Miles and miles away.
Chapter four
*Andy's point of view*
This house is too big for me alone. It's so quiet it's deafening. Music doesn't help. It doesn't replace the company of my brothers and wife. All the guys have moved on and out. I only got to see them really when we were promoting the new album and when we were writing, which was mostly over Skype, my god I hate being alone. It's maddening. I'm stuck in my prison and I have no one to help me break out. Countless scars and cuts filled my arm and thighs now. Even Des's CD didn't help me. I don't know what to do with myself. The only way this has helped me in ANYWAY is that I've been able to find some sort of strange inspiration and have written songs from this. I don't even want to do anything anymore. Everything hurts. Mind, body, soul. Everything. Only time I do anything is when I'm called in by our band manager. I've lost interest in a lot of things. I throw on a happy face for the guys, the fans, and Des but inside I'm being ripped apart. I want to be able to feel something other than this burning pain I feel in my heart. For the last year the blade has been my only friend. Everything has lost its appeal. Foods lost it's taste. Even my eyes have lost their crystal blue luster and my skins gotten paler. I look like a corpse. I'm the walking dead. I've lose my faith and life. The only hope I have to hold onto was the tour. I'd be able to see Des. If I can make it that long.
I need someone. Anyone. I need another person in this house. Someone who can make me happy. I want a baby. I want a child. I need a child. Company and love is what I need. I've made the decision I'm going to adopt.
I drove to the nearest orphanage. It was actually the one Des lived in while she was a baby. I walked inside and was greeted by a chipper woman, "Hello. How may I help you?"
"I'm looking to adopt." I answer.
"That's wonderful!" She exclaims as she leads me into her office. "Just fill out these forms and while I'm filing and going through everything you may explore. What age group are you looking for?"
I shrugged, "Not sure. I was thinking more of a baby or maybe a toddler."
"That's good. There's plenty for you to choose from. I surely hope you're not one of those parents just adopting for the money. Those people make me sick." She said handing me a
huge stack of forms.
I talked to her as I filled them out, "No. I'd never. My wife was in that situation. Her adoptive parents beat her. I would never put a child through that and neither would she."
She smiled, "Glad to finally see some good people in this society. I'm tired of seeing all these bad people. How long have you and your wife been married?"
"A year and some change." I answer.
"Where do you work? With all your tattoos it must be difficult to find work."
I chuckled and shook my head, "No ma'am. In my work force tattoos are a-okay. I'm in music. I make pretty good money. I'm in black veil brides."
"Oh my goodness! I knew you looked familiar! My son and daughter absolutely love you!"
I smiled, "That's really cool. Here." I signed two papers, "They'll go nuts." She thanked me. But damn those papers took me so long to freaking fill out. A good hour actually and while the woman was filing them and looking over them, little kids would peek at me from the door frame. I'd smile and stick my tongue out at them. They'd giggle and run off. There was a small brunette girl with rosy cheeks who continually stared at me. I motioned her to me. "Come her." she shyly walked up to me sucking on her thumb,"What's your name sweetheart? How old are you?"
"I'm Charlie. I'm four years old." Her voice was soft and sweet.
I smiled and out her on my lap, "How long have you been here?"
She looked up at me,"Four years. "
That broke my heart. She's been here her whole life, never had a mom or dad. She's never known what it's like to have a parent's love or any for that sort. "Hey sweet heart. How would you like to come home with me?" She smiled real big and hard then nodded, "I'm adopted two kids then."
The woman came out and scolded Charlie, "Charlie, get off Mr. Biersack. You know better."
I stood up and had Charlie in my arms, "She's alright. I want to adopt her and a baby." The woman excitedly lead me to me the nursery. I looked over all the baby's chubby and smooth faces. I didn't know which one to choose. They're all so precious.
Charlie pointed out a sleeping one. Soft brown hair and the cutest chubby cheeks I have ever seen, "She's zoey. I got to change her once.l
I looked at Charlie, "Do you like Zooey?" She nodded. I put down Charlie then picked up Zooey from her crib. She fit so perfect in my arms. Her tiny body shifted, I woke her up. She let out a small yawn then gave me a small smile. "Oh my god. She's perfect. Just perfect. So is Charlie." The woman filled and filed paper work then gave me their belongings(a small suitcase filled with almost nothing).
Thank god Jinxx left Jamie's car seat in my back seat when he borrowed my car, scatter brained little shit. Before I took them home I drove us to the mall. Not without playing KISS in the car. I SHALL RAISE THEM IN MY IMAGE! KISS ADDICTED AND BATMAN OBSESSED! Awesome thing the mall had strollers. I put Zooey in it and had Charlie hold into my hand as I pushed. I first got Zooey a bunch of baby cloths. I was going to take Charlie to like baby GAP but she wanted to go into a hot topic. When I asked her why she answered me with, "Cause I want to dress like you, daddy. I see the shirt you're wearing in there." Oh my god, that literally warmed my heart.
"Alright. Let's go in." We walked inside and all she wanted was stuff with my face on it. I got a Stitching Wounds shirt off the rack, one with Des's face, "That's your mommy Char. You'll get to meet her soon. You'll like her. She's super nice and loving." I held the shirt up in front of Zooey, "That's mama."
Zooey smiled and let out a cute baby yell, "Ma!"
"Her first word Daddy!" Charlie exclaimed.
i smiled and gave kisses on both the girls head then paid of Charlie's shirt and a kiss onesie for Zooey. I then went to Walmart and bought a buttload of diapers, bottles, pacifiers, baby food, car seat, sheets, and a crib for Zooey. I got a bunch of healthy foods and a couple junk foods for Charlie. Some jeans and shoes too. When I got home and got the girls settled in,fed, and bathed, I called Des to wish her luck before her show she told me she already performed and was just about to sleep and she'll call me in the morning. I told her I loved her then hung up.
I sighed then smiled at the girls, "I say it's pretty late. How about we get to sleep?"
Charlie yawned, "Aw daddy. I don't wanna go to sleep."
I smiled, "Well you have to baby girl. Come on. We can all sleep together in my room."
I picked up a sleeping Zooey and walked us all up into my room. I laid them down, Zooey under my right arm, Charlie under my left. When I knew Charlie was asleep I went down stairs cause I finally felt like eating something. I opened Instagram then went on Des's. She usually has the concert pictures and videos up by now. I played one of the videos. She was talking into the mic and to the camera, "This is for Andy who's at home and who I miss so much! I love you!" Then she started to sing The Mortician's Daughter. It just skipped to "I love you more than I could ever scream" then cut off. I was looking through the newer pictures and saw Des was wearing a completely different collar. What the hell? Oh god no. She's... She's found another. Another master. You don't just change collars like that. She's Austin's. I just know it. He's been looking for a chance to steal her away from me and now he's finally got it. I sent her a picture of me and the sleeping girls. I typed "I was going to wait to tell you but I'm too excited. I decided to adopt. Skype me in the morning so you can meet them. We love you and miss you."
Im in such denial that she'd ever do that to me buts it's so obvious. I went into my bathroom and took out my metallic friend and pressed it to my wrist. I was up to 16 when I heard the door open. A soft voice spoke,"Daddy. What're you doing?" I looked back at Charlie then dropped to my knees crying. I felt a small pair of arms wrap around my neck, "D-daddy. Stop. I don't want you to go on vacation too."
"What do you mean 'vacation'?" I ask.
She held my arm out then wiped it clean with a baby wipe, "Amanda had these boo boos like these on her arms and legs, one day we were all told she went on vacation. I'm still waiting for her to come back."
I wrapped my arms around her small body"Let's go to bed." I cleaned and wrapped up then laid back down with the girls. Sleep has never came this easy till I had them with me...
*Des's point of view*
As I laid under Austin taking my punishment for my stupid actions, Austin picked up my phone and unlocked it. "Aw look. Hubby got you two some kids." He showed me the picture. It him smiling so wide with two sleeping children. A toddler and a baby. He adopted. I started crying even harder, this made me actually happy. Austin tossed my phone aside then finished off. God I used to look so up to that man and respect him but now every time I see him I want to vomit and kill that fucker.
I opened my phone back up when Austin left. I looked at that picture. I kept crying. This made me so happy I loved this. I can't wait to see them. I showered off and laid down. I took off Austin's collar. Seeing Andy and those girls made me happy I actually ate and slept with ease.
This house is too big for me alone. It's so quiet it's deafening. Music doesn't help. It doesn't replace the company of my brothers and wife. All the guys have moved on and out. I only got to see them really when we were promoting the new album and when we were writing, which was mostly over Skype, my god I hate being alone. It's maddening. I'm stuck in my prison and I have no one to help me break out. Countless scars and cuts filled my arm and thighs now. Even Des's CD didn't help me. I don't know what to do with myself. The only way this has helped me in ANYWAY is that I've been able to find some sort of strange inspiration and have written songs from this. I don't even want to do anything anymore. Everything hurts. Mind, body, soul. Everything. Only time I do anything is when I'm called in by our band manager. I've lost interest in a lot of things. I throw on a happy face for the guys, the fans, and Des but inside I'm being ripped apart. I want to be able to feel something other than this burning pain I feel in my heart. For the last year the blade has been my only friend. Everything has lost its appeal. Foods lost it's taste. Even my eyes have lost their crystal blue luster and my skins gotten paler. I look like a corpse. I'm the walking dead. I've lose my faith and life. The only hope I have to hold onto was the tour. I'd be able to see Des. If I can make it that long.
I need someone. Anyone. I need another person in this house. Someone who can make me happy. I want a baby. I want a child. I need a child. Company and love is what I need. I've made the decision I'm going to adopt.
I drove to the nearest orphanage. It was actually the one Des lived in while she was a baby. I walked inside and was greeted by a chipper woman, "Hello. How may I help you?"
"I'm looking to adopt." I answer.
"That's wonderful!" She exclaims as she leads me into her office. "Just fill out these forms and while I'm filing and going through everything you may explore. What age group are you looking for?"
I shrugged, "Not sure. I was thinking more of a baby or maybe a toddler."
"That's good. There's plenty for you to choose from. I surely hope you're not one of those parents just adopting for the money. Those people make me sick." She said handing me a
huge stack of forms.
I talked to her as I filled them out, "No. I'd never. My wife was in that situation. Her adoptive parents beat her. I would never put a child through that and neither would she."
She smiled, "Glad to finally see some good people in this society. I'm tired of seeing all these bad people. How long have you and your wife been married?"
"A year and some change." I answer.
"Where do you work? With all your tattoos it must be difficult to find work."
I chuckled and shook my head, "No ma'am. In my work force tattoos are a-okay. I'm in music. I make pretty good money. I'm in black veil brides."
"Oh my goodness! I knew you looked familiar! My son and daughter absolutely love you!"
I smiled, "That's really cool. Here." I signed two papers, "They'll go nuts." She thanked me. But damn those papers took me so long to freaking fill out. A good hour actually and while the woman was filing them and looking over them, little kids would peek at me from the door frame. I'd smile and stick my tongue out at them. They'd giggle and run off. There was a small brunette girl with rosy cheeks who continually stared at me. I motioned her to me. "Come her." she shyly walked up to me sucking on her thumb,"What's your name sweetheart? How old are you?"
"I'm Charlie. I'm four years old." Her voice was soft and sweet.
I smiled and out her on my lap, "How long have you been here?"
She looked up at me,"Four years. "
That broke my heart. She's been here her whole life, never had a mom or dad. She's never known what it's like to have a parent's love or any for that sort. "Hey sweet heart. How would you like to come home with me?" She smiled real big and hard then nodded, "I'm adopted two kids then."
The woman came out and scolded Charlie, "Charlie, get off Mr. Biersack. You know better."
I stood up and had Charlie in my arms, "She's alright. I want to adopt her and a baby." The woman excitedly lead me to me the nursery. I looked over all the baby's chubby and smooth faces. I didn't know which one to choose. They're all so precious.
Charlie pointed out a sleeping one. Soft brown hair and the cutest chubby cheeks I have ever seen, "She's zoey. I got to change her once.l
I looked at Charlie, "Do you like Zooey?" She nodded. I put down Charlie then picked up Zooey from her crib. She fit so perfect in my arms. Her tiny body shifted, I woke her up. She let out a small yawn then gave me a small smile. "Oh my god. She's perfect. Just perfect. So is Charlie." The woman filled and filed paper work then gave me their belongings(a small suitcase filled with almost nothing).
Thank god Jinxx left Jamie's car seat in my back seat when he borrowed my car, scatter brained little shit. Before I took them home I drove us to the mall. Not without playing KISS in the car. I SHALL RAISE THEM IN MY IMAGE! KISS ADDICTED AND BATMAN OBSESSED! Awesome thing the mall had strollers. I put Zooey in it and had Charlie hold into my hand as I pushed. I first got Zooey a bunch of baby cloths. I was going to take Charlie to like baby GAP but she wanted to go into a hot topic. When I asked her why she answered me with, "Cause I want to dress like you, daddy. I see the shirt you're wearing in there." Oh my god, that literally warmed my heart.
"Alright. Let's go in." We walked inside and all she wanted was stuff with my face on it. I got a Stitching Wounds shirt off the rack, one with Des's face, "That's your mommy Char. You'll get to meet her soon. You'll like her. She's super nice and loving." I held the shirt up in front of Zooey, "That's mama."
Zooey smiled and let out a cute baby yell, "Ma!"
"Her first word Daddy!" Charlie exclaimed.
i smiled and gave kisses on both the girls head then paid of Charlie's shirt and a kiss onesie for Zooey. I then went to Walmart and bought a buttload of diapers, bottles, pacifiers, baby food, car seat, sheets, and a crib for Zooey. I got a bunch of healthy foods and a couple junk foods for Charlie. Some jeans and shoes too. When I got home and got the girls settled in,fed, and bathed, I called Des to wish her luck before her show she told me she already performed and was just about to sleep and she'll call me in the morning. I told her I loved her then hung up.
I sighed then smiled at the girls, "I say it's pretty late. How about we get to sleep?"
Charlie yawned, "Aw daddy. I don't wanna go to sleep."
I smiled, "Well you have to baby girl. Come on. We can all sleep together in my room."
I picked up a sleeping Zooey and walked us all up into my room. I laid them down, Zooey under my right arm, Charlie under my left. When I knew Charlie was asleep I went down stairs cause I finally felt like eating something. I opened Instagram then went on Des's. She usually has the concert pictures and videos up by now. I played one of the videos. She was talking into the mic and to the camera, "This is for Andy who's at home and who I miss so much! I love you!" Then she started to sing The Mortician's Daughter. It just skipped to "I love you more than I could ever scream" then cut off. I was looking through the newer pictures and saw Des was wearing a completely different collar. What the hell? Oh god no. She's... She's found another. Another master. You don't just change collars like that. She's Austin's. I just know it. He's been looking for a chance to steal her away from me and now he's finally got it. I sent her a picture of me and the sleeping girls. I typed "I was going to wait to tell you but I'm too excited. I decided to adopt. Skype me in the morning so you can meet them. We love you and miss you."
Im in such denial that she'd ever do that to me buts it's so obvious. I went into my bathroom and took out my metallic friend and pressed it to my wrist. I was up to 16 when I heard the door open. A soft voice spoke,"Daddy. What're you doing?" I looked back at Charlie then dropped to my knees crying. I felt a small pair of arms wrap around my neck, "D-daddy. Stop. I don't want you to go on vacation too."
"What do you mean 'vacation'?" I ask.
She held my arm out then wiped it clean with a baby wipe, "Amanda had these boo boos like these on her arms and legs, one day we were all told she went on vacation. I'm still waiting for her to come back."
I wrapped my arms around her small body"Let's go to bed." I cleaned and wrapped up then laid back down with the girls. Sleep has never came this easy till I had them with me...
*Des's point of view*
As I laid under Austin taking my punishment for my stupid actions, Austin picked up my phone and unlocked it. "Aw look. Hubby got you two some kids." He showed me the picture. It him smiling so wide with two sleeping children. A toddler and a baby. He adopted. I started crying even harder, this made me actually happy. Austin tossed my phone aside then finished off. God I used to look so up to that man and respect him but now every time I see him I want to vomit and kill that fucker.
I opened my phone back up when Austin left. I looked at that picture. I kept crying. This made me so happy I loved this. I can't wait to see them. I showered off and laid down. I took off Austin's collar. Seeing Andy and those girls made me happy I actually ate and slept with ease.
PLZ update!! I love this story so much!!! please continue with this story aswell!!! t
5/15/14