Ash’s pov




“What why?” I asked Panicked. “She has had an allergic reaction. And needs medical help.” I thanked the person and told CC, “Take Kellin I’ll be back.” and then headed down stairs to find out what happened and where she was. I felt Jake’s presences behind me as I ran down the stairs, the elevator would have taken to long. “Ash calm down. You’re going to trip and than hurt your self,” he warned but I stayed at the rate of two steps at a time. My foot missed one and I then fell. I tumbled down a few steps and laded on my stomach. Getting up, I then walked quickly into the ER and said to the nurse, “ a 14 year old girl was brought in just now. She had an allergic reaction at school. That’s my daughter. Where is she?” the nurse asked me information like how tall she was, her hair color, eye color and what she was wearing. I answered, “she’s 5 feet five, black hair, Carmel colored eyes, I don’t know what she was wearing. I was here with my son who was admitted for having the flu this morning at 2 Am.” She looked at the computer and asked, “do you have any photos of her?’ I quickly pulled out my phone a showed her the hundreds of pictures we’ve all taken of her in the last week.


“Alright, so she is in the ER rooms I will have a nurse take you back there.” I nodded and waited as patiently as I could. Jake patted me on the shoulder and I told him, “ My Andrea Dawn was sick and I haven’t seen her all morning and now she’s in the hospital and I don’t know what’s happening. I’m scared Jake. I’m scared.” He hugged me and then the nurse came out from behind a door and took us to where she was. Another nurse was putting an IV in her arm. The nurse saw us and said, “hello. I take you are her family, correct?” nodding she continued on saying, “she came in contact with one of her food allergies while at school. Her throat closed up and she has hives all over. She will be all right but she needs to remain here for a few hours to make sure she is all right and then she can home. We need you to sign some paper work.” nodding I quickly read the paper work and signed it. I sat down in the chair beside her bed and said to Jake, “what’s with the hospital today? Jinxx and Sammi better are taking real good care of Eve and Jinxx. I really don’t want them to end up here today. It would be a crappy day then, it’s already crappy but it can’t get worse. I don’t think I would be able to sleep for weeks if anyone else got sick. I’m glad Andy dawn is okay though. I was anxious when I got the phone call from her school.” He patted me on the back and said, “It’s all going to be alright now. CC’s with Kellin and you’re here with Andy. We are all all right so there’s nothing to worry about. You cant let the what ifs get you Ash. You need to push those away for a while. You can do it. I know you can. Just take a deep breath and breathe.”


I did as he said and calmed down a bit. An anxiety attack was not what I needed right now. I sat there with Andy Dawn while she slept off the allergy reaction while Jake left to go check on CC. When she woke up, I was still right there beside her. “Hey dad. What happened? Where am I?” she asked after regaining her surroundings. “Your in the hospital Little Andy. You had an allergic reaction to something at school. The ER people gave you the medicine you needed and your okay now. They gave you an IV and said you can go home in a little bit.” she nodded and then gave me a hug. We talked about random things for a bit until CC and Jake showed up in the room. I was about to ask where Kellin was but CC interrupted me and said, “Visiting hours ended. The nurse asked us to leave but she said that if anything changed, she would call you.” I nodded and we sat around the room talking about music for a while until a nurse came in and said she could be released.


I signed her out and then we walked to Jake’s car. Sitting in the back with her, we jammed out to music before we pulled up to Jinxx’s car. As we were getting out I realized my car was still at the hospital. “Guys, my car is still at the hospital.” Jake replied, “I’ll take you to your car later then.” Eve and Jinxx were excited to see us and gave us huge hugs when we got inside the house. As I picked Jinxx up and set her on my side, I remembered how I fell down the stairs when she wrapped her legs around my torso. Blinking rapidly, I tried to ignore the throbbing in my side. Following CC to the living room, we all sat down somewhere and then put a movie on. I didn’t pay very much attention because the pain in my side was excruciating. When Sammi finished making dinner (she didn’t want to watch the movie) we all headed to the kitchen. As I walked there, I had to stop for a moment and lean on the wall before continuing on. Andy gave me a look that asked if I was okay. I nodded and kept quiet. Sammi announced what she made once we were all in the room. It was spaghetti.


We all put some on our plates and found a place somewhere to sit and eat. I didn’t take very much but I made it look like I did. Feeling Jake’s eyes on me, I purposely took a huge bite and acted like I was hungry. Why does he feel the need to watch me like a hawk? After dinner I tried to go to the bathroom and Jake stopped me and wouldn’t let me pass. Realizing he wouldn’t let me pass, I turned around and then walked away. When he realized I was giving up, he turned his attention to something Sammi said. I quickly disappeared around the corner and then up the stairs to the other bathroom. Locking the door, I turned the light on and then lifted my shirt up. Yellow and purple bruises covered part of my side. It could be worse, right? Pulling my shirt down and unlocking the door I was met by Jake who didn’t look happy. Fuck. “It’s not what it looks like.” was the first thing out of my mouth. “Really what is it then?” he asked looking me dead in the eyes. “I forgot about falling down the stairs at the hospital until I picked Jinxx up. My side was hurting so I was going to go check it out and you stopped me the first time because you’re paranoid. I came up here and checked my side out. It’s bruised a little bit but I’m fine. Thanks for your concern.” I told him with a hint of attitude.


“I’m only trying to look out for you Ash. You know where this could lead if your not damn well aware of what your doing. I’m not going to let you go down that road without a fight.”


Rolling my eyes I said, “I’m not going down that road. You take nothing and make in into something. I get your concerned but I’m not going down that road.” And then pushed past him and walked down stairs. Everyone could sense the tense air between Jake, and me, that’s why CC offered to drive me to the hospital to get my car. Thanking him, we immediately left to go get it. The drive was silent but the music from the radio didn’t let it get awkward. I got out and thanked him before going to check on Kellin. The nurse on the night round said that he was doing better and that his fever went down to 101.8. Which is a good improvement from the 102 it was at earlier today. Going down stairs, I walked to the car. My side was killing me and my leg was throbbing but I tried to ignore it. What ifs and dark thoughts began to take over my mind. My anxiety kicked in and I was nauseous. Spotting a garbage can, I threw up in it before my stomach finally settled. Getting in the car after limping my way there, I looked for the breath mints and ate several before putting the car in gear and leaving.


The radio was the only noise as I drove. Pierce the Veil was playing, I guess Andy dawn left her play list on. The song playing felt like it related to my situation now. When it finally ended, most of the anxiety attack I had earlier was calming down. Thank god it was a shorter attack. I always feel like shit afterwards but I can deal with that later. Pulling up to Jinxx’s house, I turned the car off and went inside. Gathering the little ones, I put them in their respectable car seat as Andy got into the front. I got up front and we then left. We got back to the house around 9:30. Taking the kids to bed, I then went down stairs and wrote out a note for Andy in case she needed it for school since she missed the rest of the day.


“Dear whom ever it may concern,

Please excuse Andrea Purdy from last nights homework. She will have it done and turned in immediately. She was taken to the hospital for having an allergic reaction during the school day. Andrea was not released from the ER until late last night. I hope you understand. Thank you

Sincerely,
Ashley Purdy.”



And then signed and sealed the envelope. When that was done, I got a glass of water and drank it. Holding the bottle of anti depressants in my hand, I contemplated taking one. Opening the bottle (that I found in Jinxx’s house and took) I poured out a few and then took one. Putting the glass in the sink and then making my way up stairs, I checked on Andy Dawn before going to my room. Pulling down the extremely tight skinny jeans, I investigated my leg. Most of the cuts were scabbing over and healing. They looked horrible. Putting on sweat pants, I then stood in front of my mirror. Fat. Ugly. Waste of space. Rang through my head again. Poking a finger at my stomach, I felt fat. Taking my shirt off, I looked at the bruises. I looked like crap. Putting my shirt on, I got in bed and tried to go to sleep.

Notes

I would like to thank everyone who follows this story. thank you again to the person who messaged me about a story being posted that is almost identical to this story. its been known for awhile now and I have not made an answer or statement about it.

so I would like it if that person did no longer copy this story and no one else did. I take the time out of my day to write this for you guys. its my escape, my other world and to know that someone steals the one thing I'm proud of, its upsetting. I have really bad anxiety. that's why is present in my story and we see how it effects Ashley and Andy Dawn.

I was also bullied like her but in a different way. writing is the only way I know how to deal. so when someone takes the one way I cope and tries to make it there's, it feels like I've failed the one thing I'm good at. I was going to put in little nothing songs but I wont know. I wont risk my songs.

writing is the one thing 've never messed up.please understand that what's going on is not at all okay. it may've started like hey that's a cool idea. but make it your own I beg you. your character names start with the same fucking letter. and almost sound the same. I'm trying to be the better person and not say anything mean or upsetting but its difficult. I feel like I want to give up now. give everything up. all of it.

I beg you guys to see my point of view and understand where I'm coming from. this is the most support I've ever gotten from a story but to see it pretty much stolen is devastating. I'm trying to understand why this person thinks its okay. they've done it before to. I want to raise awareness about this. its PLAGERISM. the thing they said not to do in school.

please know I mean no harm other than facing the situation in front of me which I should have done long ago.

I did plan on posting the next chapter up tonight but I'm kinda pissed too. so I'm sorry. I mean it with my whole heart. I'm sorry. I don't know if I want to write the sequel or the prequel I had planned now. I feel sick to my stomach to know that I'm not the only one this has happened to before. and all the symptoms Ash gets during an attack, I get. I've almost passed out un class because of MY art teacher.

I really did draw Billie Joe Armstrong. and I have had the mindset Ash and Andy Dawn have time to time. its getting worse. I've almost relapsed several times because when I have an attack, I'll do anything to calm down.

have a good day guys. I'm sorry this was dropped on you guys but it needed to be said. again, I'm sorry. don't leave the story because I'm a crazy bitch. leave it because the story sucks and has no imagination.

so I guess this is going to be it for while maybe. i'll probably still write the next few chapter but I don't know if I can handle the anxiety that's bound to happen. I don't want to leave it like this but it might have to be this way for a bit. i'll come back. I don't know yet. I really don't. who knows, tonight, maybe i'll change my mind or tomorrow.

I'm sorry if there's any grammar problems in this crap. I'm to far done to give a fuck at this point. have a good night. set the world on fire kiddos and lets leave out mark on the world.





by the fucking way, NICE IMAGINATION YOU GOT THERE, YOU STEAL THAT TOO? bye peace out mother fuckers