Church Is In Session **COMPLETED**
Good God
I never knew anyone could be so hopelessly in love with someone. I felt that way toward Andy. After he basically told me to leave him alone I couldn't help but cry myself to sleep almost every night. Longing for his touch. Ugh I know that's so sappy but I couldn't help it! I loved him more than anything in the world and I couldn't talk to him about it. I was head-over-heals in love with him and we couldn't be together because he was afraid I would get hurt in the end.
I could see Esther still trying to get over Zain and what happened. I knew she would go try to talk to him everyday about it. He had come to me one day to tell me that Esther needed to stop talking to him, that it wasn't going to help what he saw disappear. I felt worst for them than I did for myself.
I had tried not to walk myself into too many confrontations with Esther, I feared what she had told me that day I saw her had get better within seconds of being burned. What did she mean by what she said? Was it a warning? Was she...different? The whole threat and Andy situation must have been getting to my head. Esther was my best friend, my sister. She was just like me; normal.
I finally convinced myself to get out of bed and get ready for another day of work. I meet Esther in the kitchen while she was fixing something to eat. She shot me a look.
"What?" I asked.
"I want to talk to Zain today, tell him how I feel. Maybe try to explain to him what happened." God she couldn't take a hint.
"He doesn't really want to talk to you." I took a drink of water mumbling the last few words.
"I know, that's why you're going to talk to him for me!" She gave me a huge smile with her fingers interlocked together holding them up to her face.
I chuckled, "no I'm not."
"But you just said he won't talk to me and I really need to be with..."
"Okay listen, I don't know if you have forgotten or something but I have problems of my own! I'm hopelessly in love with someone who will never want me to be with him! You can just explain to Zain and you two would be having sex in less than a day!" I put my cup on the table needing my hands to emphasize how done I was with all of this. "Stop complaining to me about 'love' when all you two was have sex every damn night! I never even saw Andy in his underwear! What I had with Andy was better than you would ever have with Zain! So don't tell me shit about being 'in love' with someone who is only your fuck buddy!"
I left her wide eyed and confused. I marched to work and began stocking the new clothes that had been made. I regretted nothing I said to her until I saw Zain and Andy walking around talking. I stopped what I was doing and walked forward slightly wanting to talk to him. Esther and Zain did have something like Andy and I had. I wanted it back so badly and I know Esther did too. When Andy looked over in my direction I quickly looked down and continued to stock. When I glanced back up they were gone.
I got home to see a pissed Esther. I threw my jacket in my room and sat on the couch beside her. She got and and stood in front of me.
"I understand that you have problems too, but friends are supposed to help each other out! They're supposed to bitch about everything bad together! You scratch my back I scratch yours. That's how it works. You help me with Zain, I help you with Andy. Now, well now, I guess after that we're just roommates then, aren't we?"
"No Esther! I'm sorry I didn't mean that! I was just angry at, well everything!" I didn't want to lose her too.
She stared at me searching my eyes. When a smile broke on her face I made a little laugh of happiness. "I can't stay mad at you! But I'm still not happy." She walked to her room with a smirk on her face.
The moment with her hand popped into my head. "Hey, Ez?"
She popped her head out of her room, "what?"
"What did you mean the other day about asking questions to things you don't want to know the answer to?"
She walked out of her room and stopped just outside of the doorway. "It means that some secrets are better left alone."
"That still doesn't make sense."
She smirked, "good."
I went to bed with so many thoughts running threw my head. Andy, the threat, Esther, and somewhere in between crying over Andy and being confused about Esther my parents invaded my memory. The demons slaughtering them in front of me and my younger brothers. My mother's head leaving her body rolling to the feet of my youngest brother. My fathers bones being exposed from his skin. My brothers couldn't watch. They all ran after the demons demanding the life of their parents back. In one swift move three little lifeless bodies fell to the floor. I sat up from my day dream screaming.
I hadn't had that memory in years. What had brought it back in? I had been sweating and my sheets were crumpled on the ground. Esther must have been fast asleep because usually by now she would be running in here to see if I was okay. I shook off the memory and tried to go back to sleep. But it was impossible.
I could see Esther still trying to get over Zain and what happened. I knew she would go try to talk to him everyday about it. He had come to me one day to tell me that Esther needed to stop talking to him, that it wasn't going to help what he saw disappear. I felt worst for them than I did for myself.
I had tried not to walk myself into too many confrontations with Esther, I feared what she had told me that day I saw her had get better within seconds of being burned. What did she mean by what she said? Was it a warning? Was she...different? The whole threat and Andy situation must have been getting to my head. Esther was my best friend, my sister. She was just like me; normal.
I finally convinced myself to get out of bed and get ready for another day of work. I meet Esther in the kitchen while she was fixing something to eat. She shot me a look.
"What?" I asked.
"I want to talk to Zain today, tell him how I feel. Maybe try to explain to him what happened." God she couldn't take a hint.
"He doesn't really want to talk to you." I took a drink of water mumbling the last few words.
"I know, that's why you're going to talk to him for me!" She gave me a huge smile with her fingers interlocked together holding them up to her face.
I chuckled, "no I'm not."
"But you just said he won't talk to me and I really need to be with..."
"Okay listen, I don't know if you have forgotten or something but I have problems of my own! I'm hopelessly in love with someone who will never want me to be with him! You can just explain to Zain and you two would be having sex in less than a day!" I put my cup on the table needing my hands to emphasize how done I was with all of this. "Stop complaining to me about 'love' when all you two was have sex every damn night! I never even saw Andy in his underwear! What I had with Andy was better than you would ever have with Zain! So don't tell me shit about being 'in love' with someone who is only your fuck buddy!"
I left her wide eyed and confused. I marched to work and began stocking the new clothes that had been made. I regretted nothing I said to her until I saw Zain and Andy walking around talking. I stopped what I was doing and walked forward slightly wanting to talk to him. Esther and Zain did have something like Andy and I had. I wanted it back so badly and I know Esther did too. When Andy looked over in my direction I quickly looked down and continued to stock. When I glanced back up they were gone.
I got home to see a pissed Esther. I threw my jacket in my room and sat on the couch beside her. She got and and stood in front of me.
"I understand that you have problems too, but friends are supposed to help each other out! They're supposed to bitch about everything bad together! You scratch my back I scratch yours. That's how it works. You help me with Zain, I help you with Andy. Now, well now, I guess after that we're just roommates then, aren't we?"
"No Esther! I'm sorry I didn't mean that! I was just angry at, well everything!" I didn't want to lose her too.
She stared at me searching my eyes. When a smile broke on her face I made a little laugh of happiness. "I can't stay mad at you! But I'm still not happy." She walked to her room with a smirk on her face.
The moment with her hand popped into my head. "Hey, Ez?"
She popped her head out of her room, "what?"
"What did you mean the other day about asking questions to things you don't want to know the answer to?"
She walked out of her room and stopped just outside of the doorway. "It means that some secrets are better left alone."
"That still doesn't make sense."
She smirked, "good."
I went to bed with so many thoughts running threw my head. Andy, the threat, Esther, and somewhere in between crying over Andy and being confused about Esther my parents invaded my memory. The demons slaughtering them in front of me and my younger brothers. My mother's head leaving her body rolling to the feet of my youngest brother. My fathers bones being exposed from his skin. My brothers couldn't watch. They all ran after the demons demanding the life of their parents back. In one swift move three little lifeless bodies fell to the floor. I sat up from my day dream screaming.
I hadn't had that memory in years. What had brought it back in? I had been sweating and my sheets were crumpled on the ground. Esther must have been fast asleep because usually by now she would be running in here to see if I was okay. I shook off the memory and tried to go back to sleep. But it was impossible.
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