I woke up to the sweet smeel of vanilla chai tea, and Jinxx playing guitar. I turned around so I was lying on my back, and I just listened for a little while. He stopped playing and he stood up and walked over to my bed. "How long have you been up?" I sighed, "Not too long." He sat near my feet, and rubbed my leg. "Do you want to come downstairs? It's just us here right now. Sammi is at a photo shoot, and the guys went swimming. So it'll just be us for a while." I sat up. "Well cool. But you didn't have to stay with me, you should've gone with them." Jinxx shook his head, "No, I need to stay with you, and I want to hang with you." I smiled, and he rubbed my leg again. "So, how about some coffee and cold pizza for breakfast?" I smiled and got up to follow him downstairs. No you fucking don't you fat cow. Don't you fucking dare eat. No, and if you do, then you better loose it, ASAP. I followed him downstairs. He motioned for me to sit at the bar, while he fixed my coffee and pizza. He handed it to me, and he sat across from me, and watched me pick at the pizza. He frowned, "How come you aren't eating?" he put his hand on my forhead. "Are you feeling sick again?" He looked seriously worried. "No I feel fine." I put on the best smile I could muster in front of him. "Then eat!" he pushed the pizza at me. "It's been a week. Do it. Now." I took a huge bite of the pizza, and swallowed it. "Good girl." and he turned to walk away. "Alright Andy texted me your medicine schedule, and so you need to take one of these pills, and I'm gonna clean your cuts and refresh your bandages, then we have to go buy some more. Sound good?" I nodded, and finished my coffee. He brought over the pill and the bandages. I took the medicine while he cleaned me up. "The swelling has gone down, which is good." I nodded and smiled. "Alright babygirl go upstairs and get dressed. We need to go get you more bandages and I need guitar strings." I got up, and scampered up to my room. I changed clothes, and did my makeup. I was about to brush my teeth when I stopped, and looked in the mirror. I studied myself, and looked at how fat I was. How can someone be this fat? It isn't physically possible. I turned and faced the toilet. "Back to my old ways.." I sighed, and stuck my finger down my throat, and I made sure there was absolutely nothing on my stomach. I brushed my teeth twice, and redid my makeup since my eyes were watering. I grabbed my phone an ran downstairs to meet Jinxx. "You ready?" I nodded, and we headed out.

By the time we got out of the music store I had a pounding headache. You did it to yourself you stupid bitch. When we got home I took all of my medicines, and I laid down on the couch, not wanting to climb upstairs. Jinxx rubbed my hair. "You've just had a rough time, haven't you baby?" I squeezed my eyes tighter. Too bright...too loud..too much. And I started crying. Jinxxed wiped my eyes, and scooped me up into his arms. He carried me upstairs, and laid me on my bed. He drew the curtains shut, and he kissed my forhead one more time, before shutting the door, and leaving.

Mom came into my room, and rubbed my hair and kissed my cheek. I held her close to me, and I kissed her over and over. I was crying I was so happy, and I couldn't let her go. But then suddenly she was ripped from me, and there was a gun against my forhead, and I was being held. "Please.." my mother begged. "Take me instead she's too young to die." I screamed at her. "No mom no don't talk like that!" She walked over, and kissed me. And then a bullet was put through my mothers head.

"Audrey!" some one was shaking me and practically yelling at me. "Audrey wake up!" I opened my eyes to see CC sitting in front of me. My face was wet with tears, and I was still crying uncontrollably. I was shaking more than what I knew to do with myself. He pulled me into him, and he held me close. "Shhhh baby it's okay. CC's got you it's okay please calm down you're safe it's okay." he rubbed my hair but I still couldn't stop crying. He pulled me into his lap, and I curled up up into him. I fit perfectly against him. He rocked me back and forth. "It's okay baby...I've got you...I've got you. I won't let anything hurt you." he held me and rocked me and rubbed my hair until I calmed down enough to talk. "What happened babygirl?" I wiped my hair out of my face. "Bad dream...it was just a bad dream." Yeah that you're never waking up from. "Wanna talk about it?" I shook my head. "Alright...well, I'm not leaving you here. I'm gonna stay with you, now scoot over." I slid over, and he laid behind me. He wrapped his arms around me, and pulled me into him as close as he could get me. I hated that I couldn't stop crying, but CC calmed me. And we stayed like that until I fell asleep.

I woke up to the sound of two voices. CC was gone from holding me, but I felt a hand on my back, slowly and softly stroking me. I heard Jinxx's voice too, as well as CC. "I heard her screaming and crying and I got worried, so I came and checked up on her. She didn't want to talk about it, so I didn't push it. I held her, and I stayed with her all night. We slept, and that's all we did." Jinxx sighed. "What was she screaming?" CC paused, "Something along the lines of, "Take me instead!" and "I love you mommy!" Honestly man...it kinda scared me." He paused, and took a long breath. "Jinxx..how come she's staying with us? I"m not saying I'm unhappy about it, but just, why now all of a sudden?" Jinxx took a long breath, and paused for a while. "Her parents were murdered right in front of her. She had a gun pressed against her head, but both of her parents were shot in front of her. I'm surprised this was the first of the nightmares so far. But yeah...things are gonna be rough. I can stay with her for a while, so nothing will happen and you can sleep." CC shook his head so hard he shook the whole bed. "I want to help take care of her too. And I know that Andy does and Ash does and Jake does too. Jake can read her like an open book. He knew somethign was up from the moment she walked in. Jinxx, she's our family too now. Please Jinxx. Let us in. Let us help." Jinxx sighed. "Alright...I will. Thank you Chrstian." CC stood, and I think it's safe to assume that they hugged. I felt one of them sit back on the bed, and I'm guessing it was CC, considering that a hand went right ontp my back where it was before. "Alright CC, I'm going downstairs, for food amd to cuddle with Sammi, if you need me, don't hesitate to come get me." "Will do man." Jinxx shut the door, and then it was just CC and I. He laid down next to me, and pulled me into him, and I don't know if he fell asleep again or not, but I just loved being in his arms.

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