Hallie's POV

Andy and I are making out on his bed, he is shirtless and I am too, along with my bra. He is feeling me up. Andy pulls away for a second and takes his hands off my chest, he cups my cheek and whispers, "I love you hallie." Before quickly returning to our kiss giving me no time to respond. I pull away soon after and sit up off of him. I grab my shirt, holding the soft fabric tightly against my chest as I think. Andy sits up after a few short seconds he looks at me worried, realizing what he had just said. 'He told me he loves me! Should I be happy? Should I be worried?' My mind is racing. 'Do I say it back? Do I even love him back? Does Andy even mean it? Can he even love me. He loves Lola! Crap, Lola! But Andy just told me he loves me. Me. Me of all people Andy could have, 15 year old me. I don't get it.. This is too silent.' "I should go.." I mumble and stand to leave, Andy captures me into a kiss before I can. I sit unresponsive, still in shock from his previous words. "Andy- I- I- just, I don't think I love you back?" I mumble. It could be a lie but I'm honestly not sure yet. "Uh.. Ok.." Andy nods, worried. "I don't know if I do either, I was just caught up in the moment.." Something inside me sinks when he says this, I don't know why.. I quietly say, "ok then, I know where I stand then. I'm just going to go.." Free sex. All I am. The truth hurts, even though I knew it before. "Wait, no, Hallie.. I just want you to know, I love being inside you, hearing you moan my name, or scream it out of pleasure, our bodies fit Together perfectly. I love the way you kiss, how you are so sweet and innocent, and how you wouldn't let me take pictures of you because it was against your morals.." Andy blurts. Yet again, all about sex. I mean nothing to him.

Hearts of the used

"Andy, can you just-" I sigh, "can you take me home?" "Please, Hallie? Can I get a response from you other than that?" Andy asks hopefully. I finally have the courage to admit to myself what I am to him, maybe he should know. "Fine. You want it. You got it." I state, "I'm a 15 year old sex toy. That's it, I know it. I've given up trying to think there's anything more to this but there's not. Absolutely nothing. I know it and I'm finally accepting it. You can't change the past right? I'm ok with being your sex for a while ok?" I got it out. I was more telling myself than him.

show me your worst.

"Hallie, even though you keep reminding me, sometimes I forget you're only 15.." Andy says quietly, "and I don't want you to feel that way, but I don't want to tell lies. Hallie, I'm not the type of person that usually sleeps around, much less cheats on my girlfriend. So to be the other person I'm seeing has to mean there is something special, I mean I kept seeing you when I originally had no intention." Andy's arms wrap around me into a hug.

show me you're cursed.

"I would be much more comfortable if I had my shirt on.." I mumble and slip out Of his hug, finding my bra and putting that along with my shirt back on. Andy watches me intently the whole time as if absorbing my movements. "Why are you staring at me like that?" "Like what?" "Never mind." 'Like he has feelings for me' a small voice says in the back of my head.

Tell me the truth

"Hallie? Please stay a bit longer?" Andy asks and lightly places his hands on my arms. "We can just do something fun?" 'Oh. Really? Fun.' "Like what?" I ask, annoyed. "We could try to cook again?" I nod and stand up. Andy trails me out to the kitchen, probably looking at my butt.. "So we are going to try... Macaroni and cheese? I found a box in your pantry..." I tell him while getting a pot from a cabinet and filling it up with water. "So Andy could you turn the stove on.. Low?" I ask, picking up the box to read the back. Andy does as I say with a look of confusion on his face. "Is this the low?" Andy asks as he turns the knob to 4. "Ya.. Um put this on the stove next, and wait for it to boil." I say quietly and hand him the pot full of water. He sets it down and watches it intently for about 5 seconds before losing interest. "so you know what I realized?" I ask quietly, breaking the silence. "What?" Andy down at me curiously and leans against the COUNTER. "I was thinking about this a while ago, but you guys are like the only band that has only one song about.. You know, sex and stuff. But it's not only that, it's also that rebel yell is a cover." "Ya.." Andy thinks for a bit, "you're right.." A smirk spreads across his face, along with a devious look in his eye. "Do you want there to be more?" Oh great! "I would need some inspiration though, and hallie, I think you could be an amazing person to help with that." Andy says smugly from across the kitchen, he leans off the counter and takes a step towards me. Ugh, he's going to try to seduce me. "That's not what I meant. Black veil brides sends a- a better message than- other.. Um." Andy's eyes are slowly trailing down my body, his smirk is causing me to become nervous. Luckily, the water begins to boil over as Andy takes another step towards me. He sees the pot and immediately panics, "Hallie! What do I do!" I laugh and hand him the box of pasta, "just put in the pasta." He puts the macaroni in carefully, as if it was to explode in his hands. Then turns back to me with the smug look returning. "Andy- that's not what I meant.. It was just an observation." I manage to get out without choking on my words this time as he looks me straight in the eye, those piercing blue eyes could kill. "Hallie," Andy whispers and lightly grabs the sides of my waist. He reaches down and kisses my ear lightly, gently nibbling on it. His teeth pull slightly against my ear cause a shiver to run up my spine, he whispers again, "hallie." "Ya?" Manage to croak. "I want you." He growls a bit, letting me shiver again. I'm frozen and I think he can tell that I want him again too. No. Not here. Not now. Not ever. "Andy-" I finally am able to speak, "the pasta." He doesn't move, only keeps trying to seduce me, "hallie, we should forget about the pasta. We can do that again later, we might not be able to do.. This again for a while." He smirks against my ear and moves his body a bit closer to mine. "I can tell you want me too. Let me make it up to you for raping you a few days ago." He trails his lips along my jawline but whispers in my ear once again, "lets make this time-" he inches his body closer to mine, "pure," another inch, "utter," He presses our bodies right up against each other and breathes, sexily, almost seductively enough to make me give in.. "Love." Then I hear a timer beep and Andy gets startled out of his game by the noise. "Pasta's done." I say, my voice strained and hoarse from being so tense and restricting myself from getting turned on by him. "Oh." Andy mumbles and turns off the stove, looking to me for further instruction- almost like what just happened didn't. "Uh- ya, just drain the pot using the lid, don't let the pasta out though. Umm then mix in the butter, milk, and cheese powder." I say quickly, grabbing the ingredients to distract myself from looking at Andy. He made me want him. I watch Andy make the macaroni and Cheese, he is glancing over his shoulder every few seconds at me. He shouldn't be doing this to me, I'm 15. I shouldn't be on the verge of letting my sister's boyfriend have sex with me again. Again! "Here you are." Andy startles me out of my thoughts by setting a bowl of macaroni and cheese on the table beside me. "Wow! That looks good!" I exclaim, he is smiling at his accomplishment proudly. "I'm taking a picture." Andy states happily and gets out his phone, he quickly snaps a picture before picking up his bowl to try it. Andy scoops up a forkful but instead of putting it in his mouth he hold it in front of mine, "you get the first bite since you taught me how." I stare at him warily, is he just worried it will taste bad or if he being genuine. I sigh and open my mouth, allowing Andy to feed me the food. He was successful! It's actually pretty good, as far as Kraft Mac and cheese can go.. "Try it!" Andy tries some for himself, his smile widening after eating it. I am about to take a bit of my own when Andy drops his fork in his bowl and suddenly kisses me! I push him off and see his smile still bright and content. "Thank you for teaching me to cook!" I shrug and roll my eyes at his happiness, we grab our bowls and sit on the couch next to each other. Andy pulls out his phone again and posts the photo on Instagram,
@andybvb: look I cooked! Thanks @halliesameuls for teaching me to make Mac and cheese! I proved you wrong @sammidoll!
I giggle as he posts the photo, earning thousands of likes within minutes, "with that many fans, how are you not sleeping with most of them, considering age obviously doesn't matter to you.." Andy finishes his last bite and sets down the bowl on the counter, a smug look returning to his face. He stands up, pulling me up behind him and walks back to where we were in the kitchen earlier. He lets his hands trail down my back before resting them on my waist again. Andy's lips are once again by my ear and he repeats what he did earlier. "Because I don't do that, except for a few- well one exception." Andy whispers, "Hallie, since you never got the full, well, expierience.." It is true.. He lets out a low growl before whispering, "this time hallie, this time I want to.." He stops. Andy takes a hand off my waist to put a hand over his heart, he places his over my own heart, letting it fall down slightly... (I would roll my eyes but I can barely remember to breathe.) "This time baby,I want Us to.." He presses his lips to my temple but moves them back to my ear and growls, "to make.. Love." Love. Love? Love! The word repeats in my head and I wait for his next move. He pulls away and looks down at me, directly in the eye. "Make love?" I whisper, fear and nervousness crowding my voice. Andy lets his hand fall across my chest to my waist, then my hips. He smirks a bit and whispers, "make love. Not have sex. Make.. Love." "Andy- I- I'm- I'm not ready yet, not mentally or physically." I sputter out, shocked at what I admitted. "You don't need to be, I can guide you through it.." I sigh, he doesn't get it. "Andy. I don't want to yet. I didn't even want to the first time.. I, like everyone else in the world, wanted my first time to be with someone who loves and cares about them. I already lost that opportunity.." His smirk disappears, a slight look of regret and longing replaces it. "I want my next time to at least be how I wanted my first to be, I'm sorry. Andy, we don't love each other.." 'I kinda do love you Andy.' "Hallie, I understand what you're saying but.." He sighs, "maybe if we try again it will be better, please?" "No, Andy I'm not saying I didn't enjoy being with you. But we shouldn't, I can't. It's wrong. You shouldn't have sex with people you're not in love with or who aren't in love with you." I tell him, regretting it as soon as I did. It insults his, his bandmates, and many other people I look up to's lifestyle. His face is suddenly blank, I can see the hurt in his eyes. "Andy- I- I- didn't mean to insult you or anything. I'm a 15 year old girl, this is what has been pounded into my mind. I- I- I'm sorry." His eyes begin to water, how is he so insulted by what I said? "I'll do it with you." I sigh, "just please stop looking at me like that." Andy blinks back his tears and engulf me into a sudden hug, I stumble back in surprise. "Hallie, I don't want to force you to do anything. It's just.. I don't know.. I don't know why your comment insulted me so much, I've heard the same insults a thousand times before on the Internet, at concerts by parents, or just anywhere really.." He kisses my cheek before continuing, "it's just, maybe-" he sigh and lets go of me, walking to the other corner of the room, facing the wall, "maybe I am falling for you hallie." He turns around nervously, I stand here shocked. No. He loves Lola. "Andy, can you take me home, I have to study." He nods, accepting that this conversation is over- for now.

Notes

So I hope the formatting worked this time. It didnt, i just fixed it a bit.. But what will happen next? Will hallie let Andy have her? Or will andy come to his senses and be satisfied with Lola?
anyways.. Thanks for reading! Rating! Commenting! And subscribing! It means a lot!
Did you guys see Andys posts on twitter :| weird. But fanfic don't bother him so ok! I have twitter now so I know how to write with it better. Long notes:)
-C