Bound By Love
Broken Ties
Bill
“So are you excited? You’re coming home today.” Andy chirped. I smirked a little but I still just felt so wrong. I know I’m clear of all sexually transmitted diseases, I guess the fact that I know they haven’t caught Jorg and Gordon yet is putting me on edge. I slowly pulled my clothes onto my body and stared in the mirror. There were numerous bruises and cuts on me. My lip was split open and my cheek was bruised too.
“Bill, everything okay in there?” I heard Andy ask through the door.
“Yeah I just…my pants are kind of tight.” I heard the door unlock and Andy walked in with the weirdest grin on his face.
“Maybe I should loosen them up.” He whispered into my ear when he got closer. I chuckled.
“Hospital sex? Really?”
“Fine, Bill, have it your way. I’ll finish this at home, alone, with you, and my king size bed.” He rambled. He exited the bathroom and I just buttoned my pants. No matter what I know I can depend on Andy for smiles.
“Okay, I’m ready.” I announced once I walked from the hospital bathroom. Andy slipped behind me and put his arms around my neck.
“I meant what I said, you know.” His hot breath made my neck hairs stand up and I felt all bubbly inside. My blood rushed to my face and I had to hold in a squeal.
“Come on, boys. Don’t wanna get stuck in traffic.” His mom said, sighing.
“Mom, don’t ruin the moment.”
“What moment, you mean you getting all touchy-feely with Bill? I’d much rather not see you two in your alone time moments.” She retorted. I laughed while Andy made a pouty face at his mom. He took my hand and we walked to his mom’s car. There was a man standing there smoking a cigarette. This guy looked so much like Andy only he had his hair cut short and his hair was blonde.
“What are you doing here?”
“I came to see how you’re doing, Amy. I wanted to make sure I didn’t do anything to harm you or him.” Andy’s grip on my hand got tighter and I looked up to see the muscle in his jaw twitch.
“Mom, who is this?” Andy asked. She sighed and looked at Andy.
“Andrew, this is Chris, your father.” He let go of my hand and he didn’t shed a tear or start mumbling like people do when they hear shocking news. He just walked to him and punched him in the face.
“ANDREW!”
“You, asshole, how can you disappear and just show up, several years later might I add, unannounced?! Where the fuck was you?”
“I wasn’t ready to raise a kid and I told your mother that. I was young and she was young and I just wasn’t prepared to be a dad. I didn’t want to run away but I didn’t have a choice.”
“Didn’t have a choice?! You left my mother because you couldn’t grow the balls and step up to the plate! I hate you! Don’t you ever show your face to me, ever again? Are we fucking clear?” He stormed around to the back seat and forcefully pulled the door opened and got into the back seat. I followed behind and sat next to him.
“Babe, a—are you alright?”
“Just leave me alone!” He snapped. I flinched under his tone because it scared me. I hated to be yelled at. He must’ve noticed and he looked at me.
“Jeez, Bill I am so sorry. I did not mean to lash out on you.”
“It’s okay; I used to get yelled at a lot. I’m used to it.”
“No you’re not. I saw the fear in your eyes. That will never happen again.” He wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me into his chest.
“I’m sorry, I’m so, so, so, so sorry.” I heard the passenger door open and Andy’s heart rate picked up.
“Why is he in here?”
“I need to talk with him, so he’s coming back to the house.” I couldn’t see anything but I knew it must’ve his dad in the seat up front.
“Son, look I want to make things right. Besides what I have to say concerns Bill too.” I pushed away from Andy and looked at him.
“How do you know me?”
“When we get back to the house, I’ll discuss everything.” He faced forward and Andy looked out the window. You could feel how angry Andy was because his fury was making the car so tense. When we got to his house, he pulled me from the car and dragged me into the house.
“Andy, wait, I want to know how he knows me.”
“Does everyone but me want to be in the same room with that bastard?! Fine! Go, I don’t care, go have sex with him and leave me alone.” I heard the door slam as soon as Andy disappeared up the stairs. His mother and father soon walked inside and looked at me.
“Where’d he go?”
“His room and he’s pissed. But forget him, how do you,” I said gesturing to him “Know me?”
“I am so ashamed to say this but I know Jorg and Gordon. They are a part of my sexual sadism support group and when they told me that you were Andy’s friend I just had to make sure he and Amy were okay.” I heard footsteps and Andy was right behind them. He brought back his fist and punched him again.
“HOW DARE YOU MENTION THOSE ASSHOLES IN THIS HOUSE?!?! YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST WALK IN HERE AND TALK ALL THE SHIT YOU WANT?! GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE NOW BEFORE I LEAVE YOU COLD AND ALONE IN A POOL OF YOUR OWN BLOOD!!” I shuddered. He sounded like my dad and it scared the shit out of me.
“Andrew Dennis Biersack, get your hands off your father and stop threatening him.”
“But mom he abandoned us! He doesn’t deserve to be here.”
“He’s trying, stop being so violent.”
“I’m going for a walk.” He huffed. He pushed pass me and went out the door. I followed behind and he was walking so quickly.
“Andy, wait!” He turned around and I nearly ran into him.
“WHAT?! YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO KNOW HOW HE KNOWS YOU, NOW YOU KNOW AND I FEEL LIKE SHIT, ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPY?!”
“I don’t understand why you’re so upset?”
“He abandoned me and suddenly he wants to show up again! I have every fucking right to be angry.” I looked at the ground.
“You should be lucky; your dad didn’t do all the terrible things mine did to me. He wants to be there to love you and to guide you. He doesn’t want to hurt you and all you’ve done was push him away. He’s your father and you only get the real deal once. I wish my dad loved me but he didn’t and he took advantage of my loyalty and abused me, raped me, and tormented me. I’d rather be abandoned than abused.”
“Well that’s you and that’s stupid. Both cause pain but one is psychological and you never forget.”
“You honestly think I am going to ever forget being raped by my father. That’s like saying America will forget 9-1-1. You can forgive and forget being abandoned by your father and move on. I will never forget, every time I close my eyes it’s all I fucking see. Him on top if me, naked and rubbing his dick on my body, treating me like a cheap prostitute.”
“You don’t understand Bill.”
“Fine, since I’m so misunderstanding, you can find another boyfriend to love. I’m done.” And with that I walked off leaving him alone.
“So are you excited? You’re coming home today.” Andy chirped. I smirked a little but I still just felt so wrong. I know I’m clear of all sexually transmitted diseases, I guess the fact that I know they haven’t caught Jorg and Gordon yet is putting me on edge. I slowly pulled my clothes onto my body and stared in the mirror. There were numerous bruises and cuts on me. My lip was split open and my cheek was bruised too.
“Bill, everything okay in there?” I heard Andy ask through the door.
“Yeah I just…my pants are kind of tight.” I heard the door unlock and Andy walked in with the weirdest grin on his face.
“Maybe I should loosen them up.” He whispered into my ear when he got closer. I chuckled.
“Hospital sex? Really?”
“Fine, Bill, have it your way. I’ll finish this at home, alone, with you, and my king size bed.” He rambled. He exited the bathroom and I just buttoned my pants. No matter what I know I can depend on Andy for smiles.
“Okay, I’m ready.” I announced once I walked from the hospital bathroom. Andy slipped behind me and put his arms around my neck.
“I meant what I said, you know.” His hot breath made my neck hairs stand up and I felt all bubbly inside. My blood rushed to my face and I had to hold in a squeal.
“Come on, boys. Don’t wanna get stuck in traffic.” His mom said, sighing.
“Mom, don’t ruin the moment.”
“What moment, you mean you getting all touchy-feely with Bill? I’d much rather not see you two in your alone time moments.” She retorted. I laughed while Andy made a pouty face at his mom. He took my hand and we walked to his mom’s car. There was a man standing there smoking a cigarette. This guy looked so much like Andy only he had his hair cut short and his hair was blonde.
“What are you doing here?”
“I came to see how you’re doing, Amy. I wanted to make sure I didn’t do anything to harm you or him.” Andy’s grip on my hand got tighter and I looked up to see the muscle in his jaw twitch.
“Mom, who is this?” Andy asked. She sighed and looked at Andy.
“Andrew, this is Chris, your father.” He let go of my hand and he didn’t shed a tear or start mumbling like people do when they hear shocking news. He just walked to him and punched him in the face.
“ANDREW!”
“You, asshole, how can you disappear and just show up, several years later might I add, unannounced?! Where the fuck was you?”
“I wasn’t ready to raise a kid and I told your mother that. I was young and she was young and I just wasn’t prepared to be a dad. I didn’t want to run away but I didn’t have a choice.”
“Didn’t have a choice?! You left my mother because you couldn’t grow the balls and step up to the plate! I hate you! Don’t you ever show your face to me, ever again? Are we fucking clear?” He stormed around to the back seat and forcefully pulled the door opened and got into the back seat. I followed behind and sat next to him.
“Babe, a—are you alright?”
“Just leave me alone!” He snapped. I flinched under his tone because it scared me. I hated to be yelled at. He must’ve noticed and he looked at me.
“Jeez, Bill I am so sorry. I did not mean to lash out on you.”
“It’s okay; I used to get yelled at a lot. I’m used to it.”
“No you’re not. I saw the fear in your eyes. That will never happen again.” He wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me into his chest.
“I’m sorry, I’m so, so, so, so sorry.” I heard the passenger door open and Andy’s heart rate picked up.
“Why is he in here?”
“I need to talk with him, so he’s coming back to the house.” I couldn’t see anything but I knew it must’ve his dad in the seat up front.
“Son, look I want to make things right. Besides what I have to say concerns Bill too.” I pushed away from Andy and looked at him.
“How do you know me?”
“When we get back to the house, I’ll discuss everything.” He faced forward and Andy looked out the window. You could feel how angry Andy was because his fury was making the car so tense. When we got to his house, he pulled me from the car and dragged me into the house.
“Andy, wait, I want to know how he knows me.”
“Does everyone but me want to be in the same room with that bastard?! Fine! Go, I don’t care, go have sex with him and leave me alone.” I heard the door slam as soon as Andy disappeared up the stairs. His mother and father soon walked inside and looked at me.
“Where’d he go?”
“His room and he’s pissed. But forget him, how do you,” I said gesturing to him “Know me?”
“I am so ashamed to say this but I know Jorg and Gordon. They are a part of my sexual sadism support group and when they told me that you were Andy’s friend I just had to make sure he and Amy were okay.” I heard footsteps and Andy was right behind them. He brought back his fist and punched him again.
“HOW DARE YOU MENTION THOSE ASSHOLES IN THIS HOUSE?!?! YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST WALK IN HERE AND TALK ALL THE SHIT YOU WANT?! GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE NOW BEFORE I LEAVE YOU COLD AND ALONE IN A POOL OF YOUR OWN BLOOD!!” I shuddered. He sounded like my dad and it scared the shit out of me.
“Andrew Dennis Biersack, get your hands off your father and stop threatening him.”
“But mom he abandoned us! He doesn’t deserve to be here.”
“He’s trying, stop being so violent.”
“I’m going for a walk.” He huffed. He pushed pass me and went out the door. I followed behind and he was walking so quickly.
“Andy, wait!” He turned around and I nearly ran into him.
“WHAT?! YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO KNOW HOW HE KNOWS YOU, NOW YOU KNOW AND I FEEL LIKE SHIT, ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPY?!”
“I don’t understand why you’re so upset?”
“He abandoned me and suddenly he wants to show up again! I have every fucking right to be angry.” I looked at the ground.
“You should be lucky; your dad didn’t do all the terrible things mine did to me. He wants to be there to love you and to guide you. He doesn’t want to hurt you and all you’ve done was push him away. He’s your father and you only get the real deal once. I wish my dad loved me but he didn’t and he took advantage of my loyalty and abused me, raped me, and tormented me. I’d rather be abandoned than abused.”
“Well that’s you and that’s stupid. Both cause pain but one is psychological and you never forget.”
“You honestly think I am going to ever forget being raped by my father. That’s like saying America will forget 9-1-1. You can forgive and forget being abandoned by your father and move on. I will never forget, every time I close my eyes it’s all I fucking see. Him on top if me, naked and rubbing his dick on my body, treating me like a cheap prostitute.”
“You don’t understand Bill.”
“Fine, since I’m so misunderstanding, you can find another boyfriend to love. I’m done.” And with that I walked off leaving him alone.
@Purdy's_little_lady_outlaw there's a sequel called Fond Memories
5/6/14