Andy Biersack’s Point of View

There were still ten minutes left until first period started and the guys and I, minus Ashley, were standing in front of my locker. I had just grabbed my history book and turned around to look at them.
“So…” I awkwardly started, trailing off. What would they think of me? Jake surely would hate me as he thought that I would only want Ash for fun, which was true in a way. But what about Jinxx and CC? I had no clue. CC would just be beyond happy probably, but Jinxx was unreadable.
“So?” Jinxx inquired, raising an eye brow at me. I coughed, still hesitating. Just do it Biersack my mind urged and I gave in.
“Ash and me are dating” I said and looked into each of their faces. Jinxx kept this unreadable expression and Jake looked beyond pissed.
“Yay! Wow, Andy this is so great!” CC cheered and I could see the genuine happiness in his eyes. He probably thought I would finally settle down from my one night stands. How wrong he was.
“Thanks, man. We just don’t wanna go official in school and public and stuff. So it’s just you and us knowing.” I told them, giving my friends a serious look. They all nodded.
“We respect that.” Jinxx said with a small smile. I smiled back.
“Thank you.” So actually everyone reacted like I thought they would. Jake hadn’t uttered a word yet, but he looked like he would explode in fury.
“Hey” A shy but happy voice said from behind me. I turned around to smile at my boyfriend.
“Hi Ash! How are you?” I asked, engulfing him in a hug, he awkwardly returned. He kept on smiling though.
“Quite good, and you?” He asked back and his chocolate brown eyes connected with mine. They shone with happiness.
“Awesome as always” I winked. Just in that moment the bell rang, signaling that it was time to go to class. Jake threw me a look that clearly told me that we would talk later before hugging Ashley and leaving for class. I bit my lip for a short moment, but then just shrugged and went to history with Jinxx and Ashley by my side.

Lessons passed fast that day and soon we found ourselves sitting at our lunch table, me next to Ash. On his other side sat CC. Jinxx and Jake sat opposite of us, the latter still shooting daggers at me. I gave him a questioning look, hoping to get some answers soon.
“Andy, can I talk to you for a minute?” Jake finally asked through gritted teeth. I raised an eye brow at him. Honestly, I was comfortable right now. My hand was resting on Ash’s thigh, stroking it softly and he was completely relaxed and discussed with CC whatever they were just discussing. I sighed though.
“Yeah, sure.” I said and got up, earning a pout from Ashley. He just looked too adorable and I just wanted to sit down next to him again. Nevertheless, I didn’t. I flashed him a smile, told him I’d be back in no time and followed Jake to the wall surrounding the school grounds. At first he just stood there and stared at me, the furious look never leaving his eyes.
“What is it Jake? You are looking at me like that since I told you guys that we’re finally dating.” I asked right away, catching him a bit off guard. He quickly composed himself though.
“I don’t approve of this.” He just said. I raised my eye brows, looking at him as if I didn’t hear right.
“You don’t approve? Ex-fucking-cuse me, Jake! This is our decision and you were the one to get the two of us to talk! Ash told me that you said to him that I’m not that bad and stuff and that it was your judgment that made him trust me like he does now! Why the fuck don’t you approve all of a sudden?!” I was furious and confused. Why wouldn’t he want us together? Was he secretly gay? Did he want Ash all for himself?
“I wanted him to become friends with us, so he wouldn’t be alone anymore. I thought he’d fit in. I didn’t really think he would jump into a relationship with you though! Andy, if you’re just gonna fuck and dump him, I swear to God, I’m gonna kill you in the most crucial way I can come up with!” He threatened me, anger and worry clearly visible on his face. I swallowed. That was my plan, I would be sticking to it. I knew I had serious feelings for Ashley, but I just pushed them to the back of my mind. I wouldn’t get too attached to him. I’ve never gotten attached to anyone and I wouldn’t start with that bullshit now. There was no way I would let Jake know that though.
“Of course not! You should know me better than that! We’re best friends after all!” I tried to argue. I saw that it did little to convince him.
“Yes, Andy. I know you. And that is exactly why I worry about Ash. You’re normally into one night stands. You just fuck guys and then leave them. I know Ashley, too, though. He’s been through too much shit in the last years, he doesn’t need that anymore.” Jake said, glaring at me.
“I won’t hurt him.” I promised.
“You better not.” Jake said and left, making his way back to our table. I sighed and followed him, taking my place next to Ashley again. I grabbed his hand under the table and gave it a squeeze. I needed him close right now but I knew I had to let him go to his classes in a few minutes.
“Are you ok?” He whispered and I simply nodded, giving him a small smile. I was tempted to press my lips on his cheek but then he would’ve freaked out on me. He didn’t want the school to know, even though everyone was assuming that he was gay. But he did get beaten up enough. That would change though. He would be hanging with us now, what meant that he wouldn’t be alone anymore. He had friends. We were a bunch of idiots that loved to rebel, but as friends we were perfect. We’d never let each other down.


Ashley Purdy’s Point of View

After lunch Jake had asked me whether it was ok if we hung out in the afternoon. Seeing as Andy didn’t have any time today, I agreed to meet up at mine. I was curious about what he had to say, he looked rather serious. I didn’t fail to notice the death glares he gave Andy. I just couldn’t tell why. Jake was a friend, a very good one, but would he be jealous of Andy? That was ridiculous but I would find out this afternoon what was going on in that head of his.

School was over and I found myself walking home with Andy, holding hands like we always did. Even though I didn’t want to go public, this was something I didn’t mind at all, maybe because we did it before and I was just used to it. It felt nice and I wasn’t going to let him go.
“Hey Andy?” I asked, thinking about lunch. I really wanted to know what Jake told him that made him hold my hand during the last few minutes of break.
“Yeah?”
“What did Jake say to you? You seemed so… I don’t know… clingy? Yeah. Not that I mind though.” I said, trying to explain my point without sounding like a complete idiot. Mission failed.
“Oh, he was just being overprotective” Andy sighed, running the hand that wasn’t holding mine through his hair. He looked deep in thought and I bit my lip. He obviously didn’t want to talk about it, so I let the topic fall. Maybe Jake would tell me.
We kept on walking in a kind of awkward silence after that and I regretted asking. His grip on my hand had loosened, making me want to grip tighter but I didn’t. Maybe I was too clingy? Too nosy? It actually wasn’t any of my business what the two of them talked about, it probably wasn’t about me anyway. I bit my bottom lip, totally caught up in my thoughts and thus I was startled when Andy pulled me to a halt, an amused smile on his face. I looked at him confused, before I realized that we were indeed already standing in front of my apartment complex.
“Do you have somewhere to be?” He asked with a chuckle and I shook my head.
“Nope, lost in my thoughts, sorry.” I said and grinned back at him.
“Well, I’ll see you tomorrow!” Andy said and turned around to walk across the street. I grabbed his wrist and turned him around though. He looked confused but his features softened when I pressed a kiss to his cheek.
“See you tomorrow” I said, smiling at him. Letting go of him, I turned around and let myself in, walking into my flat.
As soon as I walked in, I dropped my keys on a little table next to the door. Reaching my bedroom, I changed into more comfortable clothes, ruffling through my hair a bit, to get rid of some of the hairspray. Jake and me would probably end up watching a movie or something, there really was no reason to look good. I went into the kitchen to make some pasta for me, I really was starving after school.

Time flew by and about an hour later the doorbell rang, signaling that Jake was there. I went to open the door and smiled at him.
“Hey Jakey!” I beamed and hugged him.
“Hi Ashley” He replied in a serious voice. I gave him a strange look and led him inside. We went into the living room and sat down on the couch.
“I need to tell you something. This is for your own good and I don’t want you to freak out, ok?” Jake said and I just nodded. What the fuck was going on? This didn’t sound good at all.
“Go on” I urged, leaning back into the cushions.
“It’s about Andy” he started. I nodded again, letting him know that I was listening. “Well, we’re best friends, so I know him pretty well. Andy isn’t the relationship kind of guy. He doesn’t like to be attached to people. He’s totally into one night stands.” Jake interrupted himself to take in my reaction. I knew my face didn’t give anything away, but deep down inside I was confused as fuck.
“Listen, Ash. I don’t want you to get hurt. You better stop this now, before Andy breaks your heart. He’s never up to anything good with guys.” Jake explained. Did he just tell me to break up with Andy? Why would he do that?
“What the fuck, Jake? Weren’t you the one that told me to go for it?” I asked angrily. What was his fucking problem here? Maybe he knows that Andy is just using you, Purdy.
“Yeah, I know. But I just don’t have a good feeling with this.”
“You think I don’t deserve this, right?” I couldn’t contain my anger. I just couldn’t.
“No! No, Ashley! That’s not it, I swear! You deserve every ounce of love in the world!” He exclaimed, obviously taken aback by my excuse.
“Then why can’t you just be happy for me?” I asked, getting tired of this argument.
“I am, but-“
“But what, Jake? Is it because you are too chicken to do anything about your little problem with Jinxx? Is this about you? Because you want what you can’t have? I’ll tell you something, Jake. Love isn’t always fair.” I knew I shouldn’t have mentioned this, but I was just so angry. Jake looked at me in shock. Obviously he couldn’t anticipate this. I was sick and tired of his weird hints and his “warnings” about Andy.
“If you don’t have anything good to say, I want you to leave. Leave my flat, and while you’re at it leave me the fuck alone.” I growled, looking him dead in the eyes. They showed anger and sadness, disappointment too. He stood up and walked out of the flat, not turning back once.
See what you did Ashley? My mind snarled. You disappointed your only friend and told him to leave. This will backfire for sure. You will be alone again. Andy will leave you too, for treating his best friend like shit. Well done.

I sat there and let the tears flow down my cheeks. What had I down? I was an idiot. I shouldn’t have reacted like that. What the fuck was wrong with me? Jake just wanted to help. Maybe. I couldn’t know for sure of course. My thoughts wandered to Andy and even more tears spilled out of my eyes. He surely would break up with me now. We didn’t even last three days. Brilliant. That was why I hated myself. I always fucked up. No exception here.
My phone vibrated in my pocket, pulling me away from the thoughts clouding my mind. It was Andy.

Hey can I come over? Joe cancelled :*

Well, I should tell him before Jake did. I sighed and told him yes, staying where I was. I didn’t even try to hide the fact that I had been crying. You’re pathetic. The doorbell rang for the second time today. I got up to let Andy in, pushing the button for the door opener and opened the wooden door that led to my flat. I leant against the frame, watching Andy as he entered the building. He had a smile on his face, but it disappeared as soon as he saw me.
“Ash, are you crying?” His concerned voice asked, as he jogged over to me. I hadn’t even noticed that the tears started falling again.
“Obviously” I whispered and went inside. I didn’t hug or kiss. There was no way I wanted to feel his touch just before he’d break up with me.
“Babe, talk to me. What happened?” I heard him ask as I sat down on my couch. He took the place next to me and reached for my hands but I pulled away. He frowned at my action.
“I fucked up” I whispered. I just knew he wouldn’t stay with me when I fought with Jake like that. Andy’s eyebrows furrowed and a confused looked settled in his eyes.
“I’m sure you didn’t. What happened?” He asked calmly, trying to grab my hands once more but once again I pulled away.
“I fought with Jake…” I trailed off, tears falling constantly down my face. Andy chuckled. He fucking chuckled. I threw him a confused look.
“Well, we all do at one point or another. Jake is not exactly easy” Andy said, a smile on his face. He didn’t know why though. He didn’t know what I said.
“You wanna talk about it?” Andy offered. I looked at him and took the chance. Better he learned it from me than from Jake. I nodded and took a deep breath. Then I told him what Jake said about him and how he never got into relationships with anyone. How I accused Jake that he didn’t think I’d deserved to be happy. I didn’t tell Andy what I knew about his feelings about Jinxx of course. Jake told me that the guys didn’t even know that he was gay and I promised not to tell. I always kept my promises. Instead I told him that I kind of accused Jake that he was just jealous. That wasn’t too far from the truth.
“I told him to leave me the fuck alone” I whispered when I was at the end of my story. “I didn’t even mean half of it, I was just so angry at him…”
Andy took my hands in his and this time I wasn’t pulling away. I had been crying the whole time and I was just too weak to fight him now.
“Ash-“
“I totally understand if you want to break up” I blurted out, not looking into his eyes. I couldn’t see anything anyway because the tears never stopped.
“Baby, I won’t break up. What are you talking about? Just because Jake is acting like a complete asshole?” Andy said, opening his mouth once more to continue his little rant but I interrupted him.
“But I’m the asshole here!” I cried out. Why was he still here?
“No. No, Ashley, you’re not. Remember how I told you that Jake was overprotective at lunch? He was and still is. He just wants to make sure you’re alright, because he obviously knows things about you that I don’t, and that’s ok. It’s one thing to be protective over a friend but accusing your best friend to just fuck and leave goes too far.” Andy said, his own anger at Jake showing clearly on his face. “This is not your fault, Ash.”
I looked at him confused. I didn’t even get half of what he was saying, but at least the tears had stopped. Andy sighed and let go of one of my hands, to push one his through his hair.
“Look, Jake told me he’d kill me if I hurt you. I accept that, because I really don’t want to hurt you. I won’t, I promise. But he said that because he thinks I’m just gonna fuck you and then leave. I didn’t get how he could think so low of me.” Andy explained. I nodded my head in understanding. There was a question I needed to ask though.
“He said you only ever have one night stands.” I said. Andy sighed.
“Yeah, that was before I met you. Ash, you’re special. I’d be an idiot if I would just throw our relationship away. Please believe me, this is not about fucking.”
I nodded again and let myself be pulled into his arms. I cuddled up against his chest, exhausted from all the crying and fighting and worrying.
“What a day” Andy murmured right next to my ear, pressing a kiss to my neck. I just nodded and put my arms around him, bathing in the feeling of having him so near. My face nuzzled into his neck and I kissed the skin there, feeling him shutter beneath me.
“Let’s go cuddle in my bed” I whispered and got up, Andy following me.

Once in the bedroom I let myself fall face down into the pillow and just stayed like that. The bed dipped and I felt Andy cuddle into me. His arms went around my side and under my hoodie, caressing the bare skin on my back. I turned my head and smiled lazily at him. He tilted his head down and pushed his lips against mine. That was a feeling I never wanted to miss.

Notes

Another chapter! :) I wrote this within two days and I'm pretty proud of myself! Next chapter will probably be out next weekend, I'm still thinking about the story line, but I'm sure I'll think of something! Do you guys maybe want a Jake chapter in between? Like, when he talks to Jinxx and they may or may not get together? Or do you want me to stick to Andy's and Ash's POV? :)
Feel free to comment your opinion and also ideas, suggestions, whatever makes you happy! I'll even be happy about a "hello" ;) Don't be shy! Recommend, vote, rate, whatever is possible ;) (I'm posting this on Mibba and BlackVeilBridesFanfiction and Wattpad.)

Have a nice week, my dears! I love you all!
xoxo Rebellious Redamancy

"The Irony Of Choking On A Lifesaver" - All Time Low