I've Been Saved.
When You Can't Be Saved.
*Ashley's POV*
'Bliiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggg'
I rolled over on my side to look at my phone. Uhg, 5:45 am & 1 missed call from Andy. I sighed then picked up my phone.
Him ; Ash?!
Me ; Yeah, Andy.
Him ; I need you to come over right away. It's super important.
Me ; What is it?
Him ; Sky..
Me ; I'm on my way.
*Back to Ashley's POV*
I usually don't want my sleep to be messed with, but once you put my baby sister in the equation then theres no coming back about it. I know that she's been hurt & i know that she's been upset, but i had no idea what this conversation would be about. I drove the 17 minute drive to Andy's house & when i got there, all of the guys were there.
'Hey, Ash.'
Andy greeted.
'What's going on?'
I instantly got concerned all over again.. I didn't know what was happening but i was scared for my baby sister.
'She's getting bad. So bad that she asked me to help her tonight. She told me she was scared for herself..'
I instantly got a tear in my eye.
'Well what are you gonna do..?'
CC asked, obviously just as upset.
'I don't know, i'm not going to leave her side, that's for sure. & I'm going to find Brent.. & I will hurt him.. Skylar has been a very big part of all of our lives for the past 2 1/2, 3 years. I'm not gonna let some idiotic boy mess that up. I care about her way too much.. I don't know if you guys have noticed but she started calling me dad a couple weeks ago.. Next Juliet will be mom... We are her only family.. I will not let her down..'
Andy said. A tear slid down my cheek. I needed to call Derek.
'There's something i need to tell all of you guys... Derek is like madly in love with her.. He's gonna take this pretty harshly...'
I said. I knew Derek was in love with her & she was my sister. I didn't want to see her go through this.
'Wow..'
Jake said, this was the first thing that came out of his mouth. I didn't know what was going to happen but i wanted my sister to be okay again.
*Skylar's POV*
I was dreaming. I was positive of that. I saw someone, an angel, maybe. She was so beautiful. I was so distraught by her beauty that i didn't know she was talking to me.
'Sweet, sweet, child. Things will get better. I can promise you. God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. He never gives someone more than they can handle. As long as you dream of pleasant things, & stick by your family, you will be okay. I know those things that Brent did to you were horrible & i will haunt him for a thousand years for it, but you must move on, my dear one.'
I smiled, but before i could reply she was gone. I was in a white room, with no walls. Just an endless room, by myself & my thoughts. Where had i heard those words before & what had she meant by saying she would haunt Brent..? It hit me all at once. I had just seen Austin & Brent's mom...
*2 hours later*
'Austin, i saw her...'
I said, quietly.
'I belive you. I see her often. She sends me messages & tells me that she loves me. It makes me sad, but i'm glad that she came to you.'
Austin said with a smile. Austin had been over alot lately considering he felt bad. He felt bad that his brother had hurt me. But i dont know. I hurt alot more than i should. I feel as though i shouldn't have done what i was doing in our relationship, i feel as though i should have been a better girlfriend. Right there on the spot i break down in front of everyone.
'I'm sorry, i need some time alone.'
I choke out. That's exactly what i need but i know that no one will give it to me. So i sit in my room for the 25 minutes that i know the guys will let me have alone slicing my thighs. I lock my door & let myself have the hate i deserved.
*A lot of hours later that night.*
I crept down the hall & into the living room, it was 6am & there was no way i was going to get any sleep tonight. I didn't want to wake dad up again, i would let him have his sleep. When i walked into the living room, i was surprised to see Derek laying awake watching TV.
'Hey, doll. Can't sleep?'
He asked. Doll.. He called me doll, just like Brent would aways call me, but i tried to act like it didn't phase me & answer him.
'Yeah, i can't. It seems like the only time i can fall asleep is if i'm sleeping with someone else.'
'Hmmm, that's strange.'
He answered. I nodded. I knew it was strange. I laid down into his arms & eventually dozed into a peaceful sleep.
'Bliiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggg'
I rolled over on my side to look at my phone. Uhg, 5:45 am & 1 missed call from Andy. I sighed then picked up my phone.
Him ; Ash?!
Me ; Yeah, Andy.
Him ; I need you to come over right away. It's super important.
Me ; What is it?
Him ; Sky..
Me ; I'm on my way.
*Back to Ashley's POV*
I usually don't want my sleep to be messed with, but once you put my baby sister in the equation then theres no coming back about it. I know that she's been hurt & i know that she's been upset, but i had no idea what this conversation would be about. I drove the 17 minute drive to Andy's house & when i got there, all of the guys were there.
'Hey, Ash.'
Andy greeted.
'What's going on?'
I instantly got concerned all over again.. I didn't know what was happening but i was scared for my baby sister.
'She's getting bad. So bad that she asked me to help her tonight. She told me she was scared for herself..'
I instantly got a tear in my eye.
'Well what are you gonna do..?'
CC asked, obviously just as upset.
'I don't know, i'm not going to leave her side, that's for sure. & I'm going to find Brent.. & I will hurt him.. Skylar has been a very big part of all of our lives for the past 2 1/2, 3 years. I'm not gonna let some idiotic boy mess that up. I care about her way too much.. I don't know if you guys have noticed but she started calling me dad a couple weeks ago.. Next Juliet will be mom... We are her only family.. I will not let her down..'
Andy said. A tear slid down my cheek. I needed to call Derek.
'There's something i need to tell all of you guys... Derek is like madly in love with her.. He's gonna take this pretty harshly...'
I said. I knew Derek was in love with her & she was my sister. I didn't want to see her go through this.
'Wow..'
Jake said, this was the first thing that came out of his mouth. I didn't know what was going to happen but i wanted my sister to be okay again.
*Skylar's POV*
I was dreaming. I was positive of that. I saw someone, an angel, maybe. She was so beautiful. I was so distraught by her beauty that i didn't know she was talking to me.
'Sweet, sweet, child. Things will get better. I can promise you. God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. He never gives someone more than they can handle. As long as you dream of pleasant things, & stick by your family, you will be okay. I know those things that Brent did to you were horrible & i will haunt him for a thousand years for it, but you must move on, my dear one.'
I smiled, but before i could reply she was gone. I was in a white room, with no walls. Just an endless room, by myself & my thoughts. Where had i heard those words before & what had she meant by saying she would haunt Brent..? It hit me all at once. I had just seen Austin & Brent's mom...
*2 hours later*
'Austin, i saw her...'
I said, quietly.
'I belive you. I see her often. She sends me messages & tells me that she loves me. It makes me sad, but i'm glad that she came to you.'
Austin said with a smile. Austin had been over alot lately considering he felt bad. He felt bad that his brother had hurt me. But i dont know. I hurt alot more than i should. I feel as though i shouldn't have done what i was doing in our relationship, i feel as though i should have been a better girlfriend. Right there on the spot i break down in front of everyone.
'I'm sorry, i need some time alone.'
I choke out. That's exactly what i need but i know that no one will give it to me. So i sit in my room for the 25 minutes that i know the guys will let me have alone slicing my thighs. I lock my door & let myself have the hate i deserved.
*A lot of hours later that night.*
I crept down the hall & into the living room, it was 6am & there was no way i was going to get any sleep tonight. I didn't want to wake dad up again, i would let him have his sleep. When i walked into the living room, i was surprised to see Derek laying awake watching TV.
'Hey, doll. Can't sleep?'
He asked. Doll.. He called me doll, just like Brent would aways call me, but i tried to act like it didn't phase me & answer him.
'Yeah, i can't. It seems like the only time i can fall asleep is if i'm sleeping with someone else.'
'Hmmm, that's strange.'
He answered. I nodded. I knew it was strange. I laid down into his arms & eventually dozed into a peaceful sleep.
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