that hatered in your eyes

Phoebe POV-

I stood up and walked towards the guys, they had moved to the sides so I could walk through. I went and sat on the sofa and waited for they guys to join me. I was scared of what Andy would do, would he stop me from being alone? Would I have to be with at least one of they guys all the time? Would they not trust me anymore?

Andy POV-

Me and the guys walked into to sitting area to see phoebe waiting patiently, we all sat down around her, jake was on one side of her and Ashley was the other side.

"Phoebe, what happened?" I asked
"I was drawing and something clicked, I just don't know honestly" I looked at jake, he was holding her hand and listening.
"Jinxx, can we talk?"
"Yeah" me and jinxx went to the bunks and sat on jinxx's. "Yeah?" He said, I ran my hand through my hair,
"I don't know what to do with her, I'm worried that if it happens again, she'll cut"
"Don't worry, she won't, me and sammi will look after back at home alright" I nodded and headed back to the guys, they gave me and jinxx the 'tell me later' look. I went outside and pulled out one of my cancer sticks and lit it, I took a long drag of it, I hear the door open and phoebe sat next to me
"Can I have one?" She asked, pointing to my box of cigarettes, I nodded and passed her one, she took my lighter and lit it, taking a long drag from it.
"I never knew you smoked" I said
"Well, now you know" I nodded and took another drag from my cancer stick.

Phoebes POV-

When I told the guys what had happened, Andy and jinxx went off and talked, I couldn't help but listen
"I'm worried that if it happens again, she'll cut"
"Don't worry, she won't, me and sammi will look after her back at home" i went on my bunk when jinxx said that, I waited for them to walk away, I looked out my bunk window and saw Andy light a cigarette, I stood up and joined him
"Can I have one?" I asked, pointing to his box of cigarettes, he nodded and passed me one, i took his lighter and lit it, taking a long drag from it.
"I never knew you smoked" Andy said, breaking the silence "Well, now you know" He nodded and took another drag. Another 5 minutes went by and we had finished our cigarettes, we stubbed them out and walked back inside, I went strait to my bunk and pulled my headphones out, putting on PTV the first punch. I thought for a few minutes, maybe the band doesn't need me, I'm just making more drama, I'm dead weight, I'm just hanging around. I look over at the desk, a picture of me and the guys, that was when the wretched and divine album had came out, we was at the celebration party. Good times. But I was just about to leave that all behind. I packed up my bags quietly and started writing a long note for them:

Dear guys,

Thankyou for all the fun times we've had, your all so special to me, I wish we could be like this forever but I'm afraid that I'll do something stupid and get you all hurt, so I'm sorry but I have to leave, I will never forget you all, CC, keep making everyone laugh my hyper monster buddy, ashy, don't stop being a man-whore please you big perv, jinxx, sorry about this, I'm now 18 and I'm allowed to leave with or without your concent, Andy, you've always been there, you helped me, a lot, and lastly jake, I'm sorry baby but it just won't work, just remember that I love you so much, it hurts to leave but I have to, to keep you safe.
I love you all so fucking much, I'll miss you

Never give in, never back down

Phoebe xx <3


I rolled up the note and took off my engagement ring and put the note inside it, I slipped my hand out of the window and grabbed some wild flowers, I looked at the time, 11:58pm. "Time to go phoebe" I told myself, I took a deep breath and threw my bags out of the window, I slipped out of my bunk silently as I heard the small snores from the guys, tears sprang into my eyes, I shook them away, I walked to jakes bunk and kissed him goodbye, he smiled a little and more tears came, they rolled down my cheeks, as I walked away from jakes bunk, I placed the note on the table and quietly opened and shut the door, locking it behind me, I went over to my window and I picked up my bags and walked into the pitch black of the night.......

Notes

Sequel is being written!!!! Ideas to name it!! Sorry I had to end it on a cliff hanger, I just had to yanoe hehe, anywho, enjoy!!

Never give in :)

EmoSceneGirl167