Bound By Love
Icognito
Andy
He looked so peaceful but I hate what made him sleep like this. Suicide should never be something to use when you feel down. I was there and he could’ve talked to me. Why didn’t he just wait for me to come back? I held his hand and looked at his pale face. His mother and brother went to get food to eat and I just sat in the room, numb of everything around me. I looked at the floor and then I heard groaning. My head shot up and I saw Bill’s eyes flutter open.
“Bill, are you okay?”
“I hurt, Andy. What happened?”
“You tell me, you’re the one that tried to commit suicide. I thought I said I was there and you didn’t need to feel alone.”
“Andy, you didn’t hear what that defense attorney said to me.” I sighed.
“What’d he say?”
“He tried using my sexuality to justify my father’s actions. He tried saying the reason it took this long for me to report him was because I was gay and I was…enjoying him.” Bill let out deep sobs and pulled his hand away from mine to hide his face.
“He’s right, I had to be enjoying it somehow, that’s why it took me so long to report him. I was succumbing to my own desires. Andy, I am a disgusting creature.”
“No, you’re not. You were traumatized by the abuse you were forced to live with. You just stopped fighting because you knew that it would be easier to give up. You are not a disgusting creature.”
“Andy, why do you love me?”
“Because you are the first person that’s made me feel like I have feelings. You’re the first person that actually made me tear down my own walls to make someone else feel like they’re everything I need. You gave me advice even though you had a messed up situation yourself. You showed me something that I never thought I’d see. I…I love you, Bill. Not just, that petty love but that real love that comes from the soul and from the bottom of my beating heart. I will never love anyone in this world as much as I love you. I fucking love you and I don’t want you to ever do this again. Please, Bill, don’t you ever try to kill yourself again.” I felt tears flow down my cheeks and I didn’t even bother to wipe them away.
“It’s okay, Andy. I won’t ever do this again. I promise. I just, I felt like it was all crashing down on me but I guess it’s not because I have you and that’s all that matters.”
3rd Person POV
“I gave you his location and you’re telling me you couldn’t get one fucking kid?!”
“Look, Jorg and Gordon failed, sir. I guess it just leaves me.”
“They were supposed to be preparing that boy to be a prostitute and they didn’t. Now, I want double, get me 2 teen boys by the end of this week, Chris or I’ll be forced to cut you off. I wonder how long it’ll be until the shakes start.”
“Don’t do that, sir. I’ll get you 2 teen boys by the end of this week I promise.”
“You better or I’ll be forced to make some economical withdrawals.” He hung up and looked at the hospital.
“I’m sorry, Andrew.”
He looked so peaceful but I hate what made him sleep like this. Suicide should never be something to use when you feel down. I was there and he could’ve talked to me. Why didn’t he just wait for me to come back? I held his hand and looked at his pale face. His mother and brother went to get food to eat and I just sat in the room, numb of everything around me. I looked at the floor and then I heard groaning. My head shot up and I saw Bill’s eyes flutter open.
“Bill, are you okay?”
“I hurt, Andy. What happened?”
“You tell me, you’re the one that tried to commit suicide. I thought I said I was there and you didn’t need to feel alone.”
“Andy, you didn’t hear what that defense attorney said to me.” I sighed.
“What’d he say?”
“He tried using my sexuality to justify my father’s actions. He tried saying the reason it took this long for me to report him was because I was gay and I was…enjoying him.” Bill let out deep sobs and pulled his hand away from mine to hide his face.
“He’s right, I had to be enjoying it somehow, that’s why it took me so long to report him. I was succumbing to my own desires. Andy, I am a disgusting creature.”
“No, you’re not. You were traumatized by the abuse you were forced to live with. You just stopped fighting because you knew that it would be easier to give up. You are not a disgusting creature.”
“Andy, why do you love me?”
“Because you are the first person that’s made me feel like I have feelings. You’re the first person that actually made me tear down my own walls to make someone else feel like they’re everything I need. You gave me advice even though you had a messed up situation yourself. You showed me something that I never thought I’d see. I…I love you, Bill. Not just, that petty love but that real love that comes from the soul and from the bottom of my beating heart. I will never love anyone in this world as much as I love you. I fucking love you and I don’t want you to ever do this again. Please, Bill, don’t you ever try to kill yourself again.” I felt tears flow down my cheeks and I didn’t even bother to wipe them away.
“It’s okay, Andy. I won’t ever do this again. I promise. I just, I felt like it was all crashing down on me but I guess it’s not because I have you and that’s all that matters.”
3rd Person POV
“I gave you his location and you’re telling me you couldn’t get one fucking kid?!”
“Look, Jorg and Gordon failed, sir. I guess it just leaves me.”
“They were supposed to be preparing that boy to be a prostitute and they didn’t. Now, I want double, get me 2 teen boys by the end of this week, Chris or I’ll be forced to cut you off. I wonder how long it’ll be until the shakes start.”
“Don’t do that, sir. I’ll get you 2 teen boys by the end of this week I promise.”
“You better or I’ll be forced to make some economical withdrawals.” He hung up and looked at the hospital.
“I’m sorry, Andrew.”
@Purdy's_little_lady_outlaw there's a sequel called Fond Memories
5/6/14