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Broken Lungs

You're no man, you're a monster.

Ashley's P.O.V
**Still taking place in February that day he talked to Jess about his dream**

I had gotten home from the store with Jess about an hour ago. Her and the rest of Burn Bright had left to go back home. Jake, Andy and Jinxx had all left home as well. Cc was on the couch watching tv, he seemed a bit tense. I went and sat next to him, he didn't even really notice. 'Hmm.'

"Hey cc, you alright?" I asked him seeing if he would look at me.

"Oh, uh, yeah dude. Just a bit nervous is all." his eyes filled with anxiousness.

"About what? You know you can talk to me, we do live together now" I gave him a small smile.

He sighed and looked down, "Well, it's just that I asked Jess if she wanted to grab something to eat tomorrow night. It's actually going to be a date but I don't think she feels that way or wants it to be." I saw him frown and look away sighing.

"I just.. I still love her Ash, I want her back so badly and I can't stop thinking of being with her again."

Even though I couldn't see it because he was looking away from me, I could hear the sadness in his voice. I frowned thinking about what Jess told me earlier and how badly I wanted to tell him that she did feel the same way. I didn't want to betray her trust and cause her to get mad at me though. So I just decided to kind of hint it to him instead.

"Dude, I have a very strong feeling she misses you too and she'll feel it's a date as well." I gave him a small reassuring smile putting my hand on his shoulder causing him to look at me and give a small smile in return. "There's that smile." He chuckled lightly and patted my shoulder, "Thanks man, I appreciate it. I just hope I don't make things awkward or anything, I really want to win her back. She's everything I could've ever asked for and more. I'm nervous but excited, god my hands are even starting to shake and it's not even till tomorrow."

I chuckled, "Cc, everything will be fine, don't worry. Just stay calm and don't let your nerves get the best of you, got it?" He nodded at me.

"I'm gonna go to my room now. You alright now?"

He smiled at me and nodded, "Yeah, I'm good now, thanks dude."

"Anytime man" I smiled back getting up and heading towards my room.

This whole day has been just plain crazy, first I had that amazing dream about that girl Melissa, then Jess shows me that she's actually real and then tells me how she had a dream similar but with cc and they were by the beach. That was beyond weird, not mostly knowing Melissa's real but the fact Jess had the same type of dream with cc the same night as mine. 'What the hell is going on?' I thought to myself.
I kicked off my boots and went straight to my bed flopping down on my back. I groaned and put my face in my hands rubbing my eyes. 'I must be going insane..'

I still caught myself thinking of Melissa, without even realizing I ended up on her twitter again looking at the same picture jess had showed me. She was so beautiful, she had that same amazing smile in the picture that I saw in the dream. I ended up saving that picture to my phone, I wanted to follow her as well but didn't want to seem more creepy than I already was just from keeping the picture.

"God I'm such a creep.." I muttered to myself slapping my palm to my face.

Melissa's P.O.V
-One Month Later-
It's March now and I'm still stuck in this god forsaken room. I ended up sobbing every day since he's placed me in here. He took my phone away from me the day he kidnapped me. He wasn't completely stupid though, since he knew my mom was out of town and she'd call, he would come into the room telling me to answer it and not give anything away. He watched me when I spoke to her and made me fake being happy to hear from her when all I wanted to do was cry and beg her to come home and save me. I should have just took her offer and used her car while she was away, I was such a fool.
Every day I'm sat in the darkness of the room hugging my knees to my chest feeling nothing but numbness and broken. He'll come in on the nights he's drunk to beat and rape me again. He makes me feel dead inside, especially when he's beyond drunk and let his friends over to have a go at me as well. 'Why? Why is he doing this to me?.'

I just wanted this to all be over, I wanted my life to be over. My mind wondered on what he had planned for when my mother returned though. I sighed to myself still feeling nothing but a massive hole in my chest.

'How am I supposed to get out of this mess?' I cried myself to sleep, yet again as my daily routine since I got myself stuck in this mess.

-Another month rolls by-
It's officially April, the concert for BVB and Burn Bright was going to happen in New York in a few days. I'm still stuck here in this damned room, I was going to miss the one thing I had been looking forward to for months now. I sighed to myself and started to cry again. I could never tell what time it was because the windows were sealed shut and boarded over to where there wasn't even a small crack to see daylight. I heard the front door slam shut and a glass bottle fall to the floor as I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. 'Here we go again..'

The footsteps turned into light stumbles, 'oh god, that means he's had a LOT to drink again.' I tensed up as I heard him struggling to put the key into the padlock and open the door. Once he opened it he almost fell to the ground stumbling over his own feet to get towards me. This is probably the most he's ever had to drink and I was terrified. I saw the pure evil in his eyes as they clouded with lust, he looked at me and smirked.

"You know what time it is babe?" he slurred at me. I looked at him as tears threatened to fall and slowly nodded. He gave a devious grin in response, "Good, then get up" he ordered.

I hesitated but slowly stood up, I started to shake as he stumbled towards me. He stood in front of me and grabbed a handful of my hair dragging me to the wall. He shoved me against the wall and pressed his body against mine hard, I could barely breathe. I felt his hands sliding up my sides stopping on my hips taking a hold of them tightly. My eyes were closed, I didn't want to see him doing this to me yet again. I whimpered at the pain, he was purposely leaving bruises there so I would never forget. He was rubbing his crotch against me as I felt a bulge.
Even after he's repeatedly done this before, I still can't get used to it and still feel the pain. He grabbed me by my hair again and threw me on the ground. I was crying horribly now, how in your right mind could you ever do something like this to someone you love? I watched in fear as he started to unbutton and zip down his pants.

"Come my love, your man needs you."

'My man? I don't even think this pile of trash is human.'

I've had enough of this shit, he's caused me too much now and I can't take it anymore. My fear turned into rage as I glared at him from the floor.
Getting ready for what was coming to me, I spat back at him, "You're no man, you're a monster."

I saw anger in his eyes and his hands ball up into fists before he drunkingly took a swing at me. I surprisingly moved and dodged it causing him to fall to his knees. I got up, kicked him in the groin and grabbed him by his hair making him look at me.

"Now I'll show you how it feels you lousy motherfucker!" I screamed at him before swinging my knee up hard colliding it with his jaw knocking him out cold. I stood there staring at his body for a minute, 'Oh my god, I did it. I fucking did it!'

I was crying again, but not from sadness or fear, but from anger that it took me so long and satisfaction that I finally hit him back.
I noticed he was so drunk he didn't even remember to close the door behind him, it was held wide open showing a small glimpse of light pouring in through the window. I was about to run out of there when I remembered how he kept the padlock on the door, an idea popped in my head as I went over to his unconscious body and dug around in his pockets. 'Found it!' I thought to myself as I pulled out the padlock key along with his car keys and both our cell phones. 'I hope you're happy Alex, now you'll know what it's like to stay in complete darkness.'
I closed the door and locked the padlock taking the key with me. I ran out of the house as fast as I could to his car swinging the door wide open and jumping in the drivers seat. I put the key in the ignition and started it up backing out of the driveway and speeding down the concrete.

I had made it home within 10 minutes of speeding, thankfully no one really noticing since it was barely 5 in the morning. When I got home I parked and ran to the door swinging it open and closed behind me. It was left the exact same way as when I last saw it 2 months ago. I saw my kitten max come running out of my room meowing at me, god he's gotten bigger. I picked him up and hugged him tightly smiling as I heard him purring. I felt a tear slide down my cheek the longer I stood there. I missed being home, I missed the familiar scent of my surroundings and snuggling with my little max in bed. I frowned as I thought of when Alex finds a way out of that room. 'If he gets out he'll come and find me here, he'll stop at nothing to get me again. I can't stay here, I have to run..'
I was still holding max as I ran to my room and got out my massive nike dufflebag. I started to pack as much as I could, my chargers, a couple t-shirts, skinny jeans, shoes, laptop and small iHome for my phone. I even packed a food and water bowl for Max, he's like my baby and I'll have him to remind me of home, so he's coming with me. When I saw myself in the mirror, I was completely disgusted with myself and my appearance. My hair was a complete mess, my eyes were red and super puffy and I had lost weight from depression and lack of food that Alex refused to feed me so I "wouldn't get fat" as he told me. My vision started to blur as tears streamed down my face, I quickly dug in my drawer for my makeup bag with my hidden cash and razor. I ripped out the little piece of metal slidding up my sweaters sleeve that I still had on that Alex put on me. One by one the scars multiplied on my wrist and upper thigh as I started to feel somewhat relaxed. I sighed as I got a damp black towel and cleaned my wounds bandaging them up. I cleaned off the piece of metal in the sink then put it back in the small zipper in my makeup bag tossing my makeup in there as well next to the cash. I picked up my brush and started brushing out the tangles then tying it up into a messy ponytail. After I grabbed my stuff from my bathroom I tossed my makeup bag into my cat tote bag. I quickly got dressed into some ripped skinny jeans, my maison scotch skull tank top, my black toms and bvb hoodie. I slipped on my usual bracelets to cover my scars and clipped my crescent moon necklace my mom got me. http://www.polyvore.com/runaway/set?id=87573915
I had my stuff ready to go, I was going to catch a bus to New York and stay in a hotel. I honestly don't know what I had in mind after that was over but all I knew was that I couldn't return back here to Dallas. I grabbed a notebook and ripped out a piece of paper, I had decided to write a letter for my mom when she returned so she wouldn't completely worry.

Dear Momma,

I really breaks my heart to do this to you but I can no longer stay in this hell hole anymore, I'm so sorry but I'm leaving. I love you so much, with all my heart and I will miss you with every fiber of my being but something happened while you were away. It pains me too much to have to explain it on paper but unfortunately I don't think I'll do it over the phone either. I don't want you to have to get involved, just please promise me you'll always stay safe and aware of your surroundings whenever you go somewhere alone. Please.. I'll be changing my phone number as soon as I arrive to my destination. I'll call you once that happens but I won't tell you where I'll be, I don't wan't to risk it. Just please try and move out of that horrible state as soon as you can, once you do then I'll come to see you again. Until then, I'm afraid I have to keep my distance, for your safety. I love you momma, please never forget that or all the great times we've had. I'll never take off the claddagh ring you gave me when I was 13 either. Goodbye, for now. And Please don't involve the police either, it'll just make things worse. I'll keep in touch, I promise.<3

Love,

Melissa

I cried the entire time I wrote that heart wrenching letter but I had to. My mother was my world and my best friend, I don't know what I'm going to do without her but I know I'm definitely going to stay in touch with her. I put the letter down on the small table near the door and went to the kitchen real quick. I made sure to give aurora a months worth of food for the time being till my mom got home. I grabbed alex's car keys slinging the dufflebag over my shoulder with my tote bag and picked up max heading towards the door, I looked back at the small 2 bedroom apartment one last time to take a mental picture. I'll never forget this place or the love that grew in here. A tear slipped down my cheek as I walked out the door locking it one last time behind me.

I was driving towards the bus station but stopped about 10 miles away calling a cab to pick me up. I pulled alex's car into an alley way locking the car doors and throwing the keys into a dumpster. 'Have fun looking for those you bastard.'
The cab had showed up and dropped me off at the bus station where I bought a ticket to New York, I had just barely made it on time for the current ride. I hid max in my hoodie and stepped aboard the bus. I had went and sat in the very back sitting in the farthest corner pulling my hoodie up. All I could do was stare out the window for the entire ride there. I would be in New York within the next day and 15 hours, the concert was going to happen in 2 days and I caught myself smiling just thinking of it.

'I'm finally free, but what will happen after the show ends? Where will I go and what will become of my future? Only time will tell..'

Notes

Dun dun dun! Long chapter yet again but god it felt good to have melissa knee that fucker in the jaw!
Hoping to have the next chapter up soon!

Comments

Please update soon, I love this story

Wretched Soul Wretched Soul
7/22/15

@WhiteRabbit
my classes have destroyed any chance of me being able to write lately. I have so much work that it's impossible to sit and write for even five minutes without feeling guilty that I should be working on homework.

BVBgirl355 BVBgirl355
9/18/14

@BVBgirl355
I feel so bad because I've manage to neglect my duties of writing new chapters for my stories and especially for it being so long since I last did. o(*≧д≦)o

WhiteRabbit WhiteRabbit
9/12/14

@WhiteRabbit
Take your time! I totally understand. College is killing any time I use to write, and I'm taking care of the entire horse barn for the next week. I'm so exhausted when I get home I just shovel food in my mouth and crash.

BVBgirl355 BVBgirl355
4/18/14

@taterbaby



@BVBgirl355



@TheMisfitGrimm_reaper

Thank you my lovely babies c: I'm currently typing the next chapter, I'm so sorry I haven't in such a long time. I'm in Ohio at the moment and have free time on my hands till Sunday morning when I fly back into town back home. The reason why I haven't typed anything during the week lately is because I work 5 days a week, 8am to 5pm. But i wake up at 5 Iin the morning so by the time i get home from work i am beyond exhausted and i end up being lazy on the weekends if I'm not already doing things with family. I'm sorry sweeties :(

WhiteRabbit WhiteRabbit
4/18/14