We Caught Fire
In The End
The venue was packed inside by the time Sammi and Dess walked through the door and the feeling was almost suffocating. They headed towards the front of the stage, flashing their passes on the way and finally were let onto the stage to stand in the wings. They talked quietly about where to stand, right or left and decided that since Jinxx mostly stood off to the left and that Andy moved around too much for it to matter, they stayed on the left side. Dess smiled as she looked out over the crowd and listened to their chanting.
“Black Veil Brides! Black Veil Brides!” They continued to chant in thick German accents and it made Dess smile. No matter where she was in the world, Dess knew she would probably never find more dedicated fans than the BVB Army.
“It’s so amazing how far they’ve come…” Sammi whispered to Dess and she looked over at the older girl and just smiled.
“I can remember when they used to have to ride around in a small van and sometimes no one would show up to their shows so they would just play for the bar staff.” Sammi laughed and Dess felt her smile grow at the thought. This small band full of misfits had made their dream come true-Andy had made his dream come true.
“What were they like back then? Before BVB blew up and the Army got together?” Dess asked, turning to face Sammi and she saw Sam smile down at her gently.
“A lot more carefree…especially Andy. He used to laugh and joke around all the time and I mean he still does-they all do. But back then it was like they had nothing to lose and now-well you saw what happened when he cut his hair.” Sammi seemed sad as she thought about it and Dess felt her stomach tie in a knot.
“They love their fans…more than anything. But they have to sometimes walk around on egg shells with their more devoted fans-hence why you and I are hardly ever included in things.” Dess felt the irritation come to her skin as she looked out over the crowd.
“Yeah I definitely got that feeling on the last tour. I still can’t get on my instagram and I avoid tumblr on most days.” Dess laughed, making it seem like a joke but that was still a very fresh wound.
“I love their fans. They have embraced these guys and made them into heroes but it has come with a price. I remember that Andy used to love going out in the alley after a show-mostly to smoke but he also loved seeing the fans. He can’t do that anymore…he’d get mobbed.” Sammi smiled down at Dess and both girls laughed at the thought.
“I remember when the guys were touring in the UK over the winter and some guy in a poncho tried to carry him off. I was talking to Jinxx when it happened and all I remember is hearing about how panicked security got but all Andy could do was laugh it off.” Dess remembered this and smiled, but she felt her heart ache as she also remembered hearing Moira laugh later that night when she told her.
“I think they’re starting…” Sammi said and sure enough the lights began to dim and a hush fell over the crowd. Dess felt like her heart was going to beat out of her chest as she listened to the overture music begin to play.
The girls watched silently as CC ran out on stage, his thin torso glowing in the dim light as he raised his hands above his head, drumsticks twirling before he sat down behind his drums. Ashley was next, shirtless as usual, his OUTLAW tattoo like a shining beacon for all of the desperate girls in the audience. He winked at the two girls, giving them the once over before taking his usual stance to the right of the stage. Jake and Jinxx were next, Jinxx smiling widely at Sammi as he came close to where they were standing and Dess felt Sammi reach out and grab her hand. Jake took a spot near the middle of the stage and then everything went silent.
The roar from the crowd was almost deafening and Dess felt her heart soar as Andy took the stage. He had on his Prophet vest and a pair of tight black pants, the silver on his cowboy boots shone in the lights brightly and all Odessa could do was smirk. All of the guys still had black paint smeared over their bodies, but it was significantly less when compared to the previous summer. Andy had drawn a thick line across the bridge of his nose and Dess felt tears come to her eyes. Moira had enjoyed their show so much and she had treasured being painted by Andy even more.
“How are we doing tonight Germany?! We are the Black Veil Brides and we are so happy to be here with you tonight. This first song is for everyone out there who is a part of the BVB Army and just know-we love you all!” Andy growled into the mic as Dess smiled. Both she and Sammi sang along as the guys broke out in to Fallen Angels and Dess felt her stomach clench. Moira had loved this song so much and had played it constantly when it first came out.
Would it always be like this? She was always going to think of Moira when it came to BVB, but would she always feel this depressed? Dess watched as the guys jumped around on stage and she laughed as Andy fell down onto his back, his knees pointing outward and he growled in to the microphone. They played some of her favorites, Perfect Weapon was played with a wink from Andy in her direction and of course they stopped as there were some boos coming from the back of the room. Most likely this was someone who had come to see Motley Crue play, but Dess just shook her head; they knew who was opening on this tour, so why make such a fuss?
“Look…you motherfuckers out there may not like us and we know you’re probably not here to see us. But-keep in mind that all of these kids that are here in the front row are here to see us and they deserve to have the best time that they possibly can!” Andy was playful in his taunting and the crowd cheered as the booing died down and the band picked back up and played Smoke and Mirrors before Andy brought things to a stop.
“So we as a band decided that we wanted to do something really special for you guys to kick off our tour with Motley Crue. We are going to play you a song that we have been working on for the new album.” Screams erupted at this and Dess looked over at Sammi, both girls looked shocked and Dess felt her stomach begin to flip.
“This song is called In The End and I wrote it for a very special girl who we lost a few weeks ago. Moira Elizabeth Montgomery…this one’s for you.” Andy looked up to the ceiling, kissed the fingers of his right hand and raised it up and Dess felt her eyes swell with tears.
In the end
As my soul's laid to rest
What is left of my body
Or am I just a shell?
And I have fought
And with flesh and blood I commanded an army
Through it all I have given my home for a moment of glory
Odessa listened to the words that were coming from Andy and she felt her tears get the best of her and soon she was openly crying. This had been the song that Andy was writing on the last tour-the one he didn’t want anyone to see or hear until it was perfect. All of the anger she felt for him for that fight melted as she watched him sing his heart out. She knew he was singing for Moira and only Moira at that point.
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die.
Andy approached the left side of the stage, his hand held out towards Dess as she just looked at him. His blue eyes were shining with tears, but there was also a look of pride and love behind those tears. He had every reason to be proud-this song was amazing and it was something that Dess knew Moira would have loved. Her sister’s words rang back in her ears as Dess was pushed back to things that Moira had said right before she passed. Had Andy played this song for her before she died? Dess wasn’t sure if he had or not, but deep down she hoped that Moira at least was looking down on them in that moment.
Born a saint
Though with every sin I still wanna be holy
I will live again
Who we are
Isn't how we live we are more than our bodies
If I fall I will rise back up and relive my glory
Dess watched as the guys finished the song and she could tell that Andy had been crying, but of course he covered it up by swiping his forehead, ridding himself of both sweat and tears. He walked towards her then, the crowd forgotten and he took her into his sweaty arms. Dess held onto him, her tears falling on his shoulder softly as he kissed the side of her head before pulling away to look at her. He smiled, taking her hand as he brought her out into the middle of the stage and the crowd cheered. There was a collective ‘Aww’ as he leaned in and Andy wrapped an arm around her shoulders protectively before addressing the crowd.
“We hope you guys enjoyed everything tonight! Rock out to Motely Crue and thanks for always supporting us! We love you!” Andy smiled into the mic and Dess looked out in to the crowd. Most of the younger members of the audience seemed to be entranced by him and as she looked up at him, Dess understood why.
Andy really had been meant to do this-his eyes were filled with so much happiness and joy as he held on to her that she felt in awe of him. He had always been good on the stage, knowing just when to move around and when to stand still and Andy had this way of making the audience really feel like a part of the show. As he led her off the stage, Andy placed a small kiss to her lips and Dess couldn’t keep the smile off of her face.
If being isolated from Andy resulted in more songs like In The End, then Dess would make that sacrifice. If not for the both of them, then she would do it for Moira, who she knew was looking down on them in that moment with a huge smile on her face.
“Black Veil Brides! Black Veil Brides!” They continued to chant in thick German accents and it made Dess smile. No matter where she was in the world, Dess knew she would probably never find more dedicated fans than the BVB Army.
“It’s so amazing how far they’ve come…” Sammi whispered to Dess and she looked over at the older girl and just smiled.
“I can remember when they used to have to ride around in a small van and sometimes no one would show up to their shows so they would just play for the bar staff.” Sammi laughed and Dess felt her smile grow at the thought. This small band full of misfits had made their dream come true-Andy had made his dream come true.
“What were they like back then? Before BVB blew up and the Army got together?” Dess asked, turning to face Sammi and she saw Sam smile down at her gently.
“A lot more carefree…especially Andy. He used to laugh and joke around all the time and I mean he still does-they all do. But back then it was like they had nothing to lose and now-well you saw what happened when he cut his hair.” Sammi seemed sad as she thought about it and Dess felt her stomach tie in a knot.
“They love their fans…more than anything. But they have to sometimes walk around on egg shells with their more devoted fans-hence why you and I are hardly ever included in things.” Dess felt the irritation come to her skin as she looked out over the crowd.
“Yeah I definitely got that feeling on the last tour. I still can’t get on my instagram and I avoid tumblr on most days.” Dess laughed, making it seem like a joke but that was still a very fresh wound.
“I love their fans. They have embraced these guys and made them into heroes but it has come with a price. I remember that Andy used to love going out in the alley after a show-mostly to smoke but he also loved seeing the fans. He can’t do that anymore…he’d get mobbed.” Sammi smiled down at Dess and both girls laughed at the thought.
“I remember when the guys were touring in the UK over the winter and some guy in a poncho tried to carry him off. I was talking to Jinxx when it happened and all I remember is hearing about how panicked security got but all Andy could do was laugh it off.” Dess remembered this and smiled, but she felt her heart ache as she also remembered hearing Moira laugh later that night when she told her.
“I think they’re starting…” Sammi said and sure enough the lights began to dim and a hush fell over the crowd. Dess felt like her heart was going to beat out of her chest as she listened to the overture music begin to play.
The girls watched silently as CC ran out on stage, his thin torso glowing in the dim light as he raised his hands above his head, drumsticks twirling before he sat down behind his drums. Ashley was next, shirtless as usual, his OUTLAW tattoo like a shining beacon for all of the desperate girls in the audience. He winked at the two girls, giving them the once over before taking his usual stance to the right of the stage. Jake and Jinxx were next, Jinxx smiling widely at Sammi as he came close to where they were standing and Dess felt Sammi reach out and grab her hand. Jake took a spot near the middle of the stage and then everything went silent.
The roar from the crowd was almost deafening and Dess felt her heart soar as Andy took the stage. He had on his Prophet vest and a pair of tight black pants, the silver on his cowboy boots shone in the lights brightly and all Odessa could do was smirk. All of the guys still had black paint smeared over their bodies, but it was significantly less when compared to the previous summer. Andy had drawn a thick line across the bridge of his nose and Dess felt tears come to her eyes. Moira had enjoyed their show so much and she had treasured being painted by Andy even more.
“How are we doing tonight Germany?! We are the Black Veil Brides and we are so happy to be here with you tonight. This first song is for everyone out there who is a part of the BVB Army and just know-we love you all!” Andy growled into the mic as Dess smiled. Both she and Sammi sang along as the guys broke out in to Fallen Angels and Dess felt her stomach clench. Moira had loved this song so much and had played it constantly when it first came out.
Would it always be like this? She was always going to think of Moira when it came to BVB, but would she always feel this depressed? Dess watched as the guys jumped around on stage and she laughed as Andy fell down onto his back, his knees pointing outward and he growled in to the microphone. They played some of her favorites, Perfect Weapon was played with a wink from Andy in her direction and of course they stopped as there were some boos coming from the back of the room. Most likely this was someone who had come to see Motley Crue play, but Dess just shook her head; they knew who was opening on this tour, so why make such a fuss?
“Look…you motherfuckers out there may not like us and we know you’re probably not here to see us. But-keep in mind that all of these kids that are here in the front row are here to see us and they deserve to have the best time that they possibly can!” Andy was playful in his taunting and the crowd cheered as the booing died down and the band picked back up and played Smoke and Mirrors before Andy brought things to a stop.
“So we as a band decided that we wanted to do something really special for you guys to kick off our tour with Motley Crue. We are going to play you a song that we have been working on for the new album.” Screams erupted at this and Dess looked over at Sammi, both girls looked shocked and Dess felt her stomach begin to flip.
“This song is called In The End and I wrote it for a very special girl who we lost a few weeks ago. Moira Elizabeth Montgomery…this one’s for you.” Andy looked up to the ceiling, kissed the fingers of his right hand and raised it up and Dess felt her eyes swell with tears.
In the end
As my soul's laid to rest
What is left of my body
Or am I just a shell?
And I have fought
And with flesh and blood I commanded an army
Through it all I have given my home for a moment of glory
Odessa listened to the words that were coming from Andy and she felt her tears get the best of her and soon she was openly crying. This had been the song that Andy was writing on the last tour-the one he didn’t want anyone to see or hear until it was perfect. All of the anger she felt for him for that fight melted as she watched him sing his heart out. She knew he was singing for Moira and only Moira at that point.
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die.
Andy approached the left side of the stage, his hand held out towards Dess as she just looked at him. His blue eyes were shining with tears, but there was also a look of pride and love behind those tears. He had every reason to be proud-this song was amazing and it was something that Dess knew Moira would have loved. Her sister’s words rang back in her ears as Dess was pushed back to things that Moira had said right before she passed. Had Andy played this song for her before she died? Dess wasn’t sure if he had or not, but deep down she hoped that Moira at least was looking down on them in that moment.
Born a saint
Though with every sin I still wanna be holy
I will live again
Who we are
Isn't how we live we are more than our bodies
If I fall I will rise back up and relive my glory
Dess watched as the guys finished the song and she could tell that Andy had been crying, but of course he covered it up by swiping his forehead, ridding himself of both sweat and tears. He walked towards her then, the crowd forgotten and he took her into his sweaty arms. Dess held onto him, her tears falling on his shoulder softly as he kissed the side of her head before pulling away to look at her. He smiled, taking her hand as he brought her out into the middle of the stage and the crowd cheered. There was a collective ‘Aww’ as he leaned in and Andy wrapped an arm around her shoulders protectively before addressing the crowd.
“We hope you guys enjoyed everything tonight! Rock out to Motely Crue and thanks for always supporting us! We love you!” Andy smiled into the mic and Dess looked out in to the crowd. Most of the younger members of the audience seemed to be entranced by him and as she looked up at him, Dess understood why.
Andy really had been meant to do this-his eyes were filled with so much happiness and joy as he held on to her that she felt in awe of him. He had always been good on the stage, knowing just when to move around and when to stand still and Andy had this way of making the audience really feel like a part of the show. As he led her off the stage, Andy placed a small kiss to her lips and Dess couldn’t keep the smile off of her face.
If being isolated from Andy resulted in more songs like In The End, then Dess would make that sacrifice. If not for the both of them, then she would do it for Moira, who she knew was looking down on them in that moment with a huge smile on her face.
Notes
I'm sorry if this makes anyone cry : ( I love you all...So please read and review and if anyone is going to the BVB Halloween show in Springfield VA-message me and maybe we can meet up!
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12/27/14