Suffer In Silence

*Dakota's POV*

I'm sitting up high in this tree, looking over the beautiful river. I look down, 'one jump and you'd be dead' the voice tells me. 'One jump and your problems are all over, no one will miss you, you'd be doing them a favour'. I shake my head, "no", I whisper, "you're lying, my animals would miss me, they need me to protect and love them". Yes, I talk to myself, I'm a fucking loser, I get it.

Today nothing happened, I managed to evade my hateful parents and sister, and even my bullies. But for some reason the voice won't leave me alone. My mood has been so flat all day, but started going darker and darker as the day went on. Fuck it, I'm done fighting, I've been clean for a month but I just can't do this anymore.

I pull my iPod out of my jackets pocket, and peel off it's skin, revealing my old friend, my razor. Before I went clean I had finally managed to gather the courage to buy it, only to have a 'moment of clarity', and decide to try and go clean. So much for that, ha. Well, at least it's fresh and sharp, should be, since it's one of those strong men's blades.

I take off my jacket, it's cool, I'm in year 11 so I finally got my seniors jacket , I chose the lettering 'little elf', a nickname I had earned from my cousin for being so tiny, back when we used to hang out, that is, he has his own life now.

I sigh, pushing my sad thoughts away, I don't want to think about it anymore. I start with one long, deep cut, I feel myself slowly starting to relax as I feel the pain, the sweet, sweet burn. I watch, awed by the beauty of the dark, red drops quickly forming. Blood has always fascinated me, like fire does. In seconds, the blood begins flowing along my wrist, down my hand, and into the river below.

*****************Time lapse****************

My eyes are closed, I'm listening to the sweet rushing sounds of the water, and the chirping of the busy birds all around me. Eventually, the bleeding stops. I look down at my masterpiece, I count 18 cuts this time. I sigh and climb down, out of my tree, I call it my tree because I spend so much time up it, it's peaceful, and my favourite branch is very wide and comfortable.

I get to the bottom of my tree, and walk the few steps to the edge of the river. It's only a small river, with clear water, and you can even see the pretty stones it flows over. Though there are some jagged and some smooth boulders scattered throughout it. As I'm washing the blood off, I hear a voice, humming, the voice is decidedly male. And my god, it's so beautifully deep, so... So gravily and, dare I say it.... Sexy.

I hurriedly finish washing my wrist, dry it on my jacket, and put the now damp jacket back on. I hide behind a large rock, and watch as he emerges from the trees. A boy so beautiful, piercing blue eyes, porcelain skin so flawless, and oh my god, piercings. A lip ring and nose ring, holy shit, I can't believe what I'm seeing, and hearing.

He doesn't notice me, thank god, he's too busy humming along to the song he's listening to, a Motley Crüe song by the sounds of it, kickstart my heart?. I watch as he walks down the beaten path, walking to the pace of the song, singing along every now and then, until he disappears from sight.

I sigh, the one highlight of my day, fuck, my year, gone. Oh well, time to go home... 'Home?Haha, sorry bitch, but it's only a home if you're actually wanted there', "shut up!" I scream, then panic, realising that the beautiful boy might have heard me, I start running.....

Notes

Well there it is... The first chapter to my first ever fic, I realise it's most likely terrible, but I figure hey, why not, I can only get better at it right? If you thing it's good please comment , even if you think it's shithouse, any criticism is useful.

Chapter title credit: Simple Plan - Welcome to my life

I really hope you guys like this, let me know what you think :3

(Finally I have been able to re-upload this chapter, sorry about the wait guys)