Andy Dawn’s POV



It’s been about a month since dad was supposed to come out and visit us. The guys and me miss him a lot. We talk to him almost everyday but it’s just not the same. He hasn’t said when he will visit us, but I hope it’s soon. Tour has been INCREDIBLEso far but I miss home a bit. I miss my queen sized bed and my galaxy print comforter. I miss my little munchkins and I miss my mom. I know she isn’t coming back but I cant but help think how proud of me she would be. The tour is almost done with the American section of the tour. Europe and Mexico still have shows. Dad will be performing in Europe hopefully. That’s at least the plan. Eve’s birthday is tomorrow, February 13th. She’s going to be two! I can’t believe it! Pretty soon, we’re going to be sending her to college! Kellin is six months old now! What a dinosaur! He went in for his cancer test and he got the all clear for the last two months. It’s a scary disease. I only hope dad never gets cancer. I don’t know what I would do without him. He’s the one person who knows what I feel and what I need even when I don’t know.

I’ve gotten incredibly close with the guys in the relapse symphony. Brett is pretty much like a younger Andy, by what a year or two? JC is pretty cool and so is Alex. Tyler reminds me of CC a little bit and Brandon is pretty quiet but still really nice. Jake and Jinxx have been off doing their own thing for the past few days so it’s just been CC, Andy the other band and me. What’s been really fun is having them play along with the lyrics I wrote and Jinxx helped with the arrangements for the instruments. It’s entertained us while we were in between stops. We get to stop at a hotel and spend two nights there for the first time in about a month and a half. A regular sized bed would be a dream come true. its not been decided who we will share with yetbut I hope its not CC. No offense to him but he snores, a lot. Andy likes to have control of the TV so we’re either watching hell’s kitchen or batman, which he always is able to find.


CC and me plan to prank him when we get to the hotel; we actually have the other band in on it too. So what we’re going to do is get him out of the hotel and we are going to take all of his batman stuff and trade it for something like Disney princesses or something. I have a pair of pink skinny jeans that aren’t my ideal shade of pink (them being pastel and girly and not neon) that I am going to put in his suitcase. I also got some cheap converse look a likes and drew a bunch of Disney princesses on them. CC got a T-shirt that had stuff about 50 shades of grey on it. When he showed me it, I was doubled over laughing for 15 minutes straight. He gave me a look and said, “the interview with us reading that book is the only part of the book you should know.”



I asked him, “So how do you like it CC?” he knew what I meant and said, “mamma Jinxx! Little Andy said something dirty!” Jinxx gave him a look saying explain so I said in a hushed whisper, “CC over here bought a 50 shades of grey shirt for a prank. I laughed because I knew about the interview him and Andy did a while ago. I may or may not have asked him, how do you like it?” Jinxx laughed and said, “YEAH, CC how do you like it?” CC flipped us off and said, “with girls of course, I’m sorry but I’m not into that stuff. Now if you’ll excuse me I have a prank to prepare for.”


That was only yesterday but it feels like a lifetime ago. Today was almost over; we didn’t have a show since we’re going to be on the road until tomorrow night. Getting off the couch, I threw myself onto Andy’s bunk where Andy was. He groaned and I said, “I’m bored. Entertain me.” he gave me a look and then said, “What do you want to do?” “Lets make a youtube video.” He said, “alright but lets make it awesome. So how about you put on a little war paint and I put on some war paint and ask a few questions on twitter.” nodding, I got off of him and ran to my bunk. I put on some war paint similar to my dad’s but not a whole lot, just the gist of it. When I finished, I put on a black v-neck shirt and a plaid cotton shirt over it and then ran to the living area.Andy set up a camera and then we said, “ Hey guys! Its Andy and Andy here.” we had a few questions ready and we then answered them.

Most of them asked about what tour were like; if we missed home and what it was like to live on a bus with only men. Once we did those questions, I suggested the challenges. I looked evilly and the camera and said, “how about we do the cinnamon challenge?” Andy shrugged and I ran off to get what I needed. Returning I handed him the spoon and said, “you go first.” he sighed and then put the spoon in his mouth. For the first 45 seconds, he did all right and then it hit the 1-minute mark. He literally coughed a cloud of cinnamon into the air. I laughed as I gave him something to help him stop coughing. When he finally finished, he evilly grinned and said, “your turn.”


Pretending to act scared; I put the spoon in my mouth and then began to get it the way I wanted before I tried to swallow it. Much to my appreciation, I was able to finish it all and then licked the spoon for emphasis. Andy gave me a dirty look and I smiled and said, “So this is the end of this video. I hope you enjoyed it!” I smiled and waved as the video then ended. We quickly edited it, which wasn’t too hard and then posted it on twitter and youtube. Once we were done with that I said we should make another video. I grabbed the blender and moved the camera to the kitchen area.


Once it was on and recording I said, “welcome. Today we will be doing the blender challenge. My partner in crime will be the one and only Andrew.” Andy gave me a look, which I returned and then focused back on the camera.

“So in our fridge, we have monsters, rock stars, apple juice-that’s CC’s Shh. You didn’t hear it from me. Um there’s a banana on the counter, blue berries in the freezer, yogurt, ice cream, paprika, cinnamon- go check out our cinnamon challenge video its funny. Salt, water, celery, parsley, tomato sauce. Yeah we actually have food in here for once. Thank goodness Jake and Jinxx went grocery shopping while CC and me went to the mall. Anyways, where was I? Oh wait so tomato sauce, cheese, and lastly coconut.”

“Okay so what are we going to do?” Andy asked. He aimed the camera on us, using the tripod and then stood next to me. “Promise you wont back out, no matter what and if you do, you are the biggest chicken in the history of chickens and I and the members of black veil brides and the tour crew as well as other band can say you’re a chicken.” He nodded and then pinky promised. “Well my dearest brother, we are going to put it in a blender.” He nodded and we slowly put each ingredient. It smelt soooooo bad. When we finished, we poured it into several glasses. We both picked it up and smelt it. “it smells fruity but then it smells all spicy and then weird.” I told the camera. Closing my eyes, I then took a sip. It was horrible but Andy wasn’t going to be able to back out of this just yet.

“its actually pretty good.” Andy gave me a questioning look and then took a sip of his. “OH MY GOD THAT IS THE MOST HORRIBLE THING I HAVE EVER DRUNK. WHAT HAVE I DONE?” I laughed and said, “dear, you have to drink it all.” He pouted and then tried to drink it all. He ended up spitting it out in the sink and nearly puking. CC entered the area with his headphones on and not paying attention. I grinned at Andy who returned the evil smile and then tapped CC. “CC do you want some of our smoothie?” he shrugged and then took a sip.

“OH MY GOD WHAT IS THIS? ARE YOU TRYING TO POISON ME?” Andy and me were too busy rolling on the floor laughing to respond to him. When we finally managed to stop I said, “We did the blender challenge. It was awful and you walked in it was perfect.” He flipped us off and then went back to his bunk. Looking into the camera I said, “we have to clean this all up before Mamma Jinxx and Papa bear Jake realize the mess we made.” Andy questioned, “Papa bear Jake?” I smiled at my thoughts and said, “Well Mamma Jinxx, you know that story but Papa bear Jake, that’s interesting. Well CC and me were as always, up to no good. We snuck around back stage and hid in the dressing room. He came in and we scared the crap out of him. He yelled at us but when I pretended to cry, he got all soft like a teddy bear. But before, he was mad like a bear. I came up with it while I was bored the other day. CC is the drummer boy and you are the bat man addict.”

He laughed and said, “Alright I get the others but mine? Really?” I nodded and he shook his head and then I did the conclusion of our video before turning the camera off. Cleaning up the mess, we then apologized to CC since it was the right thing to do and then watched a random movie we found on TV. I fell asleep with my face in CC’s side and my feet on Andy’s lap.


Ash’s POV
-Few days after Andy Dawn’s perspective-

I miss the guys and Andy dawn so much right now! After telling Sammi about my cancer, I felt a lot better but still guilty that I haven’t told the guys. The throwing up and tiredness is slowly going away. My hair won’t start to grow for a while which means the guys can’t see me without it. Great that’s going to be hard. That’s what she said! HA! Even after what I went through, some of the old me am still there. I’ve slowly been able to gain a bit of the weight I lost from being sick from the chemo but not enough. My bones still stick out a little bit and my pants are still too big. Thankfully it’s not too noticeable. I’m still quite pale and the dark circles under my eyes haven’t seemed to go away.

The doctor is having me take fewer painkillers so I can slowly stop taking them all together. I also don’t really need to take my sleeping pills so I haven’t taken any in a few days. I get enough sleep but I wake up still tired. Right now, Sammi is dropping me off at the airport. I’m in the wheel chair because my back is still having a few problems and I don’t want to deal with it. Jinxx and the little ones said bye this morning before school while Sammi takes me before they get home. She helped me through as far as security would let her go and then waved as I went through security. The guards checked me quite well, meaning they helped me take my shoes off and then put my stuff through the thing were they can look into your bag with the x-ray. Once they had me all patted down and was sure I wasn’t going to hijack a plane, I was helped to my terminal were the plane would be.


After a while, my boarding number was called. Boarding, I waited as the plane taxied its way down the runway and then took off. The flight its self was normal and we landed at our destination a few hours later. I got my stuff and waited for Jinxx to pick me up. He was the only one who knew I was coming; I was going to surprise Andy dawn. When he saw me he smiled and then got my stuff into the car and then helped me in. I asked him about how tour was going and he talked all about it until we reached the hotel. The thought of how I was going to tell them and if I was going to tell them that I went through Chemo and went into remission for my cancer was at the back of my mind. Telling them terrified me. When we got there, Jinxx had a room for me ready already and helped me there.

Once I was situated, he ran to go get the guys. I heard their voices from outside the room. “Isn’t this the wrong floor? It doesn’t look like it’s our floor.” I heard CC say. Jinxx answered, “Well, I think it’s our room. The guy at the front desk said it was under Black Veil Brides.” I sat quietly in the dark as Jinxx walked in after opening the door and turned the lights on. “Its not our room- OMG its Dad!” Andy dawn shouted as she saw me and then ran towards me. She carefully gave me a hug and squeezed me like her life depended on it, and I returned the hug. Everyone but Jinxx was really shocked but they were all equally excited. My smile was as wide as the Grand Canyon but the thought of having to tell them dimmed my smile just a tad.


Jinxx’s POV

I told the guys I had to go get something that I misplaced somewhere during the tour but I was really going to the airport to pick Ashley up. When I first saw him, he looked normal but that was at a distance. As I got closer, I noticed he was really tiny again but looked really tired and also pale. I got his stuff into the car before helping him in. he was really light like before. The thought of him relapsing while we were gone was terrifying. He listened as I told him about tour and he talked a bit too. Getting him set up in his room, I then went to get the guys. I took them to the lobby to help me get something out of the car before going up to Ash’s floor. I purposely stood in front of the buttons so they wouldn’t see we were on the wrong floor.

Jake noticed that the room numbers and floor was different but didn’t say anything, then again I sent him a glare and he remained silent. Feeling bad, I offered him a small smile and continued on to Ash’s room. CC then realized we were on the wrong floor and announced it. I bet Ash probably heard. Opening the door and turning the light on, Andy Dawn looked up from her phone, which she had been showing Andy something and dropped it into his hands and ran to her dad. Seeing her smiling and so happy was worth all the mysteriousness and the glare I sent Jake earlier. When I looked at him, he smiled and said, “I get it now.” I smiled and patted him on the back.


Andy Dawn finally let go of him so the rest of us could say hi and hug him. She was adorable though. She grabbed her phone from Andy and took a picture with her dad and moments later our twitters went off with her message saying, “OMG GOT THE BEST SURPRISE EVER! I love you Dad!!!! <3” and then a picture of both of them smiling. We all sat down on the couch and talked for a bit. From the corner of my eye, I saw Jake giving me a look. A look I know all to well, nodding in response I waited for the right time to ask, “so how have you been doing with the doctors and therapy?” he said, “I’m doing good with therapy. The doctor is a whole different story.”


The mood in the room fell instantly. It went from a cheerful happy vibe to a heavy quiet mood. He looked away and then opened his mouth and said, “I want you to know that I didn’t tell you guys this just yet because I wanted to protect you. I didn’t want you to have to quit the tour or watch me be sick.” Andy Dawn was the first to understand what was going on. She clung to Ash and cried, “no. Please no.” he held her close as he continued on, “I was having back pain so I got an x-ray. The doctor found a tumor. He removed it that day and that’s why I didn’t come out that time. It was in fact cancerous.” We all held our breath as we waited for him to continue.

“I went through several rounds of Chemo to have it go away. The cancer its self was highly treatable. The doctor believes now that I’m in remission; I will be for a long time since it was very early on.” we all let go of the breath we had been holding and Jake asked, “what does that mean?” he gave us a small smile and said, “I’m cancer free. It wasn’t the worst case it was very early so it was very treatable and it didn’t take a whole bunch of time.”We all group hugged and held on as we cried for a little bit. Once we all calmed down he then asked us, “Do you have any questions?”

Notes

hey guys. thought I'd give you something while I had the time. school has been...interesting to say the least. I got the one class I really wanted which is good but my friends also have that class and the teacher believes that we should share secrets so we will have no secrets and be a family (its drama class so yeah were a huge family I guess) and well I don't think I would want them to hear the secrets but the other students, I have no problem if they heard.

anyways enough of me, HOW ARE YOU? I miss talking to you guys! I'm terribly sorry its been so long since we last saw life for Andy Dawn and everyone. school is crazy. its taking a lot out of me and we're 3 days in. its hot, I'm tired and it seems like everything is going to be the same, like always. oh and one of the girls who slapped me and bullied me got the same science class. yay! I'm excited! note the sarcasm. she hasn't said anything or done anything but with her, its only a matter of time. so I'm going to enjoy the calm before the storm and try not to mess up again. I made a mistake which I regret but then I don't. its weird. I know what I did was wrong but I cant bring my self to care. my mistake was much like Ash's which lead him to were things got so bad. :/

anyways, stay strong! never give in and never back down! we are the fallen angels so lets set the world on fire! <3 I love you guys