Andy Dawn’s Pov




I didn’t mean to be that cruel to dad. It sort of just happened. The girls at school taught me that I am better than what people think I am. Listening to Justin Bieber, I searched my closet for what to wear tonight for the concert. Andy and Dad haven’t really said anything to me and it’s been really awkward but at least they haven’t bothered me, well I did ignore dad every time he tried to talk to me. He eventually gave up trying. Pulling out a pair of skinny jeans, I remembered that this one of the pairs of pants Dad first bought me when we went to hot topic and they surprised me. What’s funny is I haven’t seen CC use that damn family guy backpack he bought yet. Turning around, I see that my phone went off. It’s Marcel. “Hey Purdy, its Me Marcel. My sister and me are going to the show tonight! How do you like the Camaro?” sighing, I sent back, “Awesome! Hope to see you there! The car is fabulous.” I finished with my outfit for tonight off with boots, black shirt and a black jacket. Quickly straightening my hair, I did my make up and then headed down stairs.


Uncle CC, Jake and Jinxx were sitting down in the kitchen while Andy was cooking breakfast. Dad came down minutes late dressed and ready for the day. Dad disappeared and uncle Jake followed him closely. I will admit that I do regret and wish I never said what I said to dad but it just happened. It feels like I’m someone I’m not. Every little thing he does irritates me. Amber tells me that this is what its like to finally realize your worth is above others, especially the emo kids. I’m not entirely sure why I’m friends with her or the others, if were even friends. I stop wearing band merch and now their nice to me. They let me sit with them at lunch and invited me places. I feel like I finally belong. Andy stopped trying to talk to me at school and Brandon just gives me looks of pity. Looking at dad, he looked skinnier than I remembered but then again, I’m skinnier than what I remember. “Don’t eat that porky, do you want to be a cow?” rang through my head with Amber’s high pitched voice and false nails waving in the air.


I disregarded the voice and continued to eat breakfast and then sat next to CC at the table. “What’s up kiddo?” he asked. “I’m excited for tonight! Are you?” he nodded and we talked about what to expect and then were shuffled off to the car. Sound check came and went and then it was time for lunch. I noticed that uncle Jake always was watching dad whenever we ate and then wouldn’t let him leave the room or his sight for a given amount of time. I got a small salad and I also noticed that dad and Jinxx split what they got and she got a little bit more than he did. However, I think I am the only one who noticed. After taking Jinxx to Sammi’s we returned to the arena. Everyone put on their stage clothes and then war paint. Andy offered to do mine for me. I told him what I wanted. In all fair ness, I didn’t want war paint all over me, that’s why I didn’t do Dad’s lines and well CC doesn’t really have that much going on other than his eyes.



CC and dad were a bit bummed out from what I could sense. We all just finished doing our war paint when CC mentioned we didn’t eat dinner. Well crap. After they begged a stage crewmember to buy us some food, we talked for a while. Andy must’ve told the others what was going because they looked at me a bit differently. The crewmember gave us our food and we all ate in contently. We were all silent, the only noise being the munching on food when dad asked “did anyone else’s food taste a bit weird?” we all replied No and shrugged. Cleaning up a bit, it was then time for the meet and greet. I stayed behind because my war paint would be a dead give a way for what was planned. For the time that they were gone, I texted Marcel and tweeted random stuff on twitter. sitting in a chair by the vanity, I watched as Uncle Jinxx practically dragged dad to the room. he looked like he had just been sick and a bit feverish.


The guys weren’t sure he should play but he fought for his spot. When I suggested I play for him, dad fought twice as hard for his spot. Hmm. You want to play this game old man? Well let’s play it. “I know his parts. I can play for him.” I put in and tried to look innocent and helpful. Dad must’ve known what I was doing because he really honestly tried to get past his stomach pain to play. When Andy and the others reluctantly agreed to let him play, I silently cursed him out. why wont he let me do anything? What is his freaking problem? Ever since I got sick at school and Kellin had the Flu, he has been very over protective and annoying. Jake helped him with his war paint as I mentally sent daggers at him.

We waited until it was our time to go on stage and then went out. CC went first then Jake and Jinxx, Dad and then me. I said hello and then we started King for a day. halfway through I introduced the real Andy and then we finished the song. I exited the stage and sent dad a glare as I left. what? He’s acting like a little brat. I will admit, for my second BVB show, it was good. after the show ended, we headed back to the house to set up for the party. Dad made it clear that I was to not touch any alcohol. Ha who’s he kidding. Once he’s drunk and everyone else is, they wont remember giving me any.


People started arriving and the party really began. I immediately met several bands. Kellin Quinn was really nice and not the ass whole that someone told me he was. Vic Fuentes was incredibly nice and good looking. Everyone I met was nice and hung out with me a bit before wandering off to talk to more people. I saw that Uncle CC was drunk of his ass and took a picture of him and then dragged him to Jinxx’s room to sleep since he was leaning on the wall trying not to fall on his face. Once he was asleep, I found Andy. He completely thought he was batman and then was trying to attempt jumping of the stairs. I got him to his room before he fell and killed himself. He was out like a light before I closed the door. Uncle Jinxx left early to go home to Sammi so he was out of my way.


More and more people left (they all had designated drivers or were still sober and just wanted to party) and it was soon just dad and I. he was beyond wasted in the kitchen. Talking to himself, I listened as he spoke mostly about nothing but I did hear some things that were understandable. One of them being, “why does she hate me? I understand I missed out on her childhood but I’m here now. what did I screw up?” my heart broke a bit. no that can’t happen Andrea! You’re supposed to be stone now. if you’re stone, no one can hurt you. no one. maybe the reason I was being a huge bitch to dad was I wad afraid of him hurting me so I hurt him. I don’t know. It’s been a long day. deciding to try and take the bottle of whiskey he had in his arms, I fought him for it.

“No. you can’t have it. your underage. Stop.” he said although he was beyond wasted. Literally he was the most drunk you could be before getting alcohol poisoning. He drank more and more of it until the bottle was empty. Giving me a lop sided grin, he handed the bottle to me and said, “there you go.” taking it from him, I threw it in a plastic bag. I cleaned up most of the house while trying to keep an eye on him. turning my back for a moment, I returned to see him with a bottle of Jack. Finishing it off, he handed it to me and smiled. I took the rest of thebottles that were left in the kitchen (barely any) and poured them down the drain. He pouted and said, “party pooper.”


Once the cleaning was taken care of, I turned all but a few lights of and then tried to get dad to bed. he was at least aware that we were going up the stairs and tried to help. I think the freighting thing was that he wasn’t that heavy when I had to support his weight. Getting him to bed, I pulled of his jeans and then pulled back his hair so if he woke up sick, it wouldn’t be in the way. As I was putting his sweat pants on, I noticed cuts. Many were like mine, red and healing. He relapsed. That’s all I could think. Had my sudden bitchy behavior done this? No Andréa don’t be stupid. He was broken before he found you guys. It’s not your fault.

Going down stairs, I turned the lights off and then went to bed. closing the door of my room, I couldn’t but help think this was my entire fault. was it? closing my eyes, I let sleep take me for the night.




Ash’s POV


My head throbbed as I woke up. opening my eyes, the room span. When it finally calmed down, I made my way to the bathroom. Sticking my fingers down my throat, I threw up all the alcohol I drank last night. When I was done, I brushed me teeth and went down stairs to get some water and a pain killer. Feeling a tad bit better, I looked around the room. all of the empty bottles were in a bag and the house was cleaned up. going through the house, I realized that it was only Andy, CC Andy Dawn and I. did she clean up? I remember her taking both of them to bed and then people leaving and then nothing.


Making breakfast, I ate a little bit and managed to keep it down and then ate a little bit more. Feeling successful, I went up stairs and changed. When I went back down, I saw Andy dawn and CC sitting there. she barely ate anything and then was off to the bathroom but I stopped her.

“where are you going?” I asked.

“to the bathroom to pee. Didn’t know I had to tell you.”

“that’s not al of it is it?”

“are you accusing me of something?”

“I have said nothing. I’m asking.”

“well mind your own fucking business. What I do is my business so leave me alone.” she said coldly.

“I know what your doing. Don’t think I don’t know. I’ve been there.”

“don’t you mean you ARE there. if your accusing me of being to skinny, have you looked in the mirror?”

“don’t try to turn this to be about me. I will admit I struggled with an eating disorder, okay. That’s why the guys are always around while we’re eating. They make me eat. I’ve almost been hospitalized 12 times over the last 10 years because of it.”

“why are you telling me this? does it look like I care?”


“your mom, Mckendrie suspected it, never said a thing though. It’s a difficult thing to over come and I still struggle. I never asked to be this way but it happened and all I can do now is try to get better.”

“don’t you dare bring my mom into this. why are you telling me this? do you want my sympathy because you’re a fucked up mess? Cutting your self now? really? Did you ever really love my mom? When I told you she loved you, I was being nice. She could never love a fucked up little bitch like you.” she said angrily and then stormed up to her room and slammed the door as hard as she could.


CC gave me a look and said, “Ash-.” “I don’t want to talk about, why don’t you and Andy just leave.” he sighed and said, “alright. Call if you need anything. She’s just going through a phase, she’ll realize what she’s doing and apologize.” Shaking my head I cleaned up the dishes and waved as him and Andy left.


Going up stairs, I knocked on her door. When I went in she gave me a dirty look. Staying by the door I said, “why are you being like this? what did I do wrong?” she laughed and said, “being like what?” “your being mean to Jinxx and then you’re yelling at me. what did I do?” I asked. “its what you haven’t done.”

“what haven’t I done? I haven’t looked at a female the entire time you guys have been here so don’t you dare say I’m being a player. I’ve done everything I can to make you guys happy and its not enough? I didn’t ask to be a dad but here I am. Doing my best and apparently, its not good enough? I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m just trying to be a good dad and I guess its not working.” I said slightly upset.


“doing everything you can? obviously that’s not true. you’ve been a depressed fuck up since we got here. I can’t believe mom could ever love you let alone like. I’m fucking sick and tired of you. just get out of my room and stay out. leave! by the way, work harder MRS. Purdy.” She said before pushing me out of her room and then slammed the door shut. Going to my room, I face planted onto the bed.


texting Jinxx I said, “I think it would be wise if the kids stay with you for Halloween or at least the day. I have no clue what to do with LA anymore. we just got into another fight, 2nd one in 20 minutes.”He replied, “I think you should bring her over when you take the kids out trick or treating. You are NOT missing their first Halloween with you. so go raid your closet and make a Halloween costume and then drag LA here and we will all talk to her. got it?”


I sent back, “okay. Thanks man. See you in a bit.” getting back up, I went through my clothes and then decided to be Andy for Halloween. I thought it was funny and he’d get a kick out of it. throwing everything into a bag, I went to Andrea’s room, knocked on the door and said, “We’re going to uncle Jinxx’s in 20 minutes. Get everything you need for Halloween now.” she flipped me off and I left the room.

20 minutes later how ever, we were in the car and on out way to Jinxx’s. she gave me dirty looks and remained silent the entire time. once we were there, she slammed the car door shut and then went into the house and slammed the front door in my face. Opening it I went inside and into the living room. pushing my feelings aside, I pretended like everything was okay. The guys knew we were arguing but not as bad as it was. she said the crueler things when they weren’t around.Jinxx came running to me and gave me a huge hug and then rattled on about what they did last night.


As I listened to her explain, she smiled wider and then asked me how the show went. When I replied that it went well, she ran of to Sammi to ask for a juice box. I took Eve from Jake and then set her in my lap and played with her. eve was mumbling a bit and then poking me and giggling.

Poking her backs he giggled and said, “Daddy the deviant.” My jaw dropped and I said, “aw. I hi Eve. can you say hello?” she waved and replied, “hi.” “I’m so proud of you my little legion! So very proud!” I told her.


“GUYS!!! Eve just said her first words! oh my gosh!!!!!!” Sammi smiled and asked what she said. “she said, daddy the deviant. And then hello.” Sammi smiled and said, “we watched legion of the black and I guess she learned your name from when we pointed and read out your title.” Everyone waved and she giggled.


The rest of the day was uneventful until it was time to go trick or treating. Jinxx was a very cute fairy, dressed in purple and green. Eve was adorable and Kellin was just plan cute. I then changed and then did the war paint. Andy laughed and then returned from the bathroom looking like me. he even drew outlaw on his stomach. We took pictures and then posted them on twitter. I read the response for a change. Someone wrote, “Is it just me or does Ashley look way to skinny?”


A moment later my mentions went off and I read what Andy dawn wrote. Her tweet read, “@AshleyPurdy has an eating disorder. #justthoughtyoushouldknow” seconds later I grabbed her phone and deleted the tweet and then kept her phone. She screamed at me, “what the hell?”

“shouldn’t I be the one asking that? how could you do that?” I asked in disbelief. I couldn’t believe she would back stab me like that.

“it was easy. I typed it with my fingers and pressed send. Surely you would know how to do that.” she replied sarcastically.

“how could you say something like that? the whole entire world will know now.”

“oh you didn’t want the world to know? too bad. They now know.” she replied coldly.

“what has gotten into you? why are you being so mean to me?”

“what’s gotten into me? how about the fact you’ve been lying to your best friends for god knows how long, and I’m being the mean one? It’s not my fault you’re a whiny little gay boy. Grow the fuck up.”

“I’ve about had it with your name calling. I’m keeping your phone, locking your twitter and taking your door down since you love to slam it so much. Should I sell the camaro too? since as I pretty much bought it for you?”

“why are you being so unfair!?” she screamed.

“I am not being unfair. Watch your tone. I could do a lot more but I have not.”

she flipped me off and said, “Fuck you, you fucking good for nothing man whore. I hope you get an STD from one of your whores.”

Taking a deep breath a replied, “alright. If that’s what you believe and want to happen. All right. But know this, I love you even when your acting like this. I wish you would stop treating me like this but I’ll take it if it makes you happy.”


She flipped her hair and then stormed off to another part of the house. I turned to see everyone standing behind me. “not a single word. I don’t want to talk about it. please.” my anxiety was making this all worse. I sat down on the stairs and held my head in my hands. Andy sat down next to me and pulled me into a hug. I sat there and let him hold me because honestly, I needed it.


A while later, Sammi called for dinner and I said, “I’m not hungry, eat without me.” Jake started to protest but Jinxx stopped him. I sat on the stairs and tried to think calmly and breathe to end my anxiety attack but it just wasn’t working. After dinner, Jinxx ran to me and gave me a hug and said, “I love you daddy. You’re the best daddy ever!” I smiled and said, “Thank you little mystic. You are the best little mystic and I love you.” she smiled and then said, ‘can we go trick or treating now?”


We all got ready, except for Andy Dawn who refused to come with us. she stayed behind with Jake who volunteered to stay. We went door to door for two hours and collected a bunch of candy. When we returned to the house, Jake had spoke with Andy Dawn and gave a little insight of what was going on. she apparently felt like we were trapping her and not giving her enough freedom. The guys helped me choose her punishment for the arguing and the twitter thing. It was decided that I would have her phone for a few days and her door would be taken down for two weeks. I felt that it was fair.It was late so we all decided to spend the night. CC being the good friend he was, pulled me into a hug and then told me nice things until I fell asleep.

Notes

so thank you my lovely beautiful readers. thank you for all the support you have been giving me. I mean it from the bottom of my heart and from the deepest part of my soul, THANK YOU!

I feel like this is getting super sad and its lacking the humor. I should add some fluffiness soon before we really get into things. all I say is, if you think Andy dawn is being a bitch now, you've not seen anything lol

stuff is about to hit the fan and hit it hard!!!!!!! oh and thank you all for being here as we reached the milestone of 15 chapters. thank you for all the reviews, subscriptions and follows. seriously thank you! I don't think i would have made it this far with out you.

so stay strong, never give in and never back down. lets set the world on fire for we are the Fallen Angels.