What It Is To Burn

Dess laid in her bunk, her eyes scanning over the ceiling and she smiled to herself. The day had been perfect-she had never realized how much she had missed hanging out with her friends, but seeing them all together and running around with them had shown her just how much fun it could be. She had gotten so used to being around Andy and the guys that she had almost forgotten what it was like to be a girl. She laid there, her headache finally gone and Dess smiled as she curled up against the soft black and red sheets.

It felt nice to lay in the silence-the guys were still out at the catering tent getting dinner and Dess had decided to hang back. Nothing had been quiet or anywhere near quiet for months and it was beginning to strain on her nerves. Andy and Ashley bickered almost every day and she felt bad because Dess knew that while they bickered over band issues a lot of it was because of her.

Ashley still had feelings for her-Dess could tell in the way he joked around with her and Ash seemed to be overly concerned with her health these days. Dess had talked to Ashley-tried to explain to him that while she did love him…it was as a brother and nothing more. The bassist seemed to understand and he even laughed it off, but every once and a while Dess would catch him staring at her. She sighed-if the band broke up because of her Dess would feel devastated.

This band was Andy’s baby, something that he had nurtured and watched grow from the time he was sixteen. She knew it would kill him if things ended over something as stupid as the bassist making eyes at the singer’s fiancé. She sat up, reaching down Dess let her fist fall against her pillow and she felt the anger wash over her body.


“You alright there Evander Holyfield?” Someone asked her and Dess turned her head, a smirk coming to her lips as she saw Andy standing in front of their bunk.

“I’m fine-just fluffing.” She said, turning so that she was facing him with her legs swinging over the side of the bunk. Andy was standing there, holding two plates and somehow he was managing to hold two cans of soda as well.

“I’ve seen you fluff pillows babe. Usually it doesn’t require you to turn your fist slightly to the left-that’s punching not fluffing.” Andy said, raising an eyebrow at her and Dess only blushed.

“I see you got some food at catering. Wanna climb into my super secret spy fort?” She laughed and Andy only shook his head and then began to walk towards the front of the bus.


Dess didn’t want to leave the comfort of her hidey hole, but the smell wafting from those plates in his hands was making her really hungry. She had been eating, but it seemed like she couldn’t gain any weight and so Andy had gotten into the habit of bringing her the most fattening things he could find from the catering tent. Mac and Cheese. Pasta. Bread. Anything that he hoped would put some meat back on her bones. Dess only smiled as she jumped down from the bunk, landing expertly on her feet and she only smirked as she walked towards the front.

She had become a pro at jumping down from up high and landing correctly, but she hoped on the next tour that the extender bunk would be on the bottom level. As she entered the front of the bus Dess felt her heart stop. Ashley was sitting at the kitchen table eating his own food and Andy was sitting across from him and neither one was speaking to the other.

Fucking Fantastic.


“Whatever you got me smells delicious babe.” Dess said as she walked up to Andy and bent down to place a kiss on the top of his head before she moved to sit next to him.

“Mac and Cheese and a piece of fried chicken. There’s also cheesecake in the fridge-courtesy of Kit who was there and told me you’d been craving it.” Andy smiled at her as he handed her a fork and watched in silence as Dess dug in.

“God-that lunch today though was the best. I never realized how much I missed a good ol’ crab boil.” Dess said, her mouth slightly full of gooey cheese and Andy only laughed softly as he turned to his own plate.

“I never understood the East Coasts fascination with crabs…” Ashley said quietly between bites of his own chicken and Dess only shook her head. Ash never really understood anything about her life nor did he seem to care much about it. Which is another reason why Odessa was with Andy and not Ashley ‘Manwhore’ Purdy.

“I never understood girls fascination with guys who only like them because they have blonde hair and big tits but ya know…that’s just me.” Dess quipped and Andy almost spit out the soda he had been drinking. Jake and Jinxx also both let out soft snorts of laughter, but Ashley just continued to sit there, his brown eyes glaring at Dess.

“Well some girls get that there is more to a guy than just his pretty blue eyes and status as lead singer and frontman.” Dess only raised an eyebrow as she looked at Ashley and then felt Andy’s hand come to rest on her leg. His fingers rubbed at her skin and he was trying to keep her calm and while it would be funny to watch Dess tear into Purdy-it wasn’t good for band morale right now.

“Oh Ash and you wonder why Kit can’t stand to be around you. I’m finished. Thank you for the food babe-I’m gonna go to the bunk and put in a movie if you want to join me.” Dess said through gritted teeth as her eyes never left Ashley’s face and then she was up and moving off towards the bunks-her food still half uneaten.


Andy sighed as he grabbed for the mostly full plate of food and glared at Ashley as he moved to get up and head over towards the microwave. He put the plate inside, hoping that Dess would be hungry for it later that night. She had to start eating again-she hardly ate anything and while when she did eat it was high calorie stuff it still seemed to do nothing for her. Andy didn’t even bother going back to that kitchen table-Ashley was getting to be more and more difficult to be around and Andy knew that for the sake of the band and his own sanity that he needed to give the bassist some space.

He leaned up against the wall right outside of his bunk-the curtain was drawn but he could still hear Dess’ bell like laugh coming from inside. God he missed hearing her laugh. All she seemed to do anymore was worry about her tent, their wedding or Andy and while Andy appreciated her taking such good care of him he knew that she needed to be looking after someone more important.

Herself.


“Can I come in?” Andy asked and the laughing came to a stop and everything got eerily quiet. Did she not want him around? Was she going to now pretend like she was sleeping so he would go away?

“What’s the password?” Came a playful voice behind the curtain and as Andy moved to tug back the black fabric he was met with some resistance. At least her sense of humor seemed to be in good health.

“Uh-Jinxx smells?” Andy guessed and Dess only giggled loudly.

“Nope.” He tugged at the curtain at her reply but she was holding strong.

“Jake sucks?”

“No.”

“CC loves Monster?”

“Try again please.” This was getting ridiculous and Andy bit down on his lip in frustrated concentration.

“Ashley is a fucktard?” A loud laugh sounded out from the bunk but the curtain stayed in place.

“I like it! But no…” Now he was getting slightly irritated. He only wanted to climb in and cuddle, why was it so hard?

“Andy-uh-Andy has stinky feet?” He asked as Dess laughed as she tugged back the curtain and patted the bed next to her. Andy smirked at the blonde as he climbed in and noticed that she was watching her new favorite movie-Wreck It Ralph.

“My feet do not stink babe.” He said as he curled in to her side and rested his head on her chest. Dess smiled as she bent down and kissed the top of his head, inhaling the scent of cigarettes and mint.

“Have you smelled them lately? I’m shocked that they haven’t fallen off from gang green yet.” She laughed as Dess turned from the small television and met his eyes. Andy looked hurt, his bottom lip was sticking out and he was quivering it slightly.

“They only smell like that because I ran out of clean socks a week ago.” Andy said and Dess only shook her head and laughed softly.

“Hey-I told you to pack more socks, but you insisted that you needed more room for your shirts than you did your socks.” Dess said as she stuck her tongue out at him and then turned her attention back to the small television.


The two of them laid there laughing at the movie they had become engrossed in and Andy felt happy in that moment. He looked over at Dess when he heard her laugh and he loved to watch her smile and laugh-her whole face lit up and she looked like a little kid in that moment. God he couldn’t wait to marry this girl. To see and hear her laugh every day had been a dream come true and he knew how lucky he was to get to enjoy it every day. Jake and Jinxx had a harder time of things with Sammi and Ella always being left at home-Jinxx was now dealing with some very private Demons and Andy could only imagine his pain.

Finally the movie ended and as the credits rolled Dess took her eyes away from the small screen and looked at him. Her eyes were so mossy green that they reminded him of spring-of new life and new beginnings. That’s what a relationship had been with her-a start to a new life, a life that he had never thought was possible for him.

Andy had been so lonely that entire year before meeting Dess on that fateful July day. He had been taking the Ashley Purdy lifestyle to a new level and yet it never made him happy. Something felt like it was missing in his life-he wanted someone there to share all of the good times with and even to share the bad times as well. He had never thought in a million years that he would leave his bus that morning to go check on Toby at the merch tent and then run smack dab in to the girl of his dreams.

Dess was there though-in her cute teal top and black shorts with her blonde hair flying around her face as she looked out over the passing crowds. Talking to her had been amazing-she was witty and funny and it was refreshing for him to talk to someone who wasn’t crying in his face or telling him how amazing he was. Nope-it was just a normal conversation between two people who had a common love for a certain super hero. Andy snapped back to reality when he felt her lips touch his and he smiled in to their kiss as Dess ran her fingers through his short hair.


“What was that for?” He asked, his voice low as Dess pulled away but she still hovered over him, her face was only a few inches away from his at this point.

“Just because.” She shrugged as she smiled down at him and Dess felt butterflies fluttering around in her stomach as his blue eyes stared her down.

“I love you…” He said, a dreamy look in his eyes as Dess smiled at him softly and flopped down so that now her head was resting on his chest and she could hear the soft pattering of his heart against her ear.

“I love you too…even though you do have stinky feet!” Dess laughed loudly as Andy’s fingers reached out and began to wiggle against the skin of her slightly exposed stomach.

“I do not babe!” He said and Dess only continued to laugh as he assaulted one of her most ticklish spots.

“Do. Too!” She gasped between laughs and finally Andy stopped his tickling but he still hovered over her, his blue eyes sparkly in the dim light of their bunk.

“Yeah well me and my stinky feet will just sleep in the back lounge tonight then!” He threatened as Andy stopped tickling her and put a serious look on his face.

“Enjoy sleeping alone.” She said as Dess sat up and moved so that she was facing him. Her blonde and pink hair was down and in her face, the strands looking tousled and wavy. Andy felt his breath catch in his throat as she looked at him through those long lashes of hers.

Jesus-he was such a sucker for this girl.

“I couldn’t imagine sleeping anywhere else but in your arms.” He said, holding a hand to his chest as Andy smiled at her. His blue eyes looked so deep in that moment that Odessa felt like her heart would explode in her chest.

“Are you feeding me a line Biersack?” She smirked at him and Andy only nodded his head as his fingers gripped the edge of the curtain, pulling them into darkness as he leaned forward and captured her lips with his.


Andy never replied to her question and instead he kept his lips pressed against hers, taking her lip ring between his teeth and gently tugged. She groaned, the sound echoing off of the walls and Andy only smirked as he moved one hand to her chest and could feel her heart beating through the thin fabric of her sleep shirt. It felt good to be like this with Dess-they didn’t get a lot of chances to be so intimate and as Dess broke away briefly to pull her shirt over her head Andy couldn’t help but look down and take her in.

Her skin almost glowed in the dark it was so creamy and white-except for her arms and legs, which were pretty tan from the sun at this point. He smirked as Andy felt Dess fumble with the button and zipper of his pants and he laughed softly as he helped her out by moving his hips up so that she could easily slide his pants down.

The two of them slid together so easily and Andy growled in her mouth as Dess moved ontop of him. Her hips did most of the work and she kept her head bent slightly to keep from knocking it in to the ceiling of their bunk. Andy gripped her hips, his fingers digging in to her skin as he tried to keep his moaning to a minimum. Suddenly she began to speed up and in her excitement Dess moved her head up too much and smacked the back of it against the hard wood above her. She winced but soon that wince turned in to a low moan as she felt herself reach her end.

Andy felt her, the tightness making him need her more and as he bucked his hips up to meet her one last time he smirked and suddenly his vision got blurry. Dess collapsed onto his chest, her head resting right below his chin and both of them were breathing heavily. After a few minutes Dess moved so that she was laying beside him and she shivered as she pulled the bed sheet over her naked body.


“I love you.” She said, her voice soft and quiet and Andy only smiled as he opened his eyes and turned his head slightly to face her.

“I love you too.” He said as he moved towards her and placed a very light kiss to her lips.

“So, how was the rest of your day?” She asked as Dess moved to rest her head on an arm. She felt tired and she really just wanted to curl up and sleep, but they so rarely got these moments of peace where it was just the two of them.

“Pretty generic. Did some interviews and signed at the Tilly’s Tent with CC and Jake. How was the rest of your day? Did you girls get in to any trouble?” He asked and Andy only smirked as Dess’ cheeks got bright red and she moved to hide her face in his side. Oh-something happened.

“Oh ya know-we ate and then opened presents. You’re going to really enjoy the massive lingerie collection I have now…Justin Hills took all of his clothes off and gave me a lap dance.” She said the very last part as quietly as possible and Dess squinted her eyes near to being shut as she looked up at Andy. His eyes were wide and his jaw was set in a hard line.

“He what?” Andy asked, his voice low and Dess only groaned as she moved so that her head was on her own pillow and she was looking straight up at the ceiling.

“Uh Kit thought it wouldn’t be a bachelorette party without a stripper and Justin was willing-so he was our stripper. He spent more time on Morgan and Lily than he did me babe so calm down.” She smiled at him, turning her head to face him and Andy only huffed a breath out and then he smirked softly.

“As long as there was no touching. You’re mine-all mine and we need to keep it that way.” Andy said as he grabbed for her, his strong arms moving her so that she was resting on top of him and his hands were now laying on her back right above her butt.

“No-no touching. What are you going to do when we have kids? You’re going to have to share me eventually babe.” Dess laughed as she kissed him on the nose lightly and then giggled as she pulled back and noticed that he had crossed his eyes.

“Kids are different. Our daughter is going to look just like her mother and then I’ll have two of you all to myself.” He said with confidence and Dess only cocked an eyebrow at him. Did he-uh know something she didn’t?

“You sound pretty damn confident in us having a girl…and that she’ll look like me.” Dess smiled at him and Andy only closed his eyes as he rested his head back against his pillow. He could lay like this with her forever, but he knew that tomorrow was another day and another venue.

“Well I want a girl and I want her to look just like you, but maybe with my eyes-but definitely your hair and your beautiful face.” He said as he kissed her lips softly and then smiled that boyish smile at her.

“No boys?” She asked, shocked that Andy didn’t want a boy first to carry on his legacy.

“Maybe after the first girl.” Andy laughed as Dess raised an eyebrow at him-he wouldn’t be carrying these babies so of course he didn’t care how many they had.

“You want more than two kids?” Dess asked and Andy said nothing as he leaned his head up and pressed his lips against hers.


Andy knew what he wanted-a family. He had his band and his dream with that had come true, but over time his dreams had changed slightly. He would always love his band and he always wanted them to succeed, but now he wanted more. He wanted Dess and he wanted a family to come home to. He wanted a little girl to love him and look up to him. He wanted to be a hero again.

He wanted to be a father.

Notes

So what do you guys think-what will Dess and Andy's kids look like?

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