You left me... broken
Chapter 7
Chapter 7
Lola's POV
"Andy why would you do that?"
"I have nothing without you."
I hold his shoulder even tighter and look into his eyes, "Andy, you do. You have reliable friends, a successful band, and especially you have amazing fans who need you. They need their hero."
"But they're not you." He mumbles and actually breaks out if my grasp, he runs toward the street again, Sammi gets out of the car and reaches him before I can.
"Listen Andy. You're not going to kill yourself over Lola. She will someday get some sense and come back to you, I know it Andy. Don't do this."
He sighs and looks over at me, "I can't be without her.. I just can't."
"You won't be, eventually. And Biersack, you can. You made it through two terrible heartbreaks already. You can another."
"It's not the same. They didn't love me anymore, And I didn't love them as much as I love Lola."
"Andy, I know. You'll get through this."
"Not without Lola." He looks at me, his eyes begging me to come over and give in to his pleas.
'I can't, I just can't. I know Andy, I can't live without you either but we have to.'
I just don't say anything and look guiltily at the ground. I know I keep telling myself it's for the best, but is it really? I mean Andy almost killed himself over not being with me. I know I mean a lot to him but I didn't think I meant that much. I do love him, I really do, but I don't want to hurt him anymore..
"Sammi, I should get home." I mumble and slowly walk to the car. Sammi keeps talking to Andy as I climb in the passengers seat. She pulls out her phone and starts talking, holding onto Andy's hand to make sure he doesn't try again. She hangs up and waits with Andy, still talking to him, I can't hear what she's saying. Three minutes later Jinxx pulls up with jake, they climb out of the car and run over to Andy. Jake grabs onto one arm and Jinxx the other, as if he was being thrown out of somewhere by the security. They walk back into the building as Sammi gets in the drivers seat.
"You can't do that Lola." She said and pulled back into the parking lot. Sammi turned the car off and faced me.
"It's not fair to Andy. You can't just leave him like that."
"Sammi, it's for the best." I sigh and look out the window, up into Andy's apartment's bedroom window. He is standing there looking down at me. I turn away quickly, it hurts to see him like that.
"Really? Because Andy almost killed himself 10 minutes ago. That is not the best, Lola that's the worst!"
"I know. I'll just cause him more pain if I stay."
"If you love him that won't happen."
"I do love him. I just can't, I already broke him and It won't work out in the end."
"Honestly Lola, I think you need to go back to him. If you can't see that now then I don't know what." She sighed and put the key back in the ignition, starting the painfully silent ride back to my parents.
Chapter 8
Lola's POV
When we pull up Sammi unlocks the door and doesn't say anything, only looks at me sadly. I climb out of the car and quietly walk up to the front door. I forgot my key so I have to knock, hopefully hallie answers.
But of course, with my luck it had to be my mom.
"Lola? How did you get out of your room without us seeing?" She asks. I just run past her straight to my room, which is locked?
"Hallie! Why is my door locked?" I yell. My mom is already following me up the stairs.
"Where have you been for the past 2 days?" She says and grabs my shoulder.
"Here. I left to get something I left at a friends house." I say as dully as possible.
"Oh sure... Tell the truth." She snaps and unlocks my door with the key type thing. She opens it and walks in behind me, shutting the door and locking it.
"I'm not leaving until you tell me the truth, neither are you!" She hisses and blocks the door, crossing her arms over her chest and staring me down. I sit on my bed and face the wall.
"I told you, I went to a friends to get something I left. It wasn't there so I came home."
"Look at me when you talk. And then why was your car here?"
I turn around and say through my teeth, "I was at a friends, she drove me there and back."
"I have a tracker in your phone that can tell me where you have been."
"I'm 20 for Christ's sake! You can't keep tabs on everything I do!" I yell at her.
"As long as you live under my roof I can and will!"
"Fine. You want to know?" I say defeated. She nods her head once and I continue, "I fucking went to Andy's! And I broke his freaking heart! All thanks to you. You and Elizabeth!"
She gasps, "how could you! You blame this on me? It's all on you."
"Sure.. I would definitely do that to the man I love! Hell no! I don't even know why I still believe anything you say!"
"Because I am your god damn mother! And what did you do at Andy's that was my fault!"
She stares me down, I sigh and say, "I slept with him. And I fucking told him I wasn't good for him. And I left!"
My mother gasps again. She says like I was trash, "you slut!"
"Do mothers call their daughters sluts!"
"You're not my daughter anymore. I can't believe you, I've raised a whore. Where did I go wrong with you? That fucking rock star screwed with your head. I can't even look at you." She turns and walks out of my room, slamming the door shut behind her.
I hear hallie come in and she engulfs me into a hug. I start sobbing into her shoulder. Once I've stopped crying She whispers in my ear, "we should move out."
"Uh huh..." I mumble and let go of her. She smiles at me and squeezes my hands, "we'll get through this Lola."
"I don't know hallie. I don't think I can."
She looks directly into my matching eyes, "yes you can. Not without Andy though."
"Why does everyone keep telling me to go back to him. I am not good for him." I say quietly. She shakes her head and leaves me here to think.
Hallies POV
I get my phone in my room and text Sammi, she texts back immediately.
Hallie: what happened?
Sammi: idk for sure but I think they slept together, she stayed to late last night and had to stay again. He couldn't convince her to stay, I picked her up and Andy almost killed himself over her.
Hallie: holy shit! Does she know?
Sammi: she stopped him.
Hallie: well, my mom just yelled at her, told Lola she disowned her and that she was a slut and a whore.
Sammi: we have to get Lola to go back to Andy. They're both heartbroken. I have to go, Andy locked himself in the bathroom.
Hallie: don't let him. I need to talk to him.
Sammi: why?
Hallie: just can you send someone to take me there. I don't think Lola's moving for a while and I doubt my parents would take me there.
Sammi: ok. Can I send jake over there and know you won't kidnap him?
Hallie: haha no promises..
Half an hour later I get a text from a random number:
Number: it's jake. I'm outside your house.
Hallie: ok I'm coming down.
Jake: k
I slowly make my way down the stairs, making sure to be completely quiet. I open the door enough to squeeze out and dash to his car. He lets me in and says, "Hey hallie. I'm jake."
I say as calmly as I can considering I'm internally fangirling, "ya I know."
"Fan?"
"Ya.."
He pulls onto the interstate and asks me, "how's Lola?"
"Oh.. She's.. Not as bad as Andy." He nods, "how old are you?"
"15."
"Ya you look around that age." He pauses and notices me fiddling with my bracelets, the only person who knows is Sammi.
"You don't- do you?"
I sigh and nod, "I'm trying to stop. I actually wanted to talk to Andy about it..."
"That's smart, thank you." He says and parks infront of a small apartment building. We get out and he leads me up the stairs, knocking on a door on the 4th floor. Sammi answers and lets us in.
"He's in his room with Jinxx." I nod and follow her to his bedroom.
"Hold on."
She slips inside and says something, I press my ear to the door, "you don't want her to see this do you?"
I just open the door and walk in, I see Sammi holding up something I didn't want to know Lola wore. I clear my throat and they all turn around.
"Can I talk to Andy alone for a second?"
Jinxx and Sammi nod, then walk out the door. I walk over to where Andy is sitting on the floor and kneel infront of him.
"Andy, I need you to listen to me. Can you do that?"
He nods. I sigh and pull the bracelets off my wrist, revealing the scars I have made over the past year or two. He is looking at them curiously, Andy looks up at me and asks, "why?"
"Why isn't important right now. I just wanted to tell you that your lyrics have helped me. Andy I want to make sure you know not to do this." I point to the marks and he looks at me guiltily.
"You haven't right?"
He shakes his head and sighs, "almost."
"Well, don't. It's not the answer, you know there's other ways to take away the pain. It doesn't help either. Andy." I look into his piercing blue eyes, "Andy, suicide isn't the answer either. I know she'll come back to you. I know it. She just doesn't understand yet."
I wrap my arms around him and pull him into a hug. He accepts and whispers in my ear, "don't do it again."
"I'm trying not to."
He sighs and I feel a tear drip onto my back. I pull away and look at Andy, "are you ok?"
He is staring into my eyes, it's weird. Andy suddenly wraps his hands around my neck and presses his lips against mine. I push him away but he won't stop. What the hell? My sisters ex boyfriend is my first kiss. Holy shit!
He pulls away, with his eyes still closed and whispers, "I love you Lola."
"Andy. I'm not Lola." I say slowly and scramble out of his grasp. He opens his eyes and stares at me, registering what he just did.
"I'm so sorry. You guys have the same eyes, I forgot who you were for a second."
"Andy, I'm just going to leave now.." I stand up but he grabs my hand and pulls me back down. What the hell?
"Don't let her leave me." He whispers and pulls me into a hug again. I let him for a second but pull away. He leans forward and kisses me again? I don't kiss back, he doesn't stop. I guess I should enjoy my second kiss while it lasts? I start to kiss him back, our lips moving in sync. He runs his tongue over my bottom lip and I stop. He keeps kissing me for some reason. I try to pull away but he is running through my hair and won't let me move.
"Andy! What are you doing?" I say when he pulls away.
"I'm sorry. I just, I don't know."
Lola's POV
"Andy why would you do that?"
"I have nothing without you."
I hold his shoulder even tighter and look into his eyes, "Andy, you do. You have reliable friends, a successful band, and especially you have amazing fans who need you. They need their hero."
"But they're not you." He mumbles and actually breaks out if my grasp, he runs toward the street again, Sammi gets out of the car and reaches him before I can.
"Listen Andy. You're not going to kill yourself over Lola. She will someday get some sense and come back to you, I know it Andy. Don't do this."
He sighs and looks over at me, "I can't be without her.. I just can't."
"You won't be, eventually. And Biersack, you can. You made it through two terrible heartbreaks already. You can another."
"It's not the same. They didn't love me anymore, And I didn't love them as much as I love Lola."
"Andy, I know. You'll get through this."
"Not without Lola." He looks at me, his eyes begging me to come over and give in to his pleas.
'I can't, I just can't. I know Andy, I can't live without you either but we have to.'
I just don't say anything and look guiltily at the ground. I know I keep telling myself it's for the best, but is it really? I mean Andy almost killed himself over not being with me. I know I mean a lot to him but I didn't think I meant that much. I do love him, I really do, but I don't want to hurt him anymore..
"Sammi, I should get home." I mumble and slowly walk to the car. Sammi keeps talking to Andy as I climb in the passengers seat. She pulls out her phone and starts talking, holding onto Andy's hand to make sure he doesn't try again. She hangs up and waits with Andy, still talking to him, I can't hear what she's saying. Three minutes later Jinxx pulls up with jake, they climb out of the car and run over to Andy. Jake grabs onto one arm and Jinxx the other, as if he was being thrown out of somewhere by the security. They walk back into the building as Sammi gets in the drivers seat.
"You can't do that Lola." She said and pulled back into the parking lot. Sammi turned the car off and faced me.
"It's not fair to Andy. You can't just leave him like that."
"Sammi, it's for the best." I sigh and look out the window, up into Andy's apartment's bedroom window. He is standing there looking down at me. I turn away quickly, it hurts to see him like that.
"Really? Because Andy almost killed himself 10 minutes ago. That is not the best, Lola that's the worst!"
"I know. I'll just cause him more pain if I stay."
"If you love him that won't happen."
"I do love him. I just can't, I already broke him and It won't work out in the end."
"Honestly Lola, I think you need to go back to him. If you can't see that now then I don't know what." She sighed and put the key back in the ignition, starting the painfully silent ride back to my parents.
Chapter 8
Lola's POV
When we pull up Sammi unlocks the door and doesn't say anything, only looks at me sadly. I climb out of the car and quietly walk up to the front door. I forgot my key so I have to knock, hopefully hallie answers.
But of course, with my luck it had to be my mom.
"Lola? How did you get out of your room without us seeing?" She asks. I just run past her straight to my room, which is locked?
"Hallie! Why is my door locked?" I yell. My mom is already following me up the stairs.
"Where have you been for the past 2 days?" She says and grabs my shoulder.
"Here. I left to get something I left at a friends house." I say as dully as possible.
"Oh sure... Tell the truth." She snaps and unlocks my door with the key type thing. She opens it and walks in behind me, shutting the door and locking it.
"I'm not leaving until you tell me the truth, neither are you!" She hisses and blocks the door, crossing her arms over her chest and staring me down. I sit on my bed and face the wall.
"I told you, I went to a friends to get something I left. It wasn't there so I came home."
"Look at me when you talk. And then why was your car here?"
I turn around and say through my teeth, "I was at a friends, she drove me there and back."
"I have a tracker in your phone that can tell me where you have been."
"I'm 20 for Christ's sake! You can't keep tabs on everything I do!" I yell at her.
"As long as you live under my roof I can and will!"
"Fine. You want to know?" I say defeated. She nods her head once and I continue, "I fucking went to Andy's! And I broke his freaking heart! All thanks to you. You and Elizabeth!"
She gasps, "how could you! You blame this on me? It's all on you."
"Sure.. I would definitely do that to the man I love! Hell no! I don't even know why I still believe anything you say!"
"Because I am your god damn mother! And what did you do at Andy's that was my fault!"
She stares me down, I sigh and say, "I slept with him. And I fucking told him I wasn't good for him. And I left!"
My mother gasps again. She says like I was trash, "you slut!"
"Do mothers call their daughters sluts!"
"You're not my daughter anymore. I can't believe you, I've raised a whore. Where did I go wrong with you? That fucking rock star screwed with your head. I can't even look at you." She turns and walks out of my room, slamming the door shut behind her.
I hear hallie come in and she engulfs me into a hug. I start sobbing into her shoulder. Once I've stopped crying She whispers in my ear, "we should move out."
"Uh huh..." I mumble and let go of her. She smiles at me and squeezes my hands, "we'll get through this Lola."
"I don't know hallie. I don't think I can."
She looks directly into my matching eyes, "yes you can. Not without Andy though."
"Why does everyone keep telling me to go back to him. I am not good for him." I say quietly. She shakes her head and leaves me here to think.
Hallies POV
I get my phone in my room and text Sammi, she texts back immediately.
Hallie: what happened?
Sammi: idk for sure but I think they slept together, she stayed to late last night and had to stay again. He couldn't convince her to stay, I picked her up and Andy almost killed himself over her.
Hallie: holy shit! Does she know?
Sammi: she stopped him.
Hallie: well, my mom just yelled at her, told Lola she disowned her and that she was a slut and a whore.
Sammi: we have to get Lola to go back to Andy. They're both heartbroken. I have to go, Andy locked himself in the bathroom.
Hallie: don't let him. I need to talk to him.
Sammi: why?
Hallie: just can you send someone to take me there. I don't think Lola's moving for a while and I doubt my parents would take me there.
Sammi: ok. Can I send jake over there and know you won't kidnap him?
Hallie: haha no promises..
Half an hour later I get a text from a random number:
Number: it's jake. I'm outside your house.
Hallie: ok I'm coming down.
Jake: k
I slowly make my way down the stairs, making sure to be completely quiet. I open the door enough to squeeze out and dash to his car. He lets me in and says, "Hey hallie. I'm jake."
I say as calmly as I can considering I'm internally fangirling, "ya I know."
"Fan?"
"Ya.."
He pulls onto the interstate and asks me, "how's Lola?"
"Oh.. She's.. Not as bad as Andy." He nods, "how old are you?"
"15."
"Ya you look around that age." He pauses and notices me fiddling with my bracelets, the only person who knows is Sammi.
"You don't- do you?"
I sigh and nod, "I'm trying to stop. I actually wanted to talk to Andy about it..."
"That's smart, thank you." He says and parks infront of a small apartment building. We get out and he leads me up the stairs, knocking on a door on the 4th floor. Sammi answers and lets us in.
"He's in his room with Jinxx." I nod and follow her to his bedroom.
"Hold on."
She slips inside and says something, I press my ear to the door, "you don't want her to see this do you?"
I just open the door and walk in, I see Sammi holding up something I didn't want to know Lola wore. I clear my throat and they all turn around.
"Can I talk to Andy alone for a second?"
Jinxx and Sammi nod, then walk out the door. I walk over to where Andy is sitting on the floor and kneel infront of him.
"Andy, I need you to listen to me. Can you do that?"
He nods. I sigh and pull the bracelets off my wrist, revealing the scars I have made over the past year or two. He is looking at them curiously, Andy looks up at me and asks, "why?"
"Why isn't important right now. I just wanted to tell you that your lyrics have helped me. Andy I want to make sure you know not to do this." I point to the marks and he looks at me guiltily.
"You haven't right?"
He shakes his head and sighs, "almost."
"Well, don't. It's not the answer, you know there's other ways to take away the pain. It doesn't help either. Andy." I look into his piercing blue eyes, "Andy, suicide isn't the answer either. I know she'll come back to you. I know it. She just doesn't understand yet."
I wrap my arms around him and pull him into a hug. He accepts and whispers in my ear, "don't do it again."
"I'm trying not to."
He sighs and I feel a tear drip onto my back. I pull away and look at Andy, "are you ok?"
He is staring into my eyes, it's weird. Andy suddenly wraps his hands around my neck and presses his lips against mine. I push him away but he won't stop. What the hell? My sisters ex boyfriend is my first kiss. Holy shit!
He pulls away, with his eyes still closed and whispers, "I love you Lola."
"Andy. I'm not Lola." I say slowly and scramble out of his grasp. He opens his eyes and stares at me, registering what he just did.
"I'm so sorry. You guys have the same eyes, I forgot who you were for a second."
"Andy, I'm just going to leave now.." I stand up but he grabs my hand and pulls me back down. What the hell?
"Don't let her leave me." He whispers and pulls me into a hug again. I let him for a second but pull away. He leans forward and kisses me again? I don't kiss back, he doesn't stop. I guess I should enjoy my second kiss while it lasts? I start to kiss him back, our lips moving in sync. He runs his tongue over my bottom lip and I stop. He keeps kissing me for some reason. I try to pull away but he is running through my hair and won't let me move.
"Andy! What are you doing?" I say when he pulls away.
"I'm sorry. I just, I don't know."
Notes
What happens next? You guys probably won't like it:/Last update for the night. 7 was too short so I added in chapter 8 and I'm too lazy to take out how I desperate the chapters on the notes page so sorry.
Reason why I'm spamming: I'm going to not be able to update or write for a month after Sunday. So ya..
-C
im on chapter 10 right now and this shit is pissing me off. i'm not liking this sister bullshit.. ughhh i want to stop reading because i feel like a bad person but i don't want to stop since this is a really good story..
6/21/15