Login
where am i? - Comments, page 4
@Emmaliee
I am SOO sorry! I used to cut too beacuse I felt that I had no one and every one at school stabbed me in the back and lied. Your life was soo much worse! I am sooooooo sorrrryyyyy for you!
@Jake_Jinxx_SexyBeast
yea, I used to think that life sucks, ive lost a lot of people, my mimi died in april and I tried to kill my self, but then I started putting my feelings into other things, I go into drugs, I smoked legal a lot, and finally got over it, and got my life straight in about july, then in September, my two BEST friends died, I shut everyone out, and started cutting, because I felt so alone, then my dad helped me, and I started writing, that's why this stupid fan fiction means so much much to me, bcause its a chance for people to see soething that I did, but not long after I got better, my dad died, and in one of my first chapters, it say somethingthat my dad really told me, it may not have happened like that, but I was texting him one night about my mom, cause shes not really a mother, I do everything around the house, and up until recently, I was also working two jobs, ant it sucked, and he told me that, and that everything was going to be okay, just two more years and I can move out, and I just cried. I don't want to move out, but I already support myself anyways, and make sure that I can follow my dreams, I graduate early, and am going to go to college when I turn17, I have big life goals for myself, and I will do everything in mypower to make it happen, because I know that its what my dad would have wanted.
@Emmaliee
I am so sorry for that. I know it's hard to lose someone you care so much for. But hey, you knew him for so long and you cared so much for him. I never met my birth father. He was in the army I guess when my mom found out she was pregnant with me, he had to leave before then and go to base or something idrk but when she found out she was having me she left a note for him. I never met him and not long after that, my mom met my step father. They were together for a few year married. My mom was pregnant with my twin brothers when they faught in front of me, I was only about to turn two years old and then they split. I never liked him. After they split I never called him dad. He disowned me last year, saying he wasn't going to pay child support for me cause 'I'm not his real daughter' I want to say so many things to him because he is my brothers father but he doesn't pay for them either and when it xmas or their bday, he doesn't call them. It makes me mad because I only have my mom and her boyfriend now and my best friends girl friend and siblings. I was broken and didn't care about anything anymore. I didn't lose my dad the way you did but I do know the pain of losing someone you really care about cause when my mom and her ex split up I thought he was my real dad cause he was there when I was born.
@Jake_Jinxx_SexyBeast
it sucks, but peopledont understand, its an addiction, and sometimes, they cant stop, or they just don't hav the will to, my dad knew he was dying, he didn't say anything to anyone, but he knew, I know this, because, when you have a GI. bleed, this is gross, but if its bad, like his was, you don't go to the bathroom, its just blood. and he bled out at work and went home, and told his boss he was going to go to the dr. he instead whent home and passed out, thinking he wasn't going to wake up, but h did, and he had to call himself an ambulance caus ehe had crushing chest pain, because of the blood loss, my dad lived probably 6 blocks from the hospital, he talked to the paramdics, andby the time he got to the hospital, he was unresponsive, they lifeflighted him to Houston, and he never woke up, he wason meds and intubater for about 8 hours, he had lost to much blood, he was already brain dead, the drs told me that the medicines weren't going to sav him, they were just keeping his heart beating, he wouldn't have made It anyways, and we told them to take out the intubater, and stop the medicines, so it was really hard for me, and at his funeral, the guy he worked with told me that when you work at the plant, and you die, there is no way for anyone to get into your computer, and he said that everyone was always behind on paperwork, and the day that my dad left and went home, he had finished and filed his paperwork, I thought that was weird, but other things happened, like he drained all of his bank accounts, and paid for my car insurance for 6 months, it was really strange, then it clicked to me, if he wanted to live, he would have went to the hospital, but I really miss him, he may have been a drunk, but he was my everything.
@Jake_Jinxx_SexyBeast
I think they are both gonna be there
and its ok, he was an alcoholic, he drank himself to death
@Jake_Jinxx_SexyBeast
I think they are both gonna be there
and its ok, he was an alcoholic, he drank himself to death
@Emmaliee
You're fine. I'm sorry about your dad. You're still so lucky that you get to go to their concert! If only Kellic was reality, it would make King For A Day so much better!
@Jake_Jinxx_SexyBeast
lol, I tried so hard to go to bvbs on dec. 13th I think, but my dad had just passed away, and left his life insurance to a married bar whore... so me and my mom had to pay for his funeral, my mom only makes 13 an hour, and I had to get a second job just so we could pay the bills, because my mom used to get child support, and without it we were dirt poor, but then I quit my job, cause I got social security, which was way more than what I was making wijobs, so yea, I had extra money and im fucking doing to ptv and sws,and im drivin gmy dads brand new truck too, :) I did get that, but I cant sell it, cause im a minor. so imma drive that bitch!
Author
Stats
- Rating
- 10.0
- Votes
- 11
- Subscribers
- 21
- Comments
- 135
- Views
- 43,256
I'm not going. I came back to Mexico like two weeks ago and as it was a student one-month visa... I'm screwed. It sucks even more because I almost live in the border haha I'm only a 5-hour drive away from El Paso. The worst thing is that I was in NYC when BVB was having a show with FIR there but tickets were sold out :( Anyway, please take pics if you can or at least tell me how the show was. xx
PS: Can't wait for the next chapter! <3
12/31/14