Secrets

“I’m not going to lose you. I can’t.” Andy mumbled into my hair and I could hear his voice crack and a tear hit my cheek. I gasped and looked up at him so fast I felt my neck crack. I ignored the slight pain and stared up at Andy, his eyes were red and I could tell he was trying so hard not to cry. “I need you Jade, I-I can’t lose you.” I brushed a stray tear from his cheek with my thumb and gave him a genuine smile before I pecked his lips quickly.

“You haven’t lost me yet.” I whispered into his ear. I could feel him shiver as he bit my shoulder. I know that what I'm about to do is a bad decision I shouldn't forgive Andy so easily but right now I'm just so sick and tired of everything. The fighting, the nightmares, and the crying, I’m tired of it. For now I just needed an escape from it all. And even though Andy had caused me so much pain he was always my escape from the world. He shifted me out of his lap and laid me down on the couch.

"I love you Jade and I'm so sorry"

"Andy please don't apologize right now. I just want to forget everything at the moment."

He didn't say anything else he just nodded and leaned over me placing one leg between my thighs. He kissed me again and our tongues tangled as he caressed my face with his palm and his other hand started to make its way up my shirt. I gasped at the feeling of his cold hands against my stomach. His figures flicked over my bellybutton ring as his hands continued to go upward. His hands reached the end of my bra and he squeezed my breast causing me to let out a small moan. He slipped his hand away and looked at me with greedy eyes. Andy made me sit up and lifted my shirt over my head. He moved down to my waist and slowly removed my leggings leaving me in nothing but my lace navy blue panties and matching bra.

"You are so beautiful." he whispered his voice dripping with lust, as he stood up to observe me. I sat up and started to undo his belt, while he lifted his shirt over his head. I unzipped his pants and slowly pulled them down. He stepped out of them and I couldn't help but to lick my lips at the sight of the bulge in his boxer briefs. Instinctively I reached out and squeezed his cloth covered erection with my hand. It was always such a turn on hearing Andy moan and I decided I couldn't wait any longer. I slipped my fingers into the waistband of his boxer briefs and yanked them down. He gasped from the cold air suddenly hitting his erection and I moaned at the sight of it standing at attention.

I took him in my hand and started to pump him and he instinctively started to thrust into my hand. I continued to do that for few more moments and then I stopped. He growled down at me but when he saw my mouth move towards him he stopped me.

"Not tonight baby, I plan on tending to you and only you tonight.” I wouldn't admit it but I was actually disappointed that Andy had turned me down. I'm not one of those girls that doesn't like to give blow jobs. I just like pleasing Andy in any way that I can and Andy loves blow jobs. But my disappointment changed when he leaned over me and started to suck on my neck. I moaned softly and clawed at his back. He stopped knowing that he wasn't allowed to leave a mark on me.

Andy started to leave a trail of soft kisses down my chest until he landed at my bra. He moved his hands underneath me and unhooked my bra and threw it away carelessly. I wanted to cover myself but with just one look he always managed to make me feel so secure. I moaned again when his mouth clamped over my left nipple and he started to suck. Heat coursed through my body at his touch, Andy always liked how sensitive I was and used it to his advantage. He fondled my breast while his free hand made its way down south.

His hand traveled lower until it snuck into my panties. I gasped at the feel of his hand. He rubbed his hand back and forth before smirking down at my panting form. Andy rubbed my clit with his thumb until I was breathing in short gasps.

"Fuck Jade baby you are so wet." he murmured to himself. Andy grabbed my panties and practically ripped them off of me. He lowered himself down and spread my thighs apart. He looked up at me with a hungry expression before his tongue flicked against my clit. I gave out a surprised gasp and clutched his hair in my hands. Andy chuckled to himself and continued to lick and suck at my most sensitive of areas. I was moaning and panting and gripping Andy's hair so tightly I was practically fucking his face. All he did was chuckle and hold my hips down with his arm.

A finger slipped into my entrance and started pumping in and out at such a slow pace. This was torture and Andy knew exactly what he was doing. He loved to tease me. I wanted to scream at him and beg for more but I knew I wouldn't get it, Andy got a sick kick in torturing me and watching me squirm. After what felt like hours which in reality was probably a few minutes Andy added a second finger and slowly a third and then I couldn't take it anymore.

"Andy p-please." I pleaded looking down at him. It was such a fucking turn on watching him go down on me. Andy sped up his pace and I felt the heat starting to rise as my inner walls clenched against his fingers. He took his mouth away but continued to pump into me at an increasing pace.

"Let it go baby come on." I did as I was told and I screamed out Andy's name as my orgasm hit. I shuddered violently and Andy continued to go down on me for a few moments. He pulled away and licked his lips and then got up off the floor and kissed me. Our tongues tangled again and I didn't mind the taste of myself on his mouth. When we both needed to breath we pulled apart.

"Andy please." I started begging and he just smirked. I wanted him so bad. I needed to feel him inside me. Andy was my escape and I needed him so badly right now.
"What do you want baby?" the bastard was going to make me beg for it he always did. "Don't be shy you can tell me."

"I need you right now. Please j-just take me."

Andy kissed my lips again before he shifted himself on top of me. I watched him as he grabbed his erection and guided it towards my entrance. He circled my entrance with his tip at first before giving me a look that was practically pleading.

"Andy please." I moaned out and he nodded.

"As you wish." he said before he slowly pushed into me. I winced and bit my lip. I always had a hard time adjusting to his size. When he was all the way in he stopped and waited for me to get used to him.

"Keep going." I said once I was ready and silently he pulled out then pushed back in. I wrapped my legs around his waist and moved my hips to match the movement of his thrusts. All of my senses were going haywire at the feel of Andy inside of me and I let a bunch of quite noises leave my lips.

Andy making love to me was one of the best feelings ever because it never happened often. We usually always had to make things rushed and fast. But not today right now it was only the two of us in the world. We never once locked eye contact and I felt so connected to him right now. He grinded into me and I moaned and clawed at his back when he hit a spot in me that send tingles up my spine.

We didn't need words the sound of our heavy breathing and skin against skin was all that was needed. Knowing that Andy was close to the edge he started to speed up. He changed positions so I was riding him. I rocked my hips against him taking him in deeper and I practically started moaning like a pornstar.

"Ah oh fuck Andy!" I cried out gripping his shoulders to keep myself steady. "A-Andy, fuck I love you!"

"Oh Jade, oh fuck I love you too." he groaned thrusting upwards. I gasped and through my head back. Andy's thrust became more erratic and he started chanting my name. "Jade! Baby I'm about to-" Andy never got to finish the end of his sentence because my walls clenched around his thick member again and I screamed out his name as the force of my second orgasm hit harder than the first one.

I collapsed on top of Andy's chest as he spilled into me and road out his orgasm with my name on his lips as he thrust upward. For a few moments we just stayed the way we were a mess of heavy breathing until we both calmed down. Andy shifted so we were cuddling. My face was lying peacefully on his chest and there was just something about the fact that he was still inside of me that made me want to stay like this forever. In this moment we were one and I didn't want that to go away just yet.

"I love you so fucking much Jade Purdy, and don’t you ever forget that. You. Are. Mine. All mine." he said leaving random kisses all over my face.

"And Andrew Biersack I love you too. You're one of the best things that has ever happened to me."

Andy kissed me passionately again before he pulled me closer. I buried myself in his chest in content. I know things have gotten shitty between us and there were still some problems that would need to be addressed. But right now in this moment in time with Andy everything is perfect.

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