Fight for F.E.A.R.
Long Lanes Lead Down Lost Roads
Blair POV
Audrey and Jake have been gone for some time. I nodded off for a bit, and woke up with CC sitting on the edge of my bed. He jumped up, clearly embarrased when I open my eyes. "I'm sorry, I was-uh, just..."
"No...no, it's OK," I whisper, still feeling very groggy. "You can stay. I'd like some company."
He shyly returned to his place on my bed. "How are you feeling?"
"Better. Still...very weak. But I don't feel like my throat was rubbed with sand paper. The worst thing it coughing up sand from my lungs. It's really painful, but Maria said its the only way without putting a pipe through the bottom of my lung."
"Oooh. That sounds...very painful. Do you need anything?"
"I'm alright, thank you though," I replied.
"So, if you don't mind, tell me a bit about you. I'd like to get to know ya," he seemed nervous.
"Well, umm, I'm actually a very boring person. You know I lived in Isring with Audrey. Her and I have been best friends for a few years now, but she knows all about the shadows and stuff like we talked about. I lived with my grandmother. My mother died giving birth to me and my twin sister, who died after birth too. My mother mother and my father raised me and when I was six, he died too. I know now, a shadow killed him. He was a soldier, general of the second division. One of the most well respected and known leaders. I've been raised by my grandmother since then. She was the only person left. I'm not really interesting."
CC smirked and looked back at me. "You just told me your history, you didn't tell me who you are?"
"What's the difference?"
"I want to know...what makes you happy...what makes you smile...what your favorite thing is..."
I blushed. Back in the village, none of the guys had taken even the slightest bit of interest in me. i had been a play thing for the guys in the village. I had thought they loved or cared for me. I wasnt like Audrey who jad been promised away. My grandmother didnt believe in it since she was forced into an arranged marriage. Id neen free ot be with whover. I'd...I'd done a lot more than I was ever comfortable with...I was a virgin...but barely...I sighed and returned form my day dream. Starting into CCs eyes, I sat up. I was incredibly close to him. His large brown eyes engulfed me. "so you really want to know?" I whispered.
"I want to know...everything." his breath chilling over my skin. I leaned into him as I closed my eyes. Our lips connected. I'd been kissed...a lot...but something about CC, set my veins on fire. There was no awkward first kiss and then second, it was one passionate kiss. He wrapped his arms around my back and pulled me into him, as I tangled my fingers in his long black hair. He leaned back a bit, and I leaned into him. We tilted backward, till I was laying over CC, practically straddling him. His large hands traced little circles in the fabric on my back. Our lips connecting and parting, our tongues dancing together, his warm skin brushing over mine, and our hip bones friction against the others. My heart, violently pounding in my rib cage.
Audreys POV
Jake and I remained in the leaders station. We began to talk about battles and fights with the Shadows and the leader of F.E.A.R. I was glad, I'd never been able to speak about it in my house. I told him how my brothers illegally taught me how to fight and battle strategy and plans. He seemed impressed and he told me about his battle experience with FEAR. Jake and the other four had had scuffled with the shadows before, but they were planning a large scale attack on the tower.
"What's in the tower?" I asked, very clueless.
"Prisoners. Wild ones. Rebels." His voice was pained. "Friends...Loved ones..." his voice cracked.
A pain grew in my chest. "Jake...is someone you love a prisoner?"
His eyes grew watery, he blinked them away. "Maybe."
I seemed to instantly understand...it was a woman. "You already love someone don't you Jake?"
"Her name is Ella. I proposed to her the day before the Shadows attacked us and she was taken. She may...already be dead. I keep hoping I'll get to the tower and she'll be alive."
I felt so much own in my own heart. I was growing so attached to him. I thought...never mind. The pain of seeing him in so much pain was too much. I wrapped my arms around him. "I'm so sorry Jake." I stood and began walking to the door.
He jumped up and grabbed my arm. "Hey, you don't have to go. Unless you want to. Im sorry, just haven't thought about her in awhile."
I gently smiled and walked back to the couch with him. He told me about how he grew up in a small town, and how the shadows invaded. That was when he wanted to fight back. He met Ella at another rebels camp, where he met CC and Jinxx. Andy and Ashley found them at the camp, following a vision from Andy. I told him about growing up in Isring and how I'd always loved writing poetry. I don't know how long we just sat and talked...and talked. I began drifting off, and was only vaguely aware of Jake wrapping his arm around my shoudlers. My head gently rolled over and rested against his shoudler and neck. His heart beat filled my ears, enhancing the tiredness. I leaned into him and wrapped my arms around him.
Blairs POV
CC and Is hands explored each others body. I released his lips and began to suck on his neck and leave different kisses on his skin. I smiled as I felt his body shaking under me. Suddenly he released a pleasured moan. I was thankful for his vest the only thing on chest. I pushed the sides over and kissed straight down his chest. "Blair?" he said, his voice strained. I stopped at I reached the base of his ribs.
"Hmm?" I replied as I hovered over his face.
He slowly sat us up, me sitting in his lap. "Blair, don't get me wrong, I really like you. I want to get to know you before we go anywhere. Trust me, I want to, but I feel like you have gotten accustomed to things only being like that. If we ever do...you know. I want it to be meaningful, not just for the hell of it."
My jaw dropped in shock. "Really? I mean..don't take that wrong, but every guy I know, this is all he wants. I mean, I haven't actually...gone all lthe way, but most guys..."
"Forget about them," he whsipered. He placed his lips on my forehead. "I'm not most guys."
"Thank you CC." I smooched his chest, laughing as it made the kiss noise. We both laughed.
Something was different here...better different.
Audrey and Jake have been gone for some time. I nodded off for a bit, and woke up with CC sitting on the edge of my bed. He jumped up, clearly embarrased when I open my eyes. "I'm sorry, I was-uh, just..."
"No...no, it's OK," I whisper, still feeling very groggy. "You can stay. I'd like some company."
He shyly returned to his place on my bed. "How are you feeling?"
"Better. Still...very weak. But I don't feel like my throat was rubbed with sand paper. The worst thing it coughing up sand from my lungs. It's really painful, but Maria said its the only way without putting a pipe through the bottom of my lung."
"Oooh. That sounds...very painful. Do you need anything?"
"I'm alright, thank you though," I replied.
"So, if you don't mind, tell me a bit about you. I'd like to get to know ya," he seemed nervous.
"Well, umm, I'm actually a very boring person. You know I lived in Isring with Audrey. Her and I have been best friends for a few years now, but she knows all about the shadows and stuff like we talked about. I lived with my grandmother. My mother died giving birth to me and my twin sister, who died after birth too. My mother mother and my father raised me and when I was six, he died too. I know now, a shadow killed him. He was a soldier, general of the second division. One of the most well respected and known leaders. I've been raised by my grandmother since then. She was the only person left. I'm not really interesting."
CC smirked and looked back at me. "You just told me your history, you didn't tell me who you are?"
"What's the difference?"
"I want to know...what makes you happy...what makes you smile...what your favorite thing is..."
I blushed. Back in the village, none of the guys had taken even the slightest bit of interest in me. i had been a play thing for the guys in the village. I had thought they loved or cared for me. I wasnt like Audrey who jad been promised away. My grandmother didnt believe in it since she was forced into an arranged marriage. Id neen free ot be with whover. I'd...I'd done a lot more than I was ever comfortable with...I was a virgin...but barely...I sighed and returned form my day dream. Starting into CCs eyes, I sat up. I was incredibly close to him. His large brown eyes engulfed me. "so you really want to know?" I whispered.
"I want to know...everything." his breath chilling over my skin. I leaned into him as I closed my eyes. Our lips connected. I'd been kissed...a lot...but something about CC, set my veins on fire. There was no awkward first kiss and then second, it was one passionate kiss. He wrapped his arms around my back and pulled me into him, as I tangled my fingers in his long black hair. He leaned back a bit, and I leaned into him. We tilted backward, till I was laying over CC, practically straddling him. His large hands traced little circles in the fabric on my back. Our lips connecting and parting, our tongues dancing together, his warm skin brushing over mine, and our hip bones friction against the others. My heart, violently pounding in my rib cage.
Audreys POV
Jake and I remained in the leaders station. We began to talk about battles and fights with the Shadows and the leader of F.E.A.R. I was glad, I'd never been able to speak about it in my house. I told him how my brothers illegally taught me how to fight and battle strategy and plans. He seemed impressed and he told me about his battle experience with FEAR. Jake and the other four had had scuffled with the shadows before, but they were planning a large scale attack on the tower.
"What's in the tower?" I asked, very clueless.
"Prisoners. Wild ones. Rebels." His voice was pained. "Friends...Loved ones..." his voice cracked.
A pain grew in my chest. "Jake...is someone you love a prisoner?"
His eyes grew watery, he blinked them away. "Maybe."
I seemed to instantly understand...it was a woman. "You already love someone don't you Jake?"
"Her name is Ella. I proposed to her the day before the Shadows attacked us and she was taken. She may...already be dead. I keep hoping I'll get to the tower and she'll be alive."
I felt so much own in my own heart. I was growing so attached to him. I thought...never mind. The pain of seeing him in so much pain was too much. I wrapped my arms around him. "I'm so sorry Jake." I stood and began walking to the door.
He jumped up and grabbed my arm. "Hey, you don't have to go. Unless you want to. Im sorry, just haven't thought about her in awhile."
I gently smiled and walked back to the couch with him. He told me about how he grew up in a small town, and how the shadows invaded. That was when he wanted to fight back. He met Ella at another rebels camp, where he met CC and Jinxx. Andy and Ashley found them at the camp, following a vision from Andy. I told him about growing up in Isring and how I'd always loved writing poetry. I don't know how long we just sat and talked...and talked. I began drifting off, and was only vaguely aware of Jake wrapping his arm around my shoudlers. My head gently rolled over and rested against his shoudler and neck. His heart beat filled my ears, enhancing the tiredness. I leaned into him and wrapped my arms around him.
Blairs POV
CC and Is hands explored each others body. I released his lips and began to suck on his neck and leave different kisses on his skin. I smiled as I felt his body shaking under me. Suddenly he released a pleasured moan. I was thankful for his vest the only thing on chest. I pushed the sides over and kissed straight down his chest. "Blair?" he said, his voice strained. I stopped at I reached the base of his ribs.
"Hmm?" I replied as I hovered over his face.
He slowly sat us up, me sitting in his lap. "Blair, don't get me wrong, I really like you. I want to get to know you before we go anywhere. Trust me, I want to, but I feel like you have gotten accustomed to things only being like that. If we ever do...you know. I want it to be meaningful, not just for the hell of it."
My jaw dropped in shock. "Really? I mean..don't take that wrong, but every guy I know, this is all he wants. I mean, I haven't actually...gone all lthe way, but most guys..."
"Forget about them," he whsipered. He placed his lips on my forehead. "I'm not most guys."
"Thank you CC." I smooched his chest, laughing as it made the kiss noise. We both laughed.
Something was different here...better different.
I really like this I've read I'm a loaded gun part 1 and 2 already
9/11/15