Andrew Biersack’s Point of View

We were all standing around my locker because I had to grab some books. I had just shut the door and was turning around to face the others when I heard a quiet voice.
“Hi Jakey” I furrowed my brows because I thought that I was wrong with my assumption but when I turned around fully I saw that I was right. Ashley Purdy just talked to someone of our group. Particularly, he talked to Jake; and he called him Jakey. Well, if that wasn’t wei-
“Hey Outlaw!” Jake exclaimed happily, as if Ashley talking to him and calling him strange nicknames was totally normal.
“How are you?” He asked Ashley who smiled a little. I was beyond confused and didn’t know what to make of that.
“Better, thanks. And you?” Ashley kept his eyes to the ground. One could notice that he was uncomfortable, but Jake answered in the same happy voice as before.
“That’s good to hear. I’m fine; actually my new guitar will arrive this afternoon”
“Wow, that’s pretty cool” Ashley replied, finally looking at Jake with a small smile. “Well, I better get going. See you later” and with that he turned around, not looking at me or the other guys and started walking to our history class. My mind raced, trying to process what I had just witnessed. First of all, Ashley talked. Well, Ashley talked to Jake. Ashley even gave him a nickname. Jakey. And Jake had called him Outlaw. What the actual fuck was going on in here?
“What the actual fuck was that?” I voiced my most urgent thought. That just had to get out.
“What was what?” Jake said, as if nothing happened. Jinxx and CC were also staring at him with open mouths.
“You and Ashley! What the fuck, man?” I didn’t care whether this made sense or not. I was shocked.
“Well, I brought him home yesterday.” Jake replied. Too bad this explanation didn’t satisfy me at all.
“And then?” I inquired.
“We talked.” Damn, did I have to really question him now?
“About what? Jake, come on! You guys have weird names for each other and Ashley just talked! T – A – L – K – E – D! He never talks! That’s Ashley fuckin’ Purdy we’re talking about!” I raised my hands in confusion, my voice rising a bit. People looked at us but I just gave them a death glare. That was enough to make them leave.
“Well, just because he doesn’t talk to you don’t mean that he doesn’t talk at all! We just talked a bit about our pasts and problems and interests and just stuff, ok?! He clearly needed someone to talk to and I happened to be there! I also happen to be the only one who’s not trying to annoy the living shit out of him!” Wow. Jake never talked much. Weird things were happening here. But I had to admit that he had a point. I knew I was annoying Ashley. Maybe I should start over again somehow? It bugged me that he apparently confided in Jake. There was this weird feeling in my stomach when I thought about how they called each other Jakey and Outlaw… and the smile on his face when he was talking to Jake… He looked so cute when he smiled…
“Andy?” Jinxx waved his hand in front of my face. Damn, I must have zoned out.
“Sorry, I zoned out” Only then did I notice that Jake and CC already left.
“We should probably go to history…” Jinxx trailed off, turned around and started into the direction of the classroom. I shook my head and followed him. Another two hours next to Ashley without him answering me. Dammit.

The two hours went by incredibly slowly. I tried to think of a way to get Ashley to somehow talk to me afterwards, but I just had a feeling that wouldn’t be happening. He never talked to me after class, I’d tried every day for the past weeks but he would just roll his eyes at me and leave. I contemplated to ask him how he was, since he was pretty beaten up yesterday. But then again he probably saw me standing next to Jake this morning and would just think of it as another try to get on his nerves.
I sighed and pushed a hand through my thick black lion’s mane. Dammit.
“Is there something you would like to tell us, Mr. Biersack?” Our teacher said as he turned around and looked at me expectantly. Did I say that out loud? Damn.
“No, Sir. Guess that just slipped.” I said in a pathetic attempt to distract him from the fact that I just swore in class.
“I don’t wanna hear any swear words in my class, Andrew. Is that understood?”
“Yes, Sir.” I said sheepishly and nodded. The rest of the class, except Ashley and Jinxx, sniggered, so I kept my head down low. Not my day I decided. From the corner of my eyes I looked at Ashley. His gaze was towards me and his eyes showed pity. It looked like he was thinking about something really hard, though. I sighed again and fixed my stare on my table and the little notebook that lay on it. I took up my pen and tipped it against my chin gently, thinking.

You kissed the lips of evil but two months is all the same. I begged for the man’s approval. Like all the rest we’ll die in vain. I’m sitting down with my thoughts alone now.

Looking at my work, I nodded inwardly. This didn’t sound too bad, though I knew I had to still change it a bit to make it fit into a song. I was sure that there was something dark to Ashley’s past, he sure as hell had been bullied before. The evil that men do I thought sadly. He hadn’t been talking at all the past month he’d been here, even though I tried more than once – all in vain. So I was left alone with my thoughts about him. I started to slightly edit my little part of text, as a melody came to my mind. A lovesick melody I thought, before scribbling those three words down on the last page of my notebook, where I kept little snippets and phrases that could possibly make it into a song sometime. I needed a proper band practice again. My creativity wanted out.
I looked up and saw that the history teacher – what’s his name again? – stood with his back to the class and wrote something on the board. Quickly, I pulled out my phone and sent a text to the guys.

Rehearsal today at 4? Jake, bring your new guitar if you can’t put it down, but we need to rehearse.

I saw Jinxx nod in my direction and CC and Jake also agreed. Ashley furrowed his eyebrows. Weird. He always stared at his table but today he kept looking at me, or at least in my direction. What was wrong with that boy? Maybe, just maybe, I stood a chance today. The bell rung and thus announced the end of this horrible and boring class. I looked over at Ash and bit my lower lip, a battle raging in my mind about whether I should ask him or not. I’d been rejected by him before, so it wouldn’t be a big deal, but then again he talked to Jake and that really annoyed me. I wanted to be the one he trusted with his problems and secrets. I wanted to be his best friend and his lover, his everything…
“Are you ok?” a quiet voice said from directly in front of me. I snapped out of it and looked at the person. It was Ashley. What. The. Fuck?
“Yeah sure, just zoned out” I answered and felt myself blush. Damn. Ashley chuckled a bit and I immediately smiled a little.
“Ok, you just stood there and stared at me, that was kinda creepy…” he trailed off and went to leave.
“Sorry” I muttered. Ashley turned around and looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
“No problem, just thought I’d ask.”
“About everything…” Was I really doing this? The answer was: Yes. I really apologized for my annoying behavior.
“Umm… ok?” Ashley said. He looked confused and also a bit shocked.
“Look, I now I’m an annoying idiot most of the time, but I really mean no harm. Can’t we just… like… start over again? From the very beginning?” I asked and waited for his answer. He blinked a few times, as if he tried to comprehend what I just said.
“I know you don’t want any friends” I said quickly, in case he thought I tried to befriend him again. “I just thought that you might forget about the annoying me somehow…” I wasn’t even sure myself what I was rambling about. Ashley nodded slowly, studying my expression.
“Hi, I’m Ashley” he said and extended his hand for me to grab it. I blinked, looking from his hand to his face a few times. Finally, I took it. There was some kind of electricity when I did. His hand was warm and his fingers were a bit rough, as if he played guitar.
“Hey, I’m Andy.” I said in a small voice. Ashley smiled a bit, not letting go of my hand. It felt so right to hold is hand in mine.
“Andy, we should get…” I heard Jinxx voice and Ashley immediately let go of me, though his gaze was never leaving my face.
“Oh, never mind.” Jinxx said, seeing that he interrupted something here. Well, he didn’t just interrupt something. He interrupted my moment with Ashley. I really started to think that I could be falling in love with him, even though I didn’t know much about him. Just a fuck my mind reminded me. I sighed and grabbed my back before I turned to leave. Just fucking ask him Biersack.
I stopped in my tracks, facing him again, a shy smile on my lips.
“I don’t mean to be annoying or pushy, but… shall we watch a movie or two tonight together?” I bit my lower lip again, waiting for his rejection. He didn’t answer right away, so I assumed I just went too far – again.
“Never mind; that was just a thought. Damn, I just can’t keep my fucking mouth shut.” I mumbled and turned around again in an attempt to finally leave the classroom.
“Around eightish at mine?” Ashley asked, but I didn’t really listen, I was too caught up with being annoyed of myself.
“Andy?” Ashley asked, trying to get my attention.
“Huh?” I made. Oh awesome, he’d probably think I was retarded or something. That was smart, Biersack, really smart I thought to myself.
“I asked whether around eightish at mine is ok?” I turned around and looked at him, blinking a few times. He couldn’t mean… or could he? Did he mean…?
“Um, sure.” I said and furrowed my eyebrows. He wanted to have a movie night with me! I would need to dress up and look nice and try to keep my mouth shut for once. I should just convince him to watch more Batman with me, then I wouldn’t say things that I could regret later on. But maybe he was annoyed by my Batman obsession? Then this would only push him away... maybe I should tell him to just play his favorite movie? But this could come across pushy, like I wanted to stalk him and his favorite things…
“Andy?”
“Hm?” I couldn’t form a coherent sentence around him. I looked into his chocolate eyes and nearly zoned out again.
“Are you sure you’re ok? You seem to zone out a lot?” Ashley sounded really worried but I just smiled and nodded.
“Yep, I’m perfectly fine! See you later!” I exclaimed and made my way out of the classroom. Ashley talked to me, he seemed to care and he wanted to hang out with me! I felt like the happiest guy alive! I let out a girly giggle before making my way to my next class.


Ashley Purdy’s Point of View

I couldn’t believe that I agreed to watch movies with Andy Biersack. It seemed like talking to Jake really triggered something in me. I thought about dinner while making my way to English. Andy would probably want to eat something, which meant that I needed to get some groceries. But first of all I needed to think of something to cook. We ordered pizza too often already. I felt like making an effort for once. I always got this weird feeling in my stomach when thinking about Andy. This wasn’t good. I knew that I couldn’t help falling in love with him, but it really was no good. He probably would laugh at me, hate me, make fun of me. I didn’t even know whether he was into guys. I didn’t think so. He was probably as straight as a fucking ruler.
I sat down next to Jake, still somewhere in the depths of my thoughts.
“Hey Outlaw” Jake said and smiled at me.
“Hi Jakey” I said back and returned the smile as good as possible. It was safe to say that I failed miserably. Damn thoughts.
“What’s up?” Jake asked. He seemed concerned and I immediately felt bad. All my life I gave people reasons to be concerned. But I was misery and misery just loved company. That didn’t mean I felt good about it though.
“I just agreed to have a movie night with Andy. I seriously don’t know what got into me” I mumbled and put my head on the table. I was so stupid. Why did I say yes? And that even after he kind of took it back…
“Hey that’s good! I know Andy can be annoying but he is actually fun to hang out with” Jake said and smiled at me again. I just shook my head and put my face in my hands, groaning slightly. I would just have to wait and see how that would turn out eventually…

Notes

Another chapter :) It's getting interesting, isn't it? A tiny bit of Andley in here ;) So, who wants a movie night with our two lovebirds (who don't really wanna admit that they're in love!)? I sure as hell do! I hope you like this so far, please leave a comment or rate or subscribe or recommend or share or whatever is possible :D I'd love you forever <3

xoxo Rebellious Redamancy

PS: Anyone noticed the lyrics Andy's writing? :D :D :D