I made Misty drive me to my mother’s house. The drive seemed like it was taking forever. I felt like I was going to throw up again. My hands twitched in my lap. My nails dug into my skin.

“Sonny, it’s like almost one in the morning” Misty said

“I’m sorry but I don’t care, we need to get to my mom NOW” I said

We pulled up to her house. I didn’t even wait until the car was fully stopped and got out. I ran up to the door and beat my fists on it and rang the doorbell like a madwoman.

“Come on open up!” I yelled

“Shhh be quiet people are sleeping” Misty said

I pounded on the door. It swung open, I nearly hit my mother.

“Sonny? What are you doing here? Do you realize what time it is?” my mother asked angrily. Michael my step dad stood behind her. I hate his guts.

“I know about Andy MOM!” I yelled

“What about him?!” she asked

“That he’s ALIVE you fucking bitch” I said

“Don’t talk to your mother that way” Michael retorted

“Shut up, this is none of your business you pedophile” I said

“SONNY you have no right to come here at one in the morning yelling like a batshit psycho” My mother said

“Oh I have no right? I’m the one who has no right?” I pressed “You’re the one who has no fucking right to what you’ve done to me” I spat

“How could you? How could you make me believe that he was dead?” I yelled through my tears

“Because it was best for the both of you!” My mother said

“Are you people on drugs? What the hell is wrong with you people?!” I said

I stormed off.

“You better stay away from that boy! He isn’t good for you!” My mother yelled

I turned around on my heal and stormed up to her

“Are you kidding me? THAT man right there” I pointed at Michael “Was never good for me, he did things to me and you’re still married to him! you have no fucking right to tell me who’s not good for me!” I seethed through my teeth

I turned back around and stormed to the car

“Sonny!” my mother called after me

I got in the car and slammed the door. I was seething with emotions. I could hardly control my breathing.

“Sonny are you ok?” Misty asked

I looked at her

“No, I feel really sick” I said

“Well, we need to get you to bed, you look like you’re going to implode” she said

“I don’t think I could possibly sleep at all now” I rubbed my forehead

She took me home and got me into my bed. She covered me up. She went off to bed and left me alone. Of course I couldn’t sleep. I just thought about Andy. I already want to see him again. I hope I get to see him again. I was so caught up on chasing after his mother that I didn’t even think to ask if they’ll be around for another concert night.
Misty came into my room carrying a tray.

“Oh you’re awake” she said

“I never fell asleep” I sighed

“You’ll make yourself sick doing that” Misty shunned me

“Eh whatever, I’ve already made myself sick over this shit” I said

“Here, you need to take your medicine” Misty said setting the tray on my lap

I have to take medicine every day to calm my nerves and make me well….normal. I ate breakfast and hopped in the shower. It seemed like the water could wash away some of the stress, but only a bit. I went into the living room after I dressed into clean pajamas. I sat on the couch next to Misty, she was reading a magazine.

“Are you going to go see him?” Misty said not looking up

“I don’t know” I said unsure “My heart and mind say yes, but the whole situation is just overly messed up” I said

“If you want, we can drive by tonight, they are performing again” she said

“Really?!” I asked excitedly

Maybe I should stay away. I don’t know what to do. Maybe if I start talking to him he’ll remember me! But what if he’ll never remember me? I just…don’t want to hurt him

“Misty, if you were me, would you go after him?” I asked

“Considering what you’ve been through, you’d have to be crazy not to” Misty said “but you’d have to be insane enough to do it” she said

“So either way I’m crazy?” I said

“Yup” Misty smiled