“Kris are you in there?” Kristen jumped, the blade falling from her fingers and she cursed softly as she heard someone knocking on the bathroom door quietly. She searched around, but was unable to find the object of her desire and so she stood up and moved towards the door.

“I-uh-yeah…I’ll be right out Andy.” She said, her voice shaking as she bent down and tried to search the floor for the small metal object. There was a loud knock and then it sounded like someone was kicking the door.

“Kristen let me in-right-now.” His voice was stern and Kristen only sighed as she straightened up, running her fingers through her brown hair as she moved to unlock the door.

“I’m fine Andy…just give me a minute.” She said as she pulled open the door and was met with the most breathtaking blue eyes she had ever seen. Four years they had been friends and seeing those eyes of his still made her heart stop.

“You aren’t fine Kris…not by the looks of that blade that’s sitting on the floor near the toilet. Come on…” He pulled at her hand, pulling her away from her sanctuary and her little habit that she needed to fulfill in order to go on with her day.


Kristen groaned as Andy brought her into his room and she couldn’t help but scan her eyes over his walls. As a teenager Andy had covered his walls with posters of his idols-now they were covered with art that he had collected on his travels. Andy sat down on the bed, bringing her down with him and Kris shuddered as he pulled at her arm and his blue eyes looked into her own shining grey ones.

She looked down at her exposed wrist-her exposed dirty little secret-and she wanted to cry as Andy bent down and pressed his lips to her skin. Her scars shown underneath the soft light coming from a nearby lamp and she couldn’t help but look up from her own skin and take Andy in. His short black hair was hanging over his eyes as he seemed to be examining every single scar that had graced her skin.


“Why?” He asked her simply, his blue eyes connecting with hers and all Kristen could do was shrug and move her hand out of his grasp as she covered her scars with the long sleeve of her sweater.

“Why not? Andy please…I-I need to do this right now…” She begged him and he sighed as he looked at her. Kristen was visibly shaking, her legs jiggling up and down and he watched as the holes in her skinny jeans changed with her movement.

“No-no you don’t. You’re not going to do it ever again…” He said as he moved to the other side of the bed and soon he was bent over the edge and it seemed like he was grabbing something from underneath where they sat. He popped back up with an acoustic guitar in his hands and a soft smile on those perfect lips.

“Wha-what are you doing?” She asked, her voice scared as Kristen watched with awed silence as Andy focused on the guitar in his hands and then he looked up at her.

“Saving you…I can’t lose you Kris and this is the only way I know how to help you right now…” His voice was sad and Kristen felt the tears come to her eyes as familiar sounding song began to come from his fingertips as Andy plucked at the guitar in his lap.


You've been running for so long, still breathing
Hoping soon to find a song worth singing
Every chapter of this note they're reading
But you're slowly losing hope on bleeding
I'll carry you, my darkest desire
When life sings to you through devil's choirs
F.E.A.R won't steal what burns in you
I'll carry you away from the fire
My desire, devil's choirs
My desire, devil's choirs
Raise another broken glass to failure
A simple promise of a crimson savior
Take a look into the life you're living
I promise you this isn't pain you're feeling


Kristen sat there and listened to him sing softly, his deep voice almost impossible to hear, but she heard him loud and clear. Her grey eyes were filled with tears as she sat there and Kristen didn’t dare wipe them away. She couldn’t move-she couldn’t really breathe she was too scared that he would stop singing. Finally the song came to an end and Andy said nothing as he set the guitar down and placed a hand against her cheek.

His palm was warm against her skin, his thumb rubbing over her cheek as he stared into her eyes deeply and she felt at peace for once. That desire-the need to hurt herself-was gone in that moment and a new desire had taken over. Kristen bit down on her lip as Andy’s thumb traveled down further until she could feel the skin of his thumb graze over her lips.


“Don’t do this to yourself anymore Kris-you are too beautiful to do that to yourself…” He smirked at her, his blue eyes hidden behind his bangs slightly and Kristen desperately wanted to reach out and brush the offending hair out of the way.

“Y-you think I’m beautiful?” She asked and Andy said nothing as he removed his hand from her face, his thumb leaving her lips and soon it was replaced by his own perfect lips. She was shocked as he kissed her softly and soon it had ended and they both were smiling at one another shyly.

“Gorgeous…perfect even. I-I’ve always thought that.” He said, his voice shy sounding as he looked at her through his long bangs and he couldn’t believe he had never seen her this way before.


She was so beautiful sitting there in her ripped jeans and Sleeping With Sirens shirt-her messy brown hair hanging around her face as she bit down on her lower lip. They had been friends for four years and while Andy had been with someone for most of that time-he had always felt in his heart that it wasn’t right. Kristen was never the right age, until now and as he looked at her Andy could feel himself growing more and more attracted to her. The soft slope of her nose that ended in those pouty lips that he was dying to kiss-Andy wouldn’t be able to hold off much longer.


“An-Andy?” She said his name and he felt his head snap to attention as he locked in on those gorgeous grey eyes of hers.

“Yeah Kris?” He asked, but soon his mouth was covered by hers and she was laying on top of him as they had fallen back against the covers.


His hands were on her back and Andy smirked against her lips as he felt her small fingers gripping at the bottom of his shirt and slowly he allowed her to strip him of the fabric that was separating them. Suddenly she pulled away, her eyes wide and she had moved so fast Andy was left wondering if he hurt her. She was sitting on the other side of the bed, her knees up to her chest and Kristen looked like she wanted to cry.

Had he touched one of her wounds? Andy moved closer to her and Kristen only blushed a deep crimson as she noticed his bare tattooed chest and she wanted to hide in that moment. She didn’t know what she was doing and she knew that Andy was obviously experienced in these matters. She felt stupid in that moment and all Kristen wanted to do was disappear.


“Kris-what’s wrong? Did I hurt you or something?” He asked, a slight smile on his lips as he scooted closer to her until she was practically in his lap. Andy ran a hand down the side of her face and Kristen felt herself shiver at his touch.

“N-no. I-I just don’t know what I’m doing…” She said, her grey eyes wide and Andy tried to keep the smile off of his face. God he wanted this shy girl-wanted her in that moment and he wanted all of her.

“Ar-are you a virgin Kris?” He asked softly and he only smiled more as she sniffed and covered her face with her hands and laid back so that her head was resting against his soft pillows. Andy moved so that he was hovering over her and gently he reached out and moved her hands away from her beautiful face.

“It’s okay if you are-we don’t have to do anything that you don’t want to…” He said and soon Andy’s lips were against hers once again. Kristen knew in that moment that she was ready-she had been ready for Andy for four years and now they could be together like they had always both felt they should be.

“I-I’m ready Andy…” She said as Kristen pulled away, her grey eyes sure in her decision and Andy only smiled at her gently before his lips were on hers once again.


They melted together, Andy moving gently as he tugged at the bottom of her shirt and soon she was only clad in her bra and jeans. Kristen shivered as his fingers ran trails down her arms and she bit down on his lip softly, making Andy moan and move against her. She felt her hips instinctively move up to meet his and soon his fingers were fumbling with the button on her jeans. She felt his hands on her hot skin and Kristen moved the best that she could to help him out.

Soon enough she was naked and Andy only smiled as he looked down at her and moved so that he could remove the last pieces of his own clothing and to take care of their protection issue. Kristen felt her cheeks flame and he only smirked at her as his lips found hers once again and he moved slowly towards her. She bent her knees, sighing as she felt him against her and Andy stopped suddenly as he lifted himself up and he was looking down at her with hesitant eyes.


“Are you sure about this Kris? I don’t want to make you do anything you don’t want to…I waited for you for four years-I can wait another month or two…” He was being so sweet and Kris only shook her head as she wrapped her arms around his neck and brought his face close to hers so that their noses were touching slightly.

“I’m ready-I promise…” She said and Andy only kissed her lips softly as he pushed against her gently and Kris tried the best that she could to not cry out.


He was slow at first and soon enough she found herself finding a rhythm with him and Kristen felt herself let go. She let go of all the pain and anguish she was feeling in her heart. As his pace quickened and she felt the sweat on his arms as he held her close to his chest, Kris felt her heart swell with love. They had been doing a friendship dance for so long, but now it seemed like everything was falling into place. Suddenly Kristen felt something boiling within her and she couldn’t help but moan Andy’s name loudly as she felt her peak come and go. Andy tugged at her hair, his own finish coming quickly after her own and Kristen could only smile as he collapsed against her, his lips resting against hers gently as his breathing began to match her own.


“I-I love you Kris. I know it’s weird because we’ve been friends for so long, but I think deep down I’ve always loved you…” He said as he moved away from her face, but Andy still remained on top of her, his fingers tracing over her features softly as they both tried to catch their breath.

“I love you too…always have…always will.” She smiled up at him and in that moment they knew that this had been the start of something beautiful.

Something that would turn into an awfully big adventure.

Notes

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