*Adylen's POV*

Today was the day i got to see my best friend Max. Max Green. He is now sober & friends with Ronnie again. I was so happy & excited to see him until Ricky called.

Him ; I don't think i can do this.
Me ; Do what?
Him ; Talk to you as though we're dating. I don't think i can date you either.
Me ; Okay. I, uh, got to go.
Him ; Can we stay friends thou-

I hung up on him. I didn't want to hear it. I slapped my phone down on the table as i walked downstairs. I put my head in my hands. I wasn't going to start crying, but i needed to sort shit out. & For the first time in months, i was actually hungry. I wondered if the food i digested would stay down. I made two eggs & started eating them with bread.

'Holy shit, you made yourself food.'

Jinxx said quietly when he came down. I was hungry for once. Max came in the house right then & studied my outfit. He always critiqued me on it. (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=92579421)

'Those are nice pants.'

He said as he sat next to me, peeling a banana.

'I missed you, Maxxy.'

I said to him as i leaned my head on his shoulder. It was true, i missed my best friend. I'm glad he was back & sober.

'Come on. We're doing something today.'

Max said. He grabbed my arms & dragged me up the steps where i started to do my hair & make up. When it was time to get dressed, i walked into the bathroom with my outfit. (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=92581349) Once i was finished, i walked back into my room.

'So where are we going?'

I asked Max. He grinned at me.

'We're all going. But i won't tell you where.'

Max said sarcastically as he grabbed something i couldn't see out of my drawer. I didn't press the subject as our feet hit the stairs.

'Come on, guys! Let's gooo!'

Max screamed enthusiastically. It was good to have him back. 45 minutes later we arrived at a really nice beach.

'God damnit, Max. I didn't bring my bathing suit.'

That's when he held up my bathing suit along with a pair of basketball shorts. I walked back into the car & changed. Once i had all the items on, i walked down to where everyone was sitting. I was the first to stand & get in the water. I started contemplating things. Life. Death. Everything you could think of, i thought about until Max came to me.

'Hey, are you okay?'

He asked. I nodded my head slightly as i kept walking further into the water. I sat in the water when a little girl came to me.

'What are those scars from?'

The little girl asked. I looked down at my legs when i realized that my shorts had ridden up. I looked back at the guys, they weren't paying attention to me. The only one who was, was Max. I looked back at the little girl.

'Their battle scars.'

I said simply, she gave me a weak smile.

'Alex!'

A women, who must've been her mother screamed. The little girl kept talking to me, though.

'Did you lose the battle?'

She asked. I gave her a weak smile & said.

'No, sweetie. The scars remind me everyday that i made it through & i'm lucky to be alive.'

The little girl looked at me again before looking back to her mother.

'Alex!'

Her mother yelled again while walking towards us. Her mother reached us.

'I'm so sorry about that.'

She said before taking Alex away. Max walked over to me while i was looking back at the little girl who may have changed things for me.

'Ronnie, Crissy, & the baby are here.'

He said to me. I nodded blankly, though. Still thinking of the world.

'Max, why do you care about me?'

I asked before he could walk away. He gave it a sliver of thought before he began talking to me.

'Because i don't know if i would be able to live without you. You've been there through everything & i love you for that, so i try my hardest to be that for you.'

He finished & i just nodded.

*Max's POV*

These are the kind of things that scare me. Adylen is being distant from everyone & won't talk or socialize. She asked me why i cared about her. I walked back to everyone not sure of what was going to Addy. I pulled Jinxx aside.

'I'm worried about Adylen.'

I stated simply while we were both looking her way. She just sat there in the water, oblivious of the other kids & people playing around her.

'I know, i am too.'

Jinxx said back. I don't think i could live without my best friend.

*Adylen's POV*

Once we got home i went straight to my room. I couldn't sleep that night either. 5 am rolled around & i did what i knew best. I sliced into my thighs as the cries got louder. I was rocking back & forth on my bed with a tear streaked face.

'Whoever is up there, a god maybe, make it all better? Take it all away.'

I said into the air. I couldn't do this anymore. I don't know how to live my life without depression & i don't want to do it anymore. I want it to end.

Notes

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Sort of cliffhanger.