Can you see me?
Chapter 21
You always want the one that you can’t have
Cuz’ Love Isn’t Always Fair
-Love Isn't Always Fair
"I can call this a date if I want to." Andy smirks while taking a sip of his coffee. Our hands are intertwined over the table, something that I never noticed happened. He runs his thumb over my palm, sneaking a picture of me across the table from him before proceeding to post it to Instagram.
@andybvb: coffee 'date' with the lovely @indiegirl13, our new tour photographer. We were friends in high school and she was the one that instigated the creation of bvb.
I decide to comment on it while he is answering someone else's comment.
@indiegirl13: @andybvb why'd you use this picture! I look ratchet!
@andybvb: @indiegirl13 because this is the only appropriate picture I have of you on my phone, unless of course you want me to post some I took a two nights ago? ;) but I like to keep the stuff I post about rated r...
@indiegirl13: well look at my Instagram if you haven't ;) @andybvb
@andybvb: trust me babe, I have. So Hot. @indiegirl13
He smiles over at me smugly, winking. "So tour starts in about two weeks. We're touring with asking Alexandria but they have their own separate bus so you probably won't be spending too much time with them."
"So what exactly do I have to do for you guys? Just photograph you whenever you want?" I joke. Andy shrugs, "I guess, and well take live photos of us. Maybe pose with us sometimes too. You will probably be taking most of the pictures we post on the band's accounts for the tour."
"Alright so basically annoy you guys by following you around with a camera? Got it!" I giggle, taking a sip of my coffee. Andy pushes a hair that fell in my face behind my ear, his hands lingering by my cheek for a moment.
"Umm... Hi um Andy..." A girl about thirteen or fourteen says from behind Andy. He turns, dropping his hand to talk to the younger fan. "Hey."
"I'm a huge fan of black veil brides!" She gushes, "can I get a picture with you?"
"Of course." Andy stands and they take a quick selfie. She goes to leave, then turns back. "Is this your girlfriend?"
"No!" I laugh, "I'm just a friend of Andy's."
"Oh, alright." She blushes and leaves with her mom who is waiting patiently at the door.
"So, when we stop at hotels, who am I sharing with?" I ask with a devious smirk. I wouldn't mind sharing with Andy, I mean I guess we could have some empty sex or something then... Andy's amazing so surprisingly, I'd be all for it.
"Mmm probably a roadie- but I might just be able to squeeze you into the hotel room that has one bed and kick Jake out." Andy brushes my cheek bone with his thumb and leans across the table to put his lips on mine softly. I kiss back, a slow kiss that brings me back to those nights we spent together in high school. He was definitely the most passionate I have been with, always being gentle yet pushing the boundaries. Mmm... and that rebellious quality that somehow makes my heart do summersaults. His devil tipped smirk and those eyes- shit, we're still kissing.
I pull away first, looking into those bright blues in confusion. We aren't dating. We aren't seeing each other, merely friends- well, acquaintances.
"Uh... I guess I'll see you in two weeks." I squeeze his hand that is still clutching mine before standing and walking out of the Starbucks with my coffee in hand.
This tour isn't going to go well for me.
When I get back to my apartment, Catherine practically attacks me with questions. "Who was the lucky guy yesterday?"
I make my way to our couch, shrugging. "It's not important."
"That means it's someone big!" She exclaims, hopping over the back of the couch and landing next to me. "Oh! Was it... Uh ptv... ATL... All the sws guys are taken... Fall out boy? Of mice and men? Memphis mayfire?-" she makes a face, "or was it Black Veil Bastards?"
"Half those people you listed either are taken or don't sleep around." I laugh, avoiding an answer.
"Who the fuck was it Indie girl!" She squeals, knowing it's a big deal since I haven't told her yet. "Uh- promise you won't hate me?"
"Oh god! You slept with Vic!" She squeals, pulling me into a tight hug over her obsession.
"Not last night but I have." I mumble, wiggling out of her grip. She looks at me curiously then; I sigh, knowing that she would find out eventually. "It was- don't kill me please.... Andy Biersack."
She gasps, staring at me in the apparent shock that graces her features. This is not going to end well. Her immediate reaction is to pull me into a tight hug, "did Andy threaten you? Did he hit you again? Were you raped Indiana? Oh are you alright indie?"
"I'm fine. No it was not rape. No he did not hit me nor did he threaten me. He was actually the best I've ever been with and was really hot." I escape her grasp once again, standing from the couch and making my way towards the doorway to my room. "We had sex twice he was that good."
"But you never-"
"Andy never really respected any walls I put up. It kind of actually turns me on when he does it. I'm going on tour with his band in two weeks." With that, I turn in the doorway and begin to change into a v-neck shirt, I haven't taken many good selfies lately. As soon as I post a selfie, Andy texts me:
Andy: why did you have to do that?
Indiana: Do what?
Andy: make me want you even more. Your picture is fucking sexy. Oh, and you're sharing a bunk and rooming with me in hotels on tour. Xxx
Indiana: why? We aren't dating.
Andy: because I said so, plus there isn't enough bunks since all the crew share a bus with us.
Indiana: get two of them to share.
Andy: two grown men would not fit in one bunk haha!
Indiana: well then, don't expect cuddling or me to be your sex slave either.
Andy: I won't expect it, I'll just hope for it ;) there's so much attraction between us that I think we will have some type of chemistry.
Indiana: Maybe I won't allow it then... You might want to think about who exactly is the reason I do not date?
Andy: I was a dumb ass kid then, I can't tell you how sorry I am about it.
Indiana: so I can't decide whether to leak a picture of us both together or just you... Help me choose?
Andy: I don't want the public seeing my dick anymore babe... Please don't post anymore :( it's making my penis sad.
Indiana: aww.. If I kiss it will it make it better? :P
Andy: if you suck it that would be better. ;)
Indiana: no comment to that.
Andy: ha! So cc got one of his ex's a football helmet, should I get you one?
Indiana: why?
Andy: for when we have sex on the tour bus... If you hit your head on the bunk above us...
Indiana: -.- I never said we were having sex again. And Andy, you never wore a condom. If I wasn't on the fucking pill I would be killing you right now.
Andy: so, I'll get you that helmet then ;) and ya, next time we'll have to remember before we get into it...
"Hey Indie, did you leak this?" Catherine asks, tossing her phone down on the bed next to me.
"Ya, I did this morning, why were you looking at this?" I ask, smugly.
"He fucked my sister and I want to make sure he's not that bad of a guy." She sits down on the bed next to me, squeezing my shoulder lightly. "You want me to help you pack?"
I shake my head, pulling out my computer to go on tumblr. "Nah... I still have two weeks."
"Oh, well if you need any help I'm here- is that a-" she stops as she sees my dashboard. I quickly scroll past it and shrug, "weird shit comes up on tumblr sometimes. It's tumblr."
Cuz’ Love Isn’t Always Fair
-Love Isn't Always Fair
"I can call this a date if I want to." Andy smirks while taking a sip of his coffee. Our hands are intertwined over the table, something that I never noticed happened. He runs his thumb over my palm, sneaking a picture of me across the table from him before proceeding to post it to Instagram.
@andybvb: coffee 'date' with the lovely @indiegirl13, our new tour photographer. We were friends in high school and she was the one that instigated the creation of bvb.
I decide to comment on it while he is answering someone else's comment.
@indiegirl13: @andybvb why'd you use this picture! I look ratchet!
@andybvb: @indiegirl13 because this is the only appropriate picture I have of you on my phone, unless of course you want me to post some I took a two nights ago? ;) but I like to keep the stuff I post about rated r...
@indiegirl13: well look at my Instagram if you haven't ;) @andybvb
@andybvb: trust me babe, I have. So Hot. @indiegirl13
He smiles over at me smugly, winking. "So tour starts in about two weeks. We're touring with asking Alexandria but they have their own separate bus so you probably won't be spending too much time with them."
"So what exactly do I have to do for you guys? Just photograph you whenever you want?" I joke. Andy shrugs, "I guess, and well take live photos of us. Maybe pose with us sometimes too. You will probably be taking most of the pictures we post on the band's accounts for the tour."
"Alright so basically annoy you guys by following you around with a camera? Got it!" I giggle, taking a sip of my coffee. Andy pushes a hair that fell in my face behind my ear, his hands lingering by my cheek for a moment.
"Umm... Hi um Andy..." A girl about thirteen or fourteen says from behind Andy. He turns, dropping his hand to talk to the younger fan. "Hey."
"I'm a huge fan of black veil brides!" She gushes, "can I get a picture with you?"
"Of course." Andy stands and they take a quick selfie. She goes to leave, then turns back. "Is this your girlfriend?"
"No!" I laugh, "I'm just a friend of Andy's."
"Oh, alright." She blushes and leaves with her mom who is waiting patiently at the door.
"So, when we stop at hotels, who am I sharing with?" I ask with a devious smirk. I wouldn't mind sharing with Andy, I mean I guess we could have some empty sex or something then... Andy's amazing so surprisingly, I'd be all for it.
"Mmm probably a roadie- but I might just be able to squeeze you into the hotel room that has one bed and kick Jake out." Andy brushes my cheek bone with his thumb and leans across the table to put his lips on mine softly. I kiss back, a slow kiss that brings me back to those nights we spent together in high school. He was definitely the most passionate I have been with, always being gentle yet pushing the boundaries. Mmm... and that rebellious quality that somehow makes my heart do summersaults. His devil tipped smirk and those eyes- shit, we're still kissing.
I pull away first, looking into those bright blues in confusion. We aren't dating. We aren't seeing each other, merely friends- well, acquaintances.
"Uh... I guess I'll see you in two weeks." I squeeze his hand that is still clutching mine before standing and walking out of the Starbucks with my coffee in hand.
This tour isn't going to go well for me.
When I get back to my apartment, Catherine practically attacks me with questions. "Who was the lucky guy yesterday?"
I make my way to our couch, shrugging. "It's not important."
"That means it's someone big!" She exclaims, hopping over the back of the couch and landing next to me. "Oh! Was it... Uh ptv... ATL... All the sws guys are taken... Fall out boy? Of mice and men? Memphis mayfire?-" she makes a face, "or was it Black Veil Bastards?"
"Half those people you listed either are taken or don't sleep around." I laugh, avoiding an answer.
"Who the fuck was it Indie girl!" She squeals, knowing it's a big deal since I haven't told her yet. "Uh- promise you won't hate me?"
"Oh god! You slept with Vic!" She squeals, pulling me into a tight hug over her obsession.
"Not last night but I have." I mumble, wiggling out of her grip. She looks at me curiously then; I sigh, knowing that she would find out eventually. "It was- don't kill me please.... Andy Biersack."
She gasps, staring at me in the apparent shock that graces her features. This is not going to end well. Her immediate reaction is to pull me into a tight hug, "did Andy threaten you? Did he hit you again? Were you raped Indiana? Oh are you alright indie?"
"I'm fine. No it was not rape. No he did not hit me nor did he threaten me. He was actually the best I've ever been with and was really hot." I escape her grasp once again, standing from the couch and making my way towards the doorway to my room. "We had sex twice he was that good."
"But you never-"
"Andy never really respected any walls I put up. It kind of actually turns me on when he does it. I'm going on tour with his band in two weeks." With that, I turn in the doorway and begin to change into a v-neck shirt, I haven't taken many good selfies lately. As soon as I post a selfie, Andy texts me:
Andy: why did you have to do that?
Indiana: Do what?
Andy: make me want you even more. Your picture is fucking sexy. Oh, and you're sharing a bunk and rooming with me in hotels on tour. Xxx
Indiana: why? We aren't dating.
Andy: because I said so, plus there isn't enough bunks since all the crew share a bus with us.
Indiana: get two of them to share.
Andy: two grown men would not fit in one bunk haha!
Indiana: well then, don't expect cuddling or me to be your sex slave either.
Andy: I won't expect it, I'll just hope for it ;) there's so much attraction between us that I think we will have some type of chemistry.
Indiana: Maybe I won't allow it then... You might want to think about who exactly is the reason I do not date?
Andy: I was a dumb ass kid then, I can't tell you how sorry I am about it.
Indiana: so I can't decide whether to leak a picture of us both together or just you... Help me choose?
Andy: I don't want the public seeing my dick anymore babe... Please don't post anymore :( it's making my penis sad.
Indiana: aww.. If I kiss it will it make it better? :P
Andy: if you suck it that would be better. ;)
Indiana: no comment to that.
Andy: ha! So cc got one of his ex's a football helmet, should I get you one?
Indiana: why?
Andy: for when we have sex on the tour bus... If you hit your head on the bunk above us...
Indiana: -.- I never said we were having sex again. And Andy, you never wore a condom. If I wasn't on the fucking pill I would be killing you right now.
Andy: so, I'll get you that helmet then ;) and ya, next time we'll have to remember before we get into it...
"Hey Indie, did you leak this?" Catherine asks, tossing her phone down on the bed next to me.
"Ya, I did this morning, why were you looking at this?" I ask, smugly.
"He fucked my sister and I want to make sure he's not that bad of a guy." She sits down on the bed next to me, squeezing my shoulder lightly. "You want me to help you pack?"
I shake my head, pulling out my computer to go on tumblr. "Nah... I still have two weeks."
"Oh, well if you need any help I'm here- is that a-" she stops as she sees my dashboard. I quickly scroll past it and shrug, "weird shit comes up on tumblr sometimes. It's tumblr."
Notes
I got in trouble for getting the AP magazine about Andy a few days ago... oh well.Thank you for all the comments, rates, subscribes and just for reading! It means so much that you guys like my stories. If this gets 100 subs I will update again :)
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