All They Do Is Push You To The Edge
Lost it all
Darcys POV
i thought everything was gunna be great. be back on tour, have a laugh and hopefully sort all this shit out with the band. of course... wishful thinking. i dont even want to remember what i saw but it stained my memory...to wouldnt go away. just after we moved outta the venue from the show, a huge crowd from the show decided now was the best time to go and surround the band and make it difficult to do muhc. because me and char werent noticed much as BVB MEMEBERS/CREW we got pushed outta the way and because we are only little there wasnt much we could do about it. we elbowed andstruggled our way through but we got there and what did i see...my 'boyfriend' with another girl and they were kissing.
my heart instantly shattered and i felt like... god knows but all i could do was run. i didnt stop just carried on running and running. i could feel icy cold tear travel down my pale face. the fact it was about novemeber didnt help. i was out here in a bvb tank top, short shorts with skkin colour tihts and army boots. it was freezing and i just stopped. i fell to the ground. i was broken.
seconds after i fell char was by my side and i cried into her embrace and i couldnt stop. i dont want to face them back there. especially not ash.
"sweetie, it'll be ok hes a douche who dont know whats hes doing, your worth ten of him," she said pulling me closer wiping the tears of my cold face
"i thought he was different... im so stupid, i thought he cared about me," i let out a bunch of tears before wiping them away to remember the amount of dark makeup i have on.
"dont worry about the makeup,"char said, "your still the same gorgeous kid i saw that turned up in my bros diner lookin for food under $4,"
"i cant believ thats the first thing you remember about me, and i just thought that yano i was gunna be fiune with bing away i expected it... i just feel lik shit!" i shouted reveling the marks of my past, the scars.
"i know life is tough sometimes, i know far too well but that isnt the answer, i promise that you wont have to do that again," sh said with her hand on my arm, touching them. as she did that i noticed one or two across her thin tanned arms. she saw me examin her arm and said, "story for another day,"
"i thouht he wouldnt hurt me, im such a idiot..."
"no you arent.." a deep voice said wwalking over to us, it was andy. despite this he still came to find me maybe i can learnt to forgive him. this is one man that wont ever hurt me and for one good reason... hes my dad.
"daddy," i ran over to him in tears, "im so stupid, its all my fault.." i sobbed
"dont be silly hes th idiot now come on, you two will get ill if we dont get you warm up. theres a cafe here me and your mum used to come ot..."he helped char up and put a arm around us both. he accepted char lik his own daughter. and i cant speajk for her but i think i feel safer now.
the last thing i want is to see ash... and the amount of shit im getting on twitter i think the judgement on our relationship is over. just like me and ashley. we're over
i thought everything was gunna be great. be back on tour, have a laugh and hopefully sort all this shit out with the band. of course... wishful thinking. i dont even want to remember what i saw but it stained my memory...to wouldnt go away. just after we moved outta the venue from the show, a huge crowd from the show decided now was the best time to go and surround the band and make it difficult to do muhc. because me and char werent noticed much as BVB MEMEBERS/CREW we got pushed outta the way and because we are only little there wasnt much we could do about it. we elbowed andstruggled our way through but we got there and what did i see...my 'boyfriend' with another girl and they were kissing.
my heart instantly shattered and i felt like... god knows but all i could do was run. i didnt stop just carried on running and running. i could feel icy cold tear travel down my pale face. the fact it was about novemeber didnt help. i was out here in a bvb tank top, short shorts with skkin colour tihts and army boots. it was freezing and i just stopped. i fell to the ground. i was broken.
seconds after i fell char was by my side and i cried into her embrace and i couldnt stop. i dont want to face them back there. especially not ash.
"sweetie, it'll be ok hes a douche who dont know whats hes doing, your worth ten of him," she said pulling me closer wiping the tears of my cold face
"i thought he was different... im so stupid, i thought he cared about me," i let out a bunch of tears before wiping them away to remember the amount of dark makeup i have on.
"dont worry about the makeup,"char said, "your still the same gorgeous kid i saw that turned up in my bros diner lookin for food under $4,"
"i cant believ thats the first thing you remember about me, and i just thought that yano i was gunna be fiune with bing away i expected it... i just feel lik shit!" i shouted reveling the marks of my past, the scars.
"i know life is tough sometimes, i know far too well but that isnt the answer, i promise that you wont have to do that again," sh said with her hand on my arm, touching them. as she did that i noticed one or two across her thin tanned arms. she saw me examin her arm and said, "story for another day,"
"i thouht he wouldnt hurt me, im such a idiot..."
"no you arent.." a deep voice said wwalking over to us, it was andy. despite this he still came to find me maybe i can learnt to forgive him. this is one man that wont ever hurt me and for one good reason... hes my dad.
"daddy," i ran over to him in tears, "im so stupid, its all my fault.." i sobbed
"dont be silly hes th idiot now come on, you two will get ill if we dont get you warm up. theres a cafe here me and your mum used to come ot..."he helped char up and put a arm around us both. he accepted char lik his own daughter. and i cant speajk for her but i think i feel safer now.
the last thing i want is to see ash... and the amount of shit im getting on twitter i think the judgement on our relationship is over. just like me and ashley. we're over
7/18/13