The Purdy's
first day of preschool, first day of high school, moving day
Ash’s Pov
This has a trigger warning. Its in the second paragraph. its brief.
BEEP BEEP BEEP. What is that? I thought to my self. Opening my eyes, I saw my alarm clock going crazy next to me. Sighing, I got out of bed and stretched. It wasn’t until I walked did I feel the events of last night hit me. LA and the kids were with Jinxx and Sammi; I relapsed after 7 years of being clean and cried my self to sleep. Stepping into the bathroom, I took a 10-minute shower. The water burned my cuts but it was almost soothing. The pain I felt inside was worse then the stinging of the water hitting my leg. Stepping out, I wrapped a towel around me and got dressed. I chose black skinny jeans, a black tank top and a white/black plaid long sleeved shirt. Rolling the sleeves up, I then located my boots and put them on. It was 6:30.Drying my hair, I quickly straightened it and then went to make breakfast. I put bread in the toaster and then did my eyeliner. When I finished I went to brush my teeth. As I stood in the bathroom, my eye caught the silver glint of something. Moving a towel, I saw that it was a razor blade. Calm on Ash, you can do this. Fight it. You don’t need it and you know it.
Half of me tried to fight it while the bigger half tried to destroy the smaller have and just give in. give in you stupid worthless waste of space. Rang through my mind. I couldn’t let the monster wins. You know you want to, so just do it. The thought of how it would feel went through my mind. Fight it ash fight it. Don’t do it. I fought as hard as I could and lost. Blade in hand I held it tightly. Throw it away. It’s not worth it. Don’t do it! Rang through my mind. As I went to throw it away, a trail of blood was left in my hand. The slight stinging felt good. Just do it already! A voice called out. Pulling my jeans down, I found a spot on my leg and said, “shut up. Just shut up okay. Are you happy now? Are you? You win.” And then did it. Blood seeped out and pooled in the cuts.
Wiping it away and then cleaning the cuts, I then bandaged it and pulled my jeans back up. As I went to walk, I got dizzy and leaned on the wal. Waiting a minute, I walked a few more steps. I fell to the ground. Pulling out my phone, it said it was 6:59 and then entered a world of darkness. When I regained consciousness, it was 7:17. Crap. Getting up, my vision went Hazy but I fought my way through it. Texting LA, I sent her, “I’m on my way. Be ready.” And then grabbed my keys and then left in the equinox. I pulled up to Jinxx’s house around 7:30. Getting out, I knocked on the door. I was met by LA, Jinxx and Andy. LA wore an I HATE BVB shirt, galaxy print leggings and her boots. “How could you hate me LA?” she laughed and said, “it could be very easy but I don’t. I hate all of you not just you.” and then winked. Clutching my chest dramatically I said, “I am truly hurt. Your going to find a new ride to school.” She charged at me and hugged me. Smiling she said, “I love you more than Andy loves to Scream and that’s a lot!” I hugged her back and said, “I love you all more then I love my basses and that’s a lot.”
Jinxx giggled and said, “I love you all.” Releasing LA, I picked Jinxx up and said, “I love you to Little Mystic.” She giggled. “Are we all ready?” “Yep.” They all called out. Andy who was wearing an AC/DC shirt and black skinny jeans with his all black converse called out, “I love you Aunt Sam and Momma Jinxx. I’ll see you later.” flung a backpack over his shoulder and then got in the car. Jinxx and LA followed him. The stinging in my leg worsened as I walked. Limping ever so slightly, Andy must’ve caught it because when I got in the car, he looked at my leg as discretely as he could. I pretended not to notice. We dropped Jinxx of first. I got out and then walked her to the class and LA took a picture of us before she went into the room. “Its heart breaking isn’t it?” she asked. “What?” I said, “She’s growing up so fast. Pretty soon she will graduate from collage and then have her own family. Its to much.” She said dramatically and faked cried. “Don’t make me any older than I already am okay? I’m only 29. Don’t talk like that miss. It scares me a bit.” she punched me in the shoulder and then got back into the backs seat.
Again I noticed Andy looking down at my leg. When we pulled up to the high school, LA said, “Alright my family, I shall learn me an education and then bring honor and pride to our family name! Love you dad!” and then got out of the car and walked to her first class. Andy turned to me and said, “How are you?” “I’m okay. Hanging in there. Have a good day though. Don’t get into too much trouble and have fun. Its not every day you go back to high school. Watch out for LA. There must have been a reason she wanted you to go to school with her.” he sighed and said, “if you need to talk, I’m here. Don’t forget that. I’m always gonna be here for you when your ready to talk. I will. Thanks. Love you dad.” He winked at the last part. I flipped him off and said, “well MR. Purdy, don’t disgrace the family name now by being late and not learning! Off you go!” he got out and said, “bye dad. Love you!” I waved bye as he walked away. Pulling away from the curb, I thought about what I needed to do today. Calling Jinxx I asked him, “can you watch Kellin and Eve for a bit while I pack up some stuff an move it?” “Sure. Do you need any help though?” “Nah I think I got it. I’m starting with the small stuff first.” he said okay and then hung up.
Driving back to the apartment, I couldn’t but help think what Andy thought when he looked at my leg occasionally. One of two things he had to have thought: 1) he relapsed 2) his leg is asleep. Lets hope he thought the second but he probably thought the first. Damn it Ash! You can’t be so stupid! Getting back to the apartment, I thought about which of the three rooms would I start with. How about the music room? Sounds easy. I moved the amps to the living room along with the guitars. I took the amps out to the car. Removing the car seats, I flattened the back seat and then pushed them in before loading some other stuff into the car. Once I had it filled with most of the stuff from the music room, I locked the apartment and then drove over to the new house. Once I got there, I unloaded the stuff and put it in the garage and then went back to the apartment. Putting the rest of the stuff from the music room in the car, I then packed up some of the guest room stuff like the sheets and pillows along with the small furniture. Driving back to the house I put all of that stuff in the garage again and then went back home after stopping and buying boxes.
I then decided on the kitchen. Loading everything I could into all of the boxes I had, the kitchen was almost empty when the car was full. I decided on loading the kitchen stuff into the actual kitchen instead of leaving it in the garage. Once everything had a place, I went through the rooms on the bottom floor. I picked the last room on the first floor to be the music room since it was a fair size. I used the few power tools I owned to put up some things to hang the guitars from the walls and then put them up. I loved the orange/red color of the walls in here though. The room next door was yellow and I decided it would be the game room. The other room would be the guest room. I put the small furniture inside and then looked around, everything was pretty much in its place now. I just needed to move the bigger furniture from my apartment and get the furniture for the kiddos rooms. I stuck a sticky note to each door to say what room it was. Going home, I loaded most of the living room into the car and then drove back over and set it up. The couch was up against the wall and the coffee table was next to it and the TV would go on the wall across from it. So the entry hall went three ways. It went to the left which had the living room and then that had a hallway to the three rooms and. If you went straight it would go upstairs and if you went right it would be the kitchen and dinning room. So the living room was like its own room with a door into it and a hallway to more rooms. I put the Sticky note on the wall on where the TV and couch would go.
Once my apartment was empty except for my bed and the large furniture, I stopped for lunch. It was now 12:50. I texted Jinxx saying, “most of my apartment is empty now. I need a big truck for few last things and then I need to buy the kids furniture.” He replied, “Sammi said she’d help you. How about she goes to the new house and you drive your camaro over so it’s in the garage now?” I replied good idea and then waited for her at the new house. Once she got there we went to Ikea, which was about 20 minutes away. We picked out a queen-sized bed for LA, twin for Jinxx and a crib for Eve and a Crib for Kellin. Each bed was white. The rug we chose for LA’s room was grey; Jinxx had Stripes that were close to the color of her room. Eve had Dark purple and Kellin had brown. We also picked out mattresses and then bedside tables and a desk for LA. I also made sure to get a rug for the entry hall, which was grey. And then a table for the entry hall. Sammi found a large bowl and said, “wallet bowl! Those ways Andy cant complain!” I laughed and said, “and LA can swipe ten bucks without him noticing right away!” she laughed and said, “True that.”
When we finished, Sammi called Jinxx to have him pick up a you-haul truck and pick her up with the stuff while I went to pick the kids up.
Picking Andy and LA up first they told me about their day. They shared the Music class together and Andy decided to learn the Violin. Apparently not very many people knew he was famous so he got through the day with out any one figuring it out. He said about only five people knew who he was and they were the group he and LA hung out with. No one bothered her because he was around her. He also said he choose to hide the fact that he could sing because he didn’t want to intimidate anyone that’s why he picked the violin. He was apparently good at it too according to LA. We picked Jinxx up and she told all about her day. She loved school and made a friend with a girl named Miranda. I drove us to CC’s house after I asked if I could drop them off to finish the new house off and he agreed. LA and CC made fun of Andy for having homework. They all sat down to do the homework as I was leaving. Once I got to the new apartment, Jinxx and me began to build the new bedding and furniture. Sammi called Jake who then came to help us. We started with Kellin’s room. Once we finished the furniture, Sammi then came in and decorated. Powering through Eve’s room, we took a break before doing Jinxx’s room and then LA’s. When we finished, Sammi put a decoration on the door with each kid’s name on it.
The three of us drove to the apartment to load the last of the furniture to the truck while Sammi applied her finishing touches to the kid’s room and to the other rooms down stairs. We put my bed up stairs for me to take care of and then put the couch and all of the living room stuff in the living room. Sammi then took Jinxx to the store to buy a nice kitchen table for us with my credit card. They came back and we set it up. Once we were done, the whole house was looking lived in. once everything was set up and I brought over the other car, we took a picture and sent it to every one who helped us. The house looked amazing. I hung up some pictures on the walls of me and the band and left places for me and the kids to put up more pictures. Once everything was done the guys went home. I cleaned up the house before returning to the apartment. It was six o’clock. “How’s it going?” I texted LA. She replied, “good. We’re watching a movie. Its not batman. CC and me tied Andy to a chair and are forcing him to watch Iron man.” I burst out laughing and said, “OMG that’s awesome!” she sent me a picture. Like she said he was tied down. He was sitting in a rolling chair with belts strapping him down by his waist, chest, arms and torso with a bandanna in his mouth so he couldn’t complain. Thinking about it I asked Sammi who watched the kids while we were over here and she said Juliet was for a while and now its them. I thanked her and then got back to cleaning.
I mopped the floors, and then wiped the bathroom down and the kitchen. I came across the same razor blade from this morning. It called out to me with its sweet song, almost like a siren does to its victims. Rolling my jeans down, I looked at the cuts from this morning. They were crusted over with blood and looked gross. Putting the blade in the back of my phone case, I rewrapped my leg and then cleaned up the mess. As I was cleaning under the sink, I found a bottle of anti depressants. It didn’t expire for another six months and there were at least 20 pills left. Popping a few into my mouth, I took a sip of water from the kitchen sink and then downed them.
Once I finished cleaning I remembered that I forgot about dinner. Oh well. I got in the car and then drove to Jinxx’s. I thanked Sammi and Jinxx at least a million times before carrying a sleeping Eve and Kellin to the car. On the way to CC’s I texted LA saying I was on my way. Once I got there, I knocked on the door and waited for CC to open the door. When he didn’t, I sent him a text saying, “Yo pug farm owner, open the door please.” a moment later he opened the door and led me to the living room where LA sat on the floor with a still tied up Andy was. he mumbled help me and LA slapped him.
LA’s POV
School went okay today. None of those mean girls bothered me since Andy was around. People still talked but it wasn’t as horrible when he was around. Since there were literally only 7 people including Andy and I who knew who he was, no one bothered him. The 5 people who knew who he was were cool with him. To everyone’s knowledge, he was 18 and looked 23. If people knew he was 23, they would probably try and get him to buy them cigarettes and beer or at least that’s what Brandon told me. Dad was acting a bit strange this morning and when he picked us up he was still weird. I asked Andy about it and he said it was probably nothing. I wanted to believe him but I knew he didn’t even believe that. After school we went to Uncle CC’s. I did all of my homework and watched Andy struggle a little bit. It was sad but also funny. The only thing he struggled with was the violin notes and sheet music. It was different from what he was used to. When I suggested he should ask Jinxx for help he screamed out, “I am the prophet, I will learn this myself.” And then began to work harder. About an hour later he learned it and was doing okay. Oh I think I failed to mention the teacher lent him a violin until he could bring his own.
At first he was horrible and not even headphones could save you but once he figured out what he was doing he was actually okay at it. He’s definitely no Jinxx but he could get there some day. That reminded me of our bet we made in hot topic. When I told him about it he said we would do it when the whole band was together. CC made tacos and then we decided to watch a movie. I told CC to put in iron man and he did. Andy began to complain so CC snuck away to get some belts from his room while I distracted Andy. Once he was distracted, CC picked him up and put him in a chair and then tied him to it. once he was tied down I said, “stop complaining. First of all its annoying and second of all, Iron man is similar to Batman and don’t you dare say its not true. okay so their both rich. They BOTH made their suits. Same concept different outputs. So shut up. Super man sucks. We can agree on that but shut it or I will silence you.”
He began to argue back so I took a bandanna from CC and stuffed it in his mouth. We watched the rest of the movie in silence. When it was over, Dad showed up and came to get us. He was acting stranger than this morning and was quieter then I’ve ever known him to be. Maybe he’s just tired, I told my self. He probably packed up everything today and made him self tired. Andy got in the back seat and held Kellin’s car seat in his lap and I sat up front with dad. He was still really quiet. Half way to the house, Andy said, “Ash, how about I drive?” he pulled over and then got into the back seat and traded places with Andy. They said something to each other before getting back into the car. I noticed the gates and realized we were at the new house. Pulling into the garage, I got out and took Kellin from dad. Andy shut the garage door and then took Jinxx and Eve into his arms. Dad sat there a little dazed before getting out of the car. Walking into the house, I noticed that it was fully furnished and decorated. So this is what dad did all day. It looked beautiful.
Walking through the kitchen and up the stairs I looked for the door that read Kellin. Opening the door, I gasped. The room was beautiful. The walls were a light and dark blue and had brown as the accent color. I changed his diaper before putting him in his new crib and pulled his blanket up around him. Andy was at the foot of the stairs with Jinxx in his arms. I took Eve from him and then went back up with him still behind me. Opening the door I looked around her room. It was a really pretty light purple and had white as an accent color. It was awesome. Her crib was against one wall and had a rug on the floor and had toys in the corner of the room. Putting her down, I covered her and then looked in Jinxx’s room. The walls were a bright neon color and it looked awesome. It showed of her bright and cheerful personality. Andy smiled as he tucked her into bed. I left and went to my room, which was the furthest in the hallway. Opening my door, my breath was taken away. The walls were a dark purple, I had pictures of LA and of other popular cities on the walls, and my bed was a queen and had a galaxy print blanket. It was spectacular. I opened the closet and saw all of my clothes in there along with all of my shoes. My closet was a huge and even had a mirror. I loved it.
Going down stairs I saw dad sitting at the foot of the stairs. Odd. I sat down next to him and he barely noticed me. Andy came down a few moments later and saw what I was seeing. He wandered to the kitchen and returned with a wet towel and then touched dad’s face with it. When he didn’t respond, he said, “Andy, go to bed. I’ll take care of this. Night sis. Love you.” I nodded and replied, “Love you brother.” and then ran up the stairs to my room and softly closed the door. I was scared. What’s wrong with dad?
Thanks! (:
2/23/15