-Andy's POV-

I walked, I wasn't headed anywhere. I just walked. I was going down a a hidden path that ran right beside a lake and underpass that ran over it. I considered, I didn't want to live anymore, but I couldn't let my fans down anymore than I already had, if I killed myself there no one would really notice me. I veered off the path, barley noticing the loud cursing as someone evidently avoided running into me. I carried on down to the underpass and slipped in. It was calm and quite under here. It was also dirty. What a perfect place to die for me. A failure. I pulled round my satchel and took out what remained of my whiskey, my last cigarette, but couldn't find my lighter.
"Shit" I mumbled , remembering hearing something drop from my bag as I crossed. With a sigh I pulled myself up and felt dizzy. I hadn't had any food in weeks. I felt myself stumble, but there was some kind of disconnect between my mind and body. I staggered again and then felt my self go down.

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I had no idea how long I was out for. I woke up in my underpass with a roaring headache.
"Screw the cigs." I muttered, downing the whiskey. I slowly started feeling the effect of the alcohol, I fumbled at my zip to get my blades. I found it and twisted it between my fingers. That was something I used to be good at, I thought with a frown, it was a habit I was slowly getting back into. The blade twisting, not cutting. That was something that had welcomed me with open arms. I gazed down at my arms, already a mess of scars and scabbing wounds. I looked at my blade. Then my arm. I took a marginally clean spot of arm and pulled the blade across.
*Failure* 5 cuts
*Emo* 5 cuts
*Fat* 5 cuts
*failure* 5
It kept going until my arms were a real mess. I lowered my shaking arms and waited for death to take me. Through buzzing ears I heard voices. Laughing and joking.
"Damn" I thought to myself.
"Shit!" A girls voice pierced my thoughts.
"Kai! Calm down! You'll have an attack!" A boys voice
Attack? What did he mean?
"Shit, shit, shit!" The voice was close, to close. "Josh! Call an ambulance!"
No! If they called an ambulance then everyone would know! I mustered up the strength to speak. "No..."
"Look, I understand, you don't want help, you did this to yourself, but shit!"
"please..." I murmured. Opening my eyes. The girl looked startled. She was beautiful.
"Fuck alright, lets get you back to mine... but if any of those need stitches I'm taking you straight to the hospital."
"Fine." I sighed seeing she wouldn't give in.
"Alright Josh, help!"
"Coming! Fuck Cat thats..."
"I know! We need to get him back to mine!"
"Fuck theres way we can lift him just the two of us.. we're both scrawny as fuck! Wait! CC!"
"Now is no time to be fan girling Josh!"
"No hes searching in this area right now! He posted his number if anyone had information on Andy!"
"I'll call him them give me the number!"
"how come you get to?"
"Cause you'll be incapable of speech if you talk to him."
"Oh"
"Josh, what the fuck?"
"Don't question the gay fanboy! Just call!"
I heard someone talking, but the whiskey was really kicking in.
"Right, Andy? Look at me please." I tiredly turned my head to look at her. "CC's on his way. I need you to keep awake."
"CC?" I missed CC
"Ya." she responded, looking a little teary.
"You're pretty." I giggled.
"Andy, are you drunk?"
"NO!" I denied, someone snorted, "only a little" I admitted shyly.
"Kai? Andy?" CC's voice came down the path.
"Here!" The pretty girl called. Someone giggled strangely. "Keep your cool Josh."
"I'll try." I heard a new person rushing down to me.
"Andy!" I Struggled my eyes open.
"CC." I smiled
"Oh god, let's get you to the car. He picked me up, bridal style. and someone supported my legs and head. Once we were in the car, I felt the whiskey wearing off. I barley heard their conversation. What I did hear told me that Josh and Kai were not an item, Josh was gay and had a crush on CC.
"What! No gay love for me?"
"No, Kai likes you!" Oh.
"Fucking hell Josh!"
"Paybacks a bitch, bitch!" At this point I started shivering and Kai hugged me trying to warm me up. Finally the door opened and CC picked me up again. "Won't you're parents wonder why two strange men are coming in?" CC asked as he got me out.
"They run a bank, they're in Australia at the moment, for the next 2 months."
"They leave you alone?"
"Yeah, I'm 17, and they trust me not to do anything stupid." That was strange. "Take him up to my room, I've got a spare bed up there from..." Kai stopped talking. I made a mental note to ask her why she had a spare bed in her room. They settled me in and a seconds later I was asleep.
Kai woke me.
"Hmm?"
"I have some soup. And I need to clean your- your cuts"
I looked away feeling ashamed. "I-I'm sorry." I murmured starting to cry I could feel what I had been running from, my failure to my fans, catching up to me.
"Hey, hey, hey, don't cry."
"You really are beautiful" I said, still crying.
"Thank you Andy." She murmured, starting to cry as well.
"Don't cry." I repeated her words, with a small smile.
"Eat your soup, I'll get the disinfectant and bandages."
She walked out and I set about devouring my soup. By the time she re-entered her room I was finished.
"That was fast," She commented with a smile.
"That was yummy!"
"Thank you!" She started bandaging my arms.
I realized what had been bothering me. "Kai, can I ask you something?"
"Shoot"
"Why do you have bandages and disinfectant in your bathroom? I other words, everything required to look after cuts?"
She froze. "I- I just do." She said evasively. I glanced at her arms and saw a maze of scars on her arm. I lifted one and kissed a scar. She started crying. I put my bandaged arms around her.
"You really are beautiful." I promised her.
"No I'm not." She argued.
I raised her head so she was looking at me. "Yes, yes you are. I promise. I promise" I gently kissed her gorgeous lips. "You are"