! stay strong and never give in and never back down! <3