Bound By Love
Hurt And Comfort
Bill
“The trial is set for 2 months from today and we need to make sure you’re ready to give your testimony to the court.” I swallowed hard.
“I have to be there, in front of them?”
“Yeah, but don’t worry. He can’t touch you or speak to you.” The A.D.A said.
“Okay, so what do I have to say?”
“You have to recount all the times he’s touched you.”
“Even from 8 years ago?”
“Yes.” I sniffled a little and my heart raced. I didn’t want to go through this. I was happy with no one knowing and with it just being something he just did to me. I got up without excusing myself and went up to Andy’s room. I sat on the extra bed and sighed. My whole body felt numb, I didn’t want to do this. I just felt so alone.
“Bill, you in here?” I looked up and saw Andy standing in the doorway.
“Andy, I don’t want to do this.”
“Why don’t you?” He walked over to me and sat down on the bed.
“Because even though he hurt me and did all those awful things, I can’t help but still love him. He’s my father and I don’t want to make him feel bad. He was just succumbing to his desires.”
“Bill, you were hurt physically and mentally by him. He wasn’t succumbing to desires, he was being an asshole. You deserve to be happy after all that you’ve been through.”
“Do I? I laid there and let him crawl onto me and shove his dick into all the places on my body. I feel disgusting.”
“You wanna go out? I have nothing to do and you need to get this whole trial off your mind. We could go to dinner or go to a movie.” Andy really wanted to change the subject. I sighed and decided to go along with it.
“Okay, but how about we rent a movie, get some snacks and cuddle up under your blankets. I just want to cuddle.”
“Okay, we can do that. I’ll go send my mom to get Labyrinth.”
“Oh my god, you remembered.” I smacked his shoulder.
“Of course I remembered, I know how much you love that movie. I think it’s cool too.” He left the room and I looked at my hands.
“Looks like we have to go with the punches for a while, Bill.” I mumbled to myself.
Andy
“MOM!” She came running out from the kitchen and sighed.
“Yes, Andrew. You scared me half to death.”
“Sorry, can you pick up The Labyrinth with David Bowie?”
“Sure, honey.” I nodded and went back up to my room and Bill was hugging his legs on the bed, crying. I got closer and saw that he was bleeding.
“Oh Bill…” I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his thin frame.
“I tried to stop the pain and I made it worse. I didn’t want to, I tried so hard not to but I just couldn’t Andy.” I pulled him a little closer and hugged him.
“It’s okay, just cry, I know it hurts.”
“I don’t want it to hurt. I want it to be over.” I didn’t care that I was getting bloody. He needed me.
“It’s okay, just please, Bill, put down the knife. Please, I don’t want you to hurt yourself. You don’t need to do this. I love you and that’s more than enough.” Bill sobbed and I heard the knife clink against the ground.
“Okay, it’s okay.” He let out deep throat sobs. I turned him around so he could cry in my chest.
“Why did he do this to me? Why?! I can’t take this shit anymore!” He started jamming his fists into my chest.
“It’s okay, hit me, I don’t care.”
“Why did he do this to me?”
“Bill, I didn’t want to tell you this but they think he has other victims.” He looked at me.
“Other victims? How?”
“They found other kids your age that have the same exact story as you. He would get drunk and rape them. You’re probably his at home source and the others were his playthings outside of the house.”
“How could he do this? How can he just have sex with all these teenagers? Andy, he didn’t try anything with you did he?”
“No, I only have sex with you, Billa.” He chuckled at the nickname and I could feel his tension release.
“I want to stay like this forever. You’re warm.”
“I wonder why, I’m normally cold.”
“You’re just warm.” He sighed.
“I love you, Andy.”
“I love you, Bill.”
“The trial is set for 2 months from today and we need to make sure you’re ready to give your testimony to the court.” I swallowed hard.
“I have to be there, in front of them?”
“Yeah, but don’t worry. He can’t touch you or speak to you.” The A.D.A said.
“Okay, so what do I have to say?”
“You have to recount all the times he’s touched you.”
“Even from 8 years ago?”
“Yes.” I sniffled a little and my heart raced. I didn’t want to go through this. I was happy with no one knowing and with it just being something he just did to me. I got up without excusing myself and went up to Andy’s room. I sat on the extra bed and sighed. My whole body felt numb, I didn’t want to do this. I just felt so alone.
“Bill, you in here?” I looked up and saw Andy standing in the doorway.
“Andy, I don’t want to do this.”
“Why don’t you?” He walked over to me and sat down on the bed.
“Because even though he hurt me and did all those awful things, I can’t help but still love him. He’s my father and I don’t want to make him feel bad. He was just succumbing to his desires.”
“Bill, you were hurt physically and mentally by him. He wasn’t succumbing to desires, he was being an asshole. You deserve to be happy after all that you’ve been through.”
“Do I? I laid there and let him crawl onto me and shove his dick into all the places on my body. I feel disgusting.”
“You wanna go out? I have nothing to do and you need to get this whole trial off your mind. We could go to dinner or go to a movie.” Andy really wanted to change the subject. I sighed and decided to go along with it.
“Okay, but how about we rent a movie, get some snacks and cuddle up under your blankets. I just want to cuddle.”
“Okay, we can do that. I’ll go send my mom to get Labyrinth.”
“Oh my god, you remembered.” I smacked his shoulder.
“Of course I remembered, I know how much you love that movie. I think it’s cool too.” He left the room and I looked at my hands.
“Looks like we have to go with the punches for a while, Bill.” I mumbled to myself.
Andy
“MOM!” She came running out from the kitchen and sighed.
“Yes, Andrew. You scared me half to death.”
“Sorry, can you pick up The Labyrinth with David Bowie?”
“Sure, honey.” I nodded and went back up to my room and Bill was hugging his legs on the bed, crying. I got closer and saw that he was bleeding.
“Oh Bill…” I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his thin frame.
“I tried to stop the pain and I made it worse. I didn’t want to, I tried so hard not to but I just couldn’t Andy.” I pulled him a little closer and hugged him.
“It’s okay, just cry, I know it hurts.”
“I don’t want it to hurt. I want it to be over.” I didn’t care that I was getting bloody. He needed me.
“It’s okay, just please, Bill, put down the knife. Please, I don’t want you to hurt yourself. You don’t need to do this. I love you and that’s more than enough.” Bill sobbed and I heard the knife clink against the ground.
“Okay, it’s okay.” He let out deep throat sobs. I turned him around so he could cry in my chest.
“Why did he do this to me? Why?! I can’t take this shit anymore!” He started jamming his fists into my chest.
“It’s okay, hit me, I don’t care.”
“Why did he do this to me?”
“Bill, I didn’t want to tell you this but they think he has other victims.” He looked at me.
“Other victims? How?”
“They found other kids your age that have the same exact story as you. He would get drunk and rape them. You’re probably his at home source and the others were his playthings outside of the house.”
“How could he do this? How can he just have sex with all these teenagers? Andy, he didn’t try anything with you did he?”
“No, I only have sex with you, Billa.” He chuckled at the nickname and I could feel his tension release.
“I want to stay like this forever. You’re warm.”
“I wonder why, I’m normally cold.”
“You’re just warm.” He sighed.
“I love you, Andy.”
“I love you, Bill.”
@Purdy's_little_lady_outlaw there's a sequel called Fond Memories
5/6/14