*Des's point of view*


I woke up and followed my daily routine. A couple diet pills and a slim fast for breakfast. Followed by a cigarette then a shower. I got dressed and slipped my collar back on. I need it on. It's the only thing bringing me any comfort. I had to cover up the busted lip Austin gave me. His hand print was still on my cheek. So I had to cover that up too. He has huge hands so I had a large red splotch on my cheek. I thought I had gotten away from this kind of thing. Apparently I was thrown right back into it. And it's going to happen all over again. But honestly what can I do? Austin is taller than me. Bigger than me. Stronger than me. He coulf beat my senseless and I'd just have to take it. Andy was right. I should've listened to Andy when he told to me to stay away. I'm so stupid. It's all my fault. I opened my lap top, I wanted to buy a couple things online and send them to Andy as a present. I ordered him like cute candles and lovey dovey junk. I just wanted him to know I was thinking about him. I was able to send him a little card as well. They let me even write a little note.

Just wanted you to know I was thinking about. I miss you so much and can't wait to see you September. I know this gift is all girly and kinda gay, I hope you liked it. Love you.
I put in my credit card information then sent it out to him. I sighed then took the fire detector out the ceiling, opened the window and sat back down at my lap top on the bed. I lite another cigarette and took a few puffs. I held it in my mouth and scrolled through random websites. I decided to troll some people so I went on the BVB fanfic site, I was a member, logged in and went to find a story where a girl paired herself with Andy. I couldn't help but type in a comment:

Hey girlie. Das my man.

I got comment replies like "No that's my man!" I respond:

Well as Destiny Biersack I'm pretty he's MINE.

They'd ask me to prove it and do something weird to prove it. I'd send them weird faces in private messages then they'd completely fan girl. It made me smile and laugh. I ended up Skyping with a fan.
"So what's up baby doll. Where ya from?"
She tried to speak calmly but failed, "Florida!"
i smiled, "So you'll be seeing me tonight." She nodded, "Awesome. Can't wait to see you tonight." I blew some smoke out.
"I didn't know you smoked," she said.
"Neither does Andy so don't tell him. I love you!" I hugged the camera. I saw Andy was trying to call. "Shit the bae's trying to call. Bye baby doll. " I hung up on her, put out the cigarette then answered Andy's call. "Hey babe."
"Hey, Jace told me he heard you crying last night. Are you okay? I'm a little worried."
I sighed and smiled for him, "I could be better but I'm okay."
He crossed his arms then gave me a stern look, "And Cameron told you've been smoking. Why didn't you tell me? Are you only smoking so you don't eat? What's going on?"
I sighed, "Macy said it helps curve cravings. I gotta maintain the 105 pound deal I have. Once you go over 110 you're out. Fired. Thrown away. I like being a model for a top company. And plus being a rock star. I gotta keep my Figure. I'm sorry if you don't like it. But it's the way it has to be."
Andy just stared at me, looked away and sighed, "It.. It's fine." He lite a cigarette, inhaled then blew out the smoke. "I really miss you. It's too quiet here. Everyone's moved out and I'm all by myself in a too big of a house."
"I miss you too. I really wish you could've came up with me. You think you could fly out anytime soon?" Oh god please let him be able to. I need him. He's my protection. Maybe if he's with me Austin won't be able to do anything.
He ran his fingers through his hair, "Maybe in a few months. No promises. I can try though."
I smiled, "Alright."
The door opened and it was Austin. He mouthed to me, "Take off the fucking collar."
I sighed, "Babe. Gotta go. The guys are making me buy a new outfit for the show."
"Bye. I love you."
"Love you too. Bye." I ended the call and closed my computer. I took off the collar.
"Don't worry. I'm not going to do anything today but you're going to be wearing a new collar. While Andrews away you're mine and you will wear my mark." He tossed a collar at me. Just a plain black leather one with a small ring. I sighed. I put it on. "Good. I'll be here after the show." He left. God it feels so wrong to where someone else's collar. This is sick. I hate this. Can someone just kill me right now?

Notes

I know it's all sad and glum right now but it's going to lighten up soon. That's why I added in the fanfic part.

-CharChar