Bound By Love
Let You Down
Bill
This room was so dark, I could hear water dripping and I could hear bugs. My entire body hurt and I could tell judging by the pressure on my right side I was laying on the ground. My hair was getting wet with mud and there was water cascading down my face and I was cold.
“Billy, are you awake?” I closed my eyes and pretended to still be unconscious.
“Aw, my little Billy is trying to pretend he’s still out cold.” He kicked me and my eyes popped open from the pain. I groaned into the cloth gag and tried to roll onto my back.
“Aw, look he wants to get away, Gordon. Grab the rope and clear the bed.” I felt myself get picked up and placed down onto something the felt like a bed.
“I missed this. You are so much fun to fuck and I just couldn’t resist. You left poor old daddy in that jail and I just had to break out and see you. I couldn’t wait for the trial to see my little Billy again. Besides I couldn’t touch you in that court room.” He untied my hands and retied them to the bed post and did the same to my legs. I pulled as hard as I could but I couldn’t get loose.
“Shh, Billy, this will be a lot faster if you don’t struggle.” Not again, I don’t want this to happen to me again. I don’t want him to do anything to me. I pulled again and he picked up a pair of scissors.
“I wonder how easy it will be to cut your clothes off.”
Andy
My head hurts like hell. I woke up on the floor being held on my side.
“What the fuck? Why are you touching me?” I hate being touched unless I wanted to be touched.
“You were having a seizure and the emergency book says to put the person on their side.”
“Oh, that happened. Well, I’m fine now. Get off of me.” I pushed them off and sat up and rubbed my head.
“Are you okay?”
“My head hurts, I wet my pants and the man I love is missing. No I am not okay. I’ll be up in my room.” I got up off the floor and slowly staggered up to my room and collapsed onto my bed. I never really cry but then for the first time, I just cried. I felt like the world had just dumped its load on me. I couldn’t protect him and I feel so shitty. I punched my pillow and more tears fell.
“I’m sorry Bill. I am so fucking sorry.” I mumbled into the pillow.
Bill
This was really starting to hurt. I was getting so much put into me. My dad injected some type of pain killers into me and I just wanted to die. I felt so out of my body and I didn’t like it.
“Bill, I owe you a nice fat dick in your mouth. You bit me last time but you won’t this time.” He shoved his penis into my mouth and started to gyrate back and forth. I wanted to throw up. I didn’t want this. I wanted to be set free and for them to let me go. I didn’t want to be continuously raped nonstop. He pulled out and that when I noticed my dad approaching with a flamethrower and a hanger.
“Hey Billy, let’s bring the pain!” My dad shouted. He brought over the hanger that was red from being hot and placed it on my exposed skin.
“AHHHHHHH, STOP! PLEASE!!!!”
“FEEL THE BURN, BILLY!” My dad shouted. I clenched my hands into fists and tried so hard to get away.
“You like this Billy?” He whispered into my ear. I screamed even louder and he laughed.
“STOP, IT BURNS!”
“YOU DESERVE THIS BILLY!” I screamed and screamed and my throat was raw. He pulled it off and stuck his finger in the burn.
“STOP…PLEASE!” I screamed. He smirked and climbed onto me. He smashed his lips into mine and Gordon just sat by and watched.
“You like this, don’t you Billy.” My vision was failing me from all the pain and I blacked out.
***
Andy
It’s been 3 weeks and they haven’t gotten any leads on Bill. He was just off the radar. The stress was really getting to me. I just flocked away from people at school and Tom seemed to just be on auto-pilot. I glanced at the TV and saw the news was on.
‘We have gone into week three of the Bill Kaulitz kidnapping case. The Pennsylvania Sheriff’s office said they are doing all they can to find the missing teen. If you see or have anything that can assist the search you are to report directly to the sheriff. Here is a recent picture of sixteen year old Bill Kaulitz,’ they showed his photo and I sighed. ‘If you see him, contact the sheriff’s office and now the weather…’
I cut the TV off and groaned. Why can’t they find him?!
“Andrew, Ashley’s here.” I looked at the doorway and saw Ashley walk in.
“Hey man, how you holding up?”
“This is killing me. They can’t find anything and it’s making me sick. I mean how hard could it possibly be finding two damn men?!”
“They are doing everything they can.”
“No they’re not because if they were Bill would be here, safe and sound but instead they are dragging their asses while he is being brutally abused by two men who just want to have their way with him! They aren’t doing everything they can, so stop telling me they are. The only thing they are doing is wasting taxpayer dollars on donuts so they can stuff them down their fat necks!” I argued.
“Look, I know you’re upset I am too but you should just calm down and give it time.”
“Time?! We don’t have time anymore. Soon they’ll get bored and they’ll kill him. I know that the only way we’re finding him is if he’s dead and tossed into the river.”
Bill
I am numb. My dad has fucked me more times in these three weeks than in my entire life with him. I am just so used it now but I still cry because it still messes with me. I wanted this to stop. I don’t want to have sex with anyone anymore. I want to die. I just want this all to stop but I know it won’t. I know that my life no longer has purpose. I am a useless fuck that people just use. I no longer have a reason to live.
“Billy, you want to go free?” My dad asked.
“Yes, I don’t want to be raped anymore. I just want this to all end. Please just stop.” I pleaded. He smirked and looked at me. He climbed over and untied my arms.
“Y—you’re letting me go?” He smiled again and moved so I could get up. I painfully sat up and went to the door when I felt a stinging in my side. I looked down and saw blood.
“Go on and run but I highly doubt you’ll find help before that bullet wound kills you.” I gripped my side and raced out the door. I didn’t know where I was but I knew one place I could find help. I limped down the street and it freaked me out how no one wanted to help me.
“He’s probably on drugs.” One woman mumbled. I continued to stagger down the street and nearly got hit by a car but it stopped in time. I kept walking and then I saw it. The park, where Andy and I first met, I found it. I staggered and my eyes caught sight of Andy in the park. I smiled and kept walking. My vision was failing me but I had to reach him. I stuck out my hand and placed it on his shoulder. He turned around and I smiled again.
“I found you, Andy.” Then everything got black.
Andy
“Bill, oh my god, stay with me.” He was bleeding profusely out of his side. I knew that if he ever escaped he’s come here. It was the one place he and I held dear. I pulled out my phone and called for an ambulance. I rode in the back with him and held his hand the whole way. We were parted in the hospital and I couldn’t think. There were tons of paparazzi outside and my mom, Simone, Tom and Ashley barely made it inside.
“You found him?” Simone gasped.
“He found me. He came to the park and he was shot and I don’t know what to do. I think I’d die without him. I love him so much.”
“It’s going to be okay sweetheart.” My mom cooed. We sat there for 2 hours and finally a doctor came out and met us.
“How is he?”
“Well, we managed to stop the bleeding and stitch up his wound. He lost a lot of blood but he’ll make it. He was awake for a while before he fell asleep but he was mumbled for someone named Andy.”
“That’s me.”
“Okay well, you should go first. I’m not trying to put him on a pedestal but the kid might go postal if he doesn’t wake up to him first.”
“Okay, go on. We’ll wait here.” Simone said. I followed the doctor to the back and into Bill’s room. He looked so innocent wrapped up in the sheets.
“I’ll leave you alone.” I walked over and sat down on the chair next to his bed. I took his hand and tears fell.
“After the blood, After the tears have fallen down like rain
A loaded gun shot through the years and heaven was to blame
I'll take on all your shattered dreams
I'd give you almost anything
A chance to rise above the fog
I swear these words are true. I believe in you
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won't let you down
I'll never let you down
Our faith will silence the doubt
I won't let you down
The serpent's touch has made it clear that evils on its way
This desert land of broken mirrors, we live another day
I'll become all your blasphemy. A war that's fought with tragedy
The scars we've left along these walls
I swear these words are true. I believe in you.
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won’t let you down
I'll never let you down
Our faith will silence the doubt
I won't let you down
In the dead of night we'll rise of one for the fight
The sun ignites the spirit back to our lives
I won't ever let you down
I won't ever let you down
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won’t let you down
I'll never let you down
Our faith will silence the doubt
I won't let you down
I won't let you down.”
More tears fell but I meant every word of that song. I wrote it last night. I will never let you down, Bill. You will always be protected by me and nothing and no one will ever hurt you again. I know you’re scared to fall in love but you need to know how much I love you and I promise right here and right now that nothing will take you away from me. Nothing will make you cry, nothing will cause your pain. No one will take you and no one will hurt you. I will hold you close to me. I will help you get pass the tough times. I will dry your tears; I will hold your hand throughout the toughest situations. You will never be alone.
Never again will you be alone.
This room was so dark, I could hear water dripping and I could hear bugs. My entire body hurt and I could tell judging by the pressure on my right side I was laying on the ground. My hair was getting wet with mud and there was water cascading down my face and I was cold.
“Billy, are you awake?” I closed my eyes and pretended to still be unconscious.
“Aw, my little Billy is trying to pretend he’s still out cold.” He kicked me and my eyes popped open from the pain. I groaned into the cloth gag and tried to roll onto my back.
“Aw, look he wants to get away, Gordon. Grab the rope and clear the bed.” I felt myself get picked up and placed down onto something the felt like a bed.
“I missed this. You are so much fun to fuck and I just couldn’t resist. You left poor old daddy in that jail and I just had to break out and see you. I couldn’t wait for the trial to see my little Billy again. Besides I couldn’t touch you in that court room.” He untied my hands and retied them to the bed post and did the same to my legs. I pulled as hard as I could but I couldn’t get loose.
“Shh, Billy, this will be a lot faster if you don’t struggle.” Not again, I don’t want this to happen to me again. I don’t want him to do anything to me. I pulled again and he picked up a pair of scissors.
“I wonder how easy it will be to cut your clothes off.”
Andy
My head hurts like hell. I woke up on the floor being held on my side.
“What the fuck? Why are you touching me?” I hate being touched unless I wanted to be touched.
“You were having a seizure and the emergency book says to put the person on their side.”
“Oh, that happened. Well, I’m fine now. Get off of me.” I pushed them off and sat up and rubbed my head.
“Are you okay?”
“My head hurts, I wet my pants and the man I love is missing. No I am not okay. I’ll be up in my room.” I got up off the floor and slowly staggered up to my room and collapsed onto my bed. I never really cry but then for the first time, I just cried. I felt like the world had just dumped its load on me. I couldn’t protect him and I feel so shitty. I punched my pillow and more tears fell.
“I’m sorry Bill. I am so fucking sorry.” I mumbled into the pillow.
Bill
This was really starting to hurt. I was getting so much put into me. My dad injected some type of pain killers into me and I just wanted to die. I felt so out of my body and I didn’t like it.
“Bill, I owe you a nice fat dick in your mouth. You bit me last time but you won’t this time.” He shoved his penis into my mouth and started to gyrate back and forth. I wanted to throw up. I didn’t want this. I wanted to be set free and for them to let me go. I didn’t want to be continuously raped nonstop. He pulled out and that when I noticed my dad approaching with a flamethrower and a hanger.
“Hey Billy, let’s bring the pain!” My dad shouted. He brought over the hanger that was red from being hot and placed it on my exposed skin.
“AHHHHHHH, STOP! PLEASE!!!!”
“FEEL THE BURN, BILLY!” My dad shouted. I clenched my hands into fists and tried so hard to get away.
“You like this Billy?” He whispered into my ear. I screamed even louder and he laughed.
“STOP, IT BURNS!”
“YOU DESERVE THIS BILLY!” I screamed and screamed and my throat was raw. He pulled it off and stuck his finger in the burn.
“STOP…PLEASE!” I screamed. He smirked and climbed onto me. He smashed his lips into mine and Gordon just sat by and watched.
“You like this, don’t you Billy.” My vision was failing me from all the pain and I blacked out.
***
Andy
It’s been 3 weeks and they haven’t gotten any leads on Bill. He was just off the radar. The stress was really getting to me. I just flocked away from people at school and Tom seemed to just be on auto-pilot. I glanced at the TV and saw the news was on.
‘We have gone into week three of the Bill Kaulitz kidnapping case. The Pennsylvania Sheriff’s office said they are doing all they can to find the missing teen. If you see or have anything that can assist the search you are to report directly to the sheriff. Here is a recent picture of sixteen year old Bill Kaulitz,’ they showed his photo and I sighed. ‘If you see him, contact the sheriff’s office and now the weather…’
I cut the TV off and groaned. Why can’t they find him?!
“Andrew, Ashley’s here.” I looked at the doorway and saw Ashley walk in.
“Hey man, how you holding up?”
“This is killing me. They can’t find anything and it’s making me sick. I mean how hard could it possibly be finding two damn men?!”
“They are doing everything they can.”
“No they’re not because if they were Bill would be here, safe and sound but instead they are dragging their asses while he is being brutally abused by two men who just want to have their way with him! They aren’t doing everything they can, so stop telling me they are. The only thing they are doing is wasting taxpayer dollars on donuts so they can stuff them down their fat necks!” I argued.
“Look, I know you’re upset I am too but you should just calm down and give it time.”
“Time?! We don’t have time anymore. Soon they’ll get bored and they’ll kill him. I know that the only way we’re finding him is if he’s dead and tossed into the river.”
Bill
I am numb. My dad has fucked me more times in these three weeks than in my entire life with him. I am just so used it now but I still cry because it still messes with me. I wanted this to stop. I don’t want to have sex with anyone anymore. I want to die. I just want this all to stop but I know it won’t. I know that my life no longer has purpose. I am a useless fuck that people just use. I no longer have a reason to live.
“Billy, you want to go free?” My dad asked.
“Yes, I don’t want to be raped anymore. I just want this to all end. Please just stop.” I pleaded. He smirked and looked at me. He climbed over and untied my arms.
“Y—you’re letting me go?” He smiled again and moved so I could get up. I painfully sat up and went to the door when I felt a stinging in my side. I looked down and saw blood.
“Go on and run but I highly doubt you’ll find help before that bullet wound kills you.” I gripped my side and raced out the door. I didn’t know where I was but I knew one place I could find help. I limped down the street and it freaked me out how no one wanted to help me.
“He’s probably on drugs.” One woman mumbled. I continued to stagger down the street and nearly got hit by a car but it stopped in time. I kept walking and then I saw it. The park, where Andy and I first met, I found it. I staggered and my eyes caught sight of Andy in the park. I smiled and kept walking. My vision was failing me but I had to reach him. I stuck out my hand and placed it on his shoulder. He turned around and I smiled again.
“I found you, Andy.” Then everything got black.
Andy
“Bill, oh my god, stay with me.” He was bleeding profusely out of his side. I knew that if he ever escaped he’s come here. It was the one place he and I held dear. I pulled out my phone and called for an ambulance. I rode in the back with him and held his hand the whole way. We were parted in the hospital and I couldn’t think. There were tons of paparazzi outside and my mom, Simone, Tom and Ashley barely made it inside.
“You found him?” Simone gasped.
“He found me. He came to the park and he was shot and I don’t know what to do. I think I’d die without him. I love him so much.”
“It’s going to be okay sweetheart.” My mom cooed. We sat there for 2 hours and finally a doctor came out and met us.
“How is he?”
“Well, we managed to stop the bleeding and stitch up his wound. He lost a lot of blood but he’ll make it. He was awake for a while before he fell asleep but he was mumbled for someone named Andy.”
“That’s me.”
“Okay well, you should go first. I’m not trying to put him on a pedestal but the kid might go postal if he doesn’t wake up to him first.”
“Okay, go on. We’ll wait here.” Simone said. I followed the doctor to the back and into Bill’s room. He looked so innocent wrapped up in the sheets.
“I’ll leave you alone.” I walked over and sat down on the chair next to his bed. I took his hand and tears fell.
“After the blood, After the tears have fallen down like rain
A loaded gun shot through the years and heaven was to blame
I'll take on all your shattered dreams
I'd give you almost anything
A chance to rise above the fog
I swear these words are true. I believe in you
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won't let you down
I'll never let you down
Our faith will silence the doubt
I won't let you down
The serpent's touch has made it clear that evils on its way
This desert land of broken mirrors, we live another day
I'll become all your blasphemy. A war that's fought with tragedy
The scars we've left along these walls
I swear these words are true. I believe in you.
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won’t let you down
I'll never let you down
Our faith will silence the doubt
I won't let you down
In the dead of night we'll rise of one for the fight
The sun ignites the spirit back to our lives
I won't ever let you down
I won't ever let you down
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won’t let you down
I'll never let you down
Our faith will silence the doubt
I won't let you down
I won't let you down.”
More tears fell but I meant every word of that song. I wrote it last night. I will never let you down, Bill. You will always be protected by me and nothing and no one will ever hurt you again. I know you’re scared to fall in love but you need to know how much I love you and I promise right here and right now that nothing will take you away from me. Nothing will make you cry, nothing will cause your pain. No one will take you and no one will hurt you. I will hold you close to me. I will help you get pass the tough times. I will dry your tears; I will hold your hand throughout the toughest situations. You will never be alone.
Never again will you be alone.
@Purdy's_little_lady_outlaw there's a sequel called Fond Memories
5/6/14