Love Isn't Always Fair

Ashley's POV

I wake up when I feel a slight pressure on the corner of my bed and my leg being shook. I open my eyes and it's Destinee. I rub my eyes and sit up straight.
"What time is it." I manage to mumble,
"2:37"
"Please tell me it's afternoon and not in the freaking morning." She gets up and sits closer to me, next to my waist.
"It's morning, but I couldn't sleep I have to talk to you." I roll my eyes,
"Sure whatever, what do you want?" She slaps my leg and gets aggravated.
"See this is the shit I wanna talk about! Ever since we left the hotel you've been a bitch to me! What the fuck is that about!" I stand up and start to feel my anger rise.
"Are you seriously asking me a question as stupid as that! You kissed me, you basically let me have sex with you and when I tell you I love you that's when you decide to tell me there's someone else! And now you want to ask me why I'm so pissed off at you? What kind of fucked up shit are you trying to pull here!" She stands up so she's directly in my face.
"Look Ashley, I was just trying to look out for you and your feelings." I start to yell, not caring who I wake up.
"Look out for me? That's bullshit and you know it! If you really wanted to look out for me you would have told me before you decided to kiss me the other day!" Her voice gets louder
"You know why I kissed you? Because I appreciated what you did for me and I've loved you and the thought of you ever since I started listening to you guys, having my celebrity crush save me from my father and hold me the way you did affected me okay!"
"Who is it." I say violently.
"What are you talking about?"
"The other person, who is it." A few moments pass.
"Andy." My heart sinks into my stomach and my rage takes the best of me.
"Are you fucking kidding me? Andy? You, you bitch!" She starts to cry, she reaches for my hand.
"Ashley, please." I snatch my hand away before she could touch me.
"Of all people in the world, on this fucking planet, you chose one of my best friends? Your sick! Get out!" She steps closer to me with tears streaming down her face.
"Ashley, just listen to me." The rage builds up inside me, I punch the wall and yell,
"I said get the fuck out!" I must have been loud because Jinxx opens the door and turns on the light.
"What's going on?" He asks, the rest of the band standing behind him. Andy pushed through the crowd that blocked the doorway,
"Oh my god Destinee are you okay?" He starts to walk toward her to comfort her, but I stop him with a hard right handed punch to his face. He falls to the floor and holds his face.
"Dude what the fuck!"Andy yells in agony. Destinee screams,
"Ashley stop it!" I turn to her and yell,
"You shut the fuck up!" CC immediately rushes over and tries to hold me against the wall. I easily push him off and try to go after Andy again my fist already balled up, but I'm thrown against the wall by Jake. He puts his arm on my neck and screams in my face.
"You stop this shit right now!" Over his shoulder I see Andy stand up with the help of Jinxx.
"What the fuck is wrong with you!" Andy yells in a voice muffled by his hand. I struggle against Jake and the wall.
"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with YOU? You've been sneaking around with Destinee and you knew I had feelings for her!" Andy takes his hands away from his mouth, which is now bleeding.
"What are you talking about I never knew you liked her! If you would have told me I would have had nothing to do with her!" I open my mouth to tell at him again but CC run into the room,
"Guys, Destinee is in the bathroom and she won't open the door, I'm afraid she might do something to herself. Just please put this aside for a minute and help me." I haven't noticed she left during our fight, I look at Andy and he nods at me,
"Fine." I say, Jake lets go of me and I jog to the bathroom behind CC and knock on the door.

**this next part may be triggering, I don't want anyone to hurt themselves you're loved !**

Destinee's POV

With tears streaming down my face I dig through the bathroom until I find a shaving razor. I take it apart and hold the blade between my thumb and index finger. I made my hero's, Ashley Purdy and Andrew Biersack hate me and each other. Fuck up, I bring the blade across my skin, watching the blood bead up. Slut, three more cuts. Worthless, two more cuts. More words, more thoughts, more cuts. Deeper and deeper until my vision blurs. I look at my wrist, a red mess. I watch one trail of blood slowly make it's way to the middle of my palm. One more cut, in the right place, I could be out of their lives, everyone's lives. I put up my blade and place it directly over my vein. A knock and Ashley's voice causes to to pause right before I slice.
"Destinee, please open the door."
"Noo" it sounds more like a moan. Andy's voice is heard now.
"Please Destinee I'm sorry, we're sorry."
"No Andy, I'm sorry." I close my eyes and press the blade down on my veil and pull it across my skin with extreme quickness. I fall back to the floor and I smile at the ceiling, the blood, screaming and the pounding at the door.
"I'm free," I whisper to myself and close my eyes.

**bad part's over, sorry guys!**

The door flys open and I'm being held by four hands. I could tell it's Andrew by his soft hands, and Ashley by his strong arms.
"Oh my god Destinee, what did you do!" Ashley asks me.
"I'm sorry." Is all I can say, my strength is slowly leaving my body. Andrew is wrapping a towel around my wrist while crying.
"Destinee no, please open your eyes. Stay with me, we're gonna get you help." I open my eyes and look around me. Ashley silently crying with his eyes closed, Andrew shaking and crying with fear, Jinxx on the phone freaking out, CC covering his mouth with tears streaming down his face looking off into a corner, and Jake staring, taking in the whole situation. I look back up at the ceiling until my vision blurs and my eyes get heavy. I close them and prepare for internal rest.

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